I want to be that fun sunny girl I pretend to be
Maybe sometimes I am her
Maybe I am her
Only a quarter of me
The rest is dark and deep
A star here or there a sweet dark lull

Lost within myself

Hair of gold
Eyes blue as a thunderstorm
Face of tiny high bones

How are you so sad
Face in the mirror

Why do you swing like a pendulum
From happy to sad to nothing and back again

Someone stop the clock

“Everything I love has either ruined me or watched as I ruined it instead.”

Only feel better
When completely empty
Nothing left, all drained and dry
When I've done something I'll probably regret,
I'll forget

Everyday you turn the page, but you can start a new chapter at any time.

“Intimacy is not who you let touch you. Intimacy is who