I'm tired
Of trying to
Fit into a box
Which has no category

To belong
Is where I want
To begin

Isolated
Trauma state identity
Who cares
As long
As your grinning

I can't even
Do that anymore
I feel there's
No one out there
That remembers
My name

When I want
To collide with
My words
And unite

This feeling
Of guilt
Strengthens
My desire

****** up
As it sounds
No one
Does care

So why are they
Still FOLLOWING me
Everywhere

Why must
The world
Make up your name

Count on your own
Find a friend❤
It can be the pen
In your hand

Or the enveloped sandman
Paper smearing tanning
Watching you sleep alone again

Hes your friend
Let him in
It'll help you breathe
Please don't sneeze
You deserve more than
rock paper scissors

Don't dilute with over thinking
Don't make up a million reason
Just start doing
Things you love
And ask for guidance
From up above

Coming
Road long looking
But I'm still coming

Sticks and stones
Thrown along the way
Make it hard to continue

Till I start playing
My drums heart tune
Disconnect from the mess
And connect back into you

Because you're sad
The day will wait on you

Because you're sad
You may only wash
A dish or two

Because you're sad
Only the grey livens
When it slips to night

Because you're sad
Today will look like tomorrow
Till first moons light

Then we can say goodnight!

Fortunes
Tithes
Is it important
Which melody
I play

Excited
Vurnable
Play the part

Which is ridiculous
What happened to
Ginuine
Comfort
In skin

Abnormally
Normal
Kinship
Kind

Irrationally freaky
Consumed with selves

Who wants
To sin
Count your cards
I'm all in

Let rebels cry
And victims resume
Their forgotten
Podium
On the empire
We Stand

You have to capture it
While its still alive
This unspoken poetry
That lives inside of me

Untamed
Unrestrained

I want to see you
Nestle it like a
Newborn baby
Wrap it around your tongue
And taste it

After it escapes to enter the pen
From digestion
To clocked
It aides us all
Birth your §oul to me

Her riot forced her into predomination
Of all the abolishment this was
The final end

She played the game
Far too long
To not give in

But to leave
All for once
And all at once

Blackhole ****** thru me
Turned toward
The torched Sun
Only to peel the bleached
infectious skin

Vibrating in the
Noise I call THE WIND
It whispers at first
Then turns up the volume
To see a traveling herse

Jokingly I submerse my body
Only to find that the
Purest necter
Negotiated on that tree
The vines wrapped around my leg
Wouldnt
Let me Go
Thru it
Around it
It wanted to eat me whole
And so I let it
For a season maybe two
But wasn't this the me
I'd hoped for lived with
It gets confusing
And this mess
Looks like a mess
A pig stye room
And after eating dinner
She roast a toast
To her dead lovely awaiting
Husband
Patiently they walked up and over
The corpses law

Jagged and weary
Their bones fell
Into each other
Lost they put the
Wrong pieces together
And now he's she
And him is her
Everything doesn't
Make sense
Except for true earth
Which vibrates
At a frequency
That is drums like WIND
Like fire
Like all the crusted attire
These women warmed me with

Nothing beats the flesh
Of another true warrior
Nothi,e and I mean
NOTHING
REUNITES AS IMPALLING
AS HIS FLESH RIPPENING FOR HIS OWN URGES

Kisses by sins nature
He throws shame and anger
Meeting her at the door
He greets his afterstare

What if
I liked the way
You grinned at me

I knew youd
Be the death
Of me

Playing it off
You told me to lie

Never speak of this
Or she would cry

I kept it
Every time
Each time
Getting harder

When you grow distant
I chain you again

What if
I liked this
Kind of sin

If we were graphiti
Youd still lie
On top of me

Tracing the after effects
Your breath marked across
My lips

Lit up
Like ecstasy lovers
Your mind incased
Something I'd soon
Discover

*******
Heroine
Never had a taste
As tempting
As your marijuana laced
Face

And the altitude
Words from you
Put me higher
And I won't
Stop penetrating
Your thoughts
Till I've had
My desire

You will
Be there
Covered in dripping gold

And I will stand under you
Chin up
Lips wide apart
Tasting you
FOREVER

Lovely
Don't you think?

And the ones
In the end
Will be waiting on you
Still smiling from within

You found you
I knew you could
You've been gone
For a while

You found you
Suprised
At all you've missed

While throwing
Caution tape
Outside your
window pain

This house
You now sit in
Lies beneath
That empty room

And you can
Fill it too with
balloons and gifts
Not sorrow
But sweet bliss

It's too narrow
of a street to miss

Come inside
I miss you

We are
Bodies of snow
Windows of ice
Crying in the night

We are
Melted
We are
Thawed out

The deposition
Repositions us
Dont let it!

