Ako di man adunahan
Pero kun ako man gali ma gugmaan
Akong ihatag ang akong tanan

Pero unsaon taman
Hangtod diri ra gyud taman
Kay bahalag gihatag ko na sa imo ang tanan
Ikaw man gihapon nakulangan

Wa ko man na abot
Ang pangarap nga mahawiran imong kamot
Nagpasalamat ra pod ko sa imo kay
Tungod sa imo di na ako masakitan pa kay
di gyud ko makalimot
Nga sa imo akong gugma, ako nang gihurot
Ug hatag mao nang Sa uban di na ako magmahal pa
Mao nang sa uban di na ako masakitan pa.

Guilt*
It consumes me

I fornicated with sin
That bore fruit
To A child called Guilt

In my stomach it grows
It consumes me
Slowly
Ever so slowly
Eating a piece of me

I tried to erase
The evidence of sin

Five months
It took five months
To cut it open
Sliced through flesh
Amidst the blood that drowned
Guilt was out in the open

Guilt with crying
Trying to understand what was happening
An entire new world was before him

I thought I could erase it
The evidence of sin

But guilt was smiling on me
I could not dare bury

My guilt

I could not

So I decided
To forever live with *Guilt

Gusto kong magmahal
Pero takot akong masaktan
Takot akong masaktan
Kasi baka hindi ko kayang bumangon
Kasi kapag di ako agad nakabangon
Takot akong maiwan
Maiwanan ng panahaon
At sa aking paglingon
Walang saki'y humihintay
Walang saki'y tutulong
Kaya takot akong magmahal
Pero gusto ko

Had I known
That I would miss him this much
I wouldn't have left

Had I known
That it would hurt this much
I wouldn't have let him go

Had I known
That I would fall for him this much
I wouldn't have started loving him


But the truth is I have known

I have known all along
I knew so well

I knew I would miss him so much
But I needed to leave
'Coz I knew that it was wrong for me to be with him
I knew it would hurt me so much

But I needed to let him go
'Coz I knew that he was not mine to begin with

I knew that if I would fall, I'll fall so deep
But still I let myself fall
Hoping that he would catch me

But he didn't

He was already at someone else's embrace when I started falling

The fall hurt
It hurts so much
It left my heart shattered into pieces

But what hurts more is
Knowing that I am still clinging to those shattered pieces
Hoping you'd want it.

Hanggang kailan kaya merong "tayo"
Di ko maalis ang takot sa isip ko
Na isang araw ang "tayo" ay maging "ako"

Takot na ako'y iyong iwan
Baka puso mo ako'y kalimutan
Kasi nangyari na yan minsan

Nananatili pa rin ang pangamba
Na muli magkaroon ka ng iba
Sa nararamdaman kong ito
Di mo naman ako masisisi diba?

Kasi minsan mo na akong ipinagpalit
Pag-ibig na naging mapait
At nagdulot ng labis na sakit

Kaya hanggang ngayon takot pa rin ako
Na matapos ang ating tayo
At mapalitan ng isang kayo

There are times when we dont ask for the best
We just want a bit of happiness

When a dozen of flowers and a bunch of cards aint enough
But those three words is more than enough

When dining in high class retaurants isn't romantic
But eating street foods with you is so sweet

When you do every thing I ask isn't lovely
But smiling at me melts my heart

I do not ask for your whole life to be mine
All I want is a piece of me to be a part of your life

And a doze of you in mine.
That is how I'll have my happiness in small dozes. <3

The me that only looked at you
The me that only thinks of you
The me that want only you
The me that loves no one but you
You’ve left

And when you left

The eyes that only looked at you
Could no longer see
The mind that could only think of you
Had gone mad
The person that wanted only you
Has no one to live for
And the heart that loved no one but you
Is broken
Bruised, crushed, shattered in pieces
It is broken

Yes, that heart is broken
But still,
How?
How can it still beat for you?

As the sun was about to lay rest,
In the ***** of his lover, the ocean
The waves offer a lullaby

The wind blows in silence
To the rustling leaves that offers a harmony
The birds flying, dancing to that tune

When the sun have reached in his lovers embrace,
The ocean was filled with joy
Glistening, sparkling with golden light

The clouds gather, the final curtain
The light was setting
And the darkness is creeping
When the sky was governed both by the two
Exploded a magnifecent scene

There she stood
Looking at the great wonder the world had offered
Her eyes marveled at the priceless image

But deep in her heart and mind and soul
All she could feel is the cold wind brushing past her,
Piercing her skin like a knife

All she could hear is silence, a proof of her being alone
A constant reminder of her loneliness

All she could taste is the bitterness of jealousy
And

All she could ask is
When will she ever find her warm sun?

