He loved
me on his
worst days;

on his best
he couldnt even
remember
my name.


Sandoval

But eyes that cannot see yours
and hands that cannot feel your warmth

my love, I would rather whither with the wind.

I would rather walk backwards to get closer
to you.

I would rather go back to the stars, come back
and start anew, just to return once more to you.



Sandoval

Appreciate the
loneliness in me,

one day it won’t
beg for you no more.


Sandoval

There will never be
enough wine
to drown your
memory,

just
like there will never
be enough words

to write you
out of them..

Sandoval

And if music were love, would my name
be the only letters you’d sing to the sky?



Sandoval

She
looked for
love in
closed lips;
being deaf
to all the
rest calling
out
her name.

Sandoval

The devil
exists;

he's a pair of
green eyes,

and a 2 AM text

message in the
dark..


*Sandoval

Love* is a drug,

distance is rehab.

One look from you eyes,

and I'll relapse.

*Sandoval

I am so alone, but you are so blind.

There's plenty in this world that seek solace in

my words.  They come to me, play with the tangles

in my hair, but you, distant cold you, the only one I

have eyes for, just don't care to be my muse.

*Sandoval

I am alone life passes me by; in front of the sea there is no

one for me. My soul is gone, I can see its shadow from afar. What a lonely life I live, sitting on this bay. My pen,

my thoughts and everything you never got to say. It was always meant this way.

*-Sandoval

To have found you within a million galaxies was already magical enough.

*-Sandoval

He said he was too  ordinary, if he only knew ordinary

things could be breathtakingly beautiful too.

*Sandoval

I feel dead inside, as if someone put their hands inside my soul and

ripped it from me whole. You took everything and left nothing in
return. I want my life back, I want to breathe again, I want to feel

alive again. I've been dead since you left. Now tell me beautiful

tragedy, if I look to the sky, and the bare moon does not cry your
absence inside these four walls, then who will mourn your loss.

Who will break down inside and write your name in the still of

the night, with nightmares made of stars, if not me, then who.

*Sandoval

I imagined myself. Laying in bed, curled up next

to you. Reading my favorite book, windows open,

moon glowing in my hair. Synchronizing
my thoughts to your heart.  But sometimes

we yearn for too much, and people always part.

*Sandoval

Do you remember, what it was like,
before you were born?
Before you came to this earth..

I don't. I have no recollection of who or what I was.
A million earth years could have passed by.
And yet, I still wouldn't remember who I was.
And I don't think I ever could.

This is how it feels. When you ask me,
who I was before you. My answer is, I don't remember.

There was nothing before you, nothing.
I was nobody before you, nobody.

You should have been called earth. 
 It is because of you that I live. And it is because of you,
that I see the whole universe' worth..


*Sandoval

You begged me,

to fall in love with the
moon.

So I could get

accustomed to having all of
you,

but then, none
at all too..


*Sandoval

He was a blank book.

With my ink of sonnets,

I gave him a story,
syllables full of stars.

I made him
readable, interesting, intriguing.

But, the last thing that ever crossed my mind,

was that sitting there,
on that shelf, I also made him

reachable.


*Sandoval

He had
those
heartbreaking
Bogart eyes,
that sad,
tender look
when we last
kissed
goodbye

*Sandoval

I wanted to give you
galaxies,
you wanted to give me
memories;
but baby, how could all this
love
just fit in this
box..?



*Sandoval

I would have

died a million
deaths.

Before I saw

our love take
its last two

breaths.


*Sandoval

I breathe him in, he breathes me out.

Its like i'm lost and cant be found.

*Sandoval

I was not born a

poet.

I was broken into

one.


*Sandoval

I am not paradise.
I am a broken angel.

A featherless pair of wings
and a burnt out halo

this is what you'll get
with me.

Sandoval

It did hurt, it hurt her like hell. His muted thoughts that cut her

flesh of poetry open with silent knives, yet what he didn't know is

that, with his silences, he was only teaching her to live without

him. He was her cocoon, but it was too late... She was

becoming a butterfly. And with her wings of poetry she would

soon learn how to fly. And, he will break.. and it will hurt him

see her leave but it will be too late, she wont look back, for she will

be free.


