My pale skin queen.
She sits next to me on my thrown.
I cherish everything about her.
Her eye’s on another.
The hand of death grazed my back.
His cold hand numbed the pain.
His black cloak swept me in,
I was captivated.
I was hooked on his corrupting stare.
His blood read eyes,
peering straight passed my body and into my soul.
His masked face,
hid his crooked smile.
Withheld me from his true intentions.
His candle of time is burning out.
His moon is setting for the last time.
He will not see the next day.
He doesn’t want to continue.
He wishes for release.
He’s begging and praying,
it will be over fast.
Just a quick pinch,
a loud bang,
he’s finally awake from his nightmare.
I tamed my beast.
I fought threw his reign.
Over came his strength.
Finally at last I was free.
But at last his thrown was filled again.
Four simple words, “what’s one last time?”
These still haunt me to this day
His world is spinning
His wrists cry from the slitting.
He screams for attention
thinking he has a plan.
He didn’t meet the expectation
Society told him, “be a man”
I am depression.
I hide in the darkness
Waiting to strike.
You hide me from your friends.
Hiding behind a smile.
I am depression.
I infect your brain with my thoughts.
I won’t let you think for yourself.
I tell you, “you're not good enough”.
You can not stop me.
I always get my way.
I am depression
I take everything.
You lose it all.
I take your family,
You've lost all hope.
I am depression.
I feel numb
as the ripe chocked me out.
Drains me of my life,
Everything get darker,
Everything is black.
The ones that ‘cared’
Together we shared our last smile.
Together we shared out las kids.
Together we shared our las laugh.
We shared a lot of firsts.
Together we shared our first romance.
Together we shared our first passion.
Together I shared my first heartbeat.
Together you changed me whole world
I’m dancing with the devil
He helped me sew my shattered heart back in half.
Only half could be fix
because I gave the other half to you.
We all see her ribs.
she reads extra large.
She wants to read small.
She refuses to eat.
Chained and shackled to the bottle
domestic violence report.
My guilt is shown in I front of the court.
Wanting to stop
Dreams are a flop.
Behind lock and key.
My new baby sister, I’m unable to see.
The ones that tells you it’s gunna be okay,
They don’t understand what you’re going through
The ones that say their okay,
They’re the ones dying the fastest.
The ones always saying they wish for death
They distract from the desperate.
The ones that stay quiet,
The ones that say nothing
The Poe’s that smile and laugh it off.
They are the ones that need the most help.
I drink ‘till I’m drunk
Trying to drown the pain.
Waking up when sober,
and after a really bad hangover.
I realize my mistakes.
So I do it all over again in order to forget.
Eventually the pain will be gone,
Eventually everything will be okay,
Eventually ill be nothing but a memory.
A teen sits alone in the empty bathroom.
She ships her face in her hands.
She doesn’t want people to see what she’s done.
Blue tears run down her freckles.
Red tears run down her wrists.
Her t-shirt says ‘smile’
But that’s the last thing on her mind.
Dyes and pigments
She uses these to hid her true beauty
A singular flower grows out
the face of a rock.
That little sprout,
It was holding the power that was bout to be unlocked.
Time was the key
To split the rock
Because that little flower grew a tree.
The singular flower
Cleared a path by unleashing it’s power.
Late at night in my dim lit cell
The man standing the corner
He’s all I have left.
I want out this hell.
Happiness is a foreigner
This is the story after my arrest.
Swallowed by the dark angle.
Writing when sober is a thing of the past.
My family’s gone and friends going fast.
Brothers turned his back, filled with shame, when looking down.
Sister sits at home wearing her new born crown.
Spent months in the decrepit jailhouse.
Rehab is my only house.
Another druggie behind bars.
I have no retreats for my life in need of repair.
Six more months with good behavior.
This wont make my life any better.
Ive been in and out since I was a teenager.
I’ve brought this onto myself again.
You promised infinity
only to have a stolen love.
You promised eternity
only to be gone in the wind.
Sold my soul
Wishing for love.
All I got was heartbreak
Our souls wander
Lost in the dark.
The ruin laughter squander.
Death brings the storms,
storms bring garnets
With a blood red shine.
The land under the moonlight;
Nothing but a silhouette.
The night sky
Filled with childish dreams.
you can see that day is darker then the night.
Earth is a cold bitter world
mocking the weak.
Clouding her vision.
Falling to her knees,
As her baby boy
From the old oak tree.
Can we talk?
We need to talk about what you did.
I know you don’t care but it hurts me.
Nowing that I’m not good enough for you.
It drives me crazy.
Get out of my life.
You know I meant nothing of it.
What part hurts?
Your being ridiculous.
I didn’t do anything you didn’t do to me.
Second in two years.
God either has a plan for me
He loves watching me suffer and doesn’t want it to end.
Silence takes over.
Everyone is running.
Leaving this world.
Littered with hate.
Music quiets the
Still, we can’t see the truth.
On gods will,
Up in heaven.
Locked and sealed away.
In summer our love is innocent.
Roses floating in the breeze.
Love is dilligent.
Our love is a tease.
The skies are blue, our love isn’t hopeless.
Two people waiting in the sun.
Love, it’s hard to focuse.
Our love never begun.
When spring flowers bloom, our love is bold.
Autumn leaves fall under a brass sunset.
Love is cold.
Our love is a threat.
From death ‘till rebirth our love will continue to delight.
From season to season I love you always.
Love continues to fight.
Our love sets my spirit ablaze.
