If the world told me to lay down
I'd get up
Just to spite it

If the world told me to stop trying
I'd succeed
Just to spite it

If the world told me to give up
I'd win
Just to spite it

If the world told me to die
I'd live
And laugh at it

It's hard being the small guy
When you always have to be the bigger person

Sometimes I walk close to the edge
Wondering what it's like to fall
Then I see a fence, names etched
And I choose to stall

This is the name of a friend
Who taught me how to smile
My worries and trouble to suspend
Just for a little while

The next is a sister
Who knew what it's like
To struggle to become better
But also not give up the fight

Here is another buddy
Who can't see their own success
Yet I can see them budding
I give them faith, they can do the rest

The last name is my whole heart
They're the light I always come back to
Their beauty, a thing of art
The love I feel, too good to be true

This little fence reminds me that my purpose
Is to not rest until those I care about
Are full of purpose and happiness
Till then, I am not meant to burn out

Oh clouds
How you mock me so
Free as can be
And being is free

Oh clouds
How you fly without care
Any form you take
Is yours alone

Oh clouds
How you cry rain
And send snow
Your emotions free to show

Oh clouds
How I wish I could join
But I'm here on earth
Bound to my duties

Oh clouds
How I hope you the best
Because I'm staying down here
Among those I love

Oh clouds
How lonely it must be
To be up so high
Away from everyone

Oh clouds
How you pay for freedom
With pennies of friendship
So you can live how you want

Oh clouds
How I envy you
Yet for me friendship
Is priceless

It's easy to forget
Who you truly are
When you're trying to be someone you're not

It's easy to live
A life with no worry
When you choose not to care

It's easy to pretend
Like you have no problems
When you don't solve any

It's easy to blame others
For life's woes and worries
When you look away from the mirror

It's hard to love yourself
And the life you live
When you don't know who you are

Lights on well past midnight
Yet the library continues its work
Odd yet normal of a sight
To see the girl reading with a smirk
She acts like she knows life’s records
A meaning hidden in the words

More time passes, she keeps skimming
Soaking in all the mysteries to be had
Lives and knowledge all brimming
No matter if it was happy or sad
The higher meaning she heads towards
A meaning hidden in the words

Using one life to live multiple others
She can’t stop flipping the pages
All the feelings and stories hers
Seeing life’s multiple stages
Not as simple as three thirds
A meaning hidden in the words

The book is closed and put back
A smile of satisfaction on her face
As much as she knows she lacks
But that’s ok for she has grace
Knowing all the she wants undeterred
The meaning hidden in the words

Deep in the forest
Lies a tree grand in size
Older than the rest
But close to demise

Each winter is harder
The bitter cold bites
And is a slow killer
But still she fights

The humans come with axes
And **** those around her
Never able to relax
When one day she'll just be lumber

Each day branches snap
Because of the dry life
The sun beats down as she naps
Always causing strife

And one day she withers
And is not longer in pain
But all she has weathered
Is not in vain

Because below seeds flourish
The ground is moist and full of water
And soft, full with nourish
All thanks to mother

Since when did I lose my complain card?
My wow my work paid off card
My ******* that was tough card
My I am so tired from all these notes card
My I need to study for 3 tests and do 2 projects card
My I am proud of what I can do and how hard I worked card

Can I move the way I used to?
Can I love the way I want to?
Can I live the way I love to?

Yes I can

But will I?

I always thought
If I tried hard enough
And always fought
Then it wouldn't be as rough

That if I shattered
My inner demons
I'd hear their pieces clatter
Left for the vermin

But this time when I swung
I didn't realize
It would be me who broke
*and shattered

It's begins when one person
Treads across the ice
To get where they need to
But when others follow
The cracks begin to show
Then hidden by the falling snow

As more use this easier path
The cracks continue to form
But once one crosses
They could not care less
For those after them
Or for the cracks to come

Then one cracks is too many
And one falls in, then two
Then all begin to fall
And become lost in the depths
Of greed and desire
Because the other path was harder

Now all those who try to cross
Are stuck with nowhere to go
Because the path of hard work
Was lost to the snow
Temporary are the short cuts
Permanent are determination and guts

I'm here counting
seconds, minutes, hours...

So much I forget to make the days count

It's easy to go to sleep
And say everything's okay
When you don't cry anymore

It's easy to be comforted
By friends that care
When the bond is built on pity

It's easy to get back up
After falling down
When the hole isn't that deep

It's easy to be sad
And cry out for help
When help is always there

It's easy to ignore your problems
And pretend it's ok
When someone else is solving them

It's hard to change
And become someone better
When you think nothing's wrong

All I want is to be happy
For everyone to feel okay
But that's not the reality
The outlook looking grey

What does it mean
If life is so worthless
To escape the machine
We start to lose purpose

If people are willing
To just throw it all away
Because it's not fulfilling
Then why should I stay?

