I feel unwelcome in my own home
and that's her at her best

I can feel my life draining from my soul
As I'm smothered by each part of the whole
It's infuriating, playing the docile lamb
Slowly killing me, to be not who I am
Inside me, there's an ongoing war
Where my heart and my mind are constantly torn
Between securing my future and playing it safe
And doing the impossible on a leap of faith

eyes closed
body swaying
mind open
music playing

...

I'm so high, out of my mind,
Got me wishing for one last time,
I could've felt those lips on mine
Before I go..
Hit the road jack,
I'm not coming back any more

I'm alive, if that means anything
I don't plan on dying soon
though anything could happen
from now, to noon

in a week I might be dead
and you wouldn't have a clue
anything could happen
to me, to you

-

and so even after
the sun goes down
and the stars
out shine the moon,
I'll still love you

*I'll still love you

I have these ideas but they wont come out
I stop myself
before I get too loud
thoughts,
better left unspoken
acted upon would leave me broken
shattered,
like glass under pressure
jealousy,
it drives me to be better

but better than who?

*you

Insanity is
Beautiful. It's
The ultimate
Ignorance to
Our reality.

There are so many people who do
and say controversial **** only in order
to gain the public's eye.
Not only on YouTube, take a look at that woman
who goes on Twitter and starts beef
with popular celebrities just so her name is in the news.
Tila Tequila is always posting the most
inappropriate crap, and I'm not talking about **** and *****,
I'm taking about praising ****** and mass genocide with passion.
Look at basically every successful politician
with the power of swaying the masses with
only a few words - I'm pointing at you Donald Trump.
It's ******* disgusting the lengths people can go
to get publicity, because as they say,
any publicity is good publicity, right? Wrong.
It only works because we
highlight it and glorify it,
people take sides and
the only thing left is a divide.
The only way to really stop this kind of
hate-spreading, fear mongering, classlessness
is to stop talking about them.
To completely shut them out.

But I know that's impossible, because
ridiculous as it sounds, there are going to be
people who agree with them, who will
glorify them and put them on pedestals
for being true to their cause.
So then what can we do?? I guess we continue
talking about it... and the loop goes on. 　

Humanity isn't lost, it was never there to begin with.
This is the way of humans, there's always been
the ones like Polandbananas and Tila Tequila and Donald Trump,
and there always will be. But I want to believe
that the number of people with the capacity
to love and begin the change
is greater than the number of people
who are too set in their ways
to be persuade.

I'm a control freak with no control--
                      May as well be a mine without coal.

Like an old ghost, I'm only a soul--
                      Body lost a long time ago.

When you grow up knowing someone since you could remember
Even if you're not close all those years
It feels so strange to remind yourself, their gone.

Gone in the wind, swept up in the flow
Life and death is common but now I know
That it takes whomever at will, regardless.

Today, a family comes together to mourn
The loss of a child is brutal, leaving them torn
This is for your soul, may it guide you home.

I'm a sinner
my pleasure derived
from torturing those
that are barely alive