*-Sandoval

I miss you, the same way

the butterfly misses its

cocoon on a long journey

to migration.

*Sandoval

Poor little
Mexican
girl;
in love
with the all
American
boy..


-Sandoval

We locked eyes
and I knew then,
There was nothing
more beautiful
than the color of
tragedy. It’s like I
euphorically
traveled In time
and submerged
my soul in an aura
of different emotions
love, heartbreak,
loneliness, hope,
all at once. An
adrenaline of hues.
Don’t we all live for
these feelings of
inspiration? The
addictiveness
of its vibration..

Sandoval

Do not dim

your lights, then
ask me why

I love the dark
so much..

*Sandoval

It's as if god drained my most perfect daydream. Gave it a

breath  and laid you right beside me.


*-Sandoval

Daydreams are
dangerous;

they carry this false
happiness

that confuses our anxiety.
Then they leave us,

vulnerable to cope
with our reality.

Sandoval

Like the horizon hiding between the

sea and the sky,

near and distant all at once. To me,

that's what you are.

*Sandoval

There’s a
reason your
name is a
past tense;
destiny knew all
the broken
hearts you’d
leave behind.

Sandoval

My soul

is  empty,

the sadness

drained it out.


*Sandoval

How many wars
must we fight,

to finally realize,

we were always
enough.


*Sandoval

Let only death
take your
lingering scent
away from me,
for there are no
ethereal
greetings,
without soul aching
absences..

Sandoval

I fell in love with his eyes, it was like having two tiny

galaxies all to myself.

*-Sandoval

Tame* the fire inside my soul but please, don't extinguish it.
*-Sandoval

I will not succumb
to the pieces
you left of me.
I am more
than the broken bones
you shattered inside
of my skin..
I am magic,
I am fire,
I am everything you
ever wished,
but never could be;
I am free..


*Sandoval

If you and I

were never meant to be,

then why does it hurt

this much to set you

free..


*Sandoval

His lips tasted of burnt
galaxies,

and broken
promises.

The perfect combination
for prolonged
tragedies..


*Sandoval

And so that men

knew about gentlemanlieness.

The sun would bow to the moon every night,

and admire her beauty from afar.


*Sandoval

Your ghost hands
still haunt my
wrists so I write
of phantoms
I’ll never kiss.
And I dream of
you at night
You promise
never to leave
But I wake up to
just an echo of a
dying memory.
We’re a cycle
you and I
you leave, I cry
You hurt,
and well I write.

Sandoval

You lit
a fire with the
intent
of burning the
world;
but ran away
when its
blazing
flames turned
gold.


*Sandoval

I do not care if you have
gone.

You took my heart with
you.

And what one does not
have,

can no longer break in
half.


*Sandoval

But darling,

you eternalize
everything

good in this
world.

*Sandoval

Poetry* has never hurt like this before. I beg of you, drown this

hurt, and **** it with your last  touch. Touch my skin with your lips, let them rest against my bare neck. And let me drown in

you as well the disillusionment of a love  separated by the stars. Spare me one last look, tame in me this fire that yearns for you,

this fire that can't be put out.  Save me. From myself, one last night, before we say goodbye.


*Sandoval

Love me in black or white.
I'm sorry sir,
but grey is not
compatible with my heart..


Sandoval

I touched  him with my hands of galaxies; And spoke to him,

the silent language of the universe.



*-Sandoval

He's the devil;
reincarnated in a teasing smile.
He's hell running around
with the taste of caution
on his lips.
His sinful eyes, and
coward touch  
overrule a thousand kingdoms
in paradise.
He's my only eternity,
the only pair of eyes I want
to remember when I'm stranded
in that sweltering darkness
everyone fears so much.
Hes a million sunsets giving life to an
eternal moonlight, though his
sunrises will never be mine to own,
his fickle moon sets will
always guide me back to


him..



*Sandoval

When you finally
realize how heavy
a goodbye can feel;

only then, only just then,
will you understand
how no amount of hellos,

will ever once again
be real..


*Sandoval