Into the trees
Into the darkness of the trees
My pain, my tears they follow me
To slip away from the world
Slip away into the trees
Where the leaves will carry me
Into the darkness
Into the darkness of me
My heart, my chest is swollen
I chip away with this disease
Where death will carry me
Into the trees
Into the trees I'll never leave

Where am I to go?
I wander but have no home
Where am I to stay?
With no pillow, my head to lay

Where am I to sleep?
With no bed of mine to keep
Where am I to go?
When I wander all alone

There is a wistful feeling that curls like smoke from the rain clouds
As feet splash in puddles reflecting the sky

The sound of rain beating it's fists against the glass
As the rain washes away the dirt
Making everything new

There is a feeling of kindred spirits as I stare up at the sky
And see the moon ebbing alongside the stars
A feeling of homesick illness washes over me

There is a feeling of deep despair as I walk in the night
Silence is heavy, resting on my shoulders
I am always waiting

For that feeling

Beneath the eyes of a gleaming sky
Each light a smatter of fire inside
I watch transfixed as those stars align
Painting a love that lived and thrived

Quaking, it rose mighty on weary bones
A muse of it's own damnation
Convinced it may always wander alone
It stumbled upon the light of it's salvation

No longer afraid of the dark and the nightmares it hides
It cracked the glass around it's wounded heart
And pushed aside the walls it once relied
To open eyes that vowed to never part

*And kindred hearts sparked flames of passion
These hearts of the same dream
A heart that once gave love in ration
Was bleeding love in a steady stream

It laid to rest those broken bones
For now it walked on bones of steel
It laid to rest that empty home
And finally allowed itself feel

Landfill of broken integrity
Trapped beneath the weight of the world
Slowly drowning under the uncertainty
Of this path I was hurled
onto

Shuddering with the stench of death in my nose
These forgotten nightmares are churning in my head
I'm lying in a place where everyone goes
Once they are dead

The skies no longer gleam with little lanterns lighting the way
The streets are bare and desolate that ring with no sound
The trees are fossils of life that once swayed
Along with the wind that was once so profound

The world is but a corpse rotting away
Once filled with bright eyes
Is now forgotten while its flesh decays
Just another world to die

Headlights
Blinding me
Coming towards me
Now I can't see
I am not afraid anymore
To look death in it's eyes
My arms are outstretched wide
I see a light
Coming towards me
Blinding me
Headlights

You're just a face
That I am passing by
Another place
That I must survive

You're just a face
That I passed by on the road
Matter filling space
A piece for my story to unfold

You're just a face
That is always in the background
Always misplaced
Always around

You're just a face

I am drowning
Underneath this feeling of desperation
I am dying
Inside this broken heart is bleeding
I am crying
These tears falling with the loss
The enormous loss of not knowing
Not knowing that the even the ones closest to you
Will betray you
Berate you
Break you
Let me drown

Dreary Dreary
These Weary Bones
They Holler And Shudder
In Dreadful Tones
I've Strained Them So Terribly
I've Pained Them So Much
These Bones Cry Their Fury
With Each Simple Touch

Burning Burning
My Churning Guts
I've Worked Myself Desprate
I've Worked Myself Nuts
I'm Nearly Depleted
I'm Running On Low
I'm Broke And Defeated
I Really Must Go

Darkness hovered over the dreary sky.
The storm clouds gathering in the skies black eye’s.
And like the tears of the innocent, I watched the sky cry.
I watched the lightning shock the sky back to life.
Then watched a tornado gut the Earth like a knife.
And I watched the Bulimic Earth hurl up the ocean
And I watched as the Earth died

Against the sky is the Pillar of Light
Hands outstretched ready at our open backs
Milky Way our Guardian of the night
Is everything that our world hereby lacks

Tentative to show its face to our eyes
The Red Moon peeks out behind a curtain
For a few minutes it will socialize
Of our humanity it is certain

