I am afraid of showing my love
afraid that he'd run away from me
so I hide it beneath my skin
waiting for him to undress me;
to finally crave me hard enough
that when he sees the love I have for him
he'd refuse anything else but staying

I am drunk
and I forgot who I am
but remembered you
and I have no other demand
but to stare at your beautiful eyes
that hold all the lights from the stars

I am drunk
and I lost myself
but found your silhouette
and I have no other request
but to make you mine
pretty please, would you be mine?

what I want is to know
you've been infected
by my blushing cheeks
whenever you call up my phone,
by the heat of my body
whenever you hold my hand,
and by my bubbly feelings
whenever you're around me

"so I've heard love is contagious," she said
*"I know, that is why I love you too," he smiled

Oh, love
I am learning to understand
The words your heart is speaking
But you keep on letting me
Crawl above the melting ice
Where the monsters below
Are ready to eat me alive
If I ever took a wrong step

With a single wink of an eye
he snapped me out of my conscience
to another strange dimension
where bruises looks like tattoos
and wounds are ridiculously popular
until I am wide awake all alone
feeling ******* sick of him,
realizing that I'm losing pieces of me
bit by bit just to pay the price
of deriving pleasure from pain
because he fooled me
time
and time
again

Here lies our broken spine
buried along with our cries
when we were chained and tied
under the evil azure sky

now we shall marked them
with tombstone of pride
for life had trained us well
and victory is what's left
for us to tell

relationship is not a game of
player one and player two
but it is a team of me and you

have you ever know somebody too well
you even recognize their footsteps sound?
how those thumps match your heartbeat
as the person walks towards your feet
and the moment his skin touches yours,
you remember why you are made for

Waking up beside you
Will someday be
Something familiar to me
Just like how I drink my tea
Mornings will knock softly
As you whine,
"I'm still sleepy"
Then my dictionary
Will erase the word lonely

On that fullmoon
our body heat rose
above the ceiling
and every voice
turned into moaning
as my saliva left trails
from your lips
to your ears
while you were busy
rocking your hips
onto mine

Oh my dear Samson
Please, save me
The wicked wizard had
put his black witchcraft
on my heavy heart
—it turned into stone
and drown me deep
into Bermuda Triangle

Every taste feels like your tongue intertwined with mine

Ulala
Those bright green eyes
ridiculously
fit the yellow sunlight
when the sky stopped raining

With each caress of my hand
I built you a castle from the sand
then she came like great wave
one hit, and you made your wave

Maybe, just maybe
All of us are lonely people
Gathered on the sea shore
With a hope that other grain of sand
Could keep us sane enough
To continue living
And that the rushing ocean
Will neither perishes us
Nor opens up the craters
Inside our thick skin

the thing is,
I drive far away
just to see the road signs
pleaded me to return
the bumps on the street
forced me to stop
the turns I took further
lead me to dead-ends
eventually, I hit reverse
and come back home
to where you are

Both my ears
are hearing musics
with maximum volume
in this big dark room
filled with people
dancing and kissing

good thing I am
not able to hear
the sound of my heart
breaking

thump, thump
his heart knocked my cheek
and softly, I heard it speaks
about one's love in chrysalis
waiting in time to be released

only the sound of the rain
and the beat of my heart
there he was
standing in front of my door
soaking wet to the floor
maybe it was a mirage
from the cold I was having
even so
his ice-cold touch
were melting my fever lips
when he asked me
to love him with all I am

everything around me is changing;
hours turn into seconds
gazes become smile
touches is now a habit
kisses are equal to promises
and love changed into you

the right thing to do
the right thing to say
a hand to reach out to
a heart promises to stay

Force me to be yours
no matter how angry I'll become
Scream to me how perfect I am for you
even if that's a total lie
Bite my lower lip until it turned purple
and let me curse you for that
Open up both my legs, pin me to the wall,
and **** me hard
Grab me by my waist and hug me
until my chest feels like cracking
Then
Sleep with me until the dawn is breaking
breathe on my neck and tell me how much you love me

I was with you for so long
I become the writer of your song
I speak like you, I laugh like you
even my heart beats like yours too

who am I again? I am your clone
now that you're gone, I'm on my own
thus, I shall find myself, be me
like the way it's supposed to be

He's just the worst in so many things;

he doesn't know how to make me sad
naturally he can only make me smile
he only speaks one language; honesty
even if it hurts, he's so bad at lying
he is having a hard time sleeping without me
every night, I must stay inside his bubbly arms
he cannot be too far from me, such a spoil
locking his lips to mine is the only time
he stops saying he misses me

he's just the worst boyfriend
whom I love so **** much

he pulls my hair
and strangles my neck
forcefully shoving his
inside mine
in every chance he has
simply cause I shout;
"**** me"

I am always the one who loves too much
who cares too much
that was the absolute reason why
I ended up with the biggest wound
I did that to myself
it was all my mistake
I am the one who pulled the trigger
to my head, up from my mouth
he was just there giving me the gun

I had a fight with time
it broke its promise
to erase the love I have
*for you

do you know why
I'd be the biggest fool
if I ever let you slip away?
cause you're that person
who can make the starlight
dances on your skin
even in the darkest night

There was a time when words
Inside my head poured for you
They’re creating your form
Like beautiful constellations
But you said that you have dyslexia
And refuse to read them through and through
The next thing I know
I stopped writing for you
Now I am ripping those pages
Just like you tore your promises
I am now writing a new book
With his heart as the cover look

but baby,
you don't need forever
to make me love you
cause I already do;
always have
always will be
so come back to me
you belong here
with me

When I placed my palm
Atop your TIRED HEART
I recognize the fear
Of my flame that might
Melt you away
IT IS NOT SAID, I ALWAYS KNOW
And when you walked out that door
I whispered,
*I AM HERE TO STAY

she was waiting
with spaced out gazed in her eyes
waiting for him to come by
she was waiting
he made her wait for so long
he was wasting her time
he was wasting her
yet, she was waiting
with hands on her chest
praying her love for him gone
while holding in the pain
she was waiting
but he never came
he doesn't love her
he doesn't care
so with all her might
she left

burn your playlist to an empty CD
wish I could just burn our memory
here I lay in my room, all lonely
only got you in my mind now, baby

I close my eyes, imagine you in your car;
smoking, driving further, driving so far
meanwhile, I still wish for the last falling star
patiently, like how Leo waited for the Oscar

Now
give me
one
good
reason
why
I
should
run
when
he
has
created
such
heav­enly jail
for me
to stay
in?

