You have no idea
How much my heart bleeds
One single word unclenches me
You lead me on
Only to let me go
You promised you wouldn't hurt me
And still I told you
Words are never a guarantee

You have no idea
How I wish you would have never said anything
From the love induced words
To the midnight crazed hearts
To the love language of touch
Caressed assurances that
I am the only one
Who knew what lay ahead

You have no idea
How I fell for every little bit of you
From your laughter
Your infectious smile
Alluring presence
Charismatic benevolence
Generous soul
A weakness they may suffice

You have no idea
How I hate repeating myself
But for you a parrot I become
Saying words not heeding them
Going over the same things
All over again, drowning
Misery since I'm miserable
Look what unruly affections have done to me

©Lone star ✨
®Jerusa Mentrin
In the darkest sky I feel so alive.

Sweeter than dripping honey
Sweeter than a bakers sugar
Heart warmer than
A deep winter fire
Equally as inviting,
Even more comforting

Tender heart of delicate gold
Too scared to leap into the bold
Light of ever-bright day
Compliment every little thing
Those soft, smooth lips say,
"It's only the truth"

Delicate is the touch
Of October's wonder
Gently held moments
Embraces of longing
Desires whispered quietly
To winter fires

How buttons are easily pressed
And strings carefully pulled
Play it like a hidden melody
Only to stop before the song is done
The remainder left unsung

- Jay M
December 19th, 2021

The garden is gone sweet one,
seeds we sowed
And plants we grow,
The harvests to be for now..
are none.

I will wait til at last,
For cold seasons pass
While sheets of ice  prevail

The soil of fray;
today
So cracked and dry
no water to flow
All lonely and Grey;

For now

Yet these roots of mines
Yearn for my sunshine
Your ray's to lay down with me

Your gardener watches,
Waits tried and true,
With open arms and eyes of blue....

Maybe it was just me who was obsessed with you all this time,
Or maybe i couldn't give you that attention that made your heart chime.

Maybe it was just me who craved to meet you every single day,
Or maybe my cravings were not enough to make your feet step my way.

Maybe it was just me who wanted to talk to you staying up all night,
Or maybe my talks were so useless that made you fall to sleep so tight.

Maybe it was just me who missed you so much,
Or maybe something was missing in me that made you stay not in touch.

Maybe it was just me who even adored your flaws,
Or maybe i couldn't express you how much i loved you after this all.

People told me
That I don't love you
They say,
It's just a temporary affection

If so,
Why am I still begging for you?
Why am i still thinking of you daily?
When you've been long gone.

Maybe someday i will get over you
But I'll be honest
You will always be the one
That i think of
That i will have feelings for
You will always be the one i look for
Even though you're long gone
You will always be the one i love

An exotic fragrance
An evergreen dream
A fire of desire
An aid while I scream

A touch of mystery
A feather of affection
A face of reality
A 'wow' for perfection

And alas!
A long wait with a lonely breeze
A tinted smile with the play of bewitchery
A half written story, and my smile would freeze
A moistened faith of countless escape
Is what gets best of me.

Tik Tok
says the Clock
with all the memories
forgotten and left behind.

Lub Dub
says my Heart
with all the affections felt
for the memories left.