We spent trillions of time searching for love
And forgot It's a product of patience and peace
We wasted years contemplating what we'd have
Whether awaiting us was sorrow or bliss

Atrophied centuries trying to overcome fear
Rather than welcome it and with it learn to live
We followed from behind so that they wouldn't see a tear
And we would have no long explanation or fake smiles to give

We used the lonely routes for none could be trusted
But walked armed incase anybody showed up
We waited for our trumpets to be blown till they rusted
Like the entire universe and Galaxy was having a nap

Until we actualized that pain and risk is the essence of living
None of our wrinkles were from smiles but grieving

I would go through the hurt again
if it meant having you back in my life
I would still believe your beautiful words
even after I have learnt that none of them were true
I would still smile at how perfectly  you constructed them
well aware that the joy was just a thing of the moment
because that short spell of joy was like an eternity to my soul.

I would use the same road whence our
encounter happened,
I would... I would still ask you out
without a single doubt

I would, not because I enjoy pain
not because I pleasure in my despondence
not because I prefer the past to the future
No,
It's because you lit a flame in me
that even after you extinguished our passion
still shines bright... you made me believe in myself
you gave me a friend and made me feel safe
you gave me a whole new dimension
to live my life, the only downside being
you are not here to share in the glory
of my self-discovery.

The painter and her brush
the Duck and her thrush
the Heart and her crush
the River and her rush

the poet and his Pen
the lion and his Den
the **** and his Hen
the Driver and his Van

the potter and her clay
the Cloud and her grey
the Eagle and her Prey
the Sun and her Ray

the Hound and his Hunter
the question and his answer
the ship and his anchor
the joker and his banter

the night and her pitch
the light and her switch
the eye and her twitch
the lie and her itch

the ring and his finger
the bell and his ringer
the future and his dreamer
the gamble and his gamer

Even closer than those
We were as close
as the Suit and his laws
we were hinges and doors

Maybe someday the hard I try
and the tears I cry
will be for someone else…
Maybe someday
the miles I walk
and the journeys I make
will be for someone else
Maybe someday
the dawns I watch
the splendid view of the ocean
the clear nights filled with stars
will be with someone else
can’t be sure,
even the kisses
the wounds and scars
inflicted by someone else…
Maybe someday I'll be
enduring cold nights,
making up after fights
and enjoying felicitous dances
in twinkling disco lights
with someone else...
Maybe someday
the one I call my Mrs.
will be someone else.
You never know,
they say life's what happens
contrary to our plans
but until life happens,
you are my everything…

To kickstart the day with only the memories of the night in my head
To hold only two corners of the cover and lay the bed
To watch the ***** morning sun mount the sky
To savor the sweet orange rays and sigh
To kiss goodbye knowing it is just the start
To have total peace at heart
To phone her while still at work to find out how she is
To do the job with dedication and ease
To drive quite fast enough at the end of the day
To find her keeping her anger towards my delay
Dammed up and quite unsuccessfully at bay
To peck her forehead and kiss her lips and say
"Hey bush baby, ****** sorry I'm late
And even if I can't fathom how you feel I regret "
To see her eye lids twitch in passion and forgiveness
Juxtaposing her with the twilight uniqueness
To sow the seeds of humor and make her smile
In relief like the king Fishers from Victoria and River Nile
To hold her hand and walk her to our car
Ours because she healed every wound and scar
To take her to the awesome shopping malls
Buy her super Teddys and furry dolls
To then drive her home passing by the outskirts
To look her in the eyes bit by bit, as I slowly drive
To have my heart and mind alive
And a home filled with bloomed flower gardens
To have a shoulder that shares my burdens
To share all chores with her, right from laundry to cooking
To paint the world in letters while she's looking
And her glazing like smile on a laptop and paper
To save her warmth and care less about no hater
To watch the sun get consumed by the ravenous dusk unlike the dawn
To hold hands and watch the Milky way twinkle pawn
To consume every little moment of life and serenity
To have my first born take on my soccer club's name Chelsea
And watch it grow to a simple life by the Nile or by the sea
To bask down the boulevard holding hands toward eternity
To ask for the miracle of lasting forever
From God, to always live two together
To retire after two decades of success
In hardwork and start to tap the soul for access
To inspiration and do the best of the best
Of her paintings and I,my poetry while we rest
To have our little cottage and vegetables cast by the sea
To ride wheels of the rest of our life together, you see
That's what I feel my future lady and I deserve
To watch butterflies, evading fear of death by a warm fire
Telling myths and sweet stories to little ones till one by one we retire
According to me, that's a life lived, that's a dream, that's love

Am better than yesterday
but worse than tomorrow...
nothing else left to say,
so long my old friend sorrow...

