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320 · Jan 2019
Beg
Hello Daisies Jan 2019
Beg
Bouncing
   Bouncing
          Bounce
On top

Thrusting
      Thrusting
            ******
Inside

  Pouring
      Pouring
            Pour
All over

Locking
     Locking
           Lock
Me up

Gagging
     Gagging
             Gag
Me down

Zoning
     Zoning
            Zone
Out

Dreaming
       Dreaming
              Dream
All about it

Giving
   Giving
        Give
Me it

Pleasures
  What i seek

Im on my knees
           Not weak
              But begging

  For it
Hi
Take from this what you may
#poetry #depression #*** #dream
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319 · Feb 2019
Camelot
Hello Daisies Feb 2019
Camelot
Green peace and trees
Orange leaves and sun
Following the blonde strands
Whisping along

Deep reds and purples
Blue mystic lakes
Diving into brunette silk
Marching forward

Friendship and tears
Trust built into love
Bonding a legend
No man could ****

Dragons and ancient tongues
Wars and proud kings
Deep into crimson red
Flowing royal death

Secrets and mysteries
The future and the past
Destiny and youth
Tied around your heart

The love of a man
The tears of a loss
Broken soul holding on
To a gold warrior
Ever so strong

Bittersweet as a broken heart
Like friends who grew a part
Keep it inside your soul forever more
Just don't let the sadness keep you
On the floor
Hi yes i love the show merlin and the legends of king arthur
#king #arthur #love #bittersweet #merlin #romance #sad #broken #heart #dragons
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314 · Mar 2019
Dear father
Hello Daisies Mar 2019
Dear father
Dear father
I love you
I say it everyday
It must be true

I've been hurting for years
Finding love in people
Who only wanted to use me

I've been blaming myself
I've been blaming everyone else
Never admitting the truth

I don't hate anyone
I promised myself i wouldn't become
Someone who could

My memories haunt me
Every day you taunted me
And disregarded my feelings

I sat in a corner
I was only a child
Your eyes were wild

Wild with anger
I always felt in danger
Never for a moment at ease

Yet i wonder where i get anxiety
You only did as you pleased
You claim you love me

I tremble around men
I tremble around loud noises
I never knew what joy was

I heard you yelling
And all the evil things you were telling
To my mother everynight

You ****** wished i didn't exist
I took too much food from the shopping list
I was only but a burden in your way

Yet you cry for us to stay
I was your precious little girl
Once told me i was your whole world

Then you snapped
You never came back
You broke me apart

Tore apart my whole heart
I still can't admit it
The person i hate the most is

Because i don't hate
I won't be like you
Clouding yourself in anger

Every broken memory i have
Is me crying while you laugh
You never did encourage me

If you did i can't remember
God i feel like a traitor
For saying how i truly feel

I need to let it out
Yes i dare to pout
You won't shame me anymore

Dear father,
I hate you
I didnt like writing or feeling this but ive been feeling this my entire life. I love my father but i hate him as well for all tbe stuff he put my family through. Still.
#family #love #hate #father #pain #hurt
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305 · Aug 2019
Loose
Hello Daisies Aug 2019
Loose
You're a ***** ***** ****
I feel it in my gut
The desire
Bring me higher

Come inside me
Baby find me
Expand my horizons
Yell at me more it's fun

I probably shouldn't
Younger me wouldn't
But I'm so curious
**** me til I'm delirious

Take me out back
My mind's out of whack
My dreams are wet
Touch me without fret

I need to let loose
On you
#*** #desire #emotionsnsfw
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305 · Aug 2024
Childhood
Hello Daisies Aug 2024
Childhood
I can hear the school parade
I can hear the football being played
The Cheers and joy
The announcer
Filling my ears
Void

It's a strange feeling
You know
To hear something fun
And feel so
Cold

Deep in my soul
It's something
I'll never know
It's haunting
It's daunting

I want to know
The sweet bliss
Perhaps the secret
Romance
I was never given
A chance
Never more than a
Simple glance
Of a life

I had pain
I had restrains
I was detained
And remained
To feel shame
Touched
And abused
Cursed
And used
Never finding
The truth
Only searching for
Hidden clues
Trapped in a tower
Forever waiting
On the hour

Waiting for what?
My life to change
Waiting for who?
Someone who could
Remain
With me
Free me from chains
Take away my Shame
Never give me an ounce
Of blame

It never came
Nobody comes
When you're crying
Alone
Nobody comes
When you want to leave
The devil's throne
Nobody
Nobody
There was
Nobody
For me
Nobody
With me
Nobody
To help
Me

Cut the poetry
To state it simply
I wanted
What I desired
So evilly
Was to be a kid
To have a childhood
To be loved
And understood
To feel safe
And never hurt
To be hugged
And loved for my worth
To never be touched
My any man
Who's simply
"Misunderstood"

I wanted
Something everyone
Deserves
I wanted a love
With all the words
I wanted to be free
From my broken
World
I wanted
To never have to
Curl and cry
And wish
To die

I wanted
To stop asking
And praying
Why?
I wanted
My parents to love me
And give me life
Instead they gave me
A knife
And led me to believe
It was life

I wanted to be comforted
And told it's okay
I wanted to be told I wasn't
To blame
I wanted a sister
Who would stand by me
I wanted not to be told
I'm just too whiny

I wanted to feel alive
And laugh and cry
Without being
Blinded
I want to rewind
And tell that little girl
It's not a ******* crime
To ask for a dime
Of love
And a gentle reaffirming hug
From someone you looked
Up To

What's the use?
I wanted the whole world
I wanted to be Cinderella
And run away from my parents
To discover the stars
To dance on Mars
To show the whole universe
And more
What it means to love
What it means to give
And cherish
Never knowing a day of
Perish
I would have been so alive
I would have never wished
To die
Never asking why
Can't I be in the sky
Away from everything
Alone and a ghost
Because being here
Is living in unrelenting
Fear

I just wanted
To simply
Never be hurt
I wanted to be a child
Who knew what it meant
To *******
Smile
I write a lot of poems that are very open but for some reason I feel like I really let myself open up here and I'm crying lol I guess I've been denying that my childhood doesn't affect me anymore. It's August and it brings back bad memories.
#childhood #abuse #sad #anxiety
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303 · Oct 2018
Isolation
Hello Daisies Oct 2018
Isolation
Heart pounding
Through my ears
My eyes bleed
With my current fears

