The heart aches

The heart sinks

Whatever you do

No matter how you try to protect yourself

The heart will always get hurt

It is a heavy burden
You can never run away from

I have always been the one that love too much
The only one that loves

One sided love

So i tried to change
Going for someone that loves me
And me not loving him back

with time,
I fell for him
And loved him back

But i guess i wasn't enough
Because he cheated and left

I guess im just bad at love
Because i can never make someone love me back

Or perhaps
They only want a piece of my heart

He looks like a player
i don't mean someone who plays sports
he looks like a boy
that plays with feelings
he has that playful look
a look that's only looking for fun
his words are filled with lust
nothing good ever comes out of it

take him away from me
i don't need a boy who plays with ones heart
i need a man to fix this broken heart.

I won't deny
But it hurts to admit it
It hurts to say it
The words
Hanging in
Not wanting to go out

It hurts to say
That I'm still not over you
That i still think about you

I know you're happier now
It hurts me to say
But I'm glad you're happy with her

I'm sorry for not being  good enough
I'm glad you have her now

It hurts to say
But I'm happy for you.

Can't stop thinking about him
Can't stop thinking of his ****

Do i really want him?
Or just his ****.

He was a sad man
rarely smiles
always frowning

but he is a man filled with wisdom

he sings to you literature
and paints you with his touch

he may seem like a dull man
but his soul is brighter than anything i've seen

this man
is the missing poet in my life
a work of art
i'm dying to write about

i've lived this life
for so long
gone through the same thing
for the longest time
i got so numb
that i feel too empty
it hurts

Am i a friend?
Or am i a stranger?

There are times when i feel special
And times i feel ignored

So tell me
Where do i stand in your life?

Because you're confusing me
When im here
Wanting to be so much more to you
But i don't even know where i stand

Or could it be
The only reason for you to be close to me
Was in order to use me?
What am i ?
An object to you?
Or just a play mate?

2 years ago,
I found out i was pregnant
Carrying a child  whose father i don't even know
A man who ***** me in my sleep
And left me with nothing but pain

Despite so,
I wanted to keep my child
I wanted to take care of him
But life doesn't always goes as planned

It wasn't my decision to keep him
But during the time i had him,
I was the happiest
Because i had fallen in love
With a baby i have not met
A child i swore to take care
A child that made me love myself
In order to love him

Losing him
Was heartbreaking

If i could turn back time
I wouldve taken good care of myself
So i can have you in my life right now
But at the same time
I would've wished i never met the man
Who left you and me

2years ago today
I made a foolish mistake
But i never once regretted having you in my life

I love you still
I will love you always

"Why do you take photos of me all the time?"

Because someday,
You are going to leave me
And the only thing left of you
Is these photos
That will keep memories of you safe

What does it mean
When the first thing you do
The moment you see me
Is to give me a hug and a kiss

What does it mean
When we are sleeping together
And you'd kiss my back all of a sudden
As you hug me tightly in our sleep

What does it mean
When you go all the way to meet me
Even though you had plans with your friends

I don't know what it means
Because honestly
You only see me as a friend
So is there a meaning behind everything you do
Or am I delusional into thinking there is something

And yet again
I've fallen for another Irish man
And got my heart broken once again

It is wrong
To be 19
But already looking for someone
To have a future with?
To plan marriage and children?
Somehow,
Every guy i came across with
Walks away
Because of what i want
Maybe  I'm too young to think of the future
But last night
I met you
And you told me
How you're looking for someone
To start a future with
You laughed it off
And said how you're too young to be thinking about it
And yet you were
I didn't know
Id find
Someone who is as freaky as me
To be wanting a future with someone
At such a young age
I think
He's the one
I hope he is

When i was young
My grandmother would always scold me
For wearing shorts
Or anything that's revealing my skin
She told me,
That there were demons who loves seeing girl's bareskin.
I was scared when i was little
But as i grew older
I learned that the demons
Were men with uncontrollable ****** urges
That take advantage of any girl they see

There's no such thing as demons
It is all human