My heart is full of love I try so hard to fit in And it seems to go alright. But here I am again Alone
And yet another night goes by. My mind is always telling me That I don't belong. I need something to numb the pain. So here it is This ****** Lost in this darkness And I'm Sick as **** When will i stop? I try my hardest EVERY SINGLE DAY. I still can't seem to be ok. When will this all end?! I dont want to live like this any more. Restless legs, And needles stuck in my arms. Why cant I just stop this life, And began a new one. I'm begging myself to stop myself. I'm tired of this dark nightmare I want to stay all over again.. But you see the problem here is I like to feel dead. I numb all my thoughts and my sarrow Just By Getting High. Ive spent over half my life.. Just getting high. Drugs, drugs, and more Drugs. That's all I know.. White drugs. Brown Drugs. Clear drugs, rough Drugs, Good Drugs And Bad Drugs. They Come And Go. I Hate this life. I cant get my **** under control. I can't just stop. Destroying myself. Trust Me IVE TRIED.