I spend. I drink. I rationalize. I think. No filter. I speak. Hypocrite. I leak. Overdrive. Can’t stop. Socialize. I shop. Mentality. No breaks. Try to heal. I ache. Pray. For sanity. Vanish. Vanity. Love. Conditions. Strive. Submission. All is fine. Squander. Why? I wonder. Stand up. I pledge. Not worth the fight. Allege. Drained. Mentally. Stained. Fundamentally. Saved. Eternal. Grateful. External. Unchanging. All praise. Loved. Unfazed.
Do not look in the mirror: What will stare back will be sure to cause Futility; what you thought would look back is just a face Your mind has created: alas it is what you would like to see. But in reality all you are left with is undesirable. Quick, where is the moisturizer? I see some lines. Dark circles? I thought we weren’t wearing makeup anymore. You said we weren’t, we’re only 27 there can’t be lines Impossible.
It's a fascinating experience indeed To know you're unbalanced To know there's something wrong To be really very confident and to have red flags waving But people are easily fooled So you enjoy your high Knowing you should listen to your therapist Knowing she's absolutely right to worry Knowing you'll disregard every one of her warnings Knowing you'll lie over and over again Because you want to be free From the ******* of the pills You just have to know If they're what's ****** you up
Have you ever watched bipolar disorder set into someone? It's frightening and thrilling.