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"undersides" poems
The sun is setting on a hot day, he hides coyly behind tall sycamores, his reflection playing on the undersides of trees on the riverbank. His warm breath is the breeze that kisses my cheek. The river carries me on, over pebbles and rocks below the glassy surface. Dragonflies dart around, flying gems that glisten in the sun. The heron, with diligent patience, hides seamlessly in the trees awaiting his next meal. He takes off when I get near, his frame is much larger in flight. The sweetness of honeysuckle is thick in this warm air. The trees on the riverbank are laden and dripping of the sweet flowers. As I gently glide through the water, the waves lap against my boat, almost making the sound of kisses. This is my river time. All these beautiful things, I love. There is passion in Nature, it is in birdsong and in the breeze. It is in the river as it moves along and the swaying of the trees. This is where I breathe.
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Jun 4, 2013
Jun 4, 2013 at 7:14 PM UTC
My River Trip [Short Descriptive Essay]
#STICK’EM UP with LIQUID NAILS DANGER ! EXTREMELY FLAMMABLE         See Other Caution on Back Panel: I’m hot for you Cowgirl – you’re so flammable my glue-gun starts to melt; my screwdriver starts twisting when you loosen that low-slung belt. You make me feel like laying re-bar in a freshly-poured foundation. Shoot me up with that caulk gun baby – I need you like salvation. Ten and one-half fluid ounces – pull off your top, pop a love-cap in me. Fingerin’ your trigger while the job is gettin’ bigger so take me for a ride to the hardware store, honey, cause I’m seeing red and feeling white on your golden background’s sheer delight.  Hammer me a heart-full, spike me on a cross of blonde, I’m hanging ten, surfing the tube of your magic wand. I’ve been in love ever since I first waterproofed my seamy undersides with you… stand over me in those red, red boots, you Liquid Nails Girl – and from your pure white Stetson let righteousness unfurl. You won the shoot-out long before you even drew, my dear. Lost hope of the Wild West, Final Frontal Feminine Frontier – there’s only one side of you…  your GOOD side.  Just one look and your fearless gaze silences the foes, my blooming prairie rose. YEE – HAW !  Be my angel, be my dream, my valentine rodeo queen, be my bodyguard, my therapist, long & tall & hard & wet – be my Liquid Nails Girl forever and I’ll ride right into your sunset…
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Sep 10, 2015
Sep 10, 2015 at 9:28 PM UTC
Owed to a Caulk Gun
a light breeze stirs the tops of the trees into a tantric dance in a section of the sky i've only ever dreamt of thriving in. magic stirs the dust... and it coats my eyelashes and the undersides of my finger-nails, and falls from my skin softly- the way stars descend through atmospheres. there is sweetness in the air. moon-beams basket-weave through night-sky hair and tap-dance their way around my neck, adorning me in their celestial secrets. i create and name my own constellations from the vantage point of a little girl beneath a big sky, connecting distant points of light with nebulous-lassos flying from my fingertips. i am golden. in this moment, i am beautiful... if only i could remember. preserve this feeling right now- scoop it from the encroaching dusk, and trap it in a glass bell jar like a firefly, and feed on its light forever. if i could remember that i do love myself- maybe i'll survive... perhaps even flourish. rebellious song birds whisper through the night- accompanying the melody of breaking waves- a lullaby from the universe that only i will ever know. i hum along in thoughtful bliss. this ends the separation- from myself, from loving, from FEELING; right now i feel everything. love, light, warmth, beauty, and the courage necessary to finally acquire a sense of freedom that can never die. i am living, to the very best of the definition... that's got to be enough for you- for ALL of you- because i finally see that it's enough for me... and for the stars.
