oni: Poems

Jul 2015 · 877

simply a shadow

oni Jul 2015

simply a shadow

how do i
get my heart back
when the person
it belongs to
refuses to acknowledge
my existence?

#love #heartbreak #sad #heart #relationships #shadow #ghost #existence

Jul 2015 · 707

burned

oni Jul 2015

burned

the liquor burned my throat
but at least it made me forget
all of the broken pieces
i keep cutting myself on

#cutting #self #harm #broken #sad #depression #alcohol #pieces #liquor

Jul 2015 · 1.4k

mental block

oni Jul 2015

mental block

today
i realized
that every
wall
standing
in my
way
has your
name
carved
into it,
like
headstones
that refuse
to be
forgotten

#love #heartbreak #sad #death #headstone #tombstone

Jul 2015 · 531

of square pegs and round holes

oni Jul 2015

of square pegs and round holes

we broke
each other,
so its only
fair
to say
that you
still have
some of
my pieces
with
you

i want them back

#love #heartbreak #broken #sad #pieces

Jul 2015 · 502

holes

oni Jul 2015

holes

i think too much
about things i shouldnt think about,
but its the saddest memories
that make me feel alive

#sad #depression #memories #alive #past #think

Jul 2015 · 536

old scars

oni Jul 2015

old scars

it all comes back to
the past -
because it is
what has
happened,
and the future
has not.

#life #future #time #past #scars #present

Jul 2015 · 1.0k

creation and destruction

oni Jul 2015

creation and destruction

she speaks of you
like you put the
stars in her sky,
and then ripped them out
one by one.

#love #heartbreak #stars #sky #ripped

Jun 2015 · 1.2k

pills

oni Jun 2015

pills

swallow
with water
and turn
into a
slave

#pills #addiction #depression #illness #drugs #mental #addicted #medication

Jun 2015 · 2.1k

still chained

oni Jun 2015

still chained

they always say
to set free
the things you love,

but they never mention
that you will still
love
what you set free.

#love #heartbreak #freedom #free #chained #chain

Jun 2015 · 547

angry god

oni Jun 2015

angry god

i used to
look at you
like you could
walk on water
or like you
created the stars

but you were really
only a thief
who stole
everything
i had
and smashed it
right before my
eyes

#love #heartbreak #hate #stars #water #thief

Jun 2015 · 1.6k

anti-social

oni Jun 2015

anti-social

i just
want to
stay home

the world
is full of
*******
that want to
break your heart

and
ex-girlfriends
that want to
break your face

i just
want to
stay home

id rather not
waste
the make up

#love #heartbreak #home #social #alone #anxiety

Jun 2015 · 611

decide/devide

oni Jun 2015

decide/devide

i could ****
myself
or
my mind
but either way
i will be
dead

#suicide #self #depression #thoughts #mind #mental #suicidal #health

Jun 2015 · 1.2k

mutilation

oni Jun 2015

mutilation

we are covered
in scars
from internal
fistfights
that bled through
to the outside

#suicide #cutting #self #harm #depression #suicidal

May 2015 · 10.6k

virginity.

oni May 2015

virginity.

in the end,
your *****
is just another
piece of you
that he *******
broke.

#love #heartbreak #*** #virginity

May 2015 · 3.1k

courage

oni May 2015

courage

not all
lions
use their
teeth;

some
do not
even
realize
they
have them

#life #nature #courage #lion #teeth

May 2015 · 8.6k

connected

oni May 2015

connected

lives
touch,
pass,
and
continue.

#life #touch #connection #continue

Apr 2015 · 789

IV

oni Apr 2015

IV

you should be
dehydrating
from the
sun,

not
tears
wasted on
those
who have
ceased
to care

#love #heartbreak #sun #tears

Apr 2015 · 766

internal bleeding

oni Apr 2015

internal bleeding

how do you
bandage
the wound
if you
are not even
sure
where it is?

#love #heartbreak #sad #wound

Apr 2015 · 1.0k

the way things are

oni Apr 2015

the way things are

if you
choose
to step
into my
hemisphere,
i will not
apologize
for the
rain.

#love #rain #nature #weather #hemisphere

Apr 2015 · 595

move away, not on

oni Apr 2015

move away, not on

maybe
one day
we will
meet again

bumping
carts
at the
grocery store

or
walking
the dog
in the
park.

maybe
one day
we will be
okay
again,

hopefully.

#love #heartbreak #future #hope #maybe #confusion

Apr 2015 · 1.5k

cacophony

oni Apr 2015

cacophony

i am
one note
short
of a
chord,
but i am
still
music

#life #people #music #personality #chord

Apr 2015 · 1.0k

living with it

oni Apr 2015

living with it

you cannot
force air
into lungs
that have
long since
collapsed;

you cannot
smile
at the rain
if it has
always
blocked the
sun

#depression #illness #sun #rain #smile #mental #air #lungs #collapsed

Apr 2015 · 589

ghøst

oni Apr 2015

ghøst

today,
i wish
i was
dead.

i want
to roam
the
world
as a
shadow,
seeing
the pain
but not
feeling
it.

#suicide #pain #world #ghost #suicidal

Apr 2015 · 997

cherry coke

oni Apr 2015

cherry coke

ill erase
the pictures

ill put
walls
around the
memories

but ill
order another
cherry coke,
because it
tastes
like you did.

