Schools should give out vests
Mass shootings are prevalent
Two thousand eighteen

Eat poison on line
Million view it’s worth the death.
Two thousand eighteen

Last male rhino died.
Say goodbye to white rhinos
Two thousand eighteen

Planet’s surely *******
Earth’s imploding on itself
Two thousand eighteen

Do not show gay pride
Electric shock therapy
Two thousand eighteen

We all will die soon
Death cracks out of his own shell
We are all so ******

Ive been regretting to write this because I don’t want it to be trye. The other morning I woke up to find my brother died that night. He was 16 and seemed to always be a happy person. I should have seen the signs. My father and Grandmother are torn up. We all blame ourself. We have lost a HUGE part of the family. I might seem fine at one point then terrible the next. The pain of lost comes in waves. I hope you all had a great 2018 and a fantastic 2019. I’ll see you all in the upcoming year of greatness. 2019 is for you little buddy. May you rest calmly and happy just like you seamed to live with us. I’m sorry I didn’t know you needed help. I love you.

I want to be awakened from this nightmare.
Deep into the darkness dreaming.
God listen to my prayers
the when the tears start streaming.
The article of sorrow
brings with it pain until tomorrow.

The land is a solitude
Suddenly I heard something visioning
Up from above death’s view.
He was conditioning.
The Ifylls remained forbidden,
And hope remained hidden.

My heaven, I could not awaken.
You were a prophecy.
My heart broken and mistaken.
New world awaken a new possibilities.
Down a new deep dark whole.
In there stepped a darling soul.

Oils,
Waxes,
Dyes and pigments
She uses these to hid her true beauty

A haze of betrayal
as memories twist, crawl and scream.
We once experienced bliss, childlike innocents,
and untainted love.
We dont want to go back.
But your desire vanished.
A horrific pool of agony.
Follow the night,
follow the darkness.
Love was torn apart that day.
In a haze of betrayal.
I still love you.

I’m the one to blame
After all I’ve seen,
done,
will do
Or,
said
I’m the one to blame.
Sure they told me to,
But I’m the one that did it.
I said what I said
And
did what I did.
I can’t take it back.
I don’t want to.
I’m not sorry.
Don’t blame yourself.
I’m the one to blame.

Whos Ghost sits at me door?
sitting and it weeps on the floor.
I watch him frown and glow.
His fears surrounded in woe.
His heart and soul shakes,
Sobs until the tears leave wakes.
The silence finally breaks
As distance waves of birds awake.

The ghost is a deep blue
But he has promises to keep
Until them he shall not sleep.
He lies i bed with ducts that weep.

He rises from the dead
With thoughts of sadness flooding his head.
He Idols being dead.
Face the day with never ending dread.

Who’s those sits at my door?
Weeping on the floor.

Chained and shackled to the bottle
Disorderly conduct,
a DUI,
domestic violence report.
My guilt is shown in I front of the court.
Wanting to stop
Dreams are a flop.
Behind lock and key.
My new baby sister, I’m unable to see.

Golden Hearts;
Drowned in the rain of tears.
Both bound by silver chains
and a brass lock.
They await the day
They’ll be unlocked.

You told me to take a break.
You told me to slow down.
You said everything would be okay.

I need to believe you.
I need to believe in you.

I wish I knew what you meant.
When you said ‘I love you’.
I know now that it was a lie.

You broke my heart.
You ending it all.

You said you didn’t want to continue again.
I feel myself ending
This is all your fault.

I hate you
I love you

You eft me
I needed you.

My Existence can be summed up as a broken robot beyond repair
Useless
Rally works and when it does
***** up the job.

Left behind as trash.
No one wants it.
Could be used to creat new,
probably shouldn't the new will start broken.

Over all I am nothing but,
a broken robot beyond repair.

Alone in a fallen kingdom.
The broken hearts never tapping.
Word for the fearsome,
our heart is cracking,
freezing,
dreading,
dying.

All my soul within me snapping.
The past love
she brought joy
but left sorrow.