It's quiet here
There's no sound
My body falls
Into the ground

I've made a mess
It's flashing in my mind
Where did everyone go
I'm left behind

I'm in isolation
The walls are talking to me
I left this cell so long ago
But the shadows came back for me

My vision is fogged
My ears are pumping
With the sound of silence
My body won't stop jumping

Isolation is my fear
There are demons in my head
They are pounding through me
They want me dead
Currently been alone for a while with massive nightmares and panic attacks. Guess thats fine. have a lovely night everyone ❤
#demons #shadows #panic #anxiety #isolation #dark #evil #mania
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303 · Dec 2018
Love
Hello Daisies Dec 2018
Love
Isn't it amazing
How one can fall from Grace
For one person to keep safe

Or how one person
Can never lose faith
Even when it's screaming in his face

They can fight battles
And demons alike
And smile together at the end of the night

Give up every last power
Be weak or strong doesnt matter
And share every laughter

And yet still be unsure
Unsure if the other has affection
Unsure if the other wants their attention

It's right there
As plain as anyone can see
You love eachother so easily

So shout it out loud
Don't let fear take it away
Before you lose another day
This may have been inspired by supernatural but its true. Sometimes it's plain as anyone can see that two people like each other but doubt always takes over and stops yoy from saying how you really feel
#supernatural #love #grace #crush #romance #afraid #shy #sweet
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302 · May 2019
Moon
Hello Daisies May 2019
Moon
I looked upon her
The glow on the lake
Long and vast

I looked to her left
The deep blue
Makes me feel small

All I saw
Was beauty and despair
Whispering in her air

I cried to her
I talked and pleaded
Her glow did not answer

Oh sweet beauty
She's but a msytery
And I fear my life

Even while staring upon her
Is but misery
#moon #sad #depression #suicide
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297 · Mar 2022
Pretend to be
Hello Daisies Mar 2022
Pretend to be
I took the memories
Poured them down the drain
I do not retain
A single stain

My passed is gone forever
Its a little too clever
Or so I thought

If I erased my past
It would always last
She comes to me whispering

My dreams of her haunt
In a dungeon of taunts
The pain flaunts

The doctor asks what's wrong
I can't sing the song
I've forgotten from so long

It plagues my being
I'm still sitting there weeping
Blocked away from my frontal lobe

I am like a globe
I begin to mope
If shook around

If left alone I'll be bland
No harm or evil plans
My brain is at ease

I shake at night in my dreams
I'm left with awful feelings
Uncertainty what it means

I shiver and hurt
Pain hidden under my shirt
The scars are there

My heart is bare
I swear it so
I am not broke

Not anymore
For this I must be sure
I am a new girl

I do not know the other
Must not speak of her ever
If you are clever

Leave it behind
Pay it no mind
Or else I'll lose mine

Living like this is fine
The nightmares are for sleep
The new me isnt for the weak
What you can see is free
I can pretend
That is me
I'm free
Or so it seems
#free #life #ptsd
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294 · Jul 2024
Melody
Hello Daisies Jul 2024
Melody
Have you ever heard
A melody
A toon
A song
So sad
You had to scream
Turn that off

That's me
That's where I belong
But,
You would only be mad
If I said no,
Keep it on.
#melody #song #sad #depression
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292 · Jun 2019
Autumn
Hello Daisies Jun 2019
Autumn
I wish for autumn
The flowing leaves
The crisp Smell
The chilly dew

Autumn is so rare
These days we only get
Hot air and heavy breathing
Burning sun and burnt skin

There's no win
If you love autumn
It comes and goes
Quicker then my woes

I wish I lived
In nonstop autumn
The oranges and reds
The fairies and witches
Roaming amok

something about the moon
Glosses over in fog
With bats flying above
Leaves me feeling in love

My heart aches for these days
But come they may
They leave and I feel betrayed
For then everything dies

Like my heart
In the winter cries
I can't help it
I hate everything in life
But the beautiful chill
Of October
I'm longing for this
#autumn #october #halloween #depression #love
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291 · Mar 2019
Dry
Hello Daisies Mar 2019
Dry
I'm dry
Heart hurts inside
My eyes leak
Of sand

I was wet
Around you
I really felt
Like a flower

I bloomed
But now
I feel shrivled
And cold

I'm not falling apart
But it does hurt
Quite a lot
To be thrown aside

I could have stayed away
not felt this crackling pain
I chose to go
I needed to feel it all

Every hurt i felt before
Was sick and twisted
This time it's sad and hurtful
But finally normal

It was a slap in the face
How quickly i was replaced
I stole those lines from a song
I can finally relate my pain too

I know I'll move on
I'm not traumatized by this
My lips may tear from it
But i know I'll find water

I had a special moment with you
I was swept into a beautiful misty dew
I always knew
It would end like this

I was wet with you
Then i saw her
the alcohol spewed
Into me

I felt dry
Had to replenish
With the poison
To my heart

You're an *******
This i know
But i don't regret
This wild oat

I sewed it
We had fun
You held me
And then were gone

I may be okay
I may understand
But don't think for a second
I'll let you off

You had no reason
To hurt me this way
No reason to rub it in my face
I'm ******* as hell

Normally i let things go
I cry and feel ashamed
Not this time
I see what's to blame

You screamed my name
We we're *******
And friends
There was no reason

To throw it away
Sleep with someone else
I don't care
Until you ignore me

I'm fed up
With being hurt
And it being ok
You're gonna pay

Grow the **** up
End things proberly
You ******* pig
Just watch out

I know how to win
I won't be walked over anymore
I'll steal all your girls
And treat them better

Then I'll ******* wreck you
And continue my life
Feeling oh so much
Better

We could have been friends
And left it at that
But you made sure
To ******* ruin that

I'm doing okay
I really am
Except my lips burn
Into my empty hand
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289 · Jul 2019
Deep love
Hello Daisies Jul 2019
Deep love
You're beautiful
You're smart
Charming
And funny

I love the way your hair twirls
I love the way your lips curl
I love your style
And the way you make me smile

But anyone could tell you this
But on a deeper note
I'd like to reminisce
Of all the lovely bliss

Looking at you was like the stars
Like driving in speeding cars
So exciting but always gone
Too fast

My feelings for you are vast
They seem to always last
Since I was a little lonely child
I met you and my life became
Wild

With emotions
I didn't know I even had
You are so amazing
You're not perfect
And I love every single flaw
That makes you who you are

I like seeing you happy
I love hearing your goals
You could marry someone else
And while heartbroken as I may be
I'd also still be so happy

