Beneath the tree
I sit,
Still,
Motionless,
In thought,
Of life
What its done.
Where its
Taken me,
Given back,
Held me captive.
I sit under the tree
I look up,
The flickering
Infinity
That is above me.
Am I of use,
Do I change anything.
I sit under the Tree,
My life
like its rings
show age,
wrinkles show
Mine,
I am at peace.
As I sit
As I stare,
I am here
The universe around
Ageless,
Time moves on,
I get back up,
I walk inside,
As time
waits for no one.

Lullaby baby sweet dreams
"To keep"
Lullaby baby rest your
"Head upon me"
Lullaby baby eyes closed
"Of to sleep"
Lullaby baby count down
From Ten
"Nine"
"Eight"
"Seven"
"Six"
Lullaby baby hair stroked
"Till deep in sleep"
"Five"
"Four"
"Three"
Lullaby baby I'll always
"Sing this till you sleep"
"Two"
"One"
Lullaby baby in dreams
"Now lost to dreaming sleep"
Lullaby baby forever I'll sing
So listen to silence after my song
Till that time when eyes greet morning once more.

She lay there, features frozen
Telling a story
She was at rest, eyes wide open,
the moment glazed in time
Terror,
Fear,
Death,
Was a release, but never left whole
Always missing a part
But desecrated, as blooded words unfold
Love,  
Doesn't,
Live,
Here,
Anymore,
The heart missing,
Life was cut out
Her heart no longer beats here anymore
What goes through a mind
Twisted,
Depraved,
Cold.
I am the Heart Breaker
Hear my story, as it must be told
I have never loved,
Feelings of
Tenderness,
Yearning,
Love,
Have never touched my heart,
It beats
But nothing is heard back
So I must take
What others Possess,
I look for those with love
I look for those
Hand
In
Hand
When they next wake
In my sanctuary
Unclothed
White covers, all except where
Love beats strong,
For I must
Devour,  
Consume,
Be
Fulfilled,
She must breath till I consume
For a body that is cold
No love will survive,
Anesthetized
So I cut deep
Bone-Saw,
Scalpel,
Flesh,
Falls to the floor
Her larynx also muted,
Noise I could be without,
I cut gently rib is sawed
And there is what I need , my eyes gleam
Excitement,
Emotion,
Hysteria,
As I quickly hold it as it beats
And finally I  
Gorge
Consume,
Satisfy,
The feeling of warmth
That enters me
I feel my heart beat not like before
This moment I feel love
As it courses through me
Then lost as
Blood goes cold
Now we are both with out what we need most,
I have your heart inside me
Like others before,
I must consume others love so that I feel whole.

Whisper's* into the pitch, unseen breath but no one is there,
She giggles and calls her dad silly,
Its just her imaginary friend.
A seat taken told by eyes so small, questions
Of who sat earlier as the imprint left, and
To the touch heat still bleeds outs on the palm.
Invisible,
Cloaked,
Unseen
To those  not of innocence eyes,
For youth is pliable easy to twist to the
Will of those moulding there sight.

"We played hide the breath,

Daddy was sleeping as you climbed on top,
Held his breath.
Contorting,
Grasping,
Panic
In his eyes, till breath found as you let go.
We ran into the bedroom giggling at our fun,
daddy was silent in the morning,

"Father was no fun,

"Morning precious,

I smiled as the breakfast fell on the floor,
He looked confused as I laughed out loud,

"Daddy,

"What my little lady,

"Was it fun not to breath,
"To suffocate as if in a dream,

He didn't speak, all colour left his face
Was it something I said??
A man came around,
He was all in black, with a white collar,
She didn't like him,
She hated this man as he spoke words
I didn't no, didn't understand,
My friend screamed, but only I heard.

"Daddy stop it, your hurting my friend,
"She's crying,
"Daddy,
"Daddy,
"Daddy,  

"This is for the best, your friend isn't nice,

And as never there, like a shadow seeing the light
She was gone, and all alone I was again.

"Thank you father,

"That wasn't his dad, granddad doesn't look like that,

We moved soon after that, to another new place,
In a block of homes, like a stack of rooms
That had doors,

"Hi there,

They smiled so many new friends, to play
So many to play our games upon,

"Who you talking to precious,

We had learnt our lessons from the last house.
Never tell, where would be the fun in that.

"Myself daddy,
"Just myself,

As he walked away, I looked into the hallway
Outside our door, so many new friends
Invisible to their eyes, but I was going to
Show the other children the fun, that they could
Now have, we would play with mothers fathers
See their faces as our friends played with their lives.

