saw a lost mangy
dog did not try to hate
did not try to touch

now

Work the slow work of diligent accomplishment
In the only now that does exist
Chimerically no forced coercion can prevail
Relatively we bend and sway and break with fads
Hatred commercial excitations selfish desires
****** reflexive static cyclic molecular physics
Birth death birth death birth death
Ultimately i do not understand          therefore i am

the present is now
told a thousand years ago
and we stand conscious

alive is success
you are successful now yes
what step next now yes

i saw a small bird
it did not see me at all
i not important

we are a no one
in the realm of never was
we create the world

what golden meaning
perceived when in a moment
is but reflection

if no suffering
there is no true compassion
we thrive compassion

the human race is
mother and i must suckle
or die a rare death

pain don't matter now
breath and blood all important
sound the speech of war

saw the demon in your eye
fell in love with you
take me there again sweet one

i walk an empty
path,,,, and think it is true lie
so here i am now

i am not a monk
from tibet just want to say
**** happens it hurts

i plan to live till
ninety ,,,  i hear laughter now

there are no exits
but the ones we do create
this here is just now

buddha is buddha
soma is soma they twang
vibrate consciousness

yes can future see
thousand filled miles much more yet
present mystery

cigarette smell room
the scent of *** pounds the air
essence of journey

i i i i i
i i i i i i i
i i i i i

i think therefore i am
i do not think therefore
i am not

actions of body
speech and mind arising soft
facebook karma peace

if fired upon defend
yourselves with intent
death goes on and absorbs all

i want a spring bonsai tree
posses it as own
shape it to controlling will

i am a bear i am a wall
many things can ****
a bear and break a wall

i owe i owe it's of to work i go

i know there was  time
i loved all the world
i think i was eight

can you see the dog in the window
thrown there by an angry man
blood dripping down

time now
cow sound
calm sleep

the cloud exists in the mind
i see i see now
turn around look at future

i never heard an angel
speak out side of dream
dream on brother dream

my endtime is unknown but
**** wrong path am on
sixty four alive happy

a thought a dream, a piece of
..... fiction, no a compilation , a
,,,,, vision, a grudge of contradiction
'''''' no, no ! a craze of nightmare
;;;;; an old ones revelation

a burn so deep we do not care
,,,,, or know the depth of mind
---- called forth, our lives are
//// but a course of inner sight
??? forbidden

Keep on keeping on  never stop breathin
free   no place to flop
Keep on breathin walk walk step
keep on breathin   don't forget

Feel the heartache  keep on breathin
hurts so much   life caused it
Breathin breathin never stop
your not here if you don't fit

Oh baby  oh oh baby  oh baby
do wah do wah do wah

Under water for five days  breathin
a wonder   i'm amazed  just breathin
Oh oh baby breathin still breathin
till the end of days

do wah

scary thoughts throughout my brain
don't want to be afraid again
the fastest way out is through
ouch mommy ouch

what is it you want from me
but acknowledgement of your existence

i see you i hear you, don't care much
no offense,, how often do you think of me

i can not see
never been able to
i just pretend

cherry trees blooming
growing as happy children
soft   year after year

open window
i listen to bird
warm pleasant air

You theme you are the only one and crap
A conscious **** excreting mindflex mobile
Bone bag commercially impregnated
With a semblance of life called existence
Firmly pegged in this moments suffering
Or relief of suffering called happiness
By most swimmers in the we turbulent
Through cause and calmed through cause to each their own
Journey a needless needful thing of our
Humanity etcetera moving
So we must go no where or now here to
Be the undiscovered country glowing
Light forms solidifying matter forms
Melting cyclic wonderment of what's this

the imaginary
world hurts
when it changes

saw an episode
of my life
and was not impressed

"in these trying times"
was first said
10.000 yrs ago     or more

my freezer is full
of vegetables and meat
I wonder what to eat

we are just beautiful
people walking around
thinking of other things

bring the light into darkness
how else can it
be dispelled

with big ego
I seek emptiness
in my own way

never saw a dog
that looked like a dog
kinda looked person to me

I call the mountain to me
with an ego oh so clear
ha ha ha ha ha ha

I was desiring something
what I got was
an empty cigarette

The dog barks I hear a voice
a mindless call to action.

Heart races, weapons manned, a
murderous transaction.

A thought or ten passes within
will I do or die on this day.

Emotion my enemy, dying a little more with every trigger I trigger.

And I walk one pull
at a time into the darker

The absence of light where my soul once reside, for my sanity I continually barter.