If the birds
And the butterflies
Can make trees
Then where would
The bees be

This time
I don't want to
Wonder around
Inside my mind

Taking still photos
Of what I left behind

Capturing worrys
While letting go
Of the good

No I would like
To pursue
A moment or two

To cloud the open air
With memories that
weren't there

And places that have
No common grasp
Of forgotten notes
Outside my past

I don't have to worry
About life's little wrinkles
Or lack of love

Just trust
Consumes me
And all is forgiven

I held your eyes
In the parenthesis of
A smile
And your gaze
Was a pain
I slept with

Triggers last
After memories fade
I still can't get
These messages
Out of my head
Every song
Ever mentioned
Replaying

Continuous
Preluded tenses
Too Torturous
Gravity defying
Lustful longings
Completely enamored
All at once
HALTING

Now as I leave
I stare off
At the pictures
As I flip light
Into dark
For the night

Wondering what
It is your doing
And then I leave you there

Returning
Again
In the vaccant
Singing
Still frames
Of
Remembering

I want
To live
Off you

In a sea
Of dew
Spilled
Shimmering

Rocks
Smoothed over
Tragedy

Spewed paper
Becomes me

The wind speaks
Of secrets in
Kalidascope spectrums
Through branches and trees
Birds sing to thee
Spread your seeds
Be free

Can I live
Inside of you
Can I taste
What you're made of

Can I wander
Around inside
Of you
For days on end

Can I tap
All the doors
To open
The ones
Deepest

Can I make
You crumble
And eat
What falls

He longed outside
Mourned inward
When the nights rained
He poured it out

You are magnificent
You are a travler of lives
You are
The SOULMaker
Mendi mg the broken
Blending the healing

You are a blaze across
My summer night skies
Light ing up the moonlight fingertips

My eyes grew dim
That moment
I first saw you

I swear you took my soul
breathed it in
And wrapped around your
Sweet sugar tongue

I watched mesmorized
As you inhaled
My smoke fumes
Watched me dance
around the room
Spinning on such sweet
afternotes of you

I tried to speak
As i watched my feet
Stood backwards
And felt your finger tips
Glide inside of me

I gazed up and down at you
But to no end
You said we could only be
Lovers after dew

Never before
And never again

I spring
Every winter
Waiting for you

Until i fall back into you
i'll stand here waiting
chasing after sweet afterthoughts
constantly craving

Pure elicit

Language

Metaphoric blocks
To our very exsistance

Seldom do I go
Around
Putting words
In order
The way they
Should be

So tell me why
I live by those
Shoulds in
Real life

When words I just
Let them fall
Not giving a
****

Of the order
And then I realize
How *******
Beautiful
They sound
And how it came
Through so *******
Clear

But life
Ha life

I try to control
And do what
The voices
That embedded
From birth
Tell me

Then wonder
Why nothing
I really want
To do ever
Gets done

And why
My face looks
So ******* sad
All the time

Instead of
How I feel
When I read
The words
That I CREATE
Not them
But I

Makes more sense
Now that I'm writing

I am
NOT living
For I

I'm living
For a them

I DONT WANT THAT!!!!!?

Poem
FOR YOU

where are your footprints?
Do they still mark your
Territories
REPENT

****** numbers
Line against the fire
YOUR ONLY Sacrifice
Would be blendered
In the making
And spit out
Ghost style
Waiting
Waiting
Crawling
Forgiving
Taken

I'll never forget
The way you smelt
Like sweet epiphanies
Or lillac breezes

Each carried
A different note

Thank you
For all
Your seasons

I would follow the moon
As close as id go
Your voice echoed
Inside
We had coversations
Each and every night
I prayed To you
Like a God
That created
The very birth
Of my soul
You escaped me
You let go
Now I long for you
I let myself search
Beyond this cloud
Of doo
Is a beautiful earth
Waiting to unravel
Inside my twisted
Blooming
Everescent light

Drowning in nature
Pure and light

It is a calling
It is passion
That cures US

I need novacane
I need stimulants
I need someone
To explain
Why you're not
Next to me

I need relief
I need forgivness

Some say man cannot eat by bread alone
but i swear i could live an eternity
off the crumbs you leave me
feeding slowly

Optimistic views
Too blinded
To move

No more
Inside my own

Hold my heart
In your beating hands

Now move forward
Without forgetting
All you left behind

Cherishing problems
That once made answers
Out of assumptions

I am okay
I am not alone
I am happy
I can breathe

Deleted decrypted
Inside rewind
Go back to who you know
To be
Opening lines
Paralyzed victim
Last one more ride