I screamed, but no one heard
Still as death my eyes were
Closed
My prison
Eyelashes were my bars
Concealing,
Obscured,
Silence
Only disturbed by breath,
I began to sink, the white of my eyes
"My island of purity"
Slowly washed away by the tides of
My pupils, the storm of terror
Was upon me, my fingers slipped
Each digit pealed from the bars of my eyes,
"Then all went dark"
I was lost in the nothingness,
Thoughts,
Shards,
Splicing
Up my mind, a battle raged
within, but my body was as still as death
I had demons that sharped each claw,
Cutting in my subconscious,
Tainting innocence,
Now the corrupted into horror behind
Closed doors,
I looked in vain, sweat was like
Raindrops, each fell never landing
Eternally falling, a
Noise,
Faint,
Oceans
Of thought below my feet,
I impacted beneath
Courage,
Fortitude,
Determination
Of character, as a whisper
Upon a pollen of thought, drifted
So tiny
Underestimated
Within its strength,
For words were spoken so quietly
"The darkness is weak"
"Nightmares have no control"
"Find your light"
"Shatter this illusion, take control"
As I hit down, light
Permeated,
Infused,  
Crumbling
Under the light,  oceans of pure
Thought splashed over me, fear
"Was washed off"
The bars once imprisoning became as before
As they were separated, I stood again on my island of white,
At the moment of separation,
I awoke, Darkness kept me still,
But in silence, I have the power to awaken,
Nightmares have no control, the are
Figments,
Illusions,
Misconceptions
Of the mind, that when a crack fragments,
Darkness creeps in, sleep well now, you are the
Master of your dreams, creation of fantasy
Sleep well, never let darkness consume,
Always have sweet dreams and awaken well..

The waters calm exterior it was serine but
What was trailing back to shore waters in upheaval,
As paddles violently thrashed as If to cause
Pain,
Bruising,
Wounds
That were cut, but as the boat settled moored on
The lakeside, the waters serine angers
Lashing nothing more than splashes on the shore.

"I will swim with your voices give it time,

For the waters are a tomb of secrets,
We only see the surface never beneath,
Fears of what is not known or not of wanting,

"Stop screaming I need your words,
"Don't worry I will not harm you,

"Why did you take me,
"And are you talking to me?

"I just needed witnesses to this,
"I'll take you across the lake,

And truth to word he took them ******* silent
Was his wish, they were in false circumstances
Thinking freedom was near.

"look into the waters,
See what it is that I see deep beneath,

Gazing into the waters eyes focused on what
Faintly seen beneath,
But there spot was chosen, this was there moment

"Sorry I say but last words must swim,
"Waters will hold your spirit it is heaver than water,
"Your words I will bath in souls nourish my flesh,

"You said you wouldn't harm me,
"You said,

"The waters take you I have not done harm,
"Peace and last words will wash over you,
"Silence as you stare to the heavens unharmed,

Treading water like air, impulses wither as  
Hands,
Ankles,
Bound,
The water drinks upon the momentary upheaval,
Then all is serine once again, another flower
Planted at the bottom of this whispering waters .

Three days had past, and into the waters he bathes,
They called to him each wave upon shore a
Spoken,
Gestured,
Words,
Only heard by his thoughts, as he feels souls
Washing upon and over his feet, a tiny pull he feels

Speak your words,
"I will listen in water depths,
" I did not, no shame am I felt,
"The waters took you, not I,

Then he sank beneath into the clear airless void,
Looking upon those chained by waist,
Eyes once looking up,
But know looking forward,
Staring,
Gazing,
Dead
Looks of life silently departed, he freezes
As those socket-less voids,
Ascend on his thoughts. Raging he lashes out,
Now those chains of ******* snare upon his self.
Last moments not realised as on knees he is trapped
Airless void catching his last words

"I only wished to bath in your word,

Those that others never heard,
As life seeps from this husk,
In his rage all brought close,
His view is not of the heavens as
Those before he ******. But the dead
Did watch him with blank eyes,
His features frozen as if screaming but never caught.

Connect the dots
.+)
(+.
+).
(+.
+).
Of the heavens,
To make words,
The universe can read through all time.

I put them all around town, in every phone box
Free advertising I had bills to pay baby.
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I waited around the phone, only one call,
"Hello Mr F of fine dancing,
Dam it wrong number, I waited for a few
More days and then the first one booked.

"Hello is the F in fine dancing,
"Yes it is how may I be of service madam,

"I have some friends coming around for an
Afternoon of book club but need to spice it up,

"Well I'm the man for the job madam,
"I'll be there around 7pm,

First job I got told their was extras included
My friend was in the job but fell from a table.
Health and Safety I told him now he is limp,
"Cant get it up a table,
"Cant get it a chair,
"Cant get it up anywhere,
If your limp there isn't no job for you anywhere.
He works at a beef burger joint that's the only
Meat he's flipping anywhere.

I knock the door and then it shut again,
It once again goes to shut once more,
A foot widens the gap a show stopper in the door.

"Madam you paid for my services,

"EXCUSE ME,  

"My card madam,

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"What, "What, "Wh...,

She carried on as I walked in my 80's ghetto
Blaster I released on the fine oak table.
Right ladies here we go who's the
Luckily lady who gets me first.

