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388 · Dec 2019
You will always be the one
Nina Dec 2019
People told me
That I don't love you
They say,
It's just a temporary affection

If so,
Why am I still begging for you?
Why am i still thinking of you daily?
When you've been long gone.

Maybe someday i will get over you
But I'll be honest
You will always be the one
That i think of
That i will have feelings for
You will always be the one i look for
Even though you're long gone
You will always be the one i love
387 · Jul 2019
Reminiscing
Nina Jul 2019
He asked,
"What am I supposed to feel looking at these old photos?"

I guess
i wanted him to never forget those memories
The ones we had together
And how much happiness it has brought me.
But also remember that it's all gone
And i have been ruminating about those times
How deeply sad i am


Maybe you felt nothing
But those pictures,
Brings meaning to me,
Even if you don't feel the same
386 · Jun 2019
Haiku : Shine
Nina Jun 2019
Like a shining star
He glowed brightly in the dark
Outshining the rest

Such a small being
Having big dreams that one day
He will shine brighter

Brighter than the moon
For he had wanted to be
The one she notices
381 · May 2020
Fuck and Go
Nina May 2020
All they wanted to do
Was get under your pants
And once they got in
They'll leave as it nothing had happened

Just another pit-stop
For their ***** ***
380 · Aug 2019
If i Knew
Nina Aug 2019
If i knew it would be our last goodbye
I would've end it in a nice way
If i knew it was the last time i could call you,
I would've let you talk the entire time
If i knew all of our text messages will be ignored,
I wouldn't have ended it with something rude
Instead
I would've said how much i loved you
How much i care
How much i need you
If i knew it was going to be the end
I would've prepared for a better ending
377 · Aug 2019
Drink my pain away
Nina Aug 2019
*****
Whiskey
***

Drink
Drink
Drink

How many shots have i had?
How many glasses has it been?

Does it matter?
All im trying to do is to numb the pain away
Drink
Drink
Drink

How many times have i used alcohol
To feel numb?
I've been drinking everyday

But on the bright side
I didn't harm myself
So ill keep drinking
To feel okay
373 · May 2019
Fragile Hearts
Nina May 2019
We were both broken
Damaged
And afraid to love again
But we were a perfect fit
A perfect match
To make our hearts whole again

But we forced ourselves too soon
Colliding our hearts together too fast
That it shattered into pieces

Instead of taking it slow
We only broke it further
371 · Feb 2020
Honestly
Nina Feb 2020
Honestly
I miss you alot
I still love you
I haven't gotten over you
And It *****
Because I'm no longer in your mind
And yet
I miss you
I still love you
And i don't plan on forgetting you
364 · Jul 2019
Desperate
Nina Jul 2019
I've been so lonely
Too lonely
That i crave for attention
I'm desperate for someone
To love me

I'm desperate
For attention
362 · Jun 2019
Painful Sleep
Nina Jun 2019
My eyes are tired
From all the tears
That I'd fall asleep
With watery eyes
Painfully shut close
To stop any further tears
360 · Aug 2019
Love You, Always
Nina Aug 2019
you've moved on
but i have not
someday,
i know i will let go
but for now,
i will still love you
and i will keep loving you
til the end of time
i will love you
always
even if i've moved on
360 · Dec 2019
Irish man
Nina Dec 2019
I've never thought
I'd fall for an Irish man
Never have i ever
Considered falling for one
And yet
I did
I fell too deep
For a man i barely knew
And yet
I wanted to have a future with him
I wanted to learn  more about him

The first irish man
To ever made me fallen so deep
The one that taught me how to long myself
To accept me for who i am
Ive fallen for him too deeply
For he is the first man
To teach me so many things
To love myself
To accept myself
He was the first man
The first irish man
I'd fallen for
And  would always be in my heart
He was the first irish man
I want to have a future with
357 · Jun 2019
Tired eyes
Nina Jun 2019
Been crying a little too much, everyday
These eyes are tired
And hurting
From all the tears shed
But there's nothing i can do
To make it stop
The tears just keeps on going down
351 · Mar 2020
One last time
Nina Mar 2020
I hope to see you for the last time
I know you're happier without me
I know you found someone better
But i still wish to see you
I want to look at your face for the last time
Talk to you for the last time
Spend my time with you for the last time
I wish to know
What am i lacking
That made you choose someone else
350 · May 2019
Tell me how.
Nina May 2019
How do I move on
When I'm not ready to let go?
How can I live my life
Knowing you're no longer by my side
349 · Dec 2019
Demon
Nina Dec 2019
When i was young
My grandmother would always scold me
For wearing shorts
Or anything that's revealing my skin
She told me,
That there were demons who loves seeing girl's bareskin.
I was scared when i was little
But as i grew older
I learned that the demons
Were men with uncontrollable ****** urges
That take advantage of any girl they see

There's no such thing as demons
It is all human
348 · Sep 2018
Fool for you
Nina Sep 2018
I thought you cared
Thought you loved me
But you never did

You made me smile
You made me laugh
You made me feel important
For a while

You tried your hardest
And i fell for you
Yet you left me hanging
Without a clue

Sadly
I'm such a fool
To fall for you
347 · Jul 2019
Letting go
Nina Jul 2019
I was holding onto you
And I didn't want to let go
But you were holding onto someone else
And I know you didnt want to let go
So I let go of my hands
So that you could be free
With the one you wish to be with
347 · Jun 2019
One day
Nina Jun 2019
One day,
I wouldn't be hurt.
One day,
I'll get over you.
One day,
I'll find somebody new.
One day,
I'll be happy.