I am answered quickly
They come running
Knocking on my door already
Making sure the sun is shining

It's dark outside
The sky a work of art
I can no longer hide
As people warm my heart

Dust to dust
We rise then fall

Hour to hour
We live then die

Mountain to mountain
We move then stop

Feeling to feeling
We smile then frown

The end is not what's sad
Life is not what's happy
How each happens
Is what matters

It's the to
The journey
That moves us

It's the then
The in between
That defines us

A cage made of bars
Not of steel
Nor of iron
But of the past

Where I dwell and think
I want to leave
And move on
But I stay trapped

It seems so simple
To just get up
And push open the door
So why don't I?

If you check every moment
On the progress you make in life
You'll notice nothing

and miss everything

So you do you
Look back after a while
And be surprised by the life

*you lived

What happened to
The days where
We could make
A mistake

What happened to
The actions that
We could make
Without consequence

What happened to
The mistakes that
We could make
And move on from

What happened to
The people that
We could make
Happy without trying

What happened to
The consequences
We didn't make
Follow us

What happened to
The past that
We could keep
In the past

The romantic
Isn't the guy with all the girls
But the one who notices
That one girl he loves

The romantic
Isn't the guy who is chased by lovers
But the one who follows
One girl and loves her

The romantic
Isn't the guy with all the attention
But the one who gives
All of his attention

What the morning brings
Is the sweet feeling
Of a day anew

It is the beginning
After a long night
Of slumber

The morning air is sweet
As it fills my lungs
Breeze blowing

The sun beckons me
Awake from slumber
And up to face the day

I don't have to live in my dreams
When I can make them a reality

All it takes
Is getting up

And telling yourself
I choose to be happy

Moving through the water
Looking for what I lost
I wonder why I bother
Finding something I tossed

It was something I thought
Would never matter to me
But it really means a lot
So I wade desperately

You never understand
How warm is love's glow
Until all you do is shiver and stand
And wonder why you let go

Fire woken by the spark
Burns gentle and true
Ashes falling, leaving mark
Away the old, in the new

Bright is this flame
That rages into the night
Though we all die the same
A fire does not go without fight

The fuel for such passion
Is not found alone
Rather with friends of compassion
With whom we find ourselves at home

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There have been times
When the morning is bleak
World riddled with crimes
People silenced, unable to speak

Release from slumber
And the sun is gone
The clouds covering under
The grey, a somber song

Wake up from darkness
To friends and family bickering
Their love and words in contrast
So much it's sickening

Pushed out of my sleep
I have to immediately toil
Else I am sunk too deep
Choked by school's coil

Yet every morning
I feel like I can do anything
Not held down by worrying
Because your love, it sings

Like the birds chirping
Beautiful as the flowers
Blooming, Spring is coming
Wonderful is the world

As long as you're here

They ask me why I don't write anymore
I say I don't feel it anymore
They ask what don't I feel
I said it's sadness I don't feel

They are confused now
I say it's ok now
They are confused still
I say nothing still

They say, "Write happy poems"
I think about happy poems
They say, "Cmon, try"
I think why try?

They think it's easy
I wish it was easy
They think happiness is simple
I think, "It's not that simple"

It is always so interesting
What people will fight over
One moment there is laughing
Then there are blows to deliver
No one remembers the path
That lead us to this wrath

In theory, there's no reason
To fight and bicker
Yet the cocked is the gun
And life ended in a flicker
Reason we do not have
That lead us to this wrath

If you give people nothing
They will come together
But given something
And war we will enter
All because we won't share
Does wrath overcome care

Because...
Words can describe
Emotions and dreams

Because...
Words can explain
Who I am

Because...
Words can relay
My feelings to others

Because...
Words can show
What the body can't

Because...
Words can make life
Make sense

Everyday
It seems to me
That people complain
That's it's not fair
People can be happy
Effortlessly

That there are those
Who go full days
Without being sad
Or depressed
Because they
Have no reason to be

That they don't have a voice
In their heads
That says to them
"You are sad now"
That they can just smile
And live without trial

But in the end
You feel it
And dread the day
Wanting to fall
And never get up
So you just drop

And then you see
A hand reaching out
You are scared to take it
Because it might drop you
But if you never fall
How will you learn to fly?

Not everyone can sail safely
Some are knocked off
Into the wave's savagery
To the thunder, their scream lost
They panic as the safe land
Is lost to the drowning man

As he is thrown under
He can't believe his fate
All his dreams torn asunder
Wishing the world would wait
He tries to grab what he can
But quickly drowning is the man

Before all is lost to him
He sees someone on the boat
Reaching he pulls them in
Now both struggle to keep afloat
All because he couldn't stand
Being the only drowning man

One emotion after the other
Coming and running amok
Tearing our souls asunder
Down our sanities struck

Each feeling its own complex
Trapped in our minds
Tangled with the rest
Pushed up against the sides

Tug at one thread
And the rest tighten
Gripping you with dread
Panicked as you're fighting

"Stop thinking"
You open your eyes
"Stop worrying"
From your mind, you rise

Threads of the heart
Need no understanding
They're simply art
Weaving and dancing