His candle of time is burning out.
His moon is setting for the last time.
He will not see the next day.
He doesn’t want to continue.
He wishes for release.
He’s begging and praying,
it will be over fast.
Just a quick pinch,
a loud bang,
he’s finally awake from his nightmare.

When butterflies fly
Dreams die.

They’ll fly south
Child better shut your mouth.

Avoid the freeze
Someone help us please.

By the grave I remembered the kisses
And so I screamed.
Screamed in fear of being without you.
Your spirit comforts me.

The lord brought sorrow taking you.

He did it even though he knew.
Remembering the many memories.
The many stories.
My favorite memory,
when you clearly fell in love with me.

Death shall bring desires.
The lord of Death never retires.
When Death covers my grave
I want it to be clear,
only for you I was brave
I love you dear.
We no longer need to shed a tear.

Late at night in my dim lit cell
The man standing the corner
He’s all I have left.

I want out this hell.
Happiness is a foreigner
This is the story after my arrest.

Living shameful
Swallowed by the dark angle.

This modern day Civil War
is fighting with ourself over our childhood depression.
The ending battle is finally tying the noose.
What side will come out in the end?

My condition, I could not awaken.
I craved the ill-started.
Insensitive, unable to love.
My heart was broken.
I send prayers to the departed.
You’re looking down from above.

The standing brought such sorrow.
What will it bring tomorrow?
Take thy condition from our my heart.
You gave e a head start.
I crave the standing and stricken logic
Of the illogical.

The old crystal cript,
dead and bare trees
line the path of bones.
Doorways and windows
glow red
And
expelling Blue fire.
Dreams run.
Demons escape
and joins
the mortals.

God has cursed me.
Going insane, slowly.
Getting paranoid,
giving up.

God cursed me,
when I was born.
Where did he go?
Why did he leave humanity to rot away?

God have cursed me.
The devil won the battles and the war.
Demons follow; survants to him
I follow as a survant to them all.

The Devil cursed me.
He cursed me to obey.
Today I break,
I’m breaking out of his trance.

Today I no longer follow him.
He will follow me.

The Gods cursed me, and I cursed them back.

I’m awake,
Living the nightmares.
Numb and emotionless.

Colors are lost to me.
The living anger,
demolishes joy.

A soulless shadow.
The world and life
wither away.

The darker armor
sits
still
on the stand.
sharp
blood dripping
sword
clenched in it’s fist.

December,
To some it’s holly
peaceful,
and a joyous time
full of family and friends.
To me
it’s cold
dark
and lonely.
Happy holidays to the ones that celebrate.
Enjoy your family and fun.
I’ll be crying in the corner.

I am depression.
I hide in the darkness
Waiting to strike.
You hide me from your friends.
Long sleeves,
Convoluted lies,
Hiding behind a smile.
I am depression.
I infect your brain with my thoughts.
I won’t let you think for yourself.
I tell you, “you're not good enough”.
You can not stop me.
I always get my way.
I am depression
I take everything.
You lose it all.
I take your family,
Your friends,
Your childhood,
You've lost all hope.
I am depression.

Black haired
Woman walks down
to the docks.
Her ravens land in their cage.
A ghostly ship
With a skeleton crew
Takes her aboard.
They wash away
to the forgotten land.

Red rose
clenched
in the dragon
claw,
once was
white
before contact
with this gothic.

I drink ‘till I’m drunk
Trying to drown the pain.

Waking up when sober,
and after a really bad hangover.
I realize my mistakes.
So I do it all over again in order to forget.

Eventually the pain will be gone,
Eventually everything will be okay,
Eventually ill be nothing but a memory.

I embellish the fire.
I write with my sinning thoughts.
Sinning tongues before the gods.
Be wary,
the feeling will go.
The tomb sinister and transparent.
We expel dark tendencies.
The daemons never vanish.

I embellish the fire.
I sense lustful lovers lost.
Below the land I awaken.
The heat has come.
Flickering hesitant.
Out of control,
a phone ringing somewhere.
At how many harbors.
The gods take another road.