They all point to each other screaming excitedly,
Its nice to be so wanted. I press play,
"You cant beat the sound of tape,
The sound echoes around their pad,

"Do you want the snake,
"Climbing upon your silken legs,
"Baby its what you waited for,
"in-between,
"In-between,*
"In-b.,#,';'ppfgeemrmm..........,

"Dag nab it, my tape I wrote and sang that
Myself, my only copy. I hear a sigh.
Was that of relief or because they liked the song?
Its ok I have a CD as I throw it in to their player
Music pumps out and then I begin

Act I: Touch You Baby

I am who you have wanted all your life,
He touches each face smooth skin
Touches delicate features, caressing
Upon there wanting, each shudder and
Move in teasing denial.

Act II: Clothes Release

Many layers make the man as each pealed
Each thrown in to the crowd, jaws are
Wide open watching Velcro peal off.
One sitting on a chair I sit on her lap
Gyrate as she exhales in excitement
Moaning as I move, I jump up and
She inhales me in.  

Act III: Release The Beast

As clothes shed like leaves from a tree
So does but one leaf still hang modesty covered
But with cloth and sting.
The manly hair mature and grown shaped
As I am I lion ready To pounce.

"Excuse me what is with the stem on the leaf,

Act III: Continued

The Stem twitches, the leaf opens grown,
Released is the beauty for all on show,
"***,
"Ladies Shhh,
As the leaf opens the stem now shown
To the world on show now lets see who
Can hold the stem and the music goes.

"***, "***, is heard from all
Corners of the room, what was thought
As a wasted effort now most woman's dreams.
He dances around the room over excited a
Eye blackened by the mushroom.

An hour passes and fun has been had,
The leaf had many greens neatly tucked in.
He gives each of them a card.

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Lets them hold it once last time.
And numbers are written down,
But never kept as that's not professional
Most are married for one. What happens
Here stays here as no cameras aloud.

See some of you again I hope, I hear
words as I shut the door closed.

"He may be big, but wow that vine I
Could swing on anytime he wants,

"That was a surprise I could wear his
Chest hair he could keep me warm at night,

The day in the life of a fat stripper is never
An easy one. But by the way ladies if you
Wish some fine dancing and a surprise
That is on the card ring the number below.

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We each have an apple
A serpent that wishes us to taste
The fruit
Apple,
Juicy,
Ripe,
But each apple does not taste the same,
Each one has its Aroma
Tainted,
Evil,
Savour,
That forbidden taste
Slips down too easily, down the throat
But each one has been bitten by the serpent
Slithered,
Injected its rot in to the taste,
What is each persons sin,
The taste of sweet exploitation
We all have a demon hidden within
It only takes but a Bite
For the poison to corrupt
To change what and who one used to be...

It couldn't remember the time
Before, empty it felt upon the
Concrete tombstone,
Dead but not buried.
Like broken bones the wood
Broken,
Twisted,
Splintered,
Showing nothing within,
The windows vacant,
Shards like teeth waiting
For that chance to cut at
The wind, always blowing through
These lonely halls.
It has been inked, like a master
Piece of incoherent signatures,
So many have been here over time.
It wishes for an end to this decaying
Coma of non existence, It felt warmth,
It tasted what was vacant from its shell,
But now the feeling grew heat,
Scorched,
Consumed,
Relief
Of the moment engulfed, purified
You scream in peace as your now
But bright ember on the ground
Ashes to ashes you are now at *peace.

You don't see me
"Self
"Harm"
I'm cutting  
"From"
"The"
"Inside"
I don't bleed out,
I bleed within,
Scars never seen
But the pain is always real,
And felt **everyday..

My poems meant to ensnare,
To trap you in silken words
The more you move
The lines now stick to your skin,
I will wrap you up
Feed on your thoughts
Many have fallen
In to my soft words,
My web
Of poetry,
Of stories,
Of things woven
But yet untold.
I invite you
To be a guest in to my web of thoughts
But you may be stuck here
Ensnared, glued to the words.

My thoughts are signed upon the
Wall
If you look closely
Reading the words that
Scream,
"I wrote it quickly"
Some may think with
Little thought,
But I needed to show how I felt
Anger,
Confusion,
Tears
Sit still upon my face, mixed
With the ink that permeates the wall
There is but one full stop
It signed the end of my write
The pen had but one nib
And I pulled upon the trigger,
My words were expelled
Upon the wall,
If you cant read my words,
Then you'll never know why
**"I had to write my end upon the wall"

They were my angels
They flew to forgive their
Sins
Immorality
Guilt
That had been a burden
But as there wings spread
Cleansed,
Relief,
Joy,
Screamed from their lungs
As there transgressions
Were wiped a soul clean,
Then their souls free
Let their bodies hit the floor,
The paper gave me a name
"Fallen Angel"
"As if I was a sin"
I had cleansed many before
So much to be done,
I knew of them
Planned it, souls freed
Some resisted,
"But all fall before me"
Adam
&
Eve
They will be cleansed,
A child Is pure,
There wings white from birth,
But those
Who transgress
Will fly,
***** before they fly
Wings open purified
Before,
Their bodies hit the floor
I cleanse sin
But they have found me
Called me by name
Fallen Angel,
I smile
As I jump
For I have cleansed the many
But I am a fallen angel,
Screaming
I am now cleansed
As my body hits the floor  
I was the fallen angel now still on the ground below.