Along the line our lineage has crossed
Stardust lingers in the blue of our veins
Our existence was very nearly lost
Resilient Stardust helps us remain

So you see that we are made of star stuff
Because being human was not enough

Remains of lost hopes and dreams
Sleeping in this endless stream
Ubiquitous the sound of screams
A place they were last seen

Maybe they're the captured last moments
Before the lights inside went out
A last resonating shout
That never ceased it's breathing

It comes alive in the dark
When the shadows tag along
And the stars whistle
To an unrepentant song

Background noise fills my mind
It seems my memory has closed the blinds
On the thrill of reality
And chosen a new mentality

Release these chains
But leave one remain
This one runs deeper than blood
This one lives embroidered in my veins

I believe I fell in love with the sparkle in those eyes
How they render me speechless with the portrait of blue skies
Those bottomless pits that I fell and drowned in
As they seem to caress the softness of my skin

Like a lazy river they slowly drink me in
Every sip, a new flutter of emotion will begin
It's a pulling much deeper than physical with you
It's something swimming in the pool of those lazy blues

It's demanding in it's need to be fulfilled
It's a practiced sin with effortless skill
How you captured me with only one look
Has me dangling, struggling to breathe, on your hook

Trembling beneath the weight of these words
These words that entice these broken bones
To sway to the memories reincarnating in my mind
This melody that brings these frozen tears to my eyes
So they hang by the thin threads
Crystallizing in my soul
Frost bitten by my breath

This song that brings me back to my youth
Brings me back into that careless mirage
Has me floating in my liquid dreams
Spiraling off every syllable

I crescendo with the feverish voice pouring into my ears
Cry with the beauty,
Cry for being homesick of those years
Where I was blissfully unaware
With these words heavy underneath my skin

Click Clack
Click Clack
My throat is burning
My skin is dry; barely clinging to my bones
My eyes are glued shut by exhaustion
But I know I should open them
Click Clack
The rough surface of the floor beneath me
Scrapes my fragile skin
Help me
Click Clack
With the rest of the strength I harbor inside me
I open my eyes
Click Clack
A dim light looming above me, flickers as it swings side to side
The only source of light
The only source of hope
Click Clack
Time eludes me
There are no windows in my prison
Click Clack
No, there is only Time and Pain
My two closest friends
Click Clack
Exhaustion sweeps over my protesting body once again
And my eyes drape in defeat
My muscles sag their heads in despair
And my bones creak as they settle back into place
Click Clack
My mind flickers into a dream
Where I live vicariously through my inner self
Click Clack*
It's safer this way.

Life began somewhere
It was birthed by the endless universe
It's being an enigma unfathomable by the human mind
But the need inside me,
the burning passion twisting through my bones
suffocating my heart
Swelling in my soul
and intoxicating my blood
begs for the ability to reach out and grasp the understanding

I need to know where the beginning is
I just need to know
My human mind thirsting for the knowledge
Curiosity programmed inside me

It is nearly a physical pain
That I will never know the secrets of the Earth
The hushed whispers faintly brushing my ear drums
And dancing away before I can decipher them

Like a constant dance
we waltz beneath; or inside space?
On this ball of fire locked away by soil
Earth Bound

The need to know life beyond Earthly inhabitants
It's like it has consumed me
I no longer fear Death
I have come to terms with my old friend

In the end I will catch a glimpse of what waits
after my mortality has outlived the shell it sleeps in
Maybe I will be granted wings to fly
in spaces galaxies, endless as they are
Until I am to be reborn

Maybe Earth Bound
Maybe Space Bound

It's as if I closed my eyes and time passed me by
I wish that I could rewind

I miss the feeling of being careless and free
But now I have responsibility shackling me

I miss the days that I could play without stress
But now my life is just a mess

I miss the world inside my imagination
But now it's become my damnation

Every thought is centered around what I need to get done
There is no vocabulary in my life to define "Fun"

And I am not alone, but I feel deserted
I keep calling out, but fear no one heard it

I feel like I am lost inside my mind
And I am searching but I can not find

The way out of this Hell I've been sentenced to
Life was easier before I grew

up.

