I want
To live
Off you

In a sea
Of dew
Spilled
Shimmering

Rocks
Smoothed over
Tragedy

Spewed paper
Becomes me

He longed outside
Mourned inward
When the nights rained
He poured it out

Until i fall back into you
i'll stand here waiting
chasing after sweet afterthoughts
constantly craving

You have to let it go
Lose control
Unthink
Penetrate
Lockness gone

The bizzare twist
Ironic plots
Synchronisations sake
Alive

Feel fuel burning
From fingertips light
Inhaling conscience
Desires

Center points
Plotting x and z
On scalic demeans

Concentrate
On the higher
Things

Ploring through
Time zonic tonic
Discussion closed

Rebirth
Reaknowledge
Stories told

Simple and divine
Asking heiresses
Jabbing hearts

Reliquient unheard of
Fortunes found
For hours on end

She will
Be mine

I'll never forget
The way you smelt
Like sweet epiphanies
Or lillac breezes

Each carried
A different note

Thank you
For all
Your seasons

Poem
FOR YOU

where are your footprints?
Do they still mark your
Territories
REPENT

****** numbers
Line against the fire
YOUR ONLY Sacrifice
Would be blendered
In the making
And spit out
Ghost style
Waiting
Waiting
Crawling
Forgiving
Taken

Some say man cannot eat by bread alone
but i swear i could live an eternity
off the crumbs you leave me
feeding slowly

Come take at a look
At my wildness
The colors
Let them
Soothe inside
Your own
Unbridled passions

My eyes grew dim
That moment
I first saw you

I swear you took my soul
breathed it in
And wrapped around your
Sweet sugar tongue

I watched mesmorized
As you inhaled
My smoke fumes
Watched me dance
around the room
Spinning on such sweet
afternotes of you

I tried to speak
As i watched my feet
Stood backwards
And felt your finger tips
Glide inside of me

I gazed up and down at you
But to no end
You said we could only be
Lovers after dew

Never before
And never again

I spring
Every winter
Waiting for you

Be human to yourself

Sublime majestic light
Where did you come from
When was I born into thee

Making colors arise
Out of passions
Unverbed and unique

Madness and magic
Completely
Incomplete

Optimistic views
Too blinded
To move

No more
Inside my own

Hold my heart
In your beating hands

Now move forward
Without forgetting
All you left behind

Cherishing problems
That once made answers
Out of assumptions

I am okay
I am not alone
I am happy
I can breathe

Her riot forced her into predomination
Of all the abolishment this was
The final end

She played the game
Far too long
To not give in

But to leave
All for once
And all at once

Blackhole ****** thru me
Turned toward
The torched Sun
Only to peel the bleached
infectious skin

Vibrating in the
Noise I call THE WIND
It whispers at first
Then turns up the volume
To see a traveling herse

Jokingly I submerse my body
Only to find that the
Purest necter
Negotiated on that tree
The vines wrapped around my leg
Wouldnt
Let me Go
Thru it
Around it
It wanted to eat me whole
And so I let it
For a season maybe two
But wasn't this the me
I'd hoped for lived with
It gets confusing
And this mess
Looks like a mess
A pig stye room
And after eating dinner
She roast a toast
To her dead lovely awaiting
Husband
Patiently they walked up and over
The corpses law

Jagged and weary
Their bones fell
Into each other
Lost they put the
Wrong pieces together
And now he's she
And him is her
Everything doesn't
Make sense
Except for true earth
Which vibrates
At a frequency
That is drums like WIND
Like fire
Like all the crusted attire
These women warmed me with

Nothing beats the flesh
Of another true warrior
Nothi,e and I mean
NOTHING
REUNITES AS IMPALLING
AS HIS FLESH RIPPENING FOR HIS OWN URGES

Kisses by sins nature
He throws shame and anger
Meeting her at the door
He greets his afterstare

Seldom do I go
Around
Putting words
In order
The way they
Should be

So tell me why
I live by those
Shoulds in
Real life

When words I just
Let them fall
Not giving a
****

Of the order
And then I realize
How *******
Beautiful
They sound
And how it came
Through so *******
Clear

But life
Ha life

I try to control
And do what
The voices
That embedded
From birth
Tell me

Then wonder
Why nothing
I really want
To do ever
Gets done

And why
My face looks
So ******* sad
All the time

Instead of
How I feel
When I read
The words
That I CREATE
Not them
But I

Makes more sense
Now that I'm writing

I am
NOT living
For I

I'm living
For a them

I DONT WANT THAT!!!!!?

