Someone once told me to have a different point of view,
To look hard for what seems true.




                                                            ­                But it's harder said than done,
                                                                ­        So I guess the battles just begun.

This is my personal poem to you,
One that I will keep private and new.
You have helped set me free,
In a way I never thought could be.

You showed me simple things that mean a lot,
I won't let the darkness have a hold, I cannot.
You've helped show me I can fight this life,
You've helped show me I can go without the knife.

You've let me see the person I can be,
You've let me grow so I won't drown in the sea.
I thank you for the simple things you've done,
You've shown me this battle can be won.

This day I'm ready to s e i z e .
No longer will I be trapped, I've found the k e y s .
This battle has b e g u n ,
and I won't be the one to r u n .
This act of d e f i a n c e ,
There will be no more s i l e n c e .
I don't need your a p p r o v a l ,
Because this, is my r e f u s a l .

Secrets
Secrets
Secrets
Secrets.....
Why do these exist?
They tear me apart bit by bit.
I'm so tired of all these lines,
"You can't know now just wait a bit."
Please either tell me everything or leave.
I'm done with secrets.

We were split apart,
It broke my heart.
But I chose to stay,
Because I couldn't move away.
We visit once in a while,
And when we do we all seem to smile.
But that has become more rare,
Because they become less aware.
I miss you all more each day,
Even with the hurtful words you say.
Beings siblings with you was never easy,
But that doesn't make my life any less breezy.
Can't wait to see you all,
Then I won't still feel so small.

Remember the days when people would stop and listen?
Listen to nature's song and watch the sun glisten.
Nowadays people don't care,
They act as if it's not ever there.
But I like to sit in the silence and listen to the peace,
People laughing and smiling in the streets.
Thinking about the silent times,
When there weren't things like crimes.
Watching the birds hum their song,
Hoping someone might sing along.
Try to just sit here and hear the noises all around,
Someone might come and you'll be found.

She is the sunflower in the field of grass,
She stands tall, full of all that sass.

She is the sunflower bright and tall,
She is a firm sunflower that won't fall.

She is the sunflower that will change the world,
She will scream and shout and she will be heard.

She is just a sunflower in a field of grass,
But she will take a stand and won't break like glass.

The last one for me,
I will break free.
The last one of us,
I will cause a fuss.
The last one to call,
I swear I won't fall.
The last one of theses days,
I'm changing up all of my ways.
The last one to be hurt,
I'll make sure I stay alert.
The last one,
The war has only just begun.

Why did you give us up?
                                                                     Am I not enough?
Why did you give us up?
                                                                     Did I not try hard enough?
Why did you give us up?
                                                                     Should I smile more?
Why did you give us up?
                                                                     Am I not pretty enough?
Why did you give us up?
                                                                     Was I not a good daughter?

Read it forwards but it's all the same.
Read it backwards, give it a name,

Just go away.
They don't want to stay,

How could you believe they care?
Don't think that life is fair,

I'm tired of living in the past.
Turn the time, make life last

This isn't goodbye, I wish it was.
I want to be floating in the stars,

But life tends to be mean.
I want desperately to be seen.

Do you ever wonder if everything you do is wrong?
Do you ever wonder if every word you write goes to the wrong song?

Do you ever feel so small and fragile as if you could just break?
Do you ever feel like you are just a giant mistake?

Do you ever get so scared that everyone will leave?
Do you ever get so mad because it's hard to believe?

Do you ever wonder how long it'll take to be okay?
Do you ever wonder about who will truly stay?

Down,
           Down,
                       Down.
The farther I fall the darker it gets,
Lost,  
         Lost,
                   Lost.
Everywhere around me I feel these threats.

I’m falling faster but I can’t slow down,
All these eyes are looking at me as I look around.
My head is shrinking, and it begins to pound,
An escape is nowhere to be found.

Can someone help me?
Can I even be seen?
Please just somebody, Please just help me get free.

Stuck in a loop, forever feeling alone,
Putting myself out there but I remain unknown.
I just want someone to see my true self,
I’m tired of putting her away on the shelf.

I fall faster into the deep abyss,
The old times I simply reminisce.
As the loop continues, the void grows,
I feel like I’m dead and I’ve begun to decompose.

Falling,    
             Falling,
                          Falling.
Is anyone out there?
Alone,
            Alone,
                       Alone.
Now I’m losing my air.

We dance in the dark,
                                    Watching the lovely sun rise.
                                    A wonderful time to leave our mark,
                                    We love and don't deal with any lies.

Our love is pure and made to fly,
My eyes focused on you I want nothing else,
It's nice to finally not wanna cry,
I don't worry about focusing on myself.

                                                    You start to fade and I wonder why,
                                                    Please don't leave me I need your smile.
                                                   What can I do what do I need to try?
                                                   We loved too long for you to leave for awhile.

                                   I start to cry I start to shake,
                                   Because I realized it was all a dream.
                                   I don't want to but I awake,
                                  Turns out not everything it what it seems.

I want to heal, I really do.
                                                             But no matter what I can't get over you.
You bring up so many fears,
                                                 Some that I've been trying to get over for years.
How could I have just let you walk in,
                                                                          I hate you and your stupid grin.
I'm really just wanting to heal,
                                                                     But then again I don't want to feel.

Life has ended, we're all dead.
The words are constantly stuck in my head.
I hear the screams and cries,
I hear them under all the lies.
Everyone is going under, but where to go?
You may have emotions but don't let them show.
You might want to try and be found,
But
Ashes
To
Ashes

We all fall down.

Who am I really?
Will I ever know?
                                                           ­              Whose hiding behind the mask?
                                                           ­               I don't think I'll ever let it show.
One day maybe I'll be okay
But today just isn't that day.
                                                            ­                 Who knew I could still bleed,
                                                          ­                 Who knew I could be so weak
I'm just ready to say goodbye
Life ***** and I don't wanna live.

The best work of art,
Would be the once full of heart.
The best piece I see,
It's the one that can't break free.
The one with little glory,
You can see is telling a story.
I can see it in you,
The different kind of view.
I wish you could know how much I cared,
But I'm not sure you were prepared.
I sit here and wait,
Wondering what is beyond your gate.

People will always worry,
           That doesn't make me hate it any less.
People will always worry,
                 But I don't have much of a choice I guess.
People will always worry,
                             I hate that word so, so much.
People will always worry,
                                        It just has a sour sort of touch.
People will always worry,
People will always worry,
People will always worry,
People will always worry,
                                         All because of that one night,
                                                                        When I tried to shut out the light.