Your teeth are sharp and poison filled Your tongue is slit Your eyes are still As they stare back gleaming in the darkness Lurking Waiting...for the **** When you strike the shadows fall They mourn of their death Like the bodies they belonged to Your venom even intoxicates my soul Enabling my spirit Killing off what's left of me Your venom courses through my blood Floods to my brain Burning through my mind Destroying my body Until I'm yours Until I crave your presents Beg for your poison Plead for your venom Your filthy poison Your venom To be free from the demise I destroy myself all together And finally, I fall to a peaceful rest at your feet Your venom conjured another innocent soul What is your next disgustful need? You sick creature One day your venom will be the death of you Venom...
Yes, I forgave you and asked forgiveness Twenty-four years and more ago. Yet, you continued to despise. Metamorphosing into an Unforgivable. Hater. Destroyer of family. You made sure it hurt me. I don't like what you did. It was ****. It was not called for. I wanted peace. So I created it.
Here, this is yours. It's your very own universe! To create all the havoc you desire. Way over there! Far from mine. When your venom is spewed And your heart is as light as the Dove's feathers I will open my doors in peace. Welcoming you in for herb tea with a spot of honey and a few biscuits too. Maybe, even some laughter and fun. It is all up to you.
Remember to present yourself truly Setting what you have twisted right. I pray for you to develop courage Needed to tell all that you have done. Yet, I am not hopeful. Won't you prove me wrong? I hope so, dear sister. I hope so.
An unforgiving soul wreaked havoc in my world. The only answer I could find was to give her own universe to live in. While I found peace in mine.
her lips stretch to show sharp fangs, dripping with venom and her throat palpitates as she lets out a warning hiss; she is a snake, poisonous and deadly, and i have been warned time and time again to stay far, far away, but as usual, the allure of danger calls to me and i inch closer and closer, heart beating faster and faster — her body tenses, prepared to strike — but as usual, i ignore everything in my pursuit. but, unlike other snakes i have encountered, this one has the power to strike back
“it’s easy after the first step” That’s what I text him back And maybe part of me is lying Trying to convince myself that it was easy that way That every voice didn’t make me jump out of my own skin Every noise Because every step wasn’t easy I wanted to run home My feet dragged on in ways you wouldn’t understand I slept behind a fence in the grass in the hopes I wouldn’t be found It wasn’t easy It wasn’t hard But I still can’t walk along the highway alone And sometimes the tears just overtake me before I know what’s coming I can’t control it But that fear never really leaves you When I was twelve years old I tried running along the side of the road And even though I couldn’t see it One of my most clear memories of this morning was looking at the car wash a few miles from my house And not actually seeing it Just seeing a flood of black in my vision The fear had overtaken me My legs turned to jelly and I could feel myself stumble but I don’t remember standing The wave in my eyesight threatened fainting But it was easy after the first step Easy She asked me if I wanted a hot chocolate I said no But she made me give in He wanted to handcuff me The man in the police car who drove me home But he wasn’t scary compared to my mother Sometimes I laugh She censored her cursing in front of him but not her threats Falling against the wooden frame of our porch “I am going to freaking **** you” And I know if he wasn’t standing there that’s not what she would’ve said Would’ve whipped me until I bled It doesn’t matter if the kid lives as long as it knows you’re upset it tried to leave At the time I’d meant it “I’m sorry, mom” But sometimes It’s a whispering in my ear That all I need to go again are my shoes and a **** of a determination That I sure as **** was not ******* sorry That I wanted someone to notice me so badly That I mistook road signs for “Railroad Xing” And tried to balance on the train tracks Ducking when cars passed in the early hours of the morning It was never easy I want to do it again Maybe to find a high Maybe because I know nobody would care enough to find me I want to feel something again Everyone is off Drugs and alcohol are really the criminals they told us as kids And I’m just trying to remember the lyrics to every song I used sing Because I’m out of people to sing them with I just want to feel something again And I don’t want to grow up They suggested the name Oleander to me for a reason Highly poisonous And meaning inner strength And if I’m going to live up to a name like that I’ll need quite a lot of strength And venom to make up for all the kind I’ve been hit with