I am so tired
tired of waiting
tired of trying
tired of staying awake
staying concius
staying alive.
Waking up
going to bed
both eaqually hard.
The day in between may come and go
emotional storm
tears and laugher.
Life is all well and good.
At times.
Not every time.
Its a round loop like a pariswheel
ups and downs
forever in motion
no rest no time to grieve
grieve pain,
grieve loss of pain
I am unsure
it keeps going
i cant keep up
im so tired
of the pariswheel im tired.
and I have to wake up every day
knowing it has not yet stopped
and i have to mount it again.
and again
you can see?
see why im tired.
sometimes I just want it to stop

I wish he would know
I wish he could see
I wish he saw
I wish he saw me like i see him
I wish I’d let him know
I wish I’d be brave, and if I was,
I wish I don't wreck it all.
I wish when I enter his smile would grow.
I wish he couldn't control it, like me
I wish he greeted me with a hug
I wish he said goodby with a kiss
I wish he knows the pain bare for him
I wish he could end it.
Before it ends me

I fell, far far to the ground.

Far, I fell for you.

Far down there I drowned,

with neither time or view.

I wanted to know how you feel.

But you hid it a riddle.

I don't know what is real,

so I'm stuck in the middle.

If you had said no

I'd die under the water

If our relation could never grow,

I'd give myself to slaughter.

Trying to forget
someone you loved
is like remembering someone you never met.

My love for you

ends with my fall.

Because my love is true

and that never ends at all

Jag går såhär, dag efter dag.

Det känns i varje andetag.

Vinden i ditt hår,

varje liten tår.

Jag vill låta dig gå

men trots allt gör det ont ändå.

Jag vill bli kvitt denna smärta,

men den kommer alltid finnas i mitt hjärta.

Det känns i allt jag gör.

Jag går såhär till den dag jag dör.

What would tomorrow be
if today was perfect?