In five seven five
Syllables that I write
My haiku is done

Ilang beses mo na akong napatawa
Maraming beses na rin tayong naging masaya
Sa piling ng isa’t isa
Di na rin mabilang  ang pagkakataon
Na naisip ko na sa aki’y mahalaga ka
Pero huli na nang malaman kong mahal pala kita

Sa bawat sandaling kapiling kita
Tila buong mundo koy napakasaya
Kasi sa harap mo, pwede ang ‘just simply me’ kung baga
Dahil tanggap mo ang buong ako,
Walang bahid ng panghuhusga
Kaya sa buhay ko talagang mahalaga ka
Pero huli na nang malaman kong mahal pala kita

Isang araw nagising nalang ako
Naisip ko
Na higit pa sa pagpapahalaga ang nararamdam ko para sayo
Pero binaliwala ko ito,
Sa pagaakalang pansamantala lang to
Sinikap kong mawala ang nararamdaman ko
Kaya naisip koy pansamantalang lumayo sayo


Pero di ko na namalayan na masyado na palang lumayo
Ang dating ikaw at ako
Tila nakalimutan mo na rin na naririto pa ako, ang tayo
Ngayon ibang tao na ang kapiling mo
May pumalit na sa posisyon ko
Na dati’y sa tabi mo

Tuluyan na ngang nawala ang mga pagkakataong
Tumamatawa ko, masaya ako sa piling mo
At saka ko pa lamang nalaman,
Na Mahal pala kita

MAHAL KITA.
*PERO HULI NA.

If you every try to bring chaos
To the top of my tower, I will ****
You with everything I've got
For no one can stop me but
let me remind you for I am serious
If you try to challenge me just coz you're curious
Stop now, for I can ****
I have killed
and still I will
if you try to bring chaos to the top of my tower

I will bring out my power
To bring back the order

I can only remember
to cherish it when it's gone
I can only remember
how I loved it when it's lost

I lost my voice to hear the music
This is what they say, back to basic
Or am I just actually sick?
I lost my voice, now all that is left is the music.

I have a dream, a dream to fly
To rise above the clouds and touch the sky
Be able to reach the heavens and soar up high
What a wonderful dream indeed, a dream to fly


But it's just a dream, for I can't fly
For I'm just a peacock, looking at the sky
Not like the others who could soar up high
I'm just a peacock, and I don't know how to fly


Though how colourful my wings could be
It still doesn't have that ability
To help me reach my dream, to fly gleefully
But sadly, I guess I'll just be dreaming for whole eternity


I wish I could escape this sad reality
And let my mind be filled with insanity
And maybe, just maybe only there I can see
A peacock with spread out wings, flying gleefully

I often look at the ground wishing to see the world
But only to find myself, staring at dirt
I often look at the sky wishing to see the world
But only to find myself, staring at none
I look around, what ever surrounds,
But all I see are the walls that have trapped me

But then I see you with me
You looked at me, and as I looked back
I saw in your eyes,
the real world that was just infront of me

The times you made me laugh
The many times we spent so happy together
And the countless times
I thought how important you were to me
But it was too late when I realized that I love you

On every moment I spent with you
The world seemed happier
No pretensions, no worries when I’m with you
‘coz in front  of you, just a simple ‘me’ is enough
You accept everything about me
No stain of judgement in your eyes
That is why you mean so much to me
But it was too late when I realized that I love you

One day I woke up
And realized that you were more than a friend
More than just important to me
But I shook that thought away thinking it was just temporary
Afraid how our friendship will change if I let those feeling take over
I chose to keep those feelings hidden, to avoid my secrets to spill,
I distanced myself from you
Hoping for the feelings to cease

But I did not see that the distance was already too far
Too far that you could not see me any longer
You forgot about me
My existence

Now you are with someone else
Another person have replaced my position
My position, my place beside you

All is lost,
Now everything is over
The times I spent laughing, happy with you is all gone
It was only then that I realized
That I love you

I LOVE YOU.
*And it’s too late to say it.