Come back to me
Dry up the well
I've carried
In my pocket

Tears collected
Feel like an avalanch
And I'm ready
To fall

Burry me in it
Cover me whole

Always wanting
Never letting go

You are the night
Pulled in tight

Hair tangled
Around my fingertips

Sweet nectar of neck
Honey gold permiance

The erectional tide
That crosses my mind
From time to time
You are

To Believe that
She loved me.....
We fell
Harmless and unidentified
At first

Dissolving as you drop me in
Diving as if you were
The ends of the earth

Further more
Phatomed
Against nights light

You burry me

Take me
As the wind
To the winters
Turn

Coming up for air
Is not imaginable
To say the least

I am to tell
No more
Of this perfect illusion

Just dissolve me

I just need some
Different points of views

Sometimes the galaxies
Are on my shoes

Fitting perfectly
Into this sky of hues

Like im navigating winds
With the palm of my hands

Bare and free
Karmatic sleep

Difficult
The way I see myself now
The way my life's changed
What some see as lonely
May be right
Maybe I need to be free

Free
To quote my own verses
Instead of taking film
From underneath someone
Else's tongue

Using hearts
As sleeves
Is my old fashion
May be I need a gun
So this amunition is aimed
At the right coffin
Instead of my own

The need
The drive
Where the hell
Do I come up
With those

When i've been
Feed through
My own antibacterial pasts
That I can't scrub off
This time

What happens when
Your life gets stuck?

To lick the salt clean
To unearth me from
These ashes
I've made seen

To recoup my backbone
And repent my sin's
To forgo what
Could have been
And make me
Whole again

I need soul
Sweet vibrational soul
To come out from
Within and rattle
The cages my bones
Lay in

I will burn
For many moons
To get in to you

Each time your body
Sets fire
It's time to retire

Go back
Pull out the vapor hash
Sits with old colleagues
Go under the pine tree
Let it comb
Your satire mind

Play in the divine
Lavish the light
Let purity ring.
Begin again,
New ending...

The ones
That matter
Grow stale
And distant

As my mind
Begins
To drift

Useless
I sit
Disregard
What's left

Moving without sound
Seems pointless

How else
Would I know
I exist

When the
world grew
out of focus,
she was home.

kalidoscope realities
have seemed to
disillusion me
speaking of the times
my life was in
the clouds

journys end
new spirits
begin
wondering why
im this
all the time

wheres my art
wheres my dreams
why do i feel capable
but never do anything

and when will the gun
bang inside my brain
to start off right foot
to race out of gate

searching for a grin
a comatose state
does not seem
to suit me well

i would like
my suit well
tailored
with screams
of colors
and sissors
and paint......

Sometimes those lines
are too empty to hide
All this built up rage
You've hidden inside

Let it collide
Look down it's throat

Let it stand bare beneath you

Let it not rest!
Till you see devil's end.

Light one
Up inside you
Start a bonfire
Stay for a while

You'll be glad
You did

You may crawl into my spine
And dream the dreams you left behind

You may douse your blanket in gold
And withhold the treasure you wish to unfold

If time doesn't catch up to you soon
You may rest behind the moon
I've left a stardust path just for you

We can live there together forever
Forget the world even exist
Start over fresh

Come back down
After we've made love
To a million planets
We've left behind

To play hide and seek
In the dark with you
Seeing starlit tiptoes
Across your fingertips

Dance for me
Dance for us
You're rhythm
Is what makes the earth vibrate
Doors open to other rooms

It's what we call vibrational confidence
And it's no coincidence
You wI'll see it soon
Over and over

Making lighting out of fire
Unbracing the savlvage attire
Forkoined the darkness
It doesn't hold you still

I Do
I'm you
In a hundred years

Reach up to me
Call my name
Ursula
Eugenie
Letgo the bitter after thoughts
Of long ago

You were born of earth
Camafkouged by bread
Eaten alive
At the very. flesh

But no one knew
That wasn't you
It was a picnic
For the ants

And we my dear
Ate the whole **** Sky
Achoo
Bless you
I love,your will power
And drive
The way it excites
You
The way it opens up your eyes
Like ice glades
About to crash into
The night air
The deepening
In you pupils glare

The iris moves
To a melodic sound
One not many can hear
One not seen
But found

You are a chosen one
Made from love lust and fumes
Fuel the empty kinder
And make perfume



I

Where can I play
When masters fall asleep
Can I crawl inside your
Warm dark cave tonight
Right next snuggled
Between two soft rocks

I like when you play
With my hair
Rubbing it back and forth
I feel your hips behind me
Thrusting in motions rhytmic
To my own

Are we the same tonight
Or am I just a plaything

My Heart prevents me
Wanting anything else

Somtimes silence IS beauty.