My heart is soiled, and filled by ghosts roaming
Traveling the blackened gouged out pathways
A horror t'was to see their mouths foaming
And watch their spectral broken bodies sway

T'was laughable to see me jump in fear
As the moans and groans of tortured souls cried
Their clear eyes become another worlds mirror
And whisper of my regressions I hide

Yet I know I only face my jury
They come hiding behind many dark masks
Locked away in this hell of pure fury
I  close my eyes and take in these cold facts

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned
Hell hath no fury like a demon torn

Winter wraps its fingers
in my frozen heart
never ceasing

Giving my burning chest
frigid air that
keeps me breathing

The sun blazed down angrily that afternoon,
Sweat tracing a path down the backs of the hunched inmates
A moment of rest that felt so sweet but was over too soon
"Back to work!" spit spewing from between the guards thin lips

It had been 17 days since inmate 33421 had seen her face
The beauty with the dark strands of silk spilling down her back
And cerulean eyes that held such innocence
An innocence that had no business settling it's gaze on this brutish hell

But 17 days was an eternity here
And no doubt that pure soul was gone
No doubt the blood that seeped from overworked hands,
and the hunger that stained those empty mouths
and dressed their bodies in bones and sheets of flesh
and the anger and desperation that drove a person to the barest instincts,
had robbed that beauty of her innocence.

No, innocence would never last in a place like this.
Angels were not meant to live among demons
And that was what they had all become.

They who shut their bulging eyes in exhaustion
Slip away into a restless sleep
Fall asleep to the hopes of never opening their eyes again
Only to awaken in the morning to the soul clenching gut pains
and the agony that settled itself deep in their bones making a permanent home.

Others fell asleep hollow
And awoke the same way
Hollow with no dreams, or thoughts,
Only the mechanical need to do.

To keep on living
Although inside they're truly deceased
But the human brain is wired to live
To survive

Ah, no there was no way the beautiful soul 33421 had seen
Could still look upon the light of day and smile at the sun
Not when the sun cursed them as strongly as the men that stalked
back and forth behind the gates hated them.
Not while they all became the monsters
They were accused of being.

Tears are streaming down her face
Our trust has been misplaced
In the hands of a human being
A mother can't believe what she is seeing

The same ones who swore to protect and serve
Leave bodies dead, laid out by the curb
And my heart is bleeding as much as their wounds
Our streets are becoming tombs

Our hate is destroying our humanity
And we let pride take away from our dignity
We let stereotypes destroy our humility
It's become a tragedy

Hands up
So maybe they'll see I surrender
Under the foot of The Badge
My hands are up and I beg mercy
That this man doesn't pull the trigger
Don't shoot!

Hands up
So many brothers and sisters lost in this war
A bullet in me is nothing to them but a paid leave
My blood is just another stain
It won't cause this man with the badge any pain
Don't shoot!

Hands up
In the court I'm the sketchy one
But I wasn't the one standing behind the gun
Please God don't shoot!

Hands up
While we stand together in peace
And are accused of violence
Beaten, gassed, punched, harassed
This is war in these streets
Where The Badge and the black man meets
DON'T SHOOT  

Bang

Wheres the peace?

Iridescent eyes
Tsunami's crash inside
Is your heart breaking?
Like the sad story playing in those orbs?