Sublime majestic light
Where did you come from
When was I born into thee

Making colors arise
Out of passions
Unverbed and unique

Madness and magic
Completely
Incomplete

Each one
A piece

Tied in cloth
Hardly breathe
While loosing sleep

Jokes
Pleasures
Masterpiece
Earrings

I like to
Collect ears
And hearts❤

My beliefs are what make me strong
My beliefs set fire to passions that spark
Send flames
A smoke signal
To the ones i harm
Tells them to come home
Run away from the shame
The blasamist
The pain
Run away to the light
So I can hold you warm
And tell you it's alright
Keep faith
In the unknown
It is your friend
It's,time to
Tell you the truth
It's all misbelief

I couldn't fully understand
What was written underneath
Until her skin was aching for desire
And her frozen veins
became lit by fire

I will regain strength through your words
I will regain power through my choices
I will earn my keeping through work
And I will rejoice in all that is coming.

There was a passion
a fire
an energy that threw
sparks out of our lips

As I watched your eyes
crystalize them before
they reached me sometimes

I tried
and when I didn't
then you tried
we're both exhausted
we're stuck

We'd get frustrated
with lack of own
and then feed
off each others
bits of glow
for days

Journeys end
new ones begin
I have to close chapters
but will always revisit
this one

over and over
as if it were new
each time

My eyes will always
light up
at even the slightest
thought of you

Possibilities are created
from that place
if I stay long enough

But somewhere between
the corner and the middle
is where I find myself
on the page

And I turn over like
a car trying to start
but no one is here
to help me recharge

I must recharge
I've not even began
and I drain so quickly
if it takes forever
I'll wait

Until edge of ice
reaches out it's hand
and dulls my shame

Till things of pure
gold replace
all the trash in this place

I know there's a spot
you'll save
I'm just not sure
when I'll regain
strength and courage

To say
to sit face to face
without falling
on my face

I'll keep trying
till then
I'm here

Knowing
what we had
was enough

To keep soul happy
and I'll try to stay
on trail you showed me

My own
and if I need you
I'll ask again

A day worth waiting for
Is a fight lost.

I want to supplement you
Is there a pill I can use?

Not an herb
not on a vine

I'm looking for something
periodically
to give me a rush
a high
to hold me over
for a little while

Be human to yourself

Her relinquished love
Grew fire
It began
To drench
Her very core

This denial
Had finally
Came to an end

Your words
Drip
Like a tap that's
Always on

Or a trashbag
That's ripped
And never ending
Garbage
Rolling down the
Highway

Blowing out
Inside the
wind of fear

You cause
Destruction

Then need repairing

Can't you hear
Your own
Words

Echos
Instill
Deliberate hollows

Rip me
Find me space

Portrayed in absence
Nasty taste left
Under swollen cheeks
Bitterness

Twisted up nerves
Conclusive Skulls

Perturbation unraveling
Sacred kept
Unwoken
Dreams

Dwindling
Darting
Captured
Locked

Deep seeded
Frustrations

Viscera
upside down

Computed relief
Only
Just
Aspiration

Why you did not
Open to me
Is a gift
Your soul
Could not
Spill
******* and your SOUL My Dear!!!!!!!

You were my high
Hiding behind clouds of smoke
You were my numb
When I didn't give
A ****

You were my gifted
When I had a million
Things to say

You were my tarnished
When brains ends
Worn out too thin

You were the ashes
i drank
When I could not think

You were my loss
My remorse
I laid covered in

A sudden fade
To turn white skies
Grey

A driven desire
To kiss air
And make fire

You were mine
And always will be

Don't tell myself
You are the reason
Don't tell myself
There is another way out
Don't tell you
To put this into reason
Or to try and work it out
Want to work it out all on my own
Because the exceeding yet
Tortures pleasures
I get from the
Guilt of having you as my sin
Right or wrong
It won't go away
A pain I long to forget
To take it away

Tragic downfall
Rise Again
Rise Again

Pervious notions
pulling eyes down

touching
pressure points
roaming all over

nibbles turn to bites
as red surfaces

lashing whips
burning ambers
into ashes

trying to run
your lips
speak the
unspoken

A hidden locus written under my tounge
Rooted at the umbilical cord
Under my bellys sleeve

To be cont.