Why you did not
Open to me
Is a gift
Your soul
Could not
Spill
******* and your SOUL My Dear!!!!!!!

Pervious notions
pulling eyes down

touching
pressure points
roaming all over

nibbles turn to bites
as red surfaces

lashing whips
burning ambers
into ashes

trying to run
your lips
speak the
unspoken

You were my high
Hiding behind clouds of smoke
You were my numb
When I didn't give
A ****

You were my gifted
When I had a million
Things to say

You were my tarnished
When brains ends
Worn out too thin

You were the ashes
i drank
When I could not think

You were my loss
My remorse
I laid covered in

A sudden fade
To turn white skies
Grey

A driven desire
To kiss air
And make fire

You were mine
And always will be

This time
I don't want to
Wonder around
Inside my mind

Taking still photos
Of what I left behind

Capturing worrys
While letting go
Of the good

No I would like
To pursue
A moment or two

To cloud the open air
With memories that
weren't there

And places that have
No common grasp
Of forgotten notes
Outside my past

I need novacane
I need stimulants
I need someone
To explain
Why you're not
Next to me

I need relief
I need forgivness

Each one
A piece

Tied in cloth
Hardly breathe
While loosing sleep

Jokes
Pleasures
Masterpiece
Earrings

I like to
Collect ears
And hearts❤

I couldn't fully understand
What was written underneath
Until her skin was aching for desire
And her frozen veins
became lit by fire

I play with my thoughts
As if they were sinful delights
Taste filled licorice
******* on ends
Chewing up lil pieces
Spitting out used ones
Just to bite all over again

Her eyes become impatterned
Her lips spread apart from the idea and light up the dark

Pure elicit

Language

Metaphoric blocks
To our very exsistance

Don't tell myself
You are the reason
Don't tell myself
There is another way out
Don't tell you
To put this into reason
Or to try and work it out
Want to work it out all on my own
Because the exceeding yet
Tortures pleasures
I get from the
Guilt of having you as my sin
Right or wrong
It won't go away
A pain I long to forget
To take it away

I held your eyes
In the parenthesis of
A smile
And your gaze
Was a pain
I slept with

Triggers last
After memories fade
I still can't get
These messages
Out of my head
Every song
Ever mentioned
Replaying

Continuous
Preluded tenses
Too Torturous
Gravity defying
Lustful longings
Completely enamored
All at once
HALTING

Now as I leave
I stare off
At the pictures
As I flip light
Into dark
For the night

Wondering what
It is your doing
And then I leave you there

Returning
Again
In the vaccant
Singing
Still frames
Of
Remembering

There was a passion
a fire
an energy that threw
sparks out of our lips

As I watched your eyes
crystalize them before
they reached me sometimes

I tried
and when I didn't
then you tried
we're both exhausted
we're stuck

We'd get frustrated
with lack of own
and then feed
off each others
bits of glow
for days

Journeys end
new ones begin
I have to close chapters
but will always revisit
this one

over and over
as if it were new
each time

My eyes will always
light up
at even the slightest
thought of you

Possibilities are created
from that place
if I stay long enough

But somewhere between
the corner and the middle
is where I find myself
on the page

And I turn over like
a car trying to start
but no one is here
to help me recharge

I must recharge
I've not even began
and I drain so quickly
if it takes forever
I'll wait

Until edge of ice
reaches out it's hand
and dulls my shame

Till things of pure
gold replace
all the trash in this place

I know there's a spot
you'll save
I'm just not sure
when I'll regain
strength and courage

To say
to sit face to face
without falling
on my face

I'll keep trying
till then
I'm here

Knowing
what we had
was enough

To keep soul happy
and I'll try to stay
on trail you showed me

My own
and if I need you
I'll ask again

I want to supplement you
Is there a pill I can use?