Winter cold heart
Your love tore me apart
Like an Earthquake beneath my feet
You sent me falling through the cracks

Love destroyed us
Like a hurricane, it floored us
Stole my breath and left me gasping
It was your hand I was grasping
for

Down at the bottom
That's where I found them
Those whose hearts were broken like mine
And were left to drown, and die

I'm sixteen going on sixty
I can barely see the point in life
I will live a short life,
Accomplish nothing spectacular
And then die
Forgotten like the rest

I was alive for a moment
Truly felt the wind brush my skin
Felt it thread it's fingers in my hair
Felt it caress my heart from within

It was a moment
Fleeting in it's wispy form
It was a moment that I felt
reborn

It was then I could raise my head
But alas, the moment past
and again I was dead

I woke up feeling wrong,
Looked in the mirror and felt unsettled in my skin
Who am I? Where did I come from?
Why do I question things? Where did answers begin?
Why do I speak?
Why is this voice a part of me
Is my soul a real thing?
Are they real, the things I see?
Where do I go when I die?
Is it blackness, a dark and endless sky?
Will I know I'm me when I no longer breathe?
Will I think about these unimportant things?
Will I remember my loves, my hardships. my joys?
Will I remember the things that fixed me and the things that destroyed?
How about my memories? Will they matter at all?
Do these events add up to my impending rise to fall?
Will I remember why I woke up feeling so wrong?
Or will the death of me silence my song?

The rain beats against the blemished glass of my window
Leaves lay brown and crumpled on the ground
A frozen memory of a yesterday's sorrow
Tell me, what is that terrifying sound?

The one that repeats inside of this tormented head
The one that pounds and screams to be let out
The one that tucks me in inside my bed
It fills my soul, my heart. my bones, my doubt.

I feel it aching like age in these worn out muscles
I feel it weighing my shoulders down
I feel it like flames of some vengeance seeking fire
I feel it as I watch Autumn make it's rounds

This seasonal pain is breaking my heart
I'm like Fall as I fall apart

Little one
A few years old
Arms bound, soul chained
Auctioned off and sold

A picture on the news
This girls been gone four days
Death is almost certain
The murderer escapes

A man with a cross
Settled proudly on his chest
Victimized for evil deeds
A rusted blade tugging against his flesh

Young girl
She walks alone
***** and beaten
On her way home

Poor child
Holes in his shoes
His stomach growls
It's nothing new

Tears mean nothing
If you turn a blind eye
Every minute we're silent
Someone else will die

We lost hope in humanity
Brought down by brutality
This worlds reached insanity
Our hate is our own fatality

Immortality lies in the soul
My body may age
I will grow wise with time
But my soul will still burn with youth
Until death do us part

This land that's never set her eyes on war
Never tasted the blood of soldiers
But oh how she has tasted blood
Never tasted salty tears of genocide
But oh how she's tasted tears
Never hungered with her children's famine
But oh how she's hungered
Never brought to her knees with hopeless prayers
But oh how she has prayed
Never lived in constant terror
But oh how she has feared
The innocence that once rest like a quilt on frail shoulders
Ripped away to bear the fierce cold
Comfort, so taken for granted
Will be a beacon of what we'll miss
When all is lost

What a wicked world
When blood is shed
In the name of religion
What wicked days
When death is set
Like the sun on the horizon
What wicked times
When evil taints
Love
And what wicked schemes
When we see this happen
Over again but never learn our lesson
The end is drawing closer
The curtains begin to close
And we'll be faced with our Judgement
I do believe we won't be happy
With what we see

I have wandered this road of woe
I have rested these old eyes upon the wonders
Watched the evils unfold from the ***** of darkness
And the goodness prevail although it never lasts long

Yet these rusted bones are starved of the warmth
The cold has frozen these joints into place
Left my heart in fragmented splinters that pierce my flesh
And leave my insides bruised and sore

This soul that has seen the lithe clouds of paradise
And felt the stinging wash of Hell's devouring seas of fire
Will wait no more for the fingertips that will rest it's warmth
And bring me back from this state of living dead

Reincarnate the parts of me that have long since found their earthy bed
And wake the memories that have faded from this feeble minded head
Set ablaze the fire that once burned inside my being
And vanquish the icicles that have made a home in my bones

Just love me

I figured my blood was clean of this sickness
Thought the light had banished the dark
Fought to break free of what lay underneath
But these wounds are reopened
Bleeding beneath my skin
And the tears fall again
I hope I won't break
this time