I sprinkle ashes
Around you in a ring
For the lips can't tell
What the eyes will see

Follow me
Let your journey begin
9-10

Like hell we ride
Through the night sky

Callus and raw
Vurnable and

I play with my thoughts
As if they were sinful delights
Taste filled licorice
******* on ends
Chewing up lil pieces
Spitting out used ones
Just to bite all over again

Loneliness can
cause a panic
In doubt
of mind and body
To crave
any passion

Makes momentary
sincerly imagintary

Real
For a moments
Use
For own
Insecurities

I wore the shadow like armour
Thin and hallow inside
It protected me
Or so it seemed
Always catching up
To hide
Never to see a smile
Or run toward the light

Where are the towers
We crumbled together
Why won't they rebuild for me
When I need protection
From my own greed

What kind of spell
Did you put on me
Opening my heart
To you was silly

Now all I want
Are my wings
So I can fly away
From the shame
That I failed you

Silk solitude
Cream based dream
Rhytmic pressure
Ohhh my...

I'm on the ceiling
I'm the words you float on
Up in the air
Without a care

The silence is Interactive

          Intrusive disappears

           Once now infinite
                 The Truth
          Starts to come clear

           Without hesitation
                  Her heart,
                Majestically
                Tramposed

Without another nation
No lack of ques Or toes
She follows well

Made in your face
Or drawn over a thin
White lie
I mean line
Made out of paper
You posted it
Didn't you

Who are you
Where do you live
Inside a crib
You once slept in
No home goes unnoticed
To us kinds

We live in imagination
BEyOND the bright fillip stars
Where comfort and knowing are

We live to follow you
And quarter just for a go about
What you imagine life really is

It's you
It's all inside of you
Your soul stretched a thousand lands
Before finding you
And reaching into
Your afterlife care

It sput out ashes upon
Your bed
And told you
Please do not take
These off your sheets
One day you will kneel
I'm what yiure now doing
Only to look up
To a brighter pool
Of hopefully zooms of light
Inhabited by mother
And father time

Just joking they don't exist here
Here is parallel to any know being
Where the fish comb
Through your vessels
And hats race thru your mind
And hurddles of black sea
Trunks of ancient old trees
Soon devour
Fastly
Intrigued
By YOU
Little I'm
Nobody pays attention to me you
We,are interested in you

But why?
I don't like the attention
Please don't look at me
It makes me really
Creepy and weird
And mad and rages
Like scavengers eating
At my brain

Please,see it a different way
You are us
We birthed you from the Stars
We love your light
We never hate
You
When you feel
Low or have a hard time
We encourage you in
Whispers light
Through this species
I found your aunt
Delilah and uncle Sam

aha I thoubut so
They are mine

And the dark ones
I carry like backpacks
Of rocks
Never to lift
With each,thought

Erasing won't,help
They've already
Bought space
In my mind
And they live in my bed
And eat,the ashes
Before I have tome,
To descend into the sky
Upside down they have
Me
Curling my toes
Where,the duck are,my toes anyway
It's man eats shot all day
Kind of love,that they celebrate

To my disguise
You,can eat cake and raindrops
Will soon taste like healing
And your insationable appetite
For life,will soon
Turn on

Is it perspective
Can or do I still have you've,them
For morning noon and night
Or can I take a flight
Or lay down a Lahore the help do I get rid of them all

Well never tell
That's where you'll
Find us
That's where we dwell
In the back of my mind

Enter stage right
Exit night
Enter light
Take,my hand
OFF TO NEVER NEVER LAND

Perspective is everything!!

The moon shivers
Under your embrace

The earth tangles
Under the sunlit kiss
When we spoke that day
My atoms were unified
As if you were inside of me
I felt perfect bliss
With a hint
Of love, aggression, and jealousy
I wondered if you've seen her
I've wondered if you've
Changed
You've sure gotten skinnier
I wasn't sure what to make of
The change
Clothes different
Hair back long
I figured yoy struggled
But what took you so long
I'd been waiting for you
And c to get together
I saw a change in her immediately
She began to ask all
Sorts of questions
Said you were still very much
Hung on me
I love you
I want you to feel that live everyday
In whatever shape or form
That comes in
You've been
Given a gift
I don't want to see you burn out
I love you
Like the restless soul I am
I wish to dive
Into you every night
Still I hold back
I still understand
Your desire
To get better
But nothing is wrong
You just lost part of me
I need you
Just as if I needed the rain

Do you forget me
When we haven't talked

Have you thought
About me
After dark

Do the memories
Ever touch
The fringes
Of your mind

I wonder
And so do i