Your soul brings me warmth
Maybe this is too much
But you're the first one
Who ever made me feel
Love

The first to excite me
Make me laugh and feel
Less lonely
Maybe you know
Maybe you don't

Doesn't matter
As long as I can know you
And be a friend
I'll be happy
Until the end
#love #emotions #bittersweet #affection #cute
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289 · Jun 2019
Summer enemies
Hello Daisies Jun 2019
Summer enemies
Skin too hot
I'm a moth in a flame
I want to take a one way train
Somewhere colder

Maybe when I'm older
I'll understand the wasps
And why they sting so hard
No one likes a bard

Yet here I am
Must be a nuisance
To the ears of my enemies
Though I still consider most them friends

Wait til the week ends
Til theirs a new trend
They'll bring a patch
For my stung grasp

Let me sit in the grass
Ripping it off the ground
That's the only good I've found
When you are all around

Keep me by the dirt
My enemies lay here close
As they should be
The grass must be why they're all so
Green
#life #summer #symbolism #hot #enemies #friends #lies
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288 · Dec 2018
Sleepless
Hello Daisies Dec 2018
Sleepless
Dead
  Dead
         Dead
    
  Burning
      Stirring
              Stabbing
Twisting

Sad all the time
Dead until nine
The stabbing starts at bed
My body isnt dead
Emotions must not have been informed

Let me s l e e p
Tired
        Drained
               RestLESs

Take this pill
God I'm fragile
Needles in my arms
They're not causing real harm
It's just my lover
              
                               AGONY
I wrote this while trying to sleep i feel numb everyday but when i try to sleep i cry and anxiety burns through my arms :')
#anxiety #depression #sleep #insomia #sad #panic #agony #numb
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288 · Apr 2020
Easy mornings
Hello Daisies Apr 2020
Easy mornings
Soft morning dew
Chilly air and blankets
Fruity cereal and tv
Comfort my soul

Warm enough for sun
Cold enough for wind
I settle in my grin
The calming nature inside
I can't help but abide

Bring me flowers
Bring me joy
I feel yellow
I feel buzzing

The grass is green
The lawn is mowed
I watch my tv
And feel my soul
#calm #peace #bliss #spring #autumn #nostalgic
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287 · Dec 2018
Royalty
Hello Daisies Dec 2018
Royalty
Oh royalty that you are
Let me bow down before the
I doth not deserve to be in thy presence

You have made it be known
From all that you've shown
That you are a mighty one
While  i am not but dumb

Oh my king let me apologize
For i have disgraced you
My sight has tarnished your eyes

I am so low
It must show
When others see you
I must look as a ***** shoe

Thy queen is smart and wealthy
I am but a weakminded ignorant imbecile
I'm astonished I even knew of such big words

You couldn't be more right
Everything you say is so bright
Thanks for showing me
How truly pathetic i must be
A lot of people patronize me and I'm sick of it
#sarcasm #royalty #anger #annoyed #emotional
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285 · May 2024
Is she gone
Hello Daisies May 2024
Is she gone
Every day I hear a song
I see a place
Or a familiar face
And my heart aches

Of a place
Of a time
Of a special rhyme

The entire time
I thought
I missed you
I longed
For us
that's not what it was
It's not what it is

I found myself in you
When you left
I left too
I've been gone
I'm still searching
For her
For me
For what I was
And want to be

This poem isn't about you
It's about me
Finding me
I've been gone
For so long
God I miss her
Her power
Her kindness
Her braveness
Her tenacity
Everything
That used to be me

Where is she
Buried in sadness
Buried in sickness
Coughing
Crying
Dying
Lying
Into
My grave
One foot
Away
I guess I'm pretty brave
For someone who's a slave
To my own body
My own mind
I feel like nobody
I don't see the stars
I don't feel the love
I just know pain
And shame

Where's the girl
With all the hope in the world
So much so
She healed others
And brothers
And sisters
The whole world
Would be healed
By the girl
With all the passion
In the world

She's gone
Gone
Gone
I'm crying for her
The memories of her
Laughing
And loving
Not ever knowing
Even more cruelty
To come

Only knowing
A one way road trip
To fun
beauty,  bravery
And sincerity
Everything
With such clarity
Wasted away
Three years or probably more now
I lost count
In my bed
Body full of rusted lead
Poisoning my head

I may as well be dead
Somewhere out there
Lost in a service plaza
Killed by monsters
And death himself
Swallowed me up
And never spit me out
#depression #life #sad #pain
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281 · Jan 2019
Breaking out
Hello Daisies Jan 2019
Breaking out
Twisting
Turning
Banging
Where's the key

It's no mystery
The mess inside
It's pouring out
I want to hide

Breaking
Pushing
Screaming
Lock it up

Make it shut up
Keep the door closed
clawing it's way through
In fear my mind froze

Piercing
Throbbing
Screeching
Bolt it down

It's breaking my crown
Should i end it's life?
I can't find the key
Maybe death will stop this strife
My own thoughts will be the death of me
#anxiety #insecure #thoughts #life
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281 · Jan 2019
Broken
Hello Daisies Jan 2019
Broken
I try to be positive
Think of the good
Say no to the dark

Yet the spark
That i try to relive
turns to dust

Sadness without trust
Stressed thoughts overwhelm
All i see is bad things to come

I can't stop taking lithium
I don't want to be alone
But this partner is too toxic

Happy thoughts inside a dark pit
The shadows won't go away
I am tortured in my dreams

Light died within the seams
It all fell out
I wish i was empty

All that's left of me
Is a shattered soul
Waiting to go home
I cant seem to make my bad thoughts go away. Even when i think kf something good that happneed ot somehow turns bad in my mind. I give up
#broken #depression #sad #soul #suicide #dreams
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280 · Jul 2019
Dancing with "wolves"
Hello Daisies Jul 2019
Dancing with "wolves"
I want to dance
Dance with wolves
Under the stars
Swirling around
Brim stones burning

I hear the howling
I fear the growling
The Sparks around
Crumble beneath the ground

Up here I dissapear
There's too many
I'm a lone wolf
Always dancing alone
I've emptied my own pond

It was never deep enough
Too shallow to share
Everyone became bare
Found an ocean
Swam into it
Paddled away happily

I want to dance with wolves
Around the warmth of the moon
Warming trust
Becoming stronger
My pain lingers
Only gaps in my fingers

This heart inside me
It's cold and empty
It's so common to say
Be that it may
But..
Doesn't mean it hurts any less
Who must I impress
How much can I press
That I'm scared
I'm so alone
I just want to know
I want to be shown
Love and comfort
But I've lost

