he was as scared as I was
I can tell cause he was steady
—he was a mountain and I,
I shook him with my earthquake

none of us can handle each other
none of this are wrong
and nothing else feels more right
oh, Lord, we are so in love

there I stood in the middle of the canyon walls
just to screamed out 'I don't love you anymore'
so that it echoes over and over back to me
because I cannot convince my heart
to ever believe that it needs to stop loving you

the poetry I wrote
my thoughts he unfold

I made him a love
that never gets old

though he left my heart
broken and cold

but what we had once
worth much more than gold

the present he gave me
represents himself in my eyes;
a storyline I've always wanted to read,
the mystery on each page
I've been dying to unfold,
and the love in every word
I've been wishing upon a star for

without doubt
now I have finally found
the person who has possession
of all my sweetest poetry

I can stand losing sleep
I cannot stand losing *you

One hit followed by the other
Stop crying, you sang
A *****, that's my nickname
Love is your shield
Then
Forgive me, you plead
But
No more,
No more decorating
Our exclusive hell
No more bridges
You've burned them
When you choked me
And when you...
You
Hurt me,
Paint my face
With black and purple,
You
Throw me,
Into an endless pain

Now I can dance
Atop your fake apologies
And laugh at
Your abyss of misery
Cause I know
You are NOTHING
Without me

They say the darkest hour
comes before the dawn
but I don't mind at all cause
you're able to cast a light
through the heat of our skin
when you're dreaming
right beside me

when his eyes stare in the distance of one kiss
where giggles vibrate through our hot breath
is the moment eternal happens between us

I spent my day
laying roses on the ground
where my sweet brother
asleep forever beside God

I close my eyelids
and all I can recall
is the last night
where his lips
on my forehead
hand inside my hair
and heart beating
to stay with mine

Isn’t this what you wanted?
Me—gone
Somebody had to make
a solid decision, right?
Cause you cannot keep
on putting an expired food
inside your refrigerator
for it will be rot and appear
a lot awful than the last time
you left it behind

It's impossible
not to fall
for you
even
the stars
above fall
for you too

Falling in love with him
is as easy as falling asleep
to his beating heart
while I'm covered
inside his locking arms

Its shine twinkling above
amidst the clouds
over the galaxy
reaching out
in secrecy
and
it falls
granting wishes
hearing whispers
lighting up broken hopes

just what I was made for you

Somehow, he lured me
into kissing him again and again
until the only taste I know
is coming from his lips
and the only reality
I am capable of living
is the one I found
in between his breathing
when he opens his mouth
to whisper my name

the wolves in me howl to the moon in your eyes
and I wonder if you have any idea that you can stay
inside your walls of ocean and be separated miles away
from where I am standing and still own my whole heart

The only button I’d love to push now is fast forward to the time when your name won't cut my throat like swallowing broken glasses

the act of
restraining self
from the hunger
of your sweet kisses
and the thirst
of your soothing touch

Honestly, I cannot help but wonder
how I got the familiar compulsion to smile
when time introduced us
and how I found all the right things
in everything beneath your almond skin
~
"hello, have we met before?," I asked
"I am your last," you answered

he uses Monday to Saturday
to change the world
and uses a single Sunday
to change mine

When I placed my palm
Atop your TIRED HEART
I recognize the fear
Of my flame that might
Melt you away
IT IS NOT SAID, I ALWAYS KNOW
And when you walked out that door
I whispered,
*I AM HERE TO STAY

Hey, I'm here
Bleeding in the deepest space of your heart
Can you feel me?
Here, come closer
let me whisper you a secret
You see, time doesn't fly in my galaxy
it's frozen after you left me
guess you've cast a charmed
to keep my open flesh unarmed

I watched myself staring back inside your eyes
while your fingertips caressing mine to unify
I can hear your touch whispered "I love you"
and every grain on my skin responded "only you"

I am made of flame
and I am madly in love
with a guy who is made
of everything fire-proof

Falling for him was her first mistake
The rest? Oh, Darling
They spread faster than venom

But, Darling
my sun rises in your eyes
and sets in my breaking heart
my moon shines from your starry kiss
and disappears along with your goodbye

before you leave, this I must say
eventhough your love is all about grey,
I still fell deeply in love with you
before I even knew that love itself is true

therefore I've made up my mind inside my fear
to speak these words just for you to hear
for the first and the last time shall you feel
"I love you, so much"
and there's no way it could be more real

I was looking at the ceiling
along with his silhouette
who stared at me like a lion
and I was the cornered prey
then he locked his lips on mine
he said my body is so warm
maybe because I want him
I want to touch and be touched
and touching was not enough
or maybe because
I want all of me to be his
and I want to own him entirely

those fists of his
are strong enough
to protect me
and hold me tight
from the world
yet his arms
are so gentle;
he can carry me
to a sweet dream
like I'm home

today I ate candies
and chocolates
and ice cream
and I figured out
that they are
the flavor of you

it was such a simple thing
that tore us apart
only because he has a heart
with the capacity of one glass
while I have the love
from all the seven seas
to pour for him

