I carelessly dove into the sea
where the depth feels like home to me
but I swim too deep, I was drowning
until everything about me is changing

I know that she is the sun for you
the shining light of your smile
who brings warmth inside your heart
that is why I decided to be your moon
the only spark you see in the night
who will watch over you inside the dark

If you cannot stop the earth from traveling around the sun,
don't expect me to stop revolving myself time and again
—in many instances—from you

It's like all the right words seems overlapping-ly wrong inside my head. As if my heart is trying ts hardest to describe who you were for me cause you were all the most lovely heartbreak that ever occurred. The thief who happened to took back what belongs to him. The room full of air pressure in which I'm willingly hand over my breath away. The sunrise I wish for in the middle of the night, when I cry

I thought sleeping
Is the only passage
To the world
Without your existence
But here you are
Inside my dream
Hugging me tight
Giving another shot
To change me and you
Into us
And I pray
Not to see the daylight
Until reality forces me
To live my nightmare
All over again

he was holding me so tight
to the point where I felt his heat
was suffocating my breathing
that I thought he'd crushed me
but
the way the sunshine danced
on his skin this morning
lets me know how lucky I am
to be alive inside his arms

the sunset dyed his hair red
and his smile suits the autumn sky
by the time I'm covered in his held
he let me touch even the most distant of stars and fly

My conclusion is
if you ever think
that you're a sane person
then you have never been in love
at all

It was never my intention to unlove you
since I swore to do so my whole life
but it was my choice to leave you
so it is your right to love another
is it not, my dear?

tonight
I surrender
a certain feeling
of my deepest heart
made from crystal
and starlight
so the moon
can whisper it
to you,
my love
tonight

Oh boy, you have no clue
how I'd **** to be on top of you
and if my mind had gone,
my jeans would be undone

She's my first tear catcher
my personal mood charger
we share stupid laughs together
and become each others' healer
she's the coolest life teacher
my idiotic picture liker
helping me to be a better stalker
each time my ex has another girl
she's the angel and the devil
knows me better than a fortune teller
she's my best of friends
she's my forever

whenever he walks through the door,
he makes the room lit brighter than the times square
and I am a tiny girl with her sweater and big dreams
captivated by his billboard-flashy-smile

usually I speak the love words loudly
so loud, those words could create poetry
so loud, they'll boil the blood in your vein
so loud, your chest might feel so much pain

until I met him and I fell in love with him

he's everything still
so quite but perfectly clear
then I learn to declare love in silence
with only stars as our audience

How you treat me
cause I welcome you
too much

yesterday I looked at my phone screen
and I learned how beautiful a square can be
the second your playful smile appeared
was the moment my real world disappeared

I’ve been waiting
for ever
for someone
to get you drunk

So I could read
the words on
a screen that I
really needed to
hear from your mouth

The night I knew
you got the alcohol
choked down your throat
I waited up for
these texts from you:

I miss you.
I miss you so much.
I miss seeing you everyday.
I miss waking up next to you.
I can’t stand the idea of being away from you.
I wish I stayed.

But all you will say
the next time you see me
—if you ever want to see me is
“I hope my texts didn’t wake you up”

They didn’t.

he's a stranger
I'm in danger
surely, it makes sense
but love never does

As long as your beating heart
Is caused by mine
As wide as the Atlantic Ocean
That filled with salt water
As high as Mount Everest
Is impossible to compared
As far as the Sun to Pluto
That takes forever to explore

That is how I love you
And
I'd risk it all
Just for you

it’s cute how my eyes chase after his face
how it is the only thing can be defined by them
and when our eyes accidentally met
they create such affection that can't be helped
but me and he can never be we
cause our faith puts too many brakes on our hearts
that might as well breaks them apart

I kissed your lips and I knew
what the moon is feeling
as the world forbids it
to ever be close to the sea
no matter how many times
it attracts the water from up above

what really curious me
is the kind of color
he'd ignite from his touch
when the sun kisses
the cloud for the first time

there will come a day
when you finally arrived to me
for I am the only one
—your only one
who can make you stop hiding
from your own darkness and fear
cause I have saved up enough light
inside my heart for both of us

how can I not
fall for him
when his charm
illuminates
the sweetest sin;
even the angels
change their minds

wasn't it time who leads your footsteps to me?
but the time was so wrong and so do we
our love sinks very fast like the sun into the sea
how I always thought we were meant to be

and if by any chance the time made its apology
I wish your footsteps find their way back to me

-

"I'm not promising you anything,
but if I ever come back to you with a ring
you have to promise me you'll say yes"

*"I promise"

I've been fighting with my heart
Woah you have no idea
How upset it is to me
When I said,
'You shall stop loving him'
It replies,
'Hellooww how could I?'
Then it keeps whining like,
'*****, you better call him now
Or Imma keep producing
Tears and damaging your brain
With memories of him'
But it doesn't understand that
If I do it, you'll be hurting too

Honestly, I cannot help but wonder
how I got the familiar compulsion to smile
when time introduced us
and how I found all the right things
in everything beneath your almond skin
~
"hello, have we met before?," I asked
"I am your last," you answered

"You don't know me", you told me once

You're probably right—I don't
I only know this;
You love to play your mind game
Cause I will keep on losing
You have a nicotine kiss
Cause I quit smoking for yours
You left then you come back
Cause you cannot deny me
You speak softly
Cause you always pull me close
You look beautiful asleep
Cause I'm attached to your sighs
You listen
Cause you keep things to yourself
You barely let me in
Cause you might change me

And you fond of me
Like I do you

what if I tell you a word
that can describe a feeling
of abundant happiness
that's been bursting
inside my chest like fireworks?
what if the word is so simple,
I secretly been saying to you
this whole time?