So much of me
It's too late
I lost any chance
Of dancing
With others
Happily

Help me
Please God
Someone save me
It hurts so much
I can not hide it with silly metaphors
Break the code
Break the show
I'm broken
I'm hurting
I'm unable to love
Unable to believe in up above

Please God let my soul rest
I cannot stress
How much
Everything ******* hurts

   My dreams are dark
I'm tired of "wolves"
Of pretending
I just want
The final ending

Please
:(
#depression #sad #lonely #pain #wolves #love #stars #metaphors
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278 · Jun 2019
5am
Hello Daisies Jun 2019
5am
It's 5am I cannot sleep
I can't even weep
I lie here awake
Listening to my heart beat
It breaks
Everytime I
Breathe
#tired #sleepless #sad
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278 · Jun 2019
High tide
Hello Daisies Jun 2019
High tide
I was so high
I went up with the tide
Brave and flowing
Going further
Without knowing

That tides crash
They crash hard
they go so fast
It was beautiful

Now it's hitting
The surface
The dry sand
Is soaking in the tide
The fallen tide hits

It doesn't quit
It goes up so far
But sometimes
The tide doesn't come
The water stays still

You crave the high
Let it hit your soul
Let it take you it's fun
Flow into it with the sun
But be careful

Remember the crash
You may slip deep into her
Water bubbling through
You cannot breathe
It's overwhelming
   D
r
o
w
    n
i
n
g
    

    Drowning
H e l p
You'll sink
No one will ever hear
You are betrothed to fear
It's dark
Bones are frozen
Will I be lost forever?
Lost inside this high tide?

     Should I go with the flow?
      Or fight the beast that is
    The ocean
Went to the beach today
Was feeling great for a while
Til I sank back down tonight and started crying

And by great I mean overwhelmed with thoughts and ideas and love and too much
#life #bipolar #ocean #beach #depression #sad #fight
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276 · Mar 2019
Crush
Hello Daisies Mar 2019
Crush
Pound
Pound
My heart beats
But it's not bad

Churn churn
My stomach twirls
But it's kinda nice

Dizzy dizzy
My head feels
But it's kinda fun

i feel nervous
Forget how to function
It's been forever since
I wrote a verse

A verse of twinkling
A song of curiosity
A fluff of fuzzy feelings
Ive got this funny feeling

You see
You're adorable
But i don't even know you
I want to try
But I'm so shy

I don't flirt
I run and hide
I think you're cute
How do i make this work

I gotta crush
It's almost nauseating
You got me flustered
But I enjoy this rush

So tell me, ***
How do I
Get more out of you
Then a look and
Run
Its been forver since i got all flustered over a boy
And as my past goes i always mess it up *** i got stupid anxiety and I'm weird and run away
#crush #cute #boy #romance #life #love #emotion
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276 · Apr 2019
Summer and winter
Hello Daisies Apr 2019
Summer and winter
Burn me
Burn me
Burn
Me

You're yellow like a daisy
I'm blue like a raindrop
I'm falling
Falling
Fell
Into the warmth of summer

I was in love with winter
But it only led to
Dispair

My eyes reopened
To the sight of the deep hues
Of summer blooming
Bees flying
And pollinating
Life

I was dead
Blowing over
Into frozen ice
And melted
Dirt

A seed found me
Gave me new life
To grow
Grow
Growing
Into what
I do not know
But it's
Pleasant

The snow has her beauty
But it leaves you cold
And empty

You're a yellow sunflower
Green with strength
Pedals ever so soft
And cute
I smile with you
Waving all about

Perk me up
As you do so sweetly
In the light of the sun
Is this summer fun?
I always ran
Ran
Running
But my god
You're so
Stunning

I decided to stop
And smell the roses
Such delight you bring
To my nose
I have arose
From my sorrowful slumber
I see you
An adorable
Wonder!

Bloom with me if you please
For i fear if you blow away
I'll let autumn bring me down
And drown again
In my frozen
Lake
Shhh im having these weird girly feelings
#flowers #summer #winter #crush #love #cute #sweet #sad #bittersweet
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275 · Jul 2019
Erotic gloss
Hello Daisies Jul 2019
****** gloss
Cherry bliss
Red summer lips
Reaching for a kiss

Lip gloss glaze
Lost in your haze
You start to graze

Mascara smeared eyes
Leaking from the skies
Raindrop tongue in disguise

Romantic red gown
Tracing through that frown
I hope to be seeing you around

Every touch of you
Is a new exciting hue
Lost in your Misty dew

*** and glitter
I have no filter
**** me through the winter

All year round
Lost and found
With you until I hit the ground
#*** #love #summer #winter
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272 · Apr 2023
Make magic
Hello Daisies Apr 2023
Make magic
Breathe breathe
Let the calming music
Take you in
Let yourself grin

Feel the light
The nostalgia
The childhood innocence
The laughter
For here after

Remember the past
remember the good times
Not just that darkness
Remember
The happy
Times
They are there
They are everywhere

Maybe some memories
Once happy
Still hurt too much
Move on
To happier ones
A time before
Your heart tore

Smile today
Smile and play
Life has a way
Of making us sway
Into complete
Chaos
So take time
To release
Take time to
Feel at ease

Some memories
Have a hold on me
They make me feel
A way I can't explain
I can touch them still
Feel then on my back
Feel the air, the walls,
Every crack
It was such a special time
The perfect crime
It's over now
It hurts
But remember
It was once happy
The best days of my life
So make more
Of those
Days
Make more times  
To play
A special place to
Stay
For later
When I feel alone
I can look inside
And find a home
Make those memories
Make that magic
Breathe the air
That gives you life
Feel it in every bone
Make it special
Make it known
Love loud
Love proud
Don't ever
Ever
Let this life
Keep you down
❤️
#hope #life
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270 · Apr 2019
Galaxies
Hello Daisies Apr 2019
Galaxies
I feel
       shining
S h i m m e r i n g
Galaxies
In my heart

I see yellow
S wi~rling
Magic
In your soul

I see the stars
In the colors
Of the day

   The milky way
Is but a step away
In your eyes

I see love
From all
Like a blackhole
Breaking me into it
Never escaping

Twinkling
   Twinkle
              Twinkle
Little beauty
   You are everywhere
I can see it in most everyone