One day..
Maybe just not today
347 · Jun 2019
I told myself...
Nina Jun 2019
I told myself to let go
Because i know you're happier with her

I told myself to forget you
But i can't seem to bring myself to put you in the past

I told myself to stop loving you
But despite us no longer talking,
It is you that still fills up my heart.

I told myself that I'd be happier without you,
But that was a lie.
I was happier with you around.
347 · Jun 2019
Losing you
Nina Jun 2019
Losing you was painful
Heartbreaking
And i don't know what else to say
344 · Jun 2019
Secret Letters
Nina Jun 2019
i wrote you letters
that you'll never see
i've written letters
that you don't know existed
from reasons why i love you
to daily letters of how much i miss you
it's not much of a secret letter
since it was sent out to you
but i'm unsure
if you will ever see them
so i'll call them secret letters
because you are not aware of it
and maybe will never know
343 · Jul 2019
Move on, let go
Nina Jul 2019
No matter how hard I try to fix what we had.
It's already too late
The damage has been done
You can't fix what's broken



Feelings fade
And he doesn't want me back.
341 · Jul 2019
You don't know
Nina Jul 2019
You don't know how i feel
Because you've never seen yourself
The way i see you
You never knew how much i truly love you
So of course you won't know how much i love you
When you've never loved someone
As i as i loved you.
341 · Oct 2019
It hurts
Nina Oct 2019
It hurts me deeply
Knowing that we are nothing
When i thought
We could've been something
It hurts me a lot
Know that you don't miss me at all
When I'm here dying to talk to you again
It hurts
Having to live each day
Without talking to you
Without waking up to your face
Feeling your warmth during those cold days

But that doesn't hurt as much as
When i still see you in person
But you don't talk to me
Nor look at me
It's as if I'm invisible to you
And the sad part is
I have to do the same
Pretend you're not there
And I can't smile when i look at you anymore
Instead
I'm holding my tears
And pretending to be fine
With you gone forever
It hurts
To be this way
339 · Jun 2019
Pictures
Nina Jun 2019
Isn't it amazing?
How a picture
Could bring back all the memories from that moment.
Just take a look at the picture
And all the memories come rushes back
All the little details
Let alone videos,
Both stores memories on its own way
Both painful
And happy memories
337 · Aug 2019
Love you, always.
Nina Aug 2019
You've been long gone,
But my love for you is still standing strong.
Maybe you've moved on
Maybe you don't love me no more

One day, I'd be the same
But one thing i can promise you,
Even if i found someone new,
I will always love you.

Somewhere deep inside my heart,
I will keep you hidden.
I will love you always
An undying love for you
335 · Jul 2019
Haiku; broken yet loving
Nina Jul 2019
My heart is broken,
Yet all the shattered pieces,
Love you endlessly.
334 · Jan 2020
Look for you
Nina Jan 2020
You flew back home
Just a day ago
And yet
Here i am
Back at the place i first met you
Hoping I'd bump into you
Hoping I'd see you
Even though i know
You're no longer here
Nina Jul 2019
Someone asked me why I chose a job that ends late at night
And all I could say was,
It's alright.
It's not like i could sleep early lately.
So i don't mind working late at night.

What i did not mention was that
I was too busy crying every night before I head to bed
The reason why sleeping is so hard
I wouldnt want them to know
That the reason I was lacking sleep
Was because of a guy
Of a memory
Not because of work
332 · May 2019
Because of you
Nina May 2019
Because of you
I was less empty than i originally was
Because of you
I knew what it left like to fall asleep into the hands of someone that wouldn't take advantage of you
Because of you
I experienced a form of happiness i never had before
Because of you
I've fallen inlove too deeply that it hurts
Because of you
I keep missing you whenever you're not around
Because of you
I keep thinking about you every hour

It is all because of you
That I'm feeling so many emotions
331 · Jun 2020
always you
Nina Jun 2020
I'm not over you
and i don't think i'll ever be
327 · May 2020
Hurts to say
Nina May 2020
I won't deny
But it hurts to admit it
It hurts to say it
The words
Hanging in
Not wanting to go out