I kindda wish
I can describe
that tingling sensation
he gives me
whenever he pulls
my face closer to his
before we share
a very sweet kiss

Its shine twinkling above
amidst the clouds
over the galaxy
reaching out
in secrecy
and
it falls
granting wishes
hearing whispers
lighting up broken hopes

just what I was made for you

in my own world
I fear him the most
afraid that he'd leave
after he finally realized
how utterly weak I am
because in this big world
I want him more
than anyone else
I want him even more
than breathing air
I want him when I'm a whole
until I am broken all over again

Adding more chapter
to a storybook that has ended
won't make it gets better
cause a legendary story
don't repeat itself
nor get extended
I supposed that is why
there is no Titanic 2, right?

Ah go ahead
Throw me the ball of blame
I can hit them strike to shame
but I'd love it better
if you'd just put the sport to rest
and come inside my arms
where you'll feel warm and safe
above all this mess
settles the love we always have

It's 2 AM
And she is trying
To make peace
With her mind
While praying
To see his name
Popping on her phone
Or hearing his footsteps
Coming closer
To knock on her door
Because she is
The girl who waited
And he is
The king of okay

"I am leaving you"

Four simple words, one clear line
But it hit me harder than storm and thunder combined

He lied and tried his best to hide
When he said that,
I inhaled—deep—then I smiled
Even when tears started to blur away my sight
I dare him not to swerve his claws
And let me bleed until I bawl
Yet he said he'll take the blame
We were almost lover and that's a shame

Then I waited until the truth pour
When the next day he sat in front of my door
Head down facing the floor
I tasted regret on his lips up to his pore
He is all in—no more either or
He is now raining me with love down to my core
And soothe my worried minds like ocean rush to the shore
Cause I always know he wanted me forevermore

Do what makes you happy, I was told
But what is happy?
Cause I remember eating candies and
I don't know why they taste sweet
until he came and taught me
the flavor of sugar
Then he told me that not being with me
makes him happy
From that day on
I'm senseless to any happiness
cause he's the one that actually
make sense to that

“You got your long hair now,
it’s nice—I need to get my drink”
and that was the last voice
I play on repeat in my head
right before you left me—again

as I felt the warmth rolling down
on my cheeks
when we met last night at 2am
after 7 months
of our goodbye war
and I knew
that time about you are frozen
just like the wound that I kept
open

You have his heart
but I have its key
You can have him
but he loves me

if a flower blooms each time
my heart is falling for you
then I will turn this world
into a kaleidoscopic garden

the end is drawing near
following the love I kept hidden
got itself even more clear
but no place in the future
ever write a slightest hope
about you being in love with me
and I'm running out of cure
for another heartbreak

You ******* *****
How in the hell did you ever have
The dumbest thought that I am
Able to understand you in your
SILENCE?

Your stupid ego won't dry your tears
I will
Your idiot pride won't ease your fears
I will
So speak to me in clear sentence
And ask me to stay
Because *I WILL!

though I know it's not right
but the way his skin caresses mine
and his gentle smile is very warm
the same feeling I get
when I prepare myself to dream
about the universe and its sunset
and I drawn my curtain
as the night falls upon me
like I fall for him
cause the way his skin caresses mine
and his gentle smile is very warm
like the shimmer light before dusk

"You know that there is no other girl, right?"

You **** right I don't know
there is always that other girl
the one you said you always adore
pffftt adore
you adore everyone with a *****

I am crunching the ginger biscuit
as if I'm chewing that ***** face
oops, my bad, it's never her fault
but, come on! her?
she looks so........ stupid
I bet she swallows all your lies
like I did
correction, like WE did

well, you know what?
I hope you marry her
cause we both know that if you don't,
you probably just gonna end up alone
and you're just one pathetic loverboy
because you failed, again, with another girl

come to think about it
I might as well establish a group
for your victims with some other girls
I already say hi to just to laugh at you
so, better not fail this time

XO,
your-just-another-epic-ex!

No sound is needed
To hear you declaring your love
When your fingers are writing
Poetry on my naked back

No phrase is needed
To understand that you're missing me
When I can feel your presence
In the heat of the sun and rain

No sight is needed
To see how much you care
When it's my neck and cheek
You snuggle like reading braille

Iloveyou, baby
And I'm happy that we're happy

She wanted to take off her clothing
Like flower's petals falling
Until his underneath trembles
Like earthquake in December
She wanted to be rocked
And keep his thighs locked
Where he cannot kiss her
Cause she keeps biting her lip
Where his breathing gets loud
Cause she wanted some crowd
And she craved for his lust
Until she faints
Out of his hard thrusts

Maybe I have to learn
From the falling leaf
And its fading color
As it laughs along
The blowing wind
Despite the fact that
It soon will dies
Just so the tree
Is able to grow
Even greener

he brushes
my hair
and I knead
like a cat

I drink until I forget my name but recall yours
I delete your contact but memorize your number
I hate myself because loving you was easier
I deny your love and you deny mine
I cry because you said "this is the last time"
and smile because you said that countless times

You are the true definition
Of an *******

Or was I the selfless *****?

The hell with it
You messed me up

Wait, I'm sorry
You never asked me
To gave you everything I had
But I did it anyway

Well on the bright side
I learned a lot from you

Look at me now
Happily loved and in love
With someone who is not you

I am a better person now
Thanks to me
Oh and for the record
No one will ever love you
Like I did

But, hey
It's your loss, not mine