But i don't think
They see it
In
Me
:(
#love #stars #galaxy #lonely #space #beauty
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266 · Jan 2019
Me
Hello Daisies Jan 2019
Me
the more i grow
The more i see
Myself i know

Is disgusting

Never did i realize
Just how dark
The pain is in these eyes

It's disturbing

Finding myself
I want to stop
Can i be someone else

I'm a freak

Everything i hated
Never would i dare
Now it makes me elated

Soon I'll burn

I never was pure
Everyone insisted
I wanted to be sincere

Maybe i don't care

I'm selfish
I want to do this
It gives me small bliss

How sick

It's wrong
Others are hurt
Make the voices be gone

The sun never shines for me
:/ even when im happy its wrong
#dark #sad #anxiety #depression #self #growth
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265 · Jun 2022
Be happy
Hello Daisies Jun 2022
Be happy
Be happy
Be happy
Be happy
Be happy
Be happy
Be happy
b e happy
Be h a ..ppy
Be happy
Be happy
Be HAppy
Be haPPY
BE HAPPY
BE HAAAPPY
BE HAPPPPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
BE
HAPPY
B E
      HAPPY
B
E
H
A
P
Y
BE
*******
HAPPY

BE
      *******
H A  P P Y

I'm trying to remember
To be happy
They say it's a choice
I just have to tell myself
Stop crying
Be happy
I keep telling myself
Stop crying
Be happy
I'll repeat myself
Stop crying
Be happy
When will it work
Or will I just keep
Repeating myself
Stop crying
Be happy
The words lose meaning
It's just gibberish
It's mush
I'm mush
Can I love myself
Can I believe myself
Can I choose to leave
My suffering
I want to stop crying
I want to stop breaking
My own heart
It hurts
So everything hurts
Down the hole I go
Dark and desperate
Crying all the time
But if I tell myself
To smile
Will it help
For awhile
Then I'll fall
Crash into the abyss
Loneliness
My solitude
Give me no gratitude
Let me loathe myself
Til I can climb the hole
And breathe again
Does it really work
I keep trying
A broken record
I'm annoying for sure
But here I go

Be happy
Loser
Be happy
Poser
Be happy
Whiner
Be happy
Be happy
Be happy
Failure
Be happy
I can't seem to just
Be happy
Let my body rest
Let me do things I love
I can always climb above
But it takes me unreasonably long
To stop the dreadful song
And just be ******* happy
Or least
Halfway content

Just
Something
That isn't
This suffering
Love myself
Ha
And forgive myself
Ha
And forget the bad
Haha
And be
Content
For just
A minute
Please
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264 · Sep 2024
To our wedding
Hello Daisies Sep 2024
To our wedding
From untouchable
To wonderstruck
From Xena and Gabrielle
To Damon and Elena
To looking at the stars
And breathing in the moon
From that's the way I loved you
To a thousand years

With laughter
And heart
Running away
To a jump start
Faith and hope
Everyone telling us
You are
The poems I always
Wrote

You are the love
I sought for
The wonderstruck
And enchanted
Dancing in the snow
Or breathing in October
You and me
Once drunk
Now sober

We are everything
My heart dreamed
Lying in a cold car
Singing wonderstruck songs
Playing along in my dreams
Never to be
Never to be
Yet here we are
More than I dreamed

More then I could know
Unselfish love
Innocent like a dove
Laughing and hugs
Simplicity and the whole **** sky above
We had red
We had blue
I have you
You have me
To pink
And gold
To all I ever want to know
To your heart
And my soul

To my best friend
My lover
Heaven always knew
It was destiny
It was meant to be
To Cinderella
And holding you
I'll keep your hoodie
You'll keep my
Sparkling shoe👠
I've been thinking about love and my childhood ideas and hopes on it a lot
#love #hope #fantasy #dream #cinderella #taylor #swift #heaven
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261 · Dec 2018
Bleeding
Hello Daisies Dec 2018
Bleeding
Bleeding:


Thickens
Boils
Spills
*****
Messy

The bleeding will not cease
The green in my eyes are not peace
The adventure is a lie
I take the noose and tie

Bleeding:

Emotional
Pours
Loves
Hates
Desperate

The heart cries out for affection
My mind ceases into detention
I want him to love me
I'll take the price and pay the fee

Bleeding:

Living
Broke
Open
Afraid
Bleeding


I
Am
Bleeding
I wrote this a long time ago too and Hoenstly i realize the stuff ive been writong as of late isnt great like i lost my edge almsot like i forgot how to write? I think it's becauae im forcing myself to write because i don't wamt to not do it but im uninspired so it turns out so bad
#stress #anxiety #abuse #depression #dark #bleeding
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259 · Apr 2021
Learn to breathe
Hello Daisies Apr 2021
Learn to breathe
Racing thoughts pain my brain
Some good
Some old
Some new
Theres so many things
Too many things

I don't know what this brings
But I cannot let go
Of the past
The fear
The love
The torture
Still holds me back

In spring it always attacks
The mania
The false happiness
The desire to start anew
But not sure where to
I'm still afraid
I'm lost
I'm a mess
What can I change

I'm ***** my hairs a mange
My house scattered in filfth
I feel it inside me
I drive fast windows down
I feel so much
The memories consume me
The lust
The ****
The bruises
The excitement
All in one flash

I may act rash
My brain is racing
But my body is lazy
It hurts still
How do I let it go
I want to move on
To live a new life
But to hold onto the old
I cannot do this

Mania mania mania
Screaming screaming
Ahhhhhh fun fun fun
Clean! CleAN
C L E AN MY FILFTH
START NEW
RUN
R. U. N.
FASTER
WHERE WHERE WHERE
HELP


I cannot fathom how to let it go
How to breathe in peace
My thoughts forever consume me
They always win
I just want to live
I suppose
Fresh happy and cleansed

When will I learn to breathe ?
I've been away but I felt inspired by the spring time emotions I get
#anxiety #ptsd #love #pain #depression
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256 · Aug 2019
My autumn
Hello Daisies Aug 2019
My autumn
Caught in the midnight dew
The sense of autumn is in you
I get lost in the silk of your hair
For your eyes are too much to bare

My tummy twist and turns
Butterflies every single turn
As the leaves fall And the cold follows
A glimpse of you scares away all my sorrows

You're like every Taylor swift song
I know you by heart, as I sing along
You remind me of every happy moment
Your smile makes sure I won't forget