I used to write sad poems
Because that was me then.
I was unhappy
Unhappy because I was me.
I did not liked my reality
But that was then,
Back when

Back when
The dominant emotion was blue
Graduation was long overdue
Did not know if my feelings where valid and true
Waiting for someone new

Someone to sweep me off my feet,
Someone to take me away,
Someone to expel all the misery
Someone to understand me

But behold,
Months passed, no one came,
I was stuck, with the me
Who hated me
Thus I wrote all my feelings
Let it flow thru poetry
Hurt my self not physically
But with all the words
Using my poetry

Though my vocabulary was limted
With every like given,
I felt wanted
So I poured all my feelings into poetry
Thru my words, I've shared every piece of me,
But when I got it all out, suddenly I felt empty
Were all that emotions defined me
Now, who is the real me???

Fast forward years later.
To the last question, I still don't know the answer.

But the thing I can say
I used to write sad poems
And its actually here to stay

Dati akala ko masakit ang umasa,
pero napagtanto ko na mas masaya ang umasa
Kasi atleast sa utak mo sinasabi mo na pwede pa
Sa bawat sandali na kapiling mo xa, natutuwa kana
Kahit konting kasweetan, bininigyan na ng halaga
Kaya masasabi kong ang umasa, ay masaya pala talaga

pero kailan ba nagiging masakit ang umasa?
kailan ba nagiging mapait ang nadarama?

Ito ay kung nagsimula kana sa pagdududa
Na sa totoo ay ang pwede, ay di pala
Ito ay kung tumigil kana sa pag-asa
at nasabi **** tama na
kasi ayaw mo na
at susuko kana

Saka mo palang madarama ang sakit
at panghihinayang sa oras na ginugol mo
at inaksaya mo sa pag-aasa
na hindi rin pala nagbunga.

Habang hawak-hawak mo ang kanyang kamay
            'San man kayo magpunta
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako
            Na nalulunod sa pangungulila
                        Nang ako'y iyong binitiwan?

Habang kayakap mo siya
            Sa gabing maginaw
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako
            Na naghihintay sa'yo
                        Mag-isa, nanlalamig
                                    At sa init ng 'yong yakap ay uhaw?

Habang hinahalikan mo
Ang kanyang mapupulang labi
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako
            Na halos matuyo na ang labi
                        Sa kasasambit ng pangalan mo?

Habang binubulong mo sa kanya
            Kung gaano mo siya kamahal
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako,
            Narinig mo ako?
                        Sumisigaw na "Mahal na Mahal kita!"

Habang pinagmamasdan mo
            Ang kanyang matamis na ngiti
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako,
            Nakita mo ako, nakita mo
                        Kung gaano na karaming patak ng luha
                                    Ang naidilig ko sa lupa?

At sa kung siya ay umiiyak at iyong pinatatahan
Habang pinupunasan mo
Ang kanyang mga luha
Kailan ba'y naisip mo ako,
            Naisipan mo man lang ba?
                        Na itigil ang paulit-ulit
                                    Na pagsaksak mo sa puso kong
                                                Dumudgo sa kaiibig sayo?

Pero alam ko
Na may kasalan din ako
Kasi....

Kailan ma'y di ko naisip
Na sa higpit ng yakap ko'y nasasakal ka na pala

Kailan ma'y di ko naisip
Na kahit gaano kalawak ang bahay nati'y
            Nasisikipan parin ang iyong dibdib
                        At hindi kana nakakahinga

Kailan  ma'y di ko naisip
Na kahit napagalitan ka sa opisina, sabik ka sana sa paguwi
Pero ang dadatnan mo lang ay isang malawak na bahay
Na mayroong isang "ako" na puro dada at reklamo lang
At ang iyong naririnig mula sa aking bibig
na tila daig pa ang isang rapper
sa bilis at walang paltos na panlalait

Kailan ma'y di ko naisip
'di ko inisip ang iyong opinyon
Kasi palagi nalang ako, ako, ako
            Ako ang tama

Kailan ma'y di ko naisip
Habang ika'y umuuwing pagod
Dinuduro pa rin kita
            At ito'y tumatagos na sa puso mo
                        Hanggang sa sinabi **** tama na,
                                    Hindi mo na kaya, Ayaw mo na

At yun umalis kana, iniwan mo na ako

Pero heto ako ngayon sa harapan mo...
Nagtatanong
            Kung mahal mo pa ba ako?