Shall I give you a bouquet of flowers,
I'd give you Amaryllis for your splendid beauty
that charmed me in all the right way with insanity

a touch of blue Iris for every faith I put in you
and hope for all my prayers to come true

I'll decorate it with some white Chrysanthemum
for it is truth and loyalty that defines our coliseum

then a Sunflower, a symbol of dedication
of my eternal love and your heart in unison

I was a fool to even think
he can love me the second time
when he already failed
on his first

if we both met and fell in love
by God's will
then why should we be forced
to separate ourselves—our love
*by what human said?

I swear that even if the world
separates me from you throughout
the interstellar of billion stars until
forever withers and blooms over again,
I will always manage to remember
the shape of your phantom that is
created by symmetric lines
mirrored to mine
because the love I have inside me
is the kind of love I always carry
from one lifetime to another story
simply to return back to yours

such a forgetful person that I am
forgetting important things
I never forget about you though
but I just forget that you never care

nightmare kissed me
until I wake up
with swell on my eyes
and thunderbolt in my chest
cause though you're not around
I still recall your kind face
but I wonder how can
the sun still smiles without you
like any other pretty days?
then it got me thinking,
one day,
will I be
*forgotten too?

She chanted prayers
With her knees bended
She walked between the twin trees
With her eyes closed
She threw a penny into the well
With her palm opened
She waited for the falling star
With hand over her heart

*For him

Oh, love
I am learning to understand
The words your heart is speaking
But you keep on letting me
Crawl above the melting ice
Where the monsters below
Are ready to eat me alive
If I ever took a wrong step

On Friday night
the citylights shone at its brightest
he'd made me laugh the loudest
where being near turned into nearest
is how I know I am the happiest

there is a line I see between us
in the middle of friends and lovers
a line which gets thinner simultaneously
with every quick notes we pass in secrecy

The sound of our sweat
From the friction
The perpetual black and white
From the dark room

My breathing and yours
Echoes around
As you closing down on me
And I to you

Then I hear nothing
But a tender silence
While I rest my hand
To caress your cheek

Thinking, wishing,
I could just stop this moment
And repeat it for eternity
Little did I forgot

Time is count from good
To gone

The sound of our sweat
From the friction
The perpetual black and white
From the dark room

My breathing and yours
Echoes around
As you closing down on me
And I to you

Then I hear nothing
But a tender silence
While I rest my hand
To caress your cheek

Thinking, wishing,
I could just stop this moment
And repeat it for eternity
Little did I forgot

Time is count from good
*To gone

*******
Fake
Fantasies
Fantastically
Flowing
Fluently

"You know that there is no other girl, right?"

You **** right I don't know
there is always that other girl
the one you said you always adore
pffftt adore
you adore everyone with a *****

I am crunching the ginger biscuit
as if I'm chewing that ***** face
oops, my bad, it's never her fault
but, come on! her?
she looks so........ stupid
I bet she swallows all your lies
like I did
correction, like WE did

well, you know what?
I hope you marry her
cause we both know that if you don't,
you probably just gonna end up alone
and you're just one pathetic loverboy
because you failed, again, with another girl

come to think about it
I might as well establish a group
for your victims with some other girls
I already say hi to just to laugh at you
so, better not fail this time

XO,
your-just-another-epic-ex!

“You got your long hair now,
it’s nice—I need to get my drink”
and that was the last voice
I play on repeat in my head
right before you left me—again

as I felt the warmth rolling down
on my cheeks
when we met last night at 2am
after 7 months
of our goodbye war
and I knew
that time about you are frozen
just like the wound that I kept
open

You ought to know that
whenever I see a young woman
holding her little baby
who probably looks like the daddy
I find my mind imagining my own
with you—only you
can’t think of anyone else but you

Ink went dry for me to describe
The overwhelming happiness inside
No more dark room to hide
Cause you've opened the window wide
I am covered in your winter-tide
Blinded by your smothering nights
When our lips locking tight
I feel the love we cannot fight
FYI, you're blowing my mind
Gosh, I am so glad that you're mine

it was different—how he made me fall
he didn't come with confetti and rain
or turned me restless with waves of rush
but he knocked on my door softly like snow
with white roses hiding behind his back
and a ring to promise me the right track

tell me you worship
the watercolor painting
of a blended sun and moon
within my deepest heart

and I promise to make a life;
a dancing trees and owls
a raining stars
a soothing waterfalls

out of the ghost
you've been carrying
inside your flesh
and tired bones