You're calm, fun, and charming
Never too alarming
You're a breeze into many souls
You're my autumn
Let me be your ghoul
#love #autumn #crush #sweet #romance
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255 · Jul 2019
Reality
Hello Daisies Jul 2019
Reality
Reality breaks
Reality is fake
My heart is a pancake
Thick and crumbling
C
R
U
m
b
l
e

Afraid to feel
I can not heal
Life around me
Starts to peal
Leaving nothing but
Exposed flesh
OooozING

Lay me on the floor
It's my source of comfort
It's close to the earth
My only warmth
Keeps burying me
D
  O
    W
           N
           N
          N
            Never have I felt
  A sense of true comfort
My brain unravels
Either numb
Or sadness
Mixed with madness
Mad
     Mad
Mad    mad
Mad
Sad
It's buried so deep
Which reality is real
Can I really feel
Like I used to
Or was that a dream
Hmmmm
So it seams

I'm lost
In this dimension
Blue and gray
Swirling snow in May
Falling
Under water
Bubbling in my

Lungs

I'm too high strung
I'm too far gone
Everything feels wrong
Where do I belong
I keep singing the song
But I forgot the chorus
My brain tries to floor it
I out wore it
Now it's torn
R I P P E D to s hReDS
I'll get on my bed

And wait to be dead

Maybe then I'll find
Everything I left behind
#feelings #sad #manic #emotions #depressed #bipolar #lost
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254 · Mar 2019
Sky
Hello Daisies Mar 2019
Sky
Moon look upon me
Im fall
          l

          l
          i
         n
         g
Into you

Sun hide me
Im bUrning
       N
       D
       E
       R
your light

Dear stars
You s h i n e
I want you
Forever mine

Galaxies in the sky
Fantasies in your eyes
Twirling blue and black
Depth they do not lack

Clouds bring me rain
Pour unto me reflections
Puddles Within
Are you my other world twin

Thunder scream and roar
Into my soul
I feel thy strength
Soaring overboard

Elements of the sky
I look above and cry
Some tears of sorrow
Others of hope for tomorrow

You are loud
Most colorful
With unexpected surprises
Bringing curiosity into lives

My eyes see
Into the moons eyes
The light shadow
Bring me warmth sitting on my
                                patio
The night sky is so beautiful where i live. I can see so many stars
I feel at peace a bit right now
#stars #imagery #joy #night #elements #peace #moon #sun #life #earth
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254 · Jun 2023
Ever so
Hello Daisies Jun 2023
Ever so
I'd sit up all night
Waiting
Excited
Exhilarated
For the big event

Then it would come
And go
Come and go
Ever so
Then it's gone

I'd wait for so long
Then it's gone

As a child
I couldn't wait
To be 16
Sixteen came
And went
I can barely recall
The time spent
At sixteen

As a teen
As a child
As a young adult
It comes and goes
Comes and goes
Ever so
Til it's gone
Doesn't this feel wrong

I wait so long
For memories
That were once strong
To fade along
The shore line
Til they sink
Sink down
Never found
Again

Every memory
Every moment
Goes away
Fades away
We all try to ignore it
All try to stay
Okay
Like it's normal
To live this way
These short lives
Meaningless til we
All eventually die
And all we have
All we hold
Is memories
Waiting to unfold
Then fade
Fade
Come and go
Come and go
Til they're gone
Stardust
Crumbles
To just dust
The wind carries it away
Never even a last word to say
It's just gone
Gone

Maybe that's why we have
Songs
They stick with us
They stay with our hearts
We sing to them
We never forget
The melodies
That touch us so
Even if they fade
They still find a way
To stay

They come and go
Come and go
But the melody helps us
Remember it so
Ever so

It's all I hold onto
The melodies
Of all my memories
Because they are fading
Fading ever so
It hurts me to hold
What wants to be let go
It hurts
To see my life
Keep passing by
I have no power
To slow
Slow
Slow anything down
So I turn up the sound
Of the melodies
To keep me above
Ground

It all comes and goes
Comes and goes
Til it's gone
Ever so
But the melodies
That play in tune
With your soul
They hold you
They slow you
They show you
What you are missing
What you are grasping for
That's what the songs are for

Til it's all gone
I'll hold on
To every song.
#life #sad #hope
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250 · May 2019
Worn out
Hello Daisies May 2019
Worn out
I feel too much
And it always ends
Stabbing me in the chest

Then I numb myself
To feel less pain
Trying to restrain

Yet this time
I took the risk
I showed my heart beat

Faster faster faster
Ticking ticking
Butterflies swirling

I told you
You were kind
But said you can't be mine

It hurts deep inside
But this time
I'm not going numb

My heart won't let me
It's beating endlessly
Except cruelly

It's been years since I felt
So deeply
Infacuated with another

I never showed my feelings
To someone I wanted
So very dearly

I guess you could say
I'm feeling a bit
Of heartache

It's not traumatizing
But it is agonizing
Slightly terrorizing

I think of you by mistake
It keeps me awake
It's colorful and cute

Then I remember
You said no thanks
Now it's all December

Cold inside me
My heart churns
As I yearn

Yearn to rip me open
And bandage up my swollen
Heart that's been shattered

Shattered a million times
By many different guys
But I think this takes the prize

I saw hope in your eyes
But it's my fault
It was so new and exciting

I was really trying
A bit too hard
Like a worn out ball of yarn

Stringing along
To a new cute song
Patter patter by the paws

Except I always get claws
Stuck inside me
I'm such a dummy

I fall too fast
And too rashly
But lastly

I love too much
Too quickly
For someone always alone
And unsightly
Rejection. Hurts been awhile since it hurt this much but hey I'm used to it is what I amways say yet it hurts more each day
#love #crush #sad #hurt #broken #bittersweet
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242 · Mar 2019
Wounded
Hello Daisies Mar 2019
Wounded
Stab you
STAB
BURN YOU IN YOUR BLOOD

YOU USED ME
I KNOW
YOU ******* ***

REAP WHAT YOU SEW
I'LL TRAMPLE EVERYONE
THAT'S HURT MY SOUL

Ignore me
Throw me aside
Take your fist
And ******* me inside

My face burrowed in despair
My eyes sank into the floor
You sat and laughed right over there

Same as all before
Use me for your needs
And then ignore

Act like no harm was done
While you make way
Using another to ***

I'm tired
  Tired
     Tired

stop using me
Stop throwing me away
Stop ******* ignoring what i say

My eyes shined for you
But just as quick as they did
You threw me in the trash bin

Everytime I let free
The love hiding inside
forced everytime to hide and cry

anger brews my boiling blood
My mind is screaming
Only frigid cold up above

They won't talk to me
So I'll make them scream
******* ***** won't let me breathe