She thinks I can't survive even a single night
Without her in my life but she's ****** right

trying to write it again,
ours is a story without
happy endings...
yet you deserve
a fairytale...

I Love you... never say you don't
deserve me...we don't deserve us...
that's why we was given to us to
make us the people we deserve...
I'm willing to listen from today...

I'm not going to try so hard but I'm going to try...
I won't stop being so sad but I'm never going to cry...
I now understand why you're in
my life even better...
I have been looking at it the wrong way...
we probably don't need to find
ourselves to feel complete...
we're two semis of the same circle...
Two faces to the same coin...
I'm not going to try and flip you anymore...
I'll look at me when I need the other face ...
I'll look in the mirror to see you clearer...
I've wanted you to be happy so bad that I've hurt you, us...
I'm not going to do that anymore... let's just be us...
happiness is perfection...perfection is not for people like us...
all we have is this inadequate reality
and all we need is to find satisfaction with each other...
I'm not going to love so hard or so little...
I'm going to love you just the much I can...
your love will fill the cup of this friendship to the brim...
I'm sorry I've been so wrong for so long...
I wanted that cup filled so fast...
I'm sorry...

If only there were 1000 letters in the Alphabet
I wouldn't fail to find 5 to explain my affection for you I bet

I'm never trusting anyone again
I'm suing my last for causing me pain
I'm having her arrested for theft
She stole my happiness and left
I'm suing for mis-representation
She lied and left me in this situation
I'm gonna show them my heart
Or just the smithereens
To act as evidence for my hurt
And the many shattered dreams
It's vivid I've been trying
Got traces to prove my endless crying
In addition to embezzlement
Syphoned all my feelings and left me in torment
I want compensation for my wasted time
A new heart, breaking mine was a crime
I need fresh faith, I need to believe
She took my breath so how can I live?
Ain't letting her off the hook in one piece
Everyone'll understand my need for justice
I'm suing on behalf of my fallen soul
I'm suing a nocturnal, a heartless owl
I need compensation for the emptiness
She too should feel the weight of her mess
Unless she decides to return here
And help me clean up the fear
I'm having her arrested for being careless
She lost my heart, I'm being heartless

With every attempt
By the cockerel to crow
So did his comb grow

it's sadness that
drives me mad
the madness that
makes me sad
it's a sadness tears
can't explain
the sadness which as
a scar will also pain
it's one words can't
put into context
I just gotta live
under the pretext
of hope of the end
yet it's one
which never
ends...

You could leave on the next jet plane
And go to whatever destination
Without having to explain
Without I asking any question
You could walk out that door
With your bags and baggage
Take the best car in the lot and go
Covering whatever milage
You can walk away at any time
Incase you feel loving me is tiring
Satiety has never been a crime
Even as a child things kept expiring
You are free to leave though its bound to hurt
Venture far away but I'll still have you in my heart

The sky still bleeds orange at dawn
The road still meanders on
The rivers still battle the falls and rapids
The cattle home run in stumpedes
The ocean always looks constantly still
And my pride is still such a bitter pill
The Mvule still sheds her beautiful leaves
My ear still eaves, my soul still grieves
The mountain top is still a silver blur
And the missing shards linger somewhere on the floor
The cranes still sing within the rhythm of dusk
My mind is fatigued trying to accomplish the task
Of saying goodbye and forgetting about it all
Even if my sub conscious still hears your voice call
The bed still shivers and clings to the fragrance of you
And the "I" in my alphabet still really loves "U"

invisible to many...
I seldom stand out
and I only stand tall
when I
speak,
for my
voice
is
my
feet...

said all songs come to an end
had never listened to this
everlasting beautiful
melody of my
melancholy.