This is the time you’ll regret.
My fears and pains will be met.
Greated by blood.
take it, break it, and rake it through the mud.
This only makes it worst for you.
A silvery white dress,
stained with tears and blood
of an ex-bride
at the alter.
Deep in the woods
there is a land of falsehoods.
The weight of regret vacillate.
A land to create.
I feel odium in this land.
Lost souls that planed,
planed to cross over.
Wanting to takeover.
I embellish the fire.
I write with my sinning thoughts.
Sinning tongues before the gods.
the feeling will go.
The tomb sinister and transparent.
We expel dark tendencies.
The daemons never vanish.
I embellish the fire.
I sense lustful lovers lost.
Below the land I awaken.
The heat has come.
Out of control,
a phone ringing somewhere.
At how many harbors.
The gods take another road.
A haze of betrayal
as memories twist, crawl and scream.
We once experienced bliss, childlike innocents,
and untainted love.
We dont want to go back.
But your desire vanished.
A horrific pool of agony.
Follow the night,
follow the darkness.
Love was torn apart that day.
In a haze of betrayal.
I still love you.
Living the nightmares.
Numb and emotionless.
Colors are lost to me.
The living anger,
A soulless shadow.
The world and life
My passion is the silent uneasiness.
Remembering many discontent, and happy doubts.
Thoughts came worrying
Death shall bring assurance.
the wispy whispering shadows
and they sprung onto the world.
The ignorant never suspecting.
I was mute.
I received the backlash.
The backlash of the world.
I want to be awakened from this nightmare.
Deep into the darkness dreaming.
God listen to my prayers
the when the tears start streaming.
The article of sorrow
brings with it pain until tomorrow.
The land is a solitude
Suddenly I heard something visioning
Up from above death’s view.
He was conditioning.
The Ifylls remained forbidden,
And hope remained hidden.
My heaven, I could not awaken.
You were a prophecy.
My heart broken and mistaken.
New world awaken a new possibilities.
Down a new deep dark whole.
In there stepped a darling soul.
Tonight is a night of sorrow,
a night of loneliness.
Songs of death loom in a dark forest.
Wolves vent their struggles.
The beautiful one awakes.
Wisps of death surrounds her pale form.
A timeless dread fills me.
Her inky black hair cascades over
Frail ivory skin.
her full crimson heart aches.
Black tears streaming,
streaming from her wrists.
Tonight is a night of new life.
Night falls as if slain by the sun
cold and alone.
The salvation for which I sacrifice myself.
flares once then dies.
Crushed by my obsession.
Hope must endure.
Your heart desires no more.
How could you tear us asunder?
My demons surrounded me,
crying to me,
“Save us from ourselves”
Loss of hope
Fills my mind.
My memories scream to be remembered.
History remembers the lost.
I know you and me are survivors.
An army of an old fife fleet.
We travel the land of freedom igniters
A race against the world.
Practice military confrontation.
The pain of being driven by aggression.
Living life without an occupation.
The people lack information.
My thought and ways of being ill prepared.
A final battle on the stretched barrier.
A letter from an openly declared
Followed by the voice similar to **** terror.
This modern day Civil War
is fighting with ourself over our childhood depression.
The ending battle is finally tying the noose.
What side will come out in the end?
By the grave I remembered the kisses
And so I screamed.
Screamed in fear of being without you.
Your spirit comforts me.
The lord brought sorrow taking you.
He did it even though he knew.
Remembering the many memories.
The many stories.
My favorite memory,
when you clearly fell in love with me.
Death shall bring desires.
The lord of Death never retires.
When Death covers my grave
I want it to be clear,
only for you I was brave
I love you dear.
We no longer need to shed a tear.
My up coming death,
you inspire me to write.
Never satisfied even after me last breath.
I hate the way you roar, slither and scan.
Invade me mind day and through the night.
waiting, dreaming ‘bout your cunning plan.
I Idle at your foul play.
You are more able, violent, and deep.
Ice bites the debris of may,
and wintertime has the eternal sleep.
Oh who I hate you and your ways.
I adore and hate your personality.
Your stage style fills my days.
The way you destroy my mentality.
My hate for you is the sarcastic ties.
Now I must away with a stunning heart.
You get us in the end.
how are you so smart?
You’re taken my best friend,
and my health.
Once I leave
The works I’ve weaved on the paper will grieve.
My condition, I could not awaken.
I craved the ill-started.
Insensitive, unable to love.
My heart was broken.
I send prayers to the departed.
You’re looking down from above.
The standing brought such sorrow.
What will it bring tomorrow?
Take thy condition from our my heart.
You gave e a head start.
I crave the standing and stricken logic
Of the illogical.
Her heart beats
To her she’s
She’s with up
Her blank stare
but she’s not saying what.
in the dragon
with this gothic.
You told me to take a break.
You told me to slow down.
You said everything would be okay.
I need to believe you.
I need to believe in you.
I wish I knew what you meant.
When you said ‘I love you’.
I know now that it was a lie.
You broke my heart.
You ending it all.
You said you didn’t want to continue again.
I feel myself ending
This is all your fault.
I hate you
I love you
You eft me
I needed you.
The old crystal cript,
dead and bare trees
line the path of bones.
Doorways and windows
expelling Blue fire.
I saw the hurt,
the night killing the day,
the day kills the night.
An eternal battle.
The dark of dusk
The bright of dawn
from our fears.
Our frears of
I’ve seen the hurt.