COME CLOSER
I'LL STAB YOU IN THE HEART
YOU CAN FEEL THE SAME AGONY
TEARING ME APART

SHARP PAIN STARTS IN MY CHEST
GOES INWARD
YOU DONT SEEM IMPRESSED

LET ME KEEP STABBING
STABBING
    STAB
         BING
YOU'LL BE ALL ******
AND CRYING

MAYBE YOU'LL UNDERSTAND
HOW PAINFUL CUTS CAN WOUND

CRY OUT FOR ME
BUT MY ATTENTION
HAS CHANGED COMPLETELY
YOU'RE JUST
TRASH
   NOW

I'm sorry you're dying
But how pathetic
   Leave me alone
      Oh stop crying
#paim #dark #sad #angry #suffering #bitter #love
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241 · Apr 2019
above
Hello Daisies Apr 2019
above
Little sparkle
You
glow

Natures beauty
Is starting to
Show

Deep oceans
Skin deep
Wave into M~o~t~i~o~n

Splish splash
My lungs crash

The beauty
Is |p|a|i|n|

Choo Choo
Nostalgia from
An endless train
Recites lost memories
Inside my brain

They whisper
Like the ocean moves

There is faint light
Left from the sparkle
I once sew

I am confused
I am lost
I get so very cross

I see beauty
I feel at home
Then my thoughts
Travel and rome
My heart hurts
As i cry inside

For Im lying
I don't know
Where my home
Ever was

But late night warmth
From the fire place above
Frosted lips
And funny quips

Keeps me dreaming
And writing of fairies
I can find peace
I can find love
If i just keep my mind
On the one above
#peace #love #stars #ocean #beauty #life #lost
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238 · Oct 2018
Freedom
Hello Daisies Oct 2018
Freedom
Everything i write
is about flowers and death
I think this is a sign
I want to be free

I can't take this boxed  in life
I want to run
Any chance i get

Fourty hours work in a hole
Is not who i am
I want to be in the wind

Flowers bloom with color
Their pedals flow through the breeze
Moving through and growing more life

I cannot have such a life
Therefore i want to run
But run to where?
The only solution i ever find

Is death
Death is the only freedom i know
But maybe I'll live
For the promise
That after this hell
We'll all be free
More then we can ever know
I want to be a hippie peace loving rv driving wonderer. But it's harder then it seems in life. Life just brings me down all too often.
#freedom #flowers #death #sad #bittersweet #depressiom #anxiety
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238 · Sep 2024
Closure
Hello Daisies Sep 2024
Closure
I have forgiven
The little girl I was
The naive teenager
The wounds I caused
I have comforted
And shown love
Yet I still felt
Lost and alone
Searching for
The cause

They say find closure
They said look back to her
The little girl
So scared
I didn't understand
I wrote notes
And poems
Sang songs
ignored them
Seeing them
Seeing you
Seeing my past
Hearing you
Father may I
Father I know

You said to not live in fear
Fear is all I know
All ive ever known
I live breathe and eat
With fear beneath my feet
Now I see
I never show anger
I only show fear
Living in silence
letting them run amok
Be slow to anger
It's been long enough
No more fear
I am enough

I am strong enough
I am brave
I believe in the heaven above
And I have behaved
No more fear
No more shame
You all are to blame
And I will take names
I will tell you to *******
I will tell you all
I will find my closure
And feel no fear at all
My toxic trait is wanting to write letters to those that hurt me and make sure they read them and their whole families and they cry. **** y'all lol jk 💕🥰
#closure #pain #ptsd #anger #life #growing
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238 · Jul 2019
Privileged
Hello Daisies Jul 2019
Privileged
*** I need my vacation
It's been forever
Since I've had my pleasure time

Have you ever lived without a dime
Lived without eating
Lived while barely breathing?

It's not fair I need my weekend off
I haven't seen my boyfriend today
I'm too young for this

Did you have a home growing up
A loving mother and father
Comfort and clean water ?

Please look around you
Realize what you have
Stop acting so entitled
Most people haven't eaten in awhile

You have love
You still have hope
You have money
And friends

What would you do if that all ends

Im sorry about this
But it simply amazes me
How people don't appreciate
Every little thing

Because life is so difficult
I can't even believe
The things you have
If I may speak honestly

I'm happy for people
Who have good health and love
But for goodness sake
Appreciate it and stop
Complaining so much

It's hard to watch
When I can't even find lunch
That  you're ******* because
It's been a year since you've visited
Florida
I'm sorry I just I grew up very poor and alone and homeless so I try to appreciate so many things I didn't really have a childhood and to hear these people speak just upsets me.
*But my VACATION* LIKE most people don't get vacations?
I'm only 20 I shouldn't have to work full time...
I'm only 22 my life shouldn't be pain suffering and near homelessnes
You're going to college you have friends money a future and a family

Please appreciate that.
#life #anger #struggle #depressed
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237 · Feb 2019
Self love
Hello Daisies Feb 2019
Self love
Somehow within this
The deepest torment
I slowly felt a light
Awakening

I'm still shaking
It doesn't make sense
Freeing myself
As i went numb

It's not me
It's not me
Never was me

I'm shining
Always have been
I'm finding
Each piece

You took from me
Made us all crumble
Because of your insecurity
I'm not broken

I hate you
I hate you
I'm sorry

You're twisted
You shattered all over us
Couldn't handle the mess
But never dare confess

I was born
In self hatred
Always alone
The veil has been blown

Away from our eyes
I do not know why
But i found the truth
Once i decided to die

I'm dead
I'm dead
Yet coming alive

I am amazing
I am loving
I am so beautiful
It's not my fault

Others are jealous
So many afraid of themselves
They hurt others
Im done

We have become one
I feel it now
I'm not backing down
I will love myself

Truly this time
I didn't understand before
My love was bruised
Like my soul next to you

The darkest parts of me
Finally broke free
I could feel the light inside
Though terrified

I can be happy
I can be happy
We all can be happy

I'm on the road
To truly love myself
Once i concur self care
You best beware
This isnt very good its a mess but lately ive been so numb i csnt describe how awful my mind has gotten. Ive been depressee my whole life but it's like it all is releasing lately. Im seeing things differently and Ive been hating some people for what they've done to me. I'm growing but I'm reaply ****** up and some others i know are too. And I've hated myself so much indidnt realize how deep it went. Ive bever been so hopeless and so angry and so suicidal before. Ive tried to **** myselfs many times recently. Yet in these dark moments i felt like it...was okay? I felt a small shimmrr of hope. Like this was the right tbing finally. Because now im seeing things differently. I'm seeing how love really is amd how much i should love myself. Because theree nothing wrong with me and never was. So lany people everyone has abused me and put me down. Ive been living life thisnway. Thinking i don't deserve ti exist thinking im stupid, thinkinh im not good enough for anyhting or compared to anyone. Im worth less. And everyone telles me this . when soemone tells me its not true amd they see my worth i necer really beleived them. I listened to the abuse. Idk why i see it now but i do. Those bullies truly were only insecure about themselves. So wanted to bring me down. Im human and I'm beautiful inside and out. I'm not perfect and that's okay. I will grow and i will learn to love and help others again but fjrst i must learn that i can love myself and stop crying all alone in the corner.