Not an herb
not on a vine

I'm looking for something
periodically
to give me a rush
a high
to hold me over
for a little while

Do you forget me
When we haven't talked

Have you thought
About me
After dark

Do the memories
Ever touch
The fringes
Of your mind

I wonder
And so do i

Deleted decrypted
Inside rewind
Go back to who you know
To be
Opening lines
Paralyzed victim
Last one more ride

A hidden locus written under my tounge
Rooted at the umbilical cord
Under my bellys sleeve

To be cont.

Like hell we ride
Through the night sky

Callus and raw
Vurnable and

I Desire
Your name
On the back
Of my veins tongue
Piercing delight
Into hollow caves
Vibrational vocals
To lungs
Inhaling her face

I wore the shadow like armour
Thin and hallow inside
It protected me
Or so it seemed
Always catching up
To hide
Never to see a smile
Or run toward the light

Loneliness can
cause a panic
In doubt
of mind and body
To crave
any passion

Makes momentary
sincerly imagintary

Real
For a moments
Use
For own
Insecurities

I will regain strength through your words
I will regain power through my choices
I will earn my keeping through work
And I will rejoice in all that is coming.

Your words
Drip
Like a tap that's
Always on

Or a trashbag
That's ripped
And never ending
Garbage
Rolling down the
Highway

Blowing out
Inside the
wind of fear

You cause
Destruction

Then need repairing

Can't you hear
Your own
Words

Echos
Instill
Deliberate hollows

Rip me
Find me space

Portrayed in absence
Nasty taste left
Under swollen cheeks
Bitterness

Twisted up nerves
Conclusive Skulls

Perturbation unraveling
Sacred kept
Unwoken
Dreams

Dwindling
Darting
Captured
Locked

Deep seeded
Frustrations

Viscera
upside down

Computed relief
Only
Just
Aspiration

Wishes on for hours
Ending bliss
A stolen kiss
Envious glares
Becoming unaware
That there's a signal
To the stares
That keep her there
Unprepared for
Rushes of sin
Sparkling tokens
Lost,
In an effort
To change
The way it's
Always been

Tragic downfall
Rise Again
Rise Again

Her toes dug into my belly
As I held her hands to the floor
She couldn't get up
And yelled for more

Driven by my own lustful hate
Of realities fate
I worshipped her

Darkness fell
On my lips that night
As I watched her
Swallow the infinite fire

Even the light I had in my eyes
Went out
She even took the breath I breathed
Until one day she wrote in blood across her forehead
I loved you much more than me

Silk solitude
Cream based dream
Rhytmic pressure
Ohhh my...

You are magnificent
You are a travler of lives
You are
The SOULMaker
Mendi mg the broken
Blending the healing

You are a blaze across
My summer night skies
Light ing up the moonlight fingertips

I sprinkle ashes
Around you in a ring
For the lips can't tell
What the eyes will see

Follow me
Let your journey begin
9-10

Lost inside
Pages of you
Torn clothes
Ripped veins
Dirt colored floors

Face planted
Head spinning
Whipped lashes
Against dry
Faces

Numb
Paralyzed

Flight
Flight

She sent me to a hellish destroyer
Called loves angel
Where I fall
I fall hard
Spinning square
In a circle of
Obsessive thoughts
Words
Music
Memories
Clips
Of me and you

Where is my creativity
There's a giant black boulder
Sitting in between

Move this
Let me free
But who has the keys

You'll have to look
On my sleeve

I would follow the moon
As close as id go
Your voice echoed
Inside
We had coversations
Each and every night
I prayed To you
Like a God
That created
The very birth
Of my soul
You escaped me
You let go
Now I long for you
I let myself search
Beyond this cloud
Of doo
Is a beautiful earth
Waiting to unravel
Inside my twisted
Blooming
Everescent light

Drowning in nature
Pure and light

It is a calling
It is passion
That cures US

Where are the towers
We crumbled together
Why won't they rebuild for me
When I need protection
From my own greed

What kind of spell
Did you put on me
Opening my heart
To you was silly

Now all I want
Are my wings
So I can fly away
From the shame
That I failed you

Her relinquished love
Grew fire
It began
To drench
Her very core

This denial
Had finally
Came to an end