Do not dim

your lights, then
ask me why

I love the dark
so much..

*Sandoval

Without your voice,

calling my name. My

silent muse, I am

deaf to it all ..


*Sandoval

With Neruda, I fell in love with you.

It was so beautiful, I felt I had to close my eyes wide shut,

just to remember this was not a dream.

Then Hemingway came along, by then I was feeling a little lost in your eyes. Some days were good, some days were bad. Yet, I still held on.

But when I suddenly found myself with Bukowski on my nightstand.

Well, I knew then, baby, we were ******. He brought me back to reality, and I understood at that moment, that we were finally done.


*Sandoval

Time* is but a ryhme, in the sonnet of a lonely poets Song.


*-Sandoval

His lips tasted of burnt
galaxies,

and broken
promises.

The perfect combination
for prolonged
tragedies..


*Sandoval

My heart is anxious. I have lived a million lives and loved a million

different ways.  

*-Sandoval

My universe hung from the tip of his fingers.

As he played my constellations to rhythm
of his own selfish desires.

He created the moon to tame me,
and the stars to make me believe in his magic.

But he forgot one thing, his sun gave me fire,

and his strings gave me strength. My galaxies at last,
had no lengths.


*Sandoval

She lays her head
on a daydream.

Ink rhymes, sad cries.
Fallen stars, swollen eyes.

he's gone
and so am I.

*Sandoval

You lit
a fire with the
intent
of burning the
world;
but ran away
when its
blazing
flames turned
gold.


*Sandoval

I think the worst part of losing you, is never seeing you again.  For

us, there will never be any random unpredictable encounters.  

And the thought of not seeing you again,  even if its just far away,

lingers in my mind like an old book, waiting to be read.

We will never get a second chance, we are so far away, I guess

thats what you give up when you fall in love a thousand

miles away.

*Sandoval

I just write.

Make of my words,

whatever you

want..


*Sandoval

A rose only grows

by getting watered,

and being

acknowledged

by light. Same goes

with love.

*Sandoval

We could move away together, and be happy. Fall asleep with the stars, crack open a bottle of wine and gaze at each other for fun, this could be it. You and I, together against time, for the rest of our lives.


*-Sandoval

I live inside the
moon,

for she is chained
to this earth.

And I am chained
to you.

*Sandoval

If you and I

were never meant to be,

then why does it hurt

this much to set you

free..


*Sandoval

My soul

is  empty,

the sadness

drained it out.


*Sandoval

Without me, he is nothing,


and without him, I am just a memory.

*Sandoval

Dead* sea,

burnt memories.

This lonely mermaid,

has no more stories.

*Sandoval

And, what am I to you?
He asked.

--You, She replied.
Are the roots to this beautiful flower,

and my heart is like the sun.
As long as you

keep growing, it'll never let you die.


*Sandoval

But, your soul is tainted by the ink of my pen. Long ago, when I held your chin with my pigmented hands for the first time, your soul penetrated deep into mine. I know this love is forever for a poets love never dies.
*-Sandoval

Your lying hazel eyes, such a hellish paradise.


And, I see my reflection in them, I can hear it scream.


It wants to be set free, but I just cant leave.


*Sandoval

He* named a star after me not knowing I gave birth to them.


*-Sandoval

But eyes that cannot see yours
and hands that cannot feel your warmth

my love, I would rather whither with the wind.

I would rather walk backwards to get closer
to you.

I would rather go back to the stars, come back
and start anew, just to return once more to you.



Sandoval

How many wars
must we fight,

to finally realize,

we were always
enough.


*Sandoval

That empty feeling inside of me,

when everything reminds me of him.

I cry and I sigh, but the pain just wont subside.
How do you hide from whats inside?

When its your soul who cant breathe,

and hes everything you need.


*Sandoval

Your indifference is crushing in on me.

I've been broken before, but nothing ever

hurt quite like this.

*Sandoval

We knew stars
had no way of getting back home,

once they fell to the earth.
Yet their dusk would flow back into space.

Fall back into gravity,
and transform into a meteorite.
Because just like caterpillars,

everything in the universe, converts.

This storm will lose its form.
And you and I, once again, my love,

we will be un-torn.


*Sandoval

I'm as sad as they come.

As lonely as they get, and,

weird as they can be.

You decide if you stay or leave.


*Sandoval

There will never be
enough wine
to drown your
memory,

just
like there will never
be enough words

to write you
out of them..

Sandoval

You* and I were like the sea,


both sad and reckless all at once.


*Sandoval

In the
distant stars.

The light
of your eyes,

fought
on..

*Sandoval

I left beauty marks
on his soul.

I shattered him,
to light.

And in return, he gave me
memories and darkness
to fight..


*Sandoval

We were attached
by the same red string.
Except ours is wrapped around
our necks and each
time it gets harder and harder
to breathe; love wants
us together, but yet fate says
we simply cannot be.

Sandoval

I imagined myself. Laying in bed, curled up next

to you. Reading my favorite book, windows open,

moon glowing in my hair. Synchronizing
my thoughts to your heart.  But sometimes

we yearn for too much, and people always part.

*Sandoval

We locked eyes
and I knew then,
There was nothing
more beautiful
than the color of
tragedy. It’s like I
euphorically
traveled In time
and submerged
my soul in an aura
of different emotions
love, heartbreak,
loneliness, hope,
all at once. An
adrenaline of hues.
Don’t we all live for
these feelings of
inspiration? The
addictiveness
of its vibration..

Sandoval

I do not care if you have
gone.

You took my heart with
you.

And what one does not
have,

can no longer break in
half.


*Sandoval

I write what

I feel,

and I feel

what I write.


*Sandoval

I am alone life passes me by; in front of the sea there is no

one for me. My soul is gone, I can see its shadow from afar. What a lonely life I live, sitting on this bay. My pen,

my thoughts and everything you never got to say. It was always meant this way.

*-Sandoval

I fell in love with his eyes, it was like having two tiny

galaxies all to myself.

*-Sandoval

He’s lived within me
he’s been locked inside
the sporadic freckles
of my skin all along.
Please don’t
beg me to look at you;
for you have always
been the reassuring wind
that’s surrounded me;
but he, he is the eternal
night sky.
And could you not tell my love?
how the dimming
constellations in these
eyes of mine will always
mourn their home..

Sandoval

He tells me
I belong to him.
He bathes me
in promises
and then dries me
with doubt while
I’m soaking
in his lies,
we promise each
other eternal love
night after night,
and yet
once the sun comes up,  
he always
says goodbye..

Sandoval

He loved
me on his
worst days;

on his best
he couldnt even
remember
my name.


Sandoval

Appreciate the
loneliness in me,

one day it won’t
beg for you no more.


Sandoval

Our love was
a playground;
he played me
however he
wanted, and
my heart with
scrapped knees
would fall for
him every time.

Sandoval

I was so focused on not
losing you,
that all along I never realized
it was you who was
losing me.


Sandoval

Your ghost hands
still haunt my
wrists so I write
of phantoms
I’ll never kiss.
And I dream of
you at night
You promise
never to leave
But I wake up to
just an echo of a
dying memory.
We’re a cycle
you and I
you leave, I cry
You hurt,
and well I write.

Sandoval