And so can all of you. I don't care if its your dad or your lover or whoever don't let them tell you that you don't shine, because you do. Love yourself everyone. Please.
#life #abuse #love #self #suicide #growing #depression #healing
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235 · Apr 2019
Fantasy
Hello Daisies Apr 2019
Fantasy
My pace is slow
My words are stuttered
My heart is flustered

I lose all my chances
I say everything wrong
I am a broken song

Would you wait for me?
If i smile at you nicely?
Will you hear through me?
If i gaze at you softly?

Why am i so invested?
Others are interested
But i like you
Would you like me too?

Am i waiting too long?
Or do i take this slow?
I really need to know

But honestly
I fear the most
You may never think about me
This crush is only pretend
In my own
Fantasy
Oof im bad with telling peoole i like them and i always ALWAYS mess it up
#love #boys #crush #cute #emotions #anxiety
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233 · Mar 2019
Different
Hello Daisies Mar 2019
Different
Everyone walks a certain way
I akways decide to skip instead
A hop and skip is more fun
Until everyone starts to run

They run faster
Leaving me in the dust
I slow down
And begin to rust

I've always been different
Never realized just how much
I want to fit in somewhere
But I'm afraid to be bare

Show everyone my skin
Show everyone the colors
But colors are also made with scars
Scars came from to many wars

Battling myself
Everyone made fun
I was always a sad little freak
Never glamorous or Chique
#social #anxiety #depression #different #colors #scars
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232 · May 2019
Digging
Hello Daisies May 2019
Digging
I keep digging
Without a shovel
My bare hands have gone
So deep

The more I dig
The more lost I feel
Why am I doing this
Just an empty hole

I'm starting to see
That everything I ever knew
Was abuse and cruelty
I hate my entire past

I thought I had moments
Of joy and love I held onto
But it hit me like a block from above
Gushing over my head with blood
I never knew what love was

The hole I dug
Was a grave for myself
Empty and depraved of life
Dark and burrowed with strife

If I strip away every piece of abuse
From my entire life
There's nothing left to recall
Now I'm taking another fall

I cannot tell if I'm healing
Or if I'm sinking
Even further into the hole
I only know weeping

Is this a wishing well I dug
Filled with hope
And dreams
If I believe enough

Or am I still digging
My grave from hell
Burying myself within
Letting all the demons in

It all feels pointless
Every single memory
Is so twisted
How could I ever miss it

The evil words
The hatred and mockery
Being used and torn
Why was it a shock to me

I still can't grasp it
My entire life was blackness
Only lived with sadness
But I keep digging

Am I winning?
The never ending battle
Or am I continuing
The cycle of abuse
Like foolish cattle
The more I look into myself the darker and more ****** up I am. My entire life every person I ever knew bullied me or abshed me
And yet I took some of it as love *** it's all I ever knew but truth is I've never known joy in those old memories of mine
#lifeabuse #ptsd #depression #anxiety
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231 · Sep 2018
Reality
Hello Daisies Sep 2018
Reality
I've been fighting this for so long
Kept telling myself it was wrong
I couldn't let it in my mind
I kept running and leaving it all behind

Today I let in
The reality i call sin
The magic i believed so strong
Is dying off after so long

I guess thats growing up
Drinking too much and throwing it up
Sadness starts to sink through
But this time I've accepted it to be true

I'm unsure if this is losing hope
Or gaining strength away from the *****
I held on to romance and stars so tight
But i awoke today realizing it isn't right

Am i letting go of my child like innocence?
Am i letting this cruel world make me repent?
Well that's just how you make it in this life
Let go of your fantasies and let in the strife

Go to work for full time and lose your personality
Because noone cares about your dreams outside of reality
I think I'm giving up running away from the truth
That my wonderland was  only for my silly youth
I wrote this while hungover, been having some feels about growing up realizing life will never be how i dreamed as a kid and the love i wished for is far out of my reach. Still scared to let go of the innocence in my heart but i have to grow up i guess someday might as well now
#growing #up #reality #romance #fantasy #hangovers #sadness
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226 · Apr 2019
Girly feelings
Hello Daisies Apr 2019
Girly feelings
Love is fake
Romance is dead
I don't like affection
Don't touch me I'll get mad

relationships are a joke
Emotions are too girly
Don't need help I'll do it myself
marriage is not shiny and pearly

I won't bother with you
I know you won't like me
Stop talking to me
I refuse to feel this giddy

You're really cute
But i sure don't care
Don't look at me like that
Now I'm twirling my hair

I'm not a stupid school girl
You're like all the others
You're happy to see me
Why are my eyes staring in wonder

Why did i drive out here
It wasn't just to see you
Wow I'm stupid
Aww you're happy to see me too

Now I'm driving home
Listening to taylor swift
Heart skipping about

  Should i enjoy this?
I really dont believe in romance. Espeically not for myself. But i secretly crave it and think its beautiful
Stupid boy keeps making me blush. I think i like him and i hate it.

Hope he likes me 2 tho
#crush #boys #girls #love #emotions #cute #sweet #sad
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226 · Dec 2018
Music
Hello Daisies Dec 2018
Music
Close my eyes
See my dreams
Made of my bliss

Nothing is my happiness
From striving
To a n g e r

Sadness was my major
Always so                    Lonely
My eyes don't want to open

Sleep my only token
Pretending I'm as before
But laying here i know

Being alive is a show
I died inside
Yet they want me to believe

I keep going with no relief
I've given up on me long ago
Yet when music plays

Tears d
             rop where i lay
Small glimmer of emotion
Just may still remain after all
#sad #lonely #music #depression #god #numb #anxiety
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