The day the story of
my existence started
manacled by fate since 93
tomorrow I turn 23
Gone from a little boy
to a lad with a unique ploy
Happy Birthday to me
Someday I'll find serenity
in this insanity
midst these chains I'll be free
While at it I'll blow candles
for this courtesy humbles
Tomorrow I'm born again
to this life of pain
Someday there'll be sunshine
even if after decades of rain
I have hope...that's what matters
for better someday things'll change

Life was once an adventure
How beautiful it was to sail the ocean
to raise sails and battle waves
months at Sea awaiting the destination
Life was life when we took trains
and slowly made our way across
all kinds of terrains, viewing hills
illuminated by the Sun's rays
when we sat astride beautiful horses
and journeying was taking the reins
breathing hot and cold air and
feeding on the chocolate atmosphere
riding all night through moon's glow
it was joy taking the stairs
even if it was to the sixteenth floor
Writing letters with glamorous words
to the loved ones so far away
and sometimes having to wait years
to receive the dusty envelopes bearing
the breathtaking responses...
Life was something to look forward to
until we shunned ships for planes
where we shoot through the sky,
shunned Trains for these Taxis
which just fly, until we invented
elevators so people know not the
satisfaction of taking the stairs...
until we invented smart phones and
abandoned the beauty of letters
Life was fun but we pushed Horses
behind bars in parks and the zoos
after all those hoofs can't stand
the tarmac and there are no more
hills and Sunsets to see because
we've congested the skyline with
Storeys and scrappers
Then we judge the world unfair
yet we're the ones who don't care
The world was a paradise
during those good old days
until we became demons of change
and twisted a heaven into Hell...

Find me where roads divide
so that we can walk together our always
Let's be wilting Roses
and find within us some rain
Cultivate some pleasure
out of our loneliness and pain
Let's start from the end
and maybe find the start
Let forever be our beginning
and infinity be our stop
Let's take off from the sky
so that eternity's our limit...
before we take a stand
Let's have our destiny in hand
say goodbye at Hello
and Hello at goodbye
suffocate at dawn and
at dusk of our affection sigh
Let's start from the chilling twilight
in the cold of moonlight
and conclude in warmth of Sunlight

Forgetting about you, I doubt I can
It's difficult erasing memories engraved to the heart
Others will come but you'll forever be the one
Even if the end was something that badly hurt
Others will be blown my way by fate
But none of them will match the expectations
And that's something on which I'm willing to place a bet
For haven't enjoyed a thing for long like these dedications
You know exactly which song will heal
You know exactly where to touch and make me weak
You make me swallow my pride such a bitter pill
Even when I'm supposed to be cruel you make me meek
I believe you'll forever live in my head
Even if you've never blessed my cold bed

night
has
a
day
and
everyday
has
a
night

I still remember the taste
I still see your tears
I still think you're the best
One who helped face my fears

I still believe time won't steal
The memories and moments
Besides the pain that I feel
And this'll forever be my torments

I still know your digits
Not on paper but my head
I wish I'd known the limits
Before our love was dead

I still remember the first and last kiss
And they're vividly  robbing my peace

I'm sorry I thought it was a game
I'm sorry I played with your pain
I'm sorry you mistook me for him
I'm sorry I have no chance to explain
It's all I can, not even once I swear on my soul
Could I imagine being mistaken for Paul

You also wish it was different, said your eyes
You tried to camouflage it with *****
But then I saw it for eyes tell know lies
I saw each and every emotional bruise
You also wanted a good and happy end
Though It's high time we forgave the past
For every road and river is bound to bend
And tough people do,tough times don't last
We were a thing even we will never be again
But we wasn't good enough for each other
It's high time we learn to dance ib the rain
Rather than simply blaming the weather
Even fairy tales no longer own happy conclusions
Let's just agree such were childhood illusions

there's
a
revolution
raging
on
within
me,
don't
get
caught
in
the
crossfire

On a brighter note,
the 1000 poems I wrote
to get over you might
change a million
lives someday,
so thank you for
the Heartbreak...
It was probably the
best lecture life's
ever given me...