At kung ang iyong sagot ay hindi na'y

Heto ako ngayon sa harapan mo...
Nagbabakasakali
            Na may pag-asa pang mahalin mo ako ulit

At kung wala na ay

Heto ako ngayon
Sa harapan mo
Lumuluhod
Nagmamakaawa
Na balikan mo ako

Balikan mo ako
Balikan mo kami

Pakiusap umuwi ka na
Sa malawak na bahay
Na bahay mo, na bahay ko

Umuwi ka na, kahit 'di para sa'kin
Kun'di para sa mga anak mo, na anak ko
Para sa pamilyang ito

Parang awa mo na
Bumalik ka na
Kasi sa malawak na bahay
Naroon ako, at ang mga anak mo
Nangungulila... at
Naghihintay
Sa pagbalik mo

x.x

Kring, Kring
Can you hear the telephone ring?
No you didn't?
Well again,
Kring, Kring,
Now it is ringing.
Still no?
Well,
Kring, Kriiiinnnngggg....... Kriiiiinnnngggg!
This will be like a song you'd love to sing,
Stuck in your mind and for a while
you'll hear the sound of
kring, kring, kring

I am currently standing horizontally
Waiting for an anomally
When my mind, soul and body would reach to a
Unanimous decision to stand vertically

Not seeing each other doesn’t mean I stopped loving
I think it wont take long, I will see you again
Please don’t do this to me
You know that I wont forget you easily

...

Looking at the room, I feel alone
'Coz indeed I am
You’ve gone far away
It feels so lonely without you by my side

Even when you are far,
Even if I can’t see you,
Even if we can’t be together,
I didn’t stop loving you.

I know you needed to go
It’s for our future you said

You said you’ll always call
Yes you did

But then came a day when you stopped
Days passed and the phone never rang
No more pictures, notifications
No more communication

Why did you stop?
Are you too busy there?
Is your phone broken?
Have you found someone else?

Why are you doing this to me?
You know I won’t forget you easily.
...
I heard you moved to a different place
Now you’re more far than you’ve ever been

This long distance relationship is hard
I want to see you but it’s difficult
The price to pay to go there is too high
And the ticket is only one way

Isn’t there no other way to see you?
Isn’t there another way to hear your voice?

Don’t you have an internet connection there?
Don’t you have a signal there?

Are phones not allowed there?

If not, then tell God to allow you for a bit.
I need to talk to you
The pain in my heart is growing so much
I may no longer contain it

I might explode

I am longing to see you more and more each day
The tears won’t stop,
I’m drowning in sorrow

If he can’t allow,
Then I shall pay the price to go to you
And I know there is no going back
Maybe, It won’t take long and I’ll be with you

Let me **** myself in poetry
The suicide thoughts that keeps haunting me
The misery that keeps drowning me
I will let it all out in this piece of poetry

I am starting to hate myself
I know I have the ability, for what it's worth
But I keep stumbling and falling
All by myself

I feel sorry to my parents
For they have provided me everything they could give
I feel sorry to God
For I know he had blessed me with so much more than I am worth

I know killing isn't the solution
But

I hate myself That I want to hurt it
Inflict pain and **** it.

But I know a lot of people still loves me
Caring and is waiting for me

So to let out my anger
Let me **** myself in this poetry
Yes, with this poem I have died.

I have killed myself in poetry,

Now I shall go back stronger, to face my reality.

Let me tell you of who I killed
Just to maintain the order inside this tower

A petty and dark person once lurked
At the deepest and darkest corner of my core
Uhm, I mean the tower's core

That petty and dark person,
shall we call her as depression
Tried to climb at the top of the tower
and attempted to break the order

She bounded my heart.. I mean the core with chains
Wants to climb on top, embed my brains
with thought of self infliction and suicide
She really wants to see someone die
and oh yes she did
because yes she died

I killed her
Coz no one can mess with the tower's order

And the story goes like this
I have then ordered for the order of nights to **** her
once she gets on top and touches the border
her life would soon be over

But she was a fighter, I admit
Several knights have fallen to a defeat
Cast down to an eternal pit
of negativity that she submits

Confidence, Self-worth, Joy
are few of the heroes that have first fallen
Followed by logic, intelligence, pride and sense
Until little by little she was winning

The top of the tower she was conquering

then the tower was slowly changing
cue in isolation and self condemnation

But oh boy
when she thought she had finally won
when she thought the war was finally over
Awakens my last remaining fighter
that was once in a slumber
the last remaining member of the knights order
and she is up to bring back the tower's lost order!