I fell in love with you
Oh have I ever got stumbled this bad
You had and still have the key to my fortress
I am so afraid to change the lock
Cause you might wanna come home
Or thought that the sun burns too hot outside
Or maybe because I simply want you to come back
I want you
Only you
That one particular man;
Who pushed my walls with your tenderness
Quietly holding my heart without touching my skin
Whom I choose to let in and now
—I cannot let go
When you decided you hated every pictures I put up on my wall of history
—I cannot hate you
Even after you walked over the crown I'm wearing
And what's worst is, you spit on my face, yet I still wake up every day—choose to fall in love with you even more
I wish I could stop
I wish I could fast forward the time
To that moment when your name won't feel like a blade coming out of my throat
Or when I can rest at night without recalling how you always, always told me to be in my most comfortable position inside your hug before we sleep
I said I was done
Done for what? I'm walking away from you but keep finding myself going round and round you as my heart calling your name like echoes
We do know there are two sides of every story as they said
You hurt me, I hurt you
How we both think we got bruised a little more than another
Was it true? Does it even matter anymore who hurts who when we both are hurting?
Doesn't pain is in accordance with love?
We got hurt cause we love
We love
You loved me
And I loved you
I loved you then
I love you still
This is too much. Falling in love at this age is too much for me to handle cause my brain already picture how forever looks like when my last name changed into yours
I was off guard when you stood there in front of me. You were never on my plan. I surely didn't know I am able to love like this again. To experience this kind of love;
The kind that makes me think of nothing as long as it's you. The love I avoid to have cause I'm always scared of losing. The love that makes me laugh and cry in one single line you speak. The 'I just want to be a koala and you're the tree' kind of love. The love that makes me willing to do crazy **** above my pride cause you’re so much more worth it. The love that changed my insides like someone just explode a grenade in it. The love that makes me see the poetry written all over your tattooed skin as I voice them out through my writing. The love I love deeper than love have allowed to love. I found in you
And I lost it
When I lost you.

swore yourself to another girl
that she will be your precious pearl
but if one day you look over your shoulder
it is my name you ever love in every letter

look at my new heart
he sewn so beautifully
and I wear proudly
cause it makes my smile glows
and the blue sky follows
the birds hum our love song
like nothing ever went wrong

it was such a simple thing
that tore us apart
only because he has a heart
with the capacity of one glass
while I have the love
from all the seven seas
to pour for him

there is this boy whom I once knew
he craved my heart butterflies tattoo

whenever we kissed,
those butterflies flew

but as cold as snow,
he left me blue

yet in the mention of his name,
those butterflies still fly too

I died
right there and then
in the most vicious manner
with every touch she crafted on his skin
and every smile she formed to his lips
she mutilated me—sliced my body
and took away the happiness in me
I was buried inside the coffin
of their screaming memory
and I yelled back in agony

then he ran to me
pulled my soul with powerful force
of his convincing gravity
he resuscitated what she stole
and returned my heart to a whole

but if the demon
shows itself before you
can you really still believe
that God will help you out?
cause for all I know
He's never there
when I have to face
the demon within me

Look at us
Both lost in war
Bruised and wounded
Covered in scars
Shattered butterflies
Hear no lies
Burned bridges
Ask me why
Rest in pieces
Love had died

Falling in love with him
is as easy as falling asleep
to his beating heart
while I'm covered
inside his locking arms

with just a pair of dark eyes
and a heart
he looks at me
like I'm coated
in gold and stars
and loves me
like he just discovered
what love is
in all I am

just like Groundhog Day
he's repeating the same warning;
the reasons of our undoing,
a parachute to keep us from falling

no one ever did what he does
since he is particularly odd;
like how he kisses my lips
as if they're made of vanilla
and he loves the taste of it
lingers on his tongue
or the way he laughs with me
like I'm his bestfriend
while playing with my hair
as I rest my head on his chest
he'd hum lullabies through his wrapping arms
making all my doubts fall asleep

and unconsciously,
I'm in too deep

he blinked, he smiled, he looked like the sky
so blue, yet new, the highest intensity of hue
I lived inside the blackest silence for so long
now everything lights up like a love song

Tuck in your tired feet
inside the warm blanket we'll meet
i'll blow away your worried minds
with one little kiss i'll leave behind

no matter what happened today
no matter what will happen tomorrow
you should know that i will stay
and things will turned out okay

hey honey let me sing you
a lullabies for all night through
for every frown and smile you do
keep in mind that I love you

now now close those heavy eyes
ready to enter your dream, it's nice
na na na na na sleep tight
na na na na na turn off the light

Shall I give you a bouquet of flowers,
I'd give you Amaryllis for your splendid beauty
that charmed me in all the right way with insanity

a touch of blue Iris for every faith I put in you
and hope for all my prayers to come true

I'll decorate it with some white Chrysanthemum
for it is truth and loyalty that defines our coliseum

then a Sunflower, a symbol of dedication
of my eternal love and your heart in unison