It hurts to say
That I'm still not over you
That i still think about you

I know you're happier now
It hurts me to say
But I'm glad you're happy with her

I'm sorry for not being  good enough
I'm glad you have her now

It hurts to say
But I'm happy for you.
326 · Feb 2020
Tattooed Emotions
Nina Feb 2020
I got myself tattooed
For every different guy that i deeply loved
On different places
That reminds me of them
326 · Dec 2019
Last text
Nina Dec 2019
If i knew
We were going to be strangers again
I would've better prepared myself
And made sure
That my last text to you
Would've been an
I love you
326 · Sep 2018
Thank you
Nina Sep 2018
To those i used to talk to
Thank you for being a part of my life
For leaving me
Mistreating me
Hurting me
And making me cry.
It made me realise where i stand in your life.
And how much i deserve to be happy
To do me.
And not you.
Thank you for leaving
322 · May 2019
Waiting..
Nina May 2019
every time my phone rings
every time it vibrates
every time there is a notifcation
i always hope its from you
always
hoping
its
you
waiting
for
you
319 · May 2019
Start over
Nina May 2019
Can we start over?
I miss the old us
When we both were so close
And not fading away
Can we start over?
As friends
And fall in love again in the progess
Can we start over?
To a time
That its certain
We will be more than friends

Can we start over?
Because i miss what we had.
315 · Oct 2019
Say it again
Nina Oct 2019
You call me your girl
But how can i be sure that it's true
When you're thousand miles away
You could be with someone else
So please don't get angry at me
When i ask you who is your girl
I just want you to say it again
That it's me
That I'm your girl
Claim me
As yours
Again and again
I just want you to say it
Say  it again
Because i love hearing it from you
313 · Aug 2019
15th
Nina Aug 2019
‪5 months ago today,‬
‪Was the first time i fell for you‬
‪But things didn't go as planned and we had to say goodbye‬
‪And i can safely say now,‬
‪That I'm finally over you‬
‪That I'm no longer holding onto you‬
312 · Aug 2019
Irish Man
Nina Aug 2019
I met a guy
At a pub
He was way beyond tall
With pretty blue eyes
And long eyelashes

I couldn't help myself
But to stare into his eyes
And when he stares at me
Oh gosh I can't help it
But to smile at him
And seeing his smile
Makes me fall in love a little more

He was an Irish man
I never knew
I'd fall for an Irish man
I thought,maybe, he was british.
But i was wrong
But that didn't matter
I don't care that he was irish
For all it matters,
I was in love with an irish man

But sad news
He isn't looking for love
He was just looking for fun
But thats alright

I hope maybe
Someday
We can meet again
And maybe
By that time
I would have Irish Babies with him

He was the first irish man
I'd fallen for
And i hope
He's the only irish man I'd love
My story of meeting an irish man and falling for him
308 · Jun 2019
90 days
Nina Jun 2019
90 Days ago,
i met a charming guy at a carnival
90 Days ago,
i didnt know i'd be attracted to a workmate
in those 90 days,
i felt so many emotions
from falling in love
to breaking down
from being jealous
to being proud
it only took me 90days
to fall in love with him
to get my heart broken
to miss his presence
it was only 90days
but it felt like ive known him for ages.
308 · Oct 2018
Concerns
Nina Oct 2018
Whenever you didn't text me, i wonder...

Have you eaten?
Did you have enough sleep?
How is your day treating you?
Are you back home safely?

I love you and i miss you
It worries me when you're away.
307 · Sep 2018
Should've
Nina Sep 2018
I should've held you tighter
Should've held your hands more often
Should've tell you how much i love you,
Should've tell you how much i care.
I should've kissed you
Should've give you more attention

There's so many things i should've done,
But didn't because of my egoistic self
305 · Jun 2019
Tears
Nina Jun 2019
These tears won't stop
They never will
No matter how hard i try
It will just keep flowing out
303 · May 2019
Worthless
Nina May 2019
Weeks ago when I tried to leave
You refuse to let me
You told me you weren't ready to let me go
I guess this time when I left for good
It didnt bother you
Since I no longer have any worth or use in your life
300 · Oct 2018
misapprehended
Nina Oct 2018
Filled with mysteries
Filled with secrets
A book so thick
No one bothered to read

Wrapped with the wrong cover
Mistaken for something else
An unread book
Never discovered

Such a pity,
For she hold memories
All because of a wrong interpretation,
She was a lost beauty.
298 · Oct 2018
Play pretend
Nina Oct 2018
Have you ever contemplated yourself?
Looking at yourself
Learning the little details
Personality traits
Behaviours that you bear

You think you are the person you want to potray
But it's all a lie
You're broken and sad
Hiding behind a fake mask
pretending to be someone else
Someone who is happy
You build up a character For a play
Wishing it was something real
295 · May 2019
I miss you
Nina May 2019
I miss you
Everyday
Every hour
Every minute
Every second
I miss you so much
That it hurts
There's nothing I can do
Other than missing you
295 · May 2020
What am i to you?
Nina May 2020
Am i a friend?
Or am i a stranger?

There are times when i feel special
And times i feel ignored

So tell me
Where do i stand in your life?

Because you're confusing me
When im here
Wanting to be so much more to you
But i don't even know where i stand

Or could it be
The only reason for you to be close to me
Was in order to use me?
What am i ?
An object to you?
Or just a play mate?
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