A silvery white dress,
stained with tears and blood
of an ex-bride
sitting alone
at the alter.

Second in two years.
God either has a plan for me
Or
He loves watching me suffer and doesn’t want it to end.

You always are complaining
about how you don’t have enough of me.
When you have extra of me you waste me.

I’m not a physical thing
but an idea.

I’m always off by a little,
no matter where you look

I tell you when to do something.
If your early or late.

I’m a grandfather but I don’t have kids.
My pendulum is what digs your grave.

I am fathertime.

You said you never would,
you already did.
Go ahead cheat on me again.
My love clearly meant nothing to you.
I’ve read the text,
heard the messages.
Why could you do this to me
Especially  with that *****.
I thought you were mine.
I thought you said you never would.
Clearly I meant nothing to you.

I was born with a shining golden ring.
The ring looms above cracked and chipped.
Once lit my path,
now breaks my neck with the pressure it brings.

I’ve sprouted demonic wings
Jet black feathered wings.
I’ll fly silent.
Terrorizing the earth
with the people of the night.

I’m not yet ****** to an eternity of
Suffrage and Hellfire.
I’m not “blessed” to spend time in peace either.

I’m stuck mangled into the pain of earth.

Rain falls in the ocean of tears.
Lightning sticks
One the wastelands.
charred trees
withered flowers.
Demons’ screams echo in the wind.
Dried up riverbeds
once flowed with blood.
Soundless crying from a torn up soul.
Black clouds and roll in,
now just a nightmarish space.

the laugHter has gone silent.
my hEart is dark
I’m no Longer
the Person you know.

my nightMares are real.
nowhere to hidE.

A knife in her back
she falls
against the walls.
Blue eyes
a wond healing face.
With a
click
and a
lock
Her
puzzle pieces
fall into place.
On that day
She turned
Her back
On
Society.

Without a sound
the day dies
and I’m left with
a loveless night,
and a saddening morning
The understandment we had
Lost.

Devoured by madness
My heartbeats for
another day to die.

Living causes hate.
Lost souls evaporate
and dissipate.

The land under the moonlight;
Nothing but a silhouette.
The night sky
Filled with childish dreams.
By daybreak
you can see that day is darker then the night.
Earth is a cold bitter world
mocking the weak.

Wispy moonlight beams,
enter the barren church
a place of dreams.
Outside next to a silver birch.
Inside women in search for someone,
someone long gone.
I kneel upon the alter.
The pain fills the void with slaughter.
A slave, frozen to his peace.
Nothing left to hang on.
It’s the end run.
Robbed forms,
lifted the storms.
However, my naked flesh spared not.

My dark colored butterfly. Why do you stay?
Others could make you so much happier.
You have beautiful majestic wings;
why don’t you use them to fly away?
Fly higher than anyone could reach.
Fly faster and further.
You could fly away but you stay here with me, why.

Maybe I don’t want me dark colored, female butterfly. We started well, then started fighting.
We fight everyday.
We have done things I don’t regret.
I hate her, she says one thing and I love her.

We fight again.
I lover her,
I hate her,
I love her,
I hate her,
I love her?

My annoying, heartless, dark colored, female butterfly. I want her gone, but I want to stay with her.
The dark colored butterfly.

When the next day comes
The day starts will the songs of doves.
If your hear stuck with an arrow
Rip it out and enjoy,
Enjoy the outcomes

Night falls as if slain by the sun
cold and alone.
The salvation for which I sacrifice myself.
flares once then dies.
Crushed by my obsession.
Hope must endure.
Your heart desires no more.
How could you tear us asunder?
My demons surrounded me,
crying to me,
“Save us from ourselves”

Tonight is a night of sorrow,
a night of loneliness.
Songs of death loom in a dark forest.
Wolves vent their struggles.
The beautiful one awakes.
Wisps of death surrounds her pale form.
A timeless dread fills me.
Her inky black hair cascades over
Frail ivory skin.
her full crimson heart aches.
Black tears streaming,
streaming from her wrists.
Tonight is a night of new life.