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Dec 11, 2012
Dec 11, 2012 at 4:41 PM UTC
light-speed wanderer.
a light breeze stirs the tops of the trees into a tantric dance in a section of the sky i've only ever dreamt of thriving in. magic stirs the dust... and it coats my eyelashes and the undersides of my finger-nails, and falls from my skin softly- the way stars descend through atmospheres. there is sweetness in the air. moon-beams basket-weave through night-sky hair and tap-dance their way around my neck, adorning me in their celestial secrets. i create and name my own constellations from the vantage point of a little girl beneath a big sky, connecting distant points of light with nebulous-lassos flying from my fingertips. i am golden. in this moment, i am beautiful... if only i could remember. preserve this feeling right now- scoop it from the encroaching dusk, and trap it in a glass bell jar like a firefly, and feed on its light forever. if i could remember that i do love myself- maybe i'll survive... perhaps even flourish. rebellious song birds whisper through the night- accompanying the melody of breaking waves- a lullaby from the universe that only i will ever know. i hum along in thoughtful bliss. this ends the separation- from myself, from loving, from FEELING; right now i feel everything. love, light, warmth, beauty, and the courage necessary to finally acquire a sense of freedom that can never die. i am living, to the very best of the definition... that's got to be enough for you- for ALL of you- because i finally see that it's enough for me... and for the stars.
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I spent months setting them up those emotional "dominoes" black rectangles on end balanced just so white spots spelling out ego     emotions                 soul just a sharp stroke of a tongue on one corner and they fall...    and fall...       and fall... they lay       scattered                   and                      chaotic on their backs           like beetles unable to turn their undersides exposed                              and vulnerable how many times             can they be realigned how many times               before the spots erode how many times                before it's empty inside like dead beetles'                        dry, brittle shells?
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May 2, 2017
May 2, 2017 at 11:11 AM UTC
Bone Pile
the drunkard crawls from an infinite sea of sadness, their screams echo into an enormous black sky, upon finding their sun which was once an incessant ***** red, now a cold mass of midnight blue, abandoning its worshipper to revel in darkness, to freeze from a deathly chill of loneliness, to melt from the nights' stinging raindrops of reality. but the drunkards, and only the drunkards, are secretly admitted into the hollow asylum of the traitorous mind, where some imagined eerie light bathes the shadows, where they feel the solitude enveloping their bodies with an alien warmth, where the raindrops intoxicate their insides like thick, sugary syrup; a place where they willingly drug themselves into an ignorant stupor, painting translucent dreams of yesterday upon the undersides of their eyelids, and seeing them as the art of the future. solely possessing the key to the invisible shackles that chain them to equally invisible walls, they lie back in relief, upon silken feather dust pillows, comforted by a styrofoam fortress, while blissfully wasting away in their drunken narcotic haven.
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Apr 21, 2010
Apr 21, 2010 at 10:11 PM UTC
A Drunkards' Haven
do not fall for a boy with a pirate heart, even if he will cross five thousand miles of sand and ocean to be with you, carrying nothing more than loneliness and longing in his cargo hold. those things will bond you both together like an oath, but blood is thicker than water and soon, the promises will weigh you down like rocks in your pocket, keeping your lungs and heart empty. he will not stay, something will always call him away in the morning, even after you've spent the night wrapped in his strong arms, counting the stars from the undersides of the highest sail. you will listen to his stories, for they will stretch beyond the decks of his ship and make you feel both empty and full at once, but you cannot rely on a tattooed smile to forge you a key to the world. eventually, he will leave you on stranger shores, soaking and breathless, wondering when the next tide will bring him close to you again. but you are not a ***** he found bar-side, never call yourself that. you must be unpredictable and wild as the sea itself, bottling storms into your heartbeat and braiding a barrier reef into your hair. you are calypso, dangerous and beautiful and unyielding, and if he comes back ten years from now to set foot on the shore, you will not be waiting. you cannot always be waiting. he might tell you he loves you. but even then, he is only speaking about the seventy percent he is familiar with, the part that is pulled into rises and falls by the moon, a dna sequence patterned by the earth itself. do not answer him. steal his ship by sunrise instead and plan to follow the treasure map that you've long since forgotten. never come back. leave him with a seashell at his side and he will remember at last that the reason he loved the ocean was because it sounded like you.