Dibolical plans
A roast
Somewhat innhabbital
A little more hostile
Less hospitable

Carving out reflections
Communion overdose

Infinite is Sun
Pure power
Infinite is it's solar kenisis
Born of passion and fire
Infinite is Moon
Blue bliss
Infinite are the oceans
It pulls

Divide and cease yourself
From your outercore
Break open in habbit
Pour
    Pour
        Pour
Liquid gold
Of soliloquy
Eulogies
Rebirth and bathe
In esctasy

Let no man keep away what is rightfully his

Her lips curled
Like fire embracing ash
Dancing flames lit her tongue tip
Desiring triklit kisses around her neck
And body and mouth

You have to let it go
Lose control
Unthink
Penetrate
Lockness gone

The bizzare twist
Ironic plots
Synchronisations sake
Alive

Feel fuel burning
From fingertips light
Inhaling conscience
Desires

Center points
Plotting x and z
On scalic demeans

Concentrate
On the higher
Things

Ploring through
Time zonic tonic
Discussion closed

Rebirth
Reaknowledge
Stories told

Simple and divine
Asking heiresses
Jabbing hearts

Reliquient unheard of
Fortunes found
For hours on end

She will
Be mine

If you ever hear me
Know I'm here for a reason
That everyrhing is okay
And that as long as you
Believe
It will be

The tides
Overroll me
Your breath
Sabatoges your leaks
Your oars aren't moving
You eyes keep fluttering

The fireflies
Under your tongue
Are escaping

Yearning desperately
For forgiveness
From intrusive abuse

Save me!

Meet me at the doorway
With silence
Let me unfold you

The saying
The old saying goes
Whatever cleanses your soul
Do it
But what if trying to get there
You find yourself
Burried under bricks
And countless number of
Screws found loose under your pillow
And sorrys that never get too sad
Incase you didnt notice
And goodbyes that carry no weight because you never truly
Leave anyone
Speechless
Or
Or
The old nylon sheets
That creep under the opening
Of black tongues taunting
And whisper making
Again and again
You taunt me
Remembering all the old
You lost me
You really did lose me
I lost you
I really did loose you
And with no regret on your end
That i can find
And only
Stuck unhappy
And on fire
With noone to call on
Between manic and depressed
No one to stare at
So it took this test
To arrive at
This place I call Destiny
Still unsure
Of whats left of me
Knowing the End
Is just the beginning
And I can fly to new heights
If i choose too
But i really dont want to give
up on losing you
I said
The old saying goes
What leaves will come back
And what stays is
Old and dead anyways
Did you fly from me
Cuz you're so far ahead
I can't even see
And your rocky stash
Of pillows ive awoken to
Has preformed
Magic many times before
You're just not at the door
And i don't think I can make it
Without your sword
Can I borrow it?
I'll give it back in just
A little bit
you see I'm going into battle again
With these demons and my monsters
With another woman
And the old saying goes
News is what bought her back
The end .

Variance in moods
Attitudes wane
Sway

Dark tunnels
To oceans blue

Light breaking
Surface

A pill or two

Bring on highs
Like a balloon

Lost
Not loved
Bruised
Not enough

Perspective

Okay
getting better
Things look up
A little lighter

Looking in your eyes
I saw your universe
Divine creation
Fullfilling patent destinations
Out of pure concentration

Will power
Mind over matter
Help and friends

You my sir
My madam
Are The Life force
Of earths true beings

What a sight
To see
Be the light
That shines
Inside

Inspire
Try new things
Push a little harder

Ask with intent
Set goals
Drive higher

And in the mean time
Ride those waves
Like the Bad *** *****
You were designed!

We were one
In a million pieces
Scattered on the floor

Before time shattered
The door

Our love
Was infinite
Or so it seemed

Now my heart is broken
And I don't know what
That means

You're still
Here

Come take at a look
At my wildness
The colors
Let them
Soothe inside
Your own
Unbridled passions

Dipping down
Beneath the cloud
I float unbending
Landing on soft ground
Thinking out loud
"What will I be?"

Man or woman
Adult or child
Devil or Angel

Singing
Set free

From all around
Who try and
Drown out my sound
I SHOUT with Integrity

I AM ME
I AM UNIQUE
What I am
Is who I'll be

Bittersweet
That's what you
Said to me

An epiphany
That's what you'll
Always be

Oasis
Meet me there
Where angels grin
And demons  do not stare

Oasis
Set aside
The clock inside
Your wicked mind

Her eyes become impatterned
Her lips spread apart from the idea and light up the dark

Come out come out
Where ever you are
Do you hear the battle ground
Feel the rumble in your bones

Light up the stage
Sit back
And take charge

I lost myself
After I lost you
Why didn't I see
I was letting your eyes
Make me as we speak

Your words, comments,
Even the little gestures
Crowned me
Victory or defeat

I lost you
Now I only see my feet
They go nowhere
My head is empty
With despair

Loves empty canvass
Draws no more potions
There needs to be evasive action
To take hold of my endings

Scrap my tongue
Scatter the ashes across this
Plain white backdrop
Make scrimmages from
Self doubt, self pity,
And disappointment

There's no point in running
I'm always on empty

I often hear whispers
They say sit
Feel what she's done
What's left
Now binge on forgiveness

You'll find your soul
Underneath it
The flame will spark again
The dead will speak in color
Another shoulder will appear
To hold all of your secrets

The moon is full tonight
Maybe this light
This dark bright ancestral light
Will be my path

I have no earth to grab on to
I might as well die
Float up to the sky
Ask the gods
To bring me another muse
Someone just as lovely as you

I'll stay lost forever
If that's what it takes
To build a garden
Inside of these empty gates