Shall I call this knight HOPE
small and fragile as she seems,
but boy she was so dope

Everytime depression knocks her down
HOPE would break and scatter all around
But dont get me wrong, hope was not losing
coz this is her type of fighting
and by this she was actually winning

Her scatted pieces that trailed every corner
Shone brightly even at the pits of negativity
The light became a guide
A path that let out her comrades from the pit

Now everything in the tower was shining
Even the petty and dark depression was submitting

For darkness can never win over light
Thus mark depression's era as over
I killed her
or I may have not

maybe she will be back
but let me tell her this
Let me tell you this
I have a great fighter
and once she is still alive
It will never be over
I will keep fighting whoever want to take over my tower
Coz if the light of hope is still there
my life, I will never let it be over

Time have stopped for her
Until he came
It was then when her time ticked again


Then little by little she started moving
and with those movements
little by little she started growing


the time spent with him
made it possible for her to again
little by little started living


Every moment with him made her
little by little started enjoying
It made her realize, that for him
little by little she started caring


More time passed, then she knew
little by little,.. no..
more and more she started loving

More and more she started knowing
about the person that made her life worth living

More and more of him she wanted having
So more and more of him she kept asking

She loved him and He loves her
So more and more of him he kept giving

But the cycle of asking and giving did not cease

So the more and more she kept having,
The more and more of him he kept losing

It was late when they realized,
little by little his time was ending


Little by little he lost his sight
More and more she saw his plight

Little by little he couldn't feel
More and more she prayed for him to heal

Little by little that he couldn't hear
More and more she whispered in his ear,
"I love you with everything I have, everything I am, and everything I'll ever be                       my dear"

Little by little he was suffering
More and more she kept hurting

Little by little that the time kept moving
More and more his end is nearing

And

Little by little he stopped breathing
More and more she knew it was coming

More and more his life was leaving
little by little he stopped moving

And when he met with his ending
His clock also stopped working.

Time had stopped for her, but he made it move.
Now time had stopped for him,
and there is nothing she can do...

She once dreamed of a life
But never had she lived it
So came a time she gave birth to a life
and promised her baby will live it

The child lived her life
continuing her mother's broken dream
But never had she owned a single dream of her own
because the child was too busy
living that person's old broken dream

Kahit minsan man lang
subukan mo sana akong lokohin
at sana ako rin ay iyong paasahin

Alam ko kung ano ang sabi ng iba
Na ayaw nila sa mga paasa
Pero wala akong **** sa opinyon nila
Kasi mas pipiliin ko ang umasa
Kesa sa bitiwan at kalimutan ka

Kaya kahit minsan, subukan mo man lang sana akong lokohin
Sabihin mo Na ikaw ay pwede ring maging sakin
Paglaroan mo ako at paasahin
Wala akong ****, ano man ang kanilang sabihin
meron akong aaminin
sa totoo lang, umaasa kasi ako
na baka ang lokohan di kalaunan ay totohanin.

Kaya kahit minsan man lang
subukan mo man lang sana akong lokohin at paasahin
Pag-ibig ko sayo mag mo naman sa laging barahin
pag-asang maipakita ang pagmamahal ko sayo
sana, wag mo namang ipagkait sa akin.

The thing is
I didnt want you to kiss me
I just wanted to hear you say that you love me

They may say that action speaks louder than words
But words are clearer than actions

I can feel your emotions screaming loud
But the thing is
its just loud, but definitely unclear

dark skies
tears of heaven
sorrow of the gods
fill up the air
but under your shade
everything is brighter

Happiness that we once felt,
The sadness that once made us cry,

The love we had given,
The love that we received in return,
The love that was shared.

Some love that was given,
The love that was never returned,
The love that was never shared,
The life that we had lived.

All of these are stored in a magical box called MEMORY.

But then the evil witch came and wreaked havoc upon the kingdom...
And she took the precious box.

The kingdom lost its memories of the years that went by...

And so the hero came and defeated the witch,
The box was returned back to kingdom.
The memories were restored...

The kingdom had a ruler, the queen.
Her name was Heart.

When the box was lost,
she felt lost.
The only thing that connected her to her kingdom,
was gone


But the hero came and gave the box back...

Her memories were restored,
the link with her and the kingdom was back.
But..
But... Deep inside,
To the very depths of Heart,
a voice,
calling out to her

a voice told her that there was something wrong

But she ignored it.

What she didn’t knew
A spell
The witch has caste
on to the magical box


The memories was mixed up
Altered.

It was a curse that would haunt Heart forever.

The roaring of the sky has stopped
The flames of war have died
Enemies are gone
Soldiers have been lost
But the people remembers


Fragments of war are never beautiful
Memories of war are painful
Things lost to war are always sorrowful
But they must all be remembered
For the sake of the people who could never return
For the sake of the people who has lost the home to go back to
For the sake of a country who lost their citizen, be it friend or foe
for the sake of the mother who weeps for her family
Her children have different views and one must die for one to live


The roaring of the sky has stopped
The flames of war have died
Enemies are gone
Soldiers have been lost
But the people remembers