I’ve shed too many tears for those who don’t care All I wanted was someone who loved me And all I got were people who used me Now I’m an outcast There's the flame you cast upon my chest it's all burnt down Was I just too much?
Some days I'm fine, but other days I see a picture of you and get so mad... why couldn't you love me? Why couldn't we be? Of course I know the answers, the reasons, but still... there's apparently a part of me that can't accept that we didn't happen...
Should I even try to speak When you don’t hear me My words don’t “benefit” you Like your friends do
I want to tell you I’m weak Like a plant in the storm that bends I can only bend so far under the pressures
But you would just blow it off Maybe you can’t take the stress of it all You don’t want to bear mine But I think of ur friends You listen to them… Maybe I'm forgetting the times you’ve listened to me rant Maybe I’m expecting too much from you
But it still hurts when you don’t even look my way… It’s never perfect But is it supposed to feel this lonely?
Maybe I’m not good enough I don’t deserve love I’ve made mistakes Piled higher than the mountains Would you forgive me if I let go? Because I can’t see the love...
Perhaps I was born to self-destruct, In loving what I cannot have, For falling in love with a bittersweet dream. A dream only half received. You skipped over love and gave me hate instead. The thought of you brings up a conversation, That I am not yet ready to share. No matter how hard I try, I still find your presence etched onto my soul. The memories of you still send shivers down my spine, And the thought of your touch still wakes me up in hot sweats. Your the cork still stuck in my throat, Or the words and memories still too buried, Unable to claw its way back up.
This was meant to be about still loving someone who doesn't love you and trying to make it a little happy, but my mind went somewhere else.