I am so tired
tired of waiting
tired of trying
tired of staying awake
staying concius
staying alive.
Waking up
going to bed
both eaqually hard.
The day in between may come and go
emotional storm
tears and laugher.
Life is all well and good.
At times.
Not every time.
Its a round loop like a pariswheel
ups and downs
forever in motion
no rest no time to grieve
grieve pain,
grieve loss of pain
I am unsure
it keeps going
i cant keep up
im so tired
of the pariswheel im tired.
and I have to wake up every day
knowing it has not yet stopped
and i have to mount it again.
and again
you can see?
see why im tired.
sometimes I just want it to stop

I wish he would know
I wish he could see
I wish he saw
I wish he saw me like i see him
I wish I’d let him know
I wish I’d be brave, and if I was,
I wish I don't wreck it all.
I wish when I enter his smile would grow.
I wish he couldn't control it, like me
I wish he greeted me with a hug
I wish he said goodby with a kiss
I wish he knows the pain bare for him
I wish he could end it.
Before it ends me

I fell, far far to the ground.

Far, I fell for you.

Far down there I drowned,

with neither time or view.

I wanted to know how you feel.

But you hid it a riddle.

I don't know what is real,

so I'm stuck in the middle.

If you had said no

I'd die under the water

If our relation could never grow,

I'd give myself to slaughter.

Trying to forget
someone you loved
is like remembering someone you never met.

My love for you

ends with my fall.

Because my love is true

and that never ends at all

Jag går såhär, dag efter dag.

Det känns i varje andetag.

Vinden i ditt hår,

varje liten tår.

Jag vill låta dig gå

men trots allt gör det ont ändå.

Jag vill bli kvitt denna smärta,

men den kommer alltid finnas i mitt hjärta.

Det känns i allt jag gör.

Jag går såhär till den dag jag dör.

What would tomorrow be
if today was perfect?

I know it's stupid

and I know I shuld stop

but you are my cupid

while I feel like a prop.


It's been said you like me

but you never seem to show it

it felt like it's meant to be

and believe me I would quit

if I knew how, to be free

I had hope
and I wished
for us  both.
But I now realized
that even if your feelings
are real
and my are too,
your words of me
are cold as ice.
And though we laugh
with true sheer joy
there is a line you will not cross
I would never doubt to do it
but you will not budge.
I love you with my whole heart
and I can see why it's not
the same for you,
but at least be straigh
and tell me
how you feel.
You know my life is hard
but you don't know
what inpact you
had on me.
Don't make it harder
than it already is.

If I gave you a minute,

a second, a week.

An hour, a month.

And if you loose it,

there is no way to get it back.

So use it wisely.

You are killing me

you make my heart twist.

Maybe you and I could be "we"

perhaps I can finally be kissed.

I scream to you

scream right to your face

and I wanna be true

and put you in place.


But maybe when I scream

is when you can't hear me

and just to dream

about finally being free

You see me smile

and you think I'm happy.

But I haven't been in a while

and hopefully you can know it's you.

You think I'm no longer sane

but you shuld know

that my smile holds pain.

The sun loved the moon

so much he died

every night

to let her breathe.

There is lots of fear

of death.

Men are scared

of a black-hooded man.

And the ones

that already left us

thought away from death

they had ran.

I'm going to live

every moment,

For every moment

is my time to live

I don’t care for you.

I don’t care for you anymore.

We had the best time.

The best friendship.

But you wrecked it.


Yes I could put on a smile,

a mask.

But now you know, will you see through?

See through the cold expression?

See through the cried-out eyes?

I love you.

You made mistakes, I did too.

But then I understood you were lying.

For years it grew, and I never knew.

But the reason I’m angry is not the lie.

You don’t think worth the truth.

That hurts more

than your knife in my back.

I loved you.

You may think

I’m free as a bird.

Perfect all the way

you see no scars.

They don’t show

on my outside,

but my heart

has been torn

more than it can heal.

Putting others first

can mean a good friend

but it is cursed.

It makes you blend,

teaching your friends the worst

putting you second, becomes their thirst.

The best feeling

is when I see you smile.

When I peak over a book

there is nothing better

than you returning my look.

I could sob.

I could scream.

But instead I’m crying,

Silently crying.

Alone in my room, crying.

I can’t let anyone in.

Silent tears.

Holds the most pain.

I smile for your sake,

but you don’t have a clue,

no idea of my heartbreak.

And if you knew,

your heart should ache.

As the reason... is you.

I could say I don’t care but I do.

And you don’t mean nothing to me.

You know I am hurt too.

It only hurts because we’re sad about losing ‘we’.

I spent years on our relationship.

I have lots of friends like you.

But your betrayal hit me like whip.

And if I only had friends who are true.

I’d only need one

to replace you.

Please stop to trying

cause I’m still collecting pieces

from the time i walked home crying.


Stop showing me that frown

for I’m still coughing water

since the last time you let me drown.


Stop to ignore it

for I’m still healing wounds

from the time you took my heart and tore it.

You would hate me if I were like you,

making scars deeper than oceans.

Treating me like I never knew,

with no regard of my emotions.