#love #heartbreak #sad #memories #erase

Apr 2015 · 2.9k

hurt

oni Apr 2015

hurt

the
pain
is how
i know
i love him

#love #heartbreak #pain #relationships #hurt

Apr 2015 · 2.1k

past

oni Apr 2015

past

you appear
in a
breeze

rustling
a few
of my
leaves

only to
disappear
as soon
as i
remember
you

#past #remember #disappear #memory #leaves #breeze

Apr 2015 · 1.6k

+first aid+

oni Apr 2015

+first aid+

bandages
dont do
much
for a
wound
aside from
hiding
them

#self #harm #life #hide #suicidal #scars #wound #heal #bandages

Apr 2015 · 322

saying goodbye to my first real friend

oni Apr 2015

saying goodbye to my first real friend

seeing you
is like
having a
ghost
walk through me;

i can feel
all of the
memories
off who you
used to be,

but you
arent there -

at least,
not anymore.

#relationships #memories #past #friendship #ghost #gone

Apr 2015 · 311

maybe

oni Apr 2015

maybe

maybe
i care too
much
for putting
someone else's
life
before my own,
or maybe
i'm just
suicidal

#love #suicide #life #death #suicidal #care

Apr 2015 · 480

"the past is always waiting for the right moment to mess with the present".

oni Apr 2015

"the past is always waiting for the right moment to mess with the present".

your fingers
still reach out
in the form
of tree branches,
scratching open
remnants of
scars
i almost had
forgotten

#love #relationships #time #nature #past #forget #fingers #trees #scars

Mar 2015 · 438

what goes up must come down

oni Mar 2015

what goes up must come down

i believed
in breathing
until i realized
every breath
i take
brings me
closer
to death

#life #death #breath #believe #breathing

Mar 2015 · 1.1k

made for spring

oni Mar 2015

made for spring

she stuck out
like crimson petals
in the snow
but continued
to dance
as the wind
blew

#dance #winter #spring #snow #petal #wind #unique #crimson

Mar 2015 · 656

shh.

oni Mar 2015

shh.

i will
wake up
when those
with blood
under their
fingernails
stop telling
me
to wash
my hands

#life #sleep #up #society #blood #wake #wash #clean

Mar 2015 · 747

life raft

oni Mar 2015

life raft

and i was
helping him
breathe
while you
were attempting
to drown
him

#love #relationships #breathe #drown

Mar 2015 · 1.0k

spaceman

oni Mar 2015

spaceman

maybe
i am just
searching
for home
on the wrong
planet.

#home #space #acceptance #planet #alien

Mar 2015 · 977

DONT DIE

oni Mar 2015

DONT DIE

i am the poison
and i am
the smell of death
i kissed you
and you withered
like roses adorning
a tombstone

#love #heartbreak #death #relationships #grave #poison #rose #tombstone

Mar 2015 · 659

chained to the sky

oni Mar 2015

chained to the sky

i love
you
and
consequently,
the sun
loves the
moon

#love #heartbreak #sun #moon #relationships #heartbroken

Mar 2015 · 561

the end.

oni Mar 2015

the end.

it is the
end
of an era
that i
believed
would
last
much longer
and i could
blame
it on
a million
things
but none
as much
as myself

#love #heartbreak #end #time #goodbye #heartbroken

Mar 2015 · 1.8k

so this is real heartbreak

oni Mar 2015

so this is real heartbreak

i stopped
breathing
and my
soul
left my
body
but my
ghost
is still
here
and refuses
to leave

#heartbreak #sad #death #leave #ghost #body #heartache

Mar 2015 · 455

MY CHEST HURTS

oni Mar 2015

MY CHEST HURTS

the pressure
from my heart
spreads through
my veins
and i sink
myself
by holding on
to this feeling

#suicide #depression #illness #mental #suicidal

Mar 2015 · 333

lover

oni Mar 2015

lover

you only know
how to fight
when no one
else
is around
to make me
lose

#love #abuse #relationships #fight

Mar 2015 · 582

gone sour

oni Mar 2015

gone sour

maybe
it is time
to bite
the hand
that feeds me
because
it is feeding me
poison.

#love #heartbreak #sad #relationships #confusion

Feb 2015 · 541

superfailure

oni Feb 2015

superfailure

I want to
save the world,
but I cannot even
save myself;
so please
do not
ask me
to save you,
too

#depression #illness #mental #help #save #compassion

Feb 2015 · 845

put the blade down

oni Feb 2015

put the blade down

please don't
hurt yourself;
the world
already
hurts you
enough

#suicide #cutting #self #harm #depression #suicidal

Feb 2015 · 3.1k

cut

oni Feb 2015

cut

i am an artist
of my own
destruction

i dabble in
shades
of crimson

my only
canvas
is a sheet
of pale flesh

and my artistry
is to
die
for

#suicide #cutting #self #harm #suicidal

Feb 2015 · 475

living with it

oni Feb 2015

living with it

and the worst part
is having all of these
ideas
in your head
about how you
are going to
change
your life
but you barely
have the strength
to stand.

#suicide #depression #illness #anxiety #thoughts #mental #suicidal #motivation #ideas

Feb 2015 · 591

i cant recover.

oni Feb 2015

i cant recover.

what use is a
body
that is on
fire

what use is a
mind
whose only
wish
is to
consume

#suicide #self #harm #depression #illness #anxiety #mental #suicidal #recovery #relapse

Feb 2015 · 409

ITS GETTING WORSE

oni Feb 2015

ITS GETTING WORSE

i climbed upward
until i found
the world had been turned
upside down
and i was actually
digging down

#suicide #depression #illness #mental #suicidal #relapse

Feb 2015 · 684

ill

oni Feb 2015

ill

there is heat in my chest
and emptiness in my heart
that i cant fix

#depression #heart #illness #anxiety #mental #emptiness #chest #anxious

Feb 2015 · 3.1k

relapse

oni Feb 2015

relapse

i told you
because
i wanted you
to stop me.

#suicide #self #harm #depression #illness #anxiety #mental #relapse