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Oct 5, 2013
Oct 5, 2013 at 4:22 AM UTC
cœur de pirate
do not fall for a boy with a pirate heart, even if he will cross five thousand miles of sand and ocean to be with you, carrying nothing more than loneliness and longing in his cargo hold. those things will bond you both together like an oath, but blood is thicker than water and soon, the promises will weigh you down like rocks in your pocket, keeping your lungs and heart empty. he will not stay, something will always call him away in the morning, even after you've spent the night wrapped in his strong arms, counting the stars from the undersides of the highest sail. you will listen to his stories, for they will stretch beyond the decks of his ship and make you feel both empty and full at once, but you cannot rely on a tattooed smile to forge you a key to the world. eventually, he will leave you on stranger shores, soaking and breathless, wondering when the next tide will bring him close to you again. but you are not a ***** he found bar-side, never call yourself that. you must be unpredictable and wild as the sea itself, bottling storms into your heartbeat and braiding a barrier reef into your hair. you are calypso, dangerous and beautiful and unyielding, and if he comes back ten years from now to set foot on the shore, you will not be waiting. you cannot always be waiting. he might tell you he loves you. but even then, he is only speaking about the seventy percent he is familiar with, the part that is pulled into rises and falls by the moon, a dna sequence patterned by the earth itself. do not answer him. steal his ship by sunrise instead and plan to follow the treasure map that you've long since forgotten. never come back. leave him with a seashell at his side and he will remember at last that the reason he loved the ocean was because it sounded like you.
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I feel it in my fingertips when you tell me how you worry. I feel it most in my ring finger— Isn’t that strange? The sea in my ribcage tosses, and your Navy boat of which the name I forget rocks upon it. You are unsure if you’ll be coming home on time. I watch the waves from the opposite coast, making note of how tall they are, how dark, and suddenly I am in them as they are within me. They beat against the undersides of my skin, so hard that I pray for the first time in ten years, asking God to watch over us, to bless this gorgeous thing we have.
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Aug 22, 2018
Aug 22, 2018 at 4:54 PM UTC
Ring Finger (Asking God)
there is a crusted- over, nasty- looking cut on my left knee from a bike accident I had the other day both of my big toes have calluses that size of quarters on the inside-back parts of their undersides tiny sunburns from where my feet stuck out of the sand decorate my left and right feet my pale belly and legs seem ever whiter in comparison to my sunburnt and darkening arms there is somebody out there who thinks I am beautiful how have stayed strong all these years? I can see my ugliness, my scars, and my abrasions just the same as everybody else they are there they are morbid and disgusting they are who I am and I act as such I know exactly why and how people hate me yet I’ve never faltered in a hurricane or the breeze I am who I am I say and nothing more still stories flutter, rumors fly, and I can’t help but notice the stores and tales that circulate I’m lucky someone still finds time to look at me straight perhaps the strongest of men are only left with the opportunity to gain
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Apr 8, 2011
Apr 8, 2011 at 5:49 AM UTC
my legs and feet
The world’s smallest basket lies tucked away Inside a jar for field-trip wide open Eyes of wonder to chew on, settled in The drooling smiles of truant minds like most Sticky wads of gum that hang dried to the Undersides of every desk throughout the Pine Belt area of Free State County, And all that surrounds circled about one Solitary clandestine blade of grass Tucked & woven into antiquity By enchanted hands, & no doubt the work Of Ma Universe slippin’ her divine Fingers inside the dirt-caked skin she’d Herself sewn onto one of her very Own living/breathing marionettes, Borrowing the gloves of ancestors called on All the way to back to the first blade of grass Plucked, & the first dreams that woke young shaman Poets mad with visions streaming like Images from celestial antennas Into intricately knit blades of grass, Sharpened on dewdrops & the unforgiving Wilderness of frontiers, like a sea of Green knives crashing their piercing waves on prairie Shores while dull eyes attempt to draw blood with Sharpened pencils on a sketch of its beach. The towering sandcastles & woven Baskets & cosmic canons are canonized Eternal in that magnificent Fireworks show behind tempered glass, in that One simple blade of grass.
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May 15, 2013
May 15, 2013 at 9:37 PM UTC
Pomo Basket at Fifth & Seventh
When I look at you, I can feel the Nile river gushing from my arteries and separating into the most delicate of tributaries. When I look at you, my bone marrow jolts my body forward because you’re east and i’m west but if we followed the lines of longitude it’s impossible for us not to meet again. When I look at you, I smell bleach and roses both burning the back of my throat, one covering and the other cleaning. When I look at you, I feel warmth but the real kind not the the heat from a couple shots of absinthe. When I look at you my heart flys up and squeezes into the delicate space between the two hemispheres of my brain and suddenly you consume me. So when you left I stopped looking at you, looking for you, looking for your hands on my ribs or the hair of your leg brushing the back of my calf. I tried to stop longing for the proclamations of love that you whispered directly into my ear so the wind couldn't ****** the seven letters before I got to hold them. When I had looked at you I did not want to admit that the red strings that tied our calloused fingertips together had begun to fray and snap. When your presence became to fragile for my fingers to touch and the ashes of burned rose petals would fall into my palms. I would swallow them and try to remind myself of their-your your once velvet beauty. But charcoal is only used to extract poison from a bloodstream. I refused to believe that you were the poison and I would open bottle after bottle after bottle of red wine because it was my-our-your favorite type of drink. My red stained lips would get trapped on the neck of the bottle until neither alcohol nor oxygen remained inside and only shattered glass and ****** knuckles. I tried to leave hickeys on the walls and pretend it was your neck but my lungs were too empty from my screaming. When they burned from your absence I ate the charred alveoli and hoped it would absorb a little bit of the pain.
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Jan 5, 2014
Jan 5, 2014 at 7:46 PM UTC
I stretched the undersides of my eyelids because even they were sore
When I look at you, I can feel the Nile river gushing from my arteries and separating into the most delicate of tributaries. When I look at you, my bone marrow jolts my body forward because you’re east and i’m west but if we followed the lines of longitude it’s impossible for us not to meet again. When I look at you, I smell bleach and roses both burning the back of my throat, one covering and the other cleaning. When I look at you, I feel warmth but the real kind not the the heat from a couple shots of absinthe. When I look at you my heart flys up and squeezes into the delicate space between the two hemispheres of my brain and suddenly you consume me. So when you left I stopped looking at you, looking for you, looking for your hands on my ribs or the hair of your leg brushing the back of my calf. I tried to stop longing for the proclamations of love that you whispered directly into my ear so the wind couldn't ****** the seven letters before I got to hold them. When I had looked at you I did not want to admit that the red strings that tied our calloused fingertips together had begun to fray and snap. When your presence became to fragile for my fingers to touch and the ashes of burned rose petals would fall into my palms. I would swallow them and try to remind myself of their-your your once velvet beauty. But charcoal is only used to extract poison from a bloodstream. I refused to believe that you were the poison and I would open bottle after bottle after bottle of red wine because it was my-our-your favorite type of drink. My red stained lips would get trapped on the neck of the bottle until neither alcohol nor oxygen remained inside and only shattered glass and ****** knuckles. I tried to leave hickeys on the walls and pretend it was your neck but my lungs were too empty from my screaming. When they burned from your absence I ate the charred alveoli and hoped it would absorb a little bit of the pain.
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I watched spiders make their webs Four to five paces apart North to south along the ficus hedge Anchored nearest to the green wall Each two knuckles wide Street lamp orange undersides Yellow tiny joints Each moved quickly Set to finish its trap before the night settled full I discovered them while walking Seeking familiar toxin And found them Masters of their craft The first I saw caught that caught my sight The furious movement of rear limbs Catching the stream of silk Guiding it on its way Jagged plucking stemming a straight line Then laying over a guiding wire And moving on From four o’clock to eight it went Then back along the clock’s face Its red underside patient but swiftly going and pulling along Leading a tiny line of molten muted silver Five to eight and back again Pendulumous and measured geometry Dancing back and forth Then I saw the second South I crept with knees bent low Shrank a hand’s breadth Swift and wonderstruck And it too worked a masterful weave So similar but when I looked back I saw the difference More than size of form between them Slight as was their difference Unique minutiae of brown fuzzy backs and brown fuzzy heads Varying personalities and style Artisans of the same renaissance And soon I saw a third South still and still different Higher up to catch the light Still giving light to its neighbor Who lets the light reach her neighbor A fourth’s stilled anchor Taught and shining in the light Beneath the indigo sky Highest of them all Largest of them all If in the beginning of their dance Drawing cracked windows in the sky Nets or webs or sails I might have seen them Forming a rainbow arc A fragment of such a thing But I did not My wonder and my mind The first catch of the night
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Dec 2, 2011
Dec 2, 2011 at 10:46 PM UTC
Four to Eight
I watched spiders make their webs Four to five paces apart North to south along the ficus hedge Anchored nearest to the green wall Each two knuckles wide Street lamp orange undersides Yellow tiny joints Each moved quickly Set to finish its trap before the night settled full I discovered them while walking Seeking familiar toxin And found them Masters of their craft The first I saw caught that caught my sight The furious movement of rear limbs Catching the stream of silk Guiding it on its way Jagged plucking stemming a straight line Then laying over a guiding wire And moving on From four o’clock to eight it went Then back along the clock’s face Its red underside patient but swiftly going and pulling along Leading a tiny line of molten muted silver Five to eight and back again Pendulumous and measured geometry Dancing back and forth Then I saw the second South I crept with knees bent low Shrank a hand’s breadth Swift and wonderstruck And it too worked a masterful weave So similar but when I looked back I saw the difference More than size of form between them Slight as was their difference Unique minutiae of brown fuzzy backs and brown fuzzy heads Varying personalities and style Artisans of the same renaissance And soon I saw a third South still and still different Higher up to catch the light Still giving light to its neighbor Who lets the light reach her neighbor A fourth’s stilled anchor Taught and shining in the light Beneath the indigo sky Highest of them all Largest of them all If in the beginning of their dance Drawing cracked windows in the sky Nets or webs or sails I might have seen them Forming a rainbow arc A fragment of such a thing But I did not My wonder and my mind The first catch of the night
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I made a 12 egg omelet for dinner Not just for me, mind you, But stuffed with milk, garlic, onion and two cheeses Half as big as our whale sized pan and oh solo cheesy It was such a delightfully delicious omelet But of course, I couldn't make a beautiful thing without a dash of pain Once, twice, thrice, four times I gripped that accursed handle I burnt my fingers so the places where I grip my own are now slightly leathered Sighing with exasperation, I lean across for the spatula and ZING what do you know? One more stripe of seared flesh on the forearm Of course it hurt (when does fire not burn?) But now I can't help but laugh, as the undersides of my fingers feel like a wallet And my forearm a new splash of paint
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Mar 11, 2014
Mar 11, 2014 at 4:50 PM UTC
12 egg omelet burns
God made me human she was feeling capricious that day actually I was meant to be a frog green and certain, self contained content to simply squat and watch flick a sticky tongue at a passing bug observer of two worlds at home in both a leap-in-waiting able when need or impulse dictates to skedaddle with the nonchalance of a Buddha a gleam of green and gold glistening on a lily leaf or kerplunking into deep cool water Frog had I such toes such elegant legs I too could scrutinise the mysteries of pools, the undersides of lilypads do you wonder Frog whether there are other ponds do you dream a dream of elsewhere do you pause to peer skywards harbour a secret wish for wings ah, what may lie beyond your pool but perhaps I ascribe too much mystery to you Frog you simply are whilst I, I am stuck in wondering, trying to connect two worlds two realities **** **** the divine indifference Tricia Lambert 2010
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Jun 12, 2013
Jun 12, 2013 at 5:07 PM UTC
ON A WHIM----
he is space the freckles that dust his nose and cheeks are constellations stories untold the dark purple that bruises the undersides of his eyes are areas of the night sky that are absent of stars yet full of hardship his eyes glisten like galaxies colors swirling into something more something big and his smile is the sun that burns with brightness and warmth and leaves you with stars in your eyes he is endless and he is space and like space, he takes your breath away
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Jan 13, 2015
Jan 13, 2015 at 4:50 PM UTC
he is space
He pointed to the 4'' by 7'' framework with two teenage girls faces pressed against hers, an overbearing smile in the background of a boy caught in the mist of poor lighting and ****** drunken photography. She told him about the field laid green and black blades wet from central PA rain and smashed, meshed clumps of mud sticking to the rubber mazes on the undersides of old work boots. How the fire billowed over hazy introductions and pressured joy of seeing someone no one really ever wanted to see again. She told him about the drive with two girls, how many stops it took to reach the county party and how many times she counted the circles on her thumbs before she was distracted by another person wanting a picture or another beg for a beer. She laughed as she reflected, glancing up at the photo then back at him as his hand lay between the crease of her *** and thigh. He was from Durham and didn't get it. But she painted it so vividly with her tongue as it danced over the summer memory that he felt he could be there if he let himself. She unwound for him like a yo-yo to which only he could pull her back up again. Unaware that she mindlessly let him control all the strings. As she talked, jumping from picture to picture, he noticed her leap frog from each. She skipped three or four in the middle, and even thought it seemed as if she could open with the press of the right button there were still some things she wouldn't let him really see. She held her breath when the story turned bad. He saw her eyes balance on the phrase, he now noticed, she carefully chose next. She was no outburst. This was no plea. She had a plan and undoubtedly knew all that she wanted him to know. As she flipped to the next page he counted the seconds between the pauses and moved his hand to her shoulderblade.
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Oct 15, 2013
Oct 15, 2013 at 10:44 PM UTC
The Crease
He pointed to the 4'' by 7'' framework with two teenage girls faces pressed against hers, an overbearing smile in the background of a boy caught in the mist of poor lighting and ****** drunken photography. She told him about the field laid green and black blades wet from central PA rain and smashed, meshed clumps of mud sticking to the rubber mazes on the undersides of old work boots. How the fire billowed over hazy introductions and pressured joy of seeing someone no one really ever wanted to see again. She told him about the drive with two girls, how many stops it took to reach the county party and how many times she counted the circles on her thumbs before she was distracted by another person wanting a picture or another beg for a beer. She laughed as she reflected, glancing up at the photo then back at him as his hand lay between the crease of her *** and thigh. He was from Durham and didn't get it. But she painted it so vividly with her tongue as it danced over the summer memory that he felt he could be there if he let himself. She unwound for him like a yo-yo to which only he could pull her back up again. Unaware that she mindlessly let him control all the strings. As she talked, jumping from picture to picture, he noticed her leap frog from each. She skipped three or four in the middle, and even thought it seemed as if she could open with the press of the right button there were still some things she wouldn't let him really see. She held her breath when the story turned bad. He saw her eyes balance on the phrase, he now noticed, she carefully chose next. She was no outburst. This was no plea. She had a plan and undoubtedly knew all that she wanted him to know. As she flipped to the next page he counted the seconds between the pauses and moved his hand to her shoulderblade.
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I have secrets. Not really. The thing about secrets: everyone has them. It doesn't matter how close you feel to someone. If you know someone, you keep secrets from them. To avoid keeping secrets from someone is to speak your every thought and conceal no transient stirring of opinion. And who can boast that they have never held their thoughts in check for the sparing of an unwilling or unwitting ear? Indeed I have no secrets from others, simply sides I have not shown them. And no one can be my closest confidant, for there are questions I have never been asked. So when you feel I am keeping something from you do not assume it is my malicious vouchsafe that I guard from the daylight. The things I tell others are as readily apparent in me as the steps I take, the things I have not divulged merely the undersides of my feet, not displayed but ever present. But there are things I have not divulged within me that have been scrutinized and been subjected to taboo. These for want of a better word, we can call secrets. They are small motes of golden truth which swim in my bones and glitter in flames of indignation. And they are alive for they move throughout my entire being and use quick teeth to try to rend me open. They thirst, these infinitesimal planets, for the sun which casts light on everything and bears nothing in more genial light than its neighbor. I rather suspect they would appreciate that equanimity. However were I to free them, to cast asunder their parasitic bonds, I would be cast from my comfort and tormented, guilty as a twin shamed for his brother's faults. So what am I to do? These glazed traits, my inner selves, have teeth so I feed them; I feed them with knowledge and the comfort that they are not unique, for others are feasted upon by the unknowable and un-"what"-able demons that lie in wait in their bodies; I feed them with promises, so infantile yet that they cannot be tested for emptiness, of an eventual release and the opportunity to cast loose the bonds of disgust with which my peers lasso them. And they grow larger. They are engorged with hope. Still when the beast grows larger, larger grows its bite. And when I am at a loss to placate my secret in-dwellers with hope, they gnaw. And the bites which at one point might have been an irksome scrabbling at my heart now cave in my resolve and threaten my breathing with an erstwhile unspent vigor.
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Jun 9, 2010
Jun 9, 2010 at 1:46 PM UTC
Nolo Contendere
I have secrets. Not really. The thing about secrets: everyone has them. It doesn't matter how close you feel to someone. If you know someone, you keep secrets from them. To avoid keeping secrets from someone is to speak your every thought and conceal no transient stirring of opinion. And who can boast that they have never held their thoughts in check for the sparing of an unwilling or unwitting ear? Indeed I have no secrets from others, simply sides I have not shown them. And no one can be my closest confidant, for there are questions I have never been asked. So when you feel I am keeping something from you do not assume it is my malicious vouchsafe that I guard from the daylight. The things I tell others are as readily apparent in me as the steps I take, the things I have not divulged merely the undersides of my feet, not displayed but ever present. But there are things I have not divulged within me that have been scrutinized and been subjected to taboo. These for want of a better word, we can call secrets. They are small motes of golden truth which swim in my bones and glitter in flames of indignation. And they are alive for they move throughout my entire being and use quick teeth to try to rend me open. They thirst, these infinitesimal planets, for the sun which casts light on everything and bears nothing in more genial light than its neighbor. I rather suspect they would appreciate that equanimity. However were I to free them, to cast asunder their parasitic bonds, I would be cast from my comfort and tormented, guilty as a twin shamed for his brother's faults. So what am I to do? These glazed traits, my inner selves, have teeth so I feed them; I feed them with knowledge and the comfort that they are not unique, for others are feasted upon by the unknowable and un-"what"-able demons that lie in wait in their bodies; I feed them with promises, so infantile yet that they cannot be tested for emptiness, of an eventual release and the opportunity to cast loose the bonds of disgust with which my peers lasso them. And they grow larger. They are engorged with hope. Still when the beast grows larger, larger grows its bite. And when I am at a loss to placate my secret in-dwellers with hope, they gnaw. And the bites which at one point might have been an irksome scrabbling at my heart now cave in my resolve and threaten my breathing with an erstwhile unspent vigor.
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In my room 24/7 24 hours 7 days now A week since you left it feels Longer than it is some weeks are days some Weeks are hours some Weeks are milliseconds but this This week is forever I never saw the transition from workaholic into depression like A literal depression, an indent I Cave in myself I Cave in on myself I Go to counseling, admit it happened it should feel like lancing a boil but It doesn't it feels like rearranging a sweater around a rock in my chest so It rubs against the splintery undersides of my ribs irritating inevitable Months spent in my bed i don't go to class i don't do work i sleep Sleep everything away sleep everything away My uncle asks me if i've been eating i'm paler than usual and no No I haven't been eating how can you eat when there's a Boulder shoving your lungs into your spine, and your intestines into your pelvis I try and feel like throwing up I Lose weight but don't feel any more worthwhile I've been Caving in on myself, caving in on myself, caving in on myself In the ruins Furious I still live
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Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 3:37 PM UTC
caving in
If you sit alone in opaque rooms and wait for a few good lines to inject themselves into your brain as if they dripped from a syringe then its time to try something else. Poetry is like a gigantic exotic insect that shouldn't be squashed with the ***** undersides of rubber boots but captured by meddlesome mesh nets and elbow grease, put in display glass cases where the wild things are and frequently washed clean of the stale, insipid grime of life. And after enough love it will entrap itself in the great transmutable cocoon of time and break free. Poetry is in the bark of old grandfather tree stumps out back behind the barn, each circular line revealing multitudes of cacophony and pain, yet you wouldn't have known the taste of the ligatures of wood without first running your tongue along the metallic axe that hued them. Poetry hesitates for those who stare with naked eyes at the cold quilt of patched grey clouds looking for symbols, choosing to instead reveal itself to the telescopic lenses of admirers of orbital spheres. Whereas sometimes the cracking Sphinx confuses even the pristine muses and the sound of thunder at night makes the dog cry so does the effervescent poetic smiling of the moon inflict pain onto the hearts of the lonely, yet they still dare to look. Poetry isn't a noun but a verb. It is the act of jumping into leaves, of stepping off the precipice of normalcy, of falling ever deeper into the dark abyss below.
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Dec 11, 2012
Dec 11, 2012 at 11:47 PM UTC
Don't Wait
Heavy gray clouds battle for control of the supple trees, which bend under the will of the wind, leaves whipping and flickering their bright undersides, like the dresses of frantic Spanish dancers; pale pulp squishes between her toes, the grapes bursting under the weight of eighteen-year-old feet - both the fruit and the flesh are soft and ripe and smell of sugar in the sun; the gray sea licks wildly at the gravelly shore, while her fire-red locks twist and tangle in the wind.
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May 15, 2013
May 15, 2013 at 4:51 PM UTC
Spanish Summer Sea
it is not the shadows we survive in, nor the undersides of rocks, neither is it the shade of trees or the nether-regions of the mind no it is only in the cool of night, when all can see if they look hard enough that is when we dance, that is when are, that is when… …we are the night-walkers, beings of grace. we, the things so ugly, we, the creatures so horrendous, we, the nightmares and the dreams all at once. we walk out on ten legs or two, marching in no particular pattern at all yet in such coordination that the armies of the world salute in shame our meaning is nothing our existence, in and of itself, is astounding enough we do not need to scream from the roof tops to get the message across we are the night-walkers, dancers of the moon, we have no grace or charming traits, yet you fear us, but we don’t fear you
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Jan 31, 2011
Jan 31, 2011 at 6:31 PM UTC
dance of the night-walkers
The colours swing in a pendulum attached to the mind as if each shade knows its final resting place in a landscape packed with the purity of clarity. All of the brushes have been tenderly placed in a potholder soaking up the sensations of previous lifetimes now slowly turning to ageing grey shades of temperament To touch the sunflower grey would be a sin against the sun it glints off the minds magical array but green beckons in an eversoft seduction with silver on the undersides to offshoot the tantrums of the painters reflection. The scene emerges from a warm blanket of texture into a tone so gentle that it seems to whisper its presence in a vase of rounded personality. I watch as she loses herself in every stroke of deftness stepping out into the limelight taking a bow before an audience of murmurs soon retreating into that world that has captured her for today. She will return when she is ready. to live amongst us again.
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Mar 2, 2014
Mar 2, 2014 at 1:33 PM UTC
The Landscape Artist
The luminous grey undersides of clouds Travelling a charcoal sky, speak my thoughts aloud As thunder Reflections of my mind's wandering eye
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Sep 17, 2020
Sep 17, 2020 at 11:55 AM UTC
Storm Clouds
Crawdads have a crazy *** life. There's not   much to courtship and no real copulation. Boring   as this may sound, it's somewhat engrossing   for me. Likely more than any lady crawdad ever   thought of it. I would think most women might agree. Sadly, reminiscent of **** really. Males act like ruffians, catching females like prey, turning them over, and leaving a sticky deposit on their undersides. Worm like sperms adhere to her, which she carries with her until she lays   eggs. I've seen this while preparing étouffée. Not the *** act, just the worms.   Life is a multiplex of convoluted situations. "Please yes, oh no!" What's going on in those crusty little heads? It seems such a foreign lifeform. Still, eerily familiar to what I've found   at the bathhouse. I think I'll fatten up my tail,   wear some antennae and pincers this Halloween. Mmmm... Étouffée.
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Nov 23, 2015
Nov 23, 2015 at 2:05 PM UTC
Brutal Brittle Little World
I am rolling hills with vibrant tulips as far as the eye can see, I am savannah with boundless sunshine, flora and fauna wild and carefree I am thick forest with trees who stand tall and strong and extend their arms to the sky, I am luscious jungle untamed and heavy and saturated with blossoms and vines. I am gorgeous in every part of me, regardless of the sharpened gazes pointed towards me like spears. I am powerful in every part of me because I dare to be me, sharpening my own spears in self defense. My jungle is the strongest part of me, A landscape of coarse trunks along the curves of my legs, A tangled mass of vines on the undersides of my arms, An unruly bush to accompany trunks at the place where they meet. I rule my jungle in confidence and wield my own spears To let the savages know that I am unafraid and comfortable whether my jungle is tamed or left uncut.
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Oct 30, 2017
Oct 30, 2017 at 1:05 AM UTC
Vivacious
Dusk, mosquitoes, lilac and thunderheads Step down from the sky balanced on breeze and the undersides of leaves, The river is choppy and rushed, shouldering past the piers of the bridge The night is about to swallow itself whole. Bald heads rock steady on screened-in porches Lick their lips in hungry anticipation The first streak of light and piercing crack Shatters the horizon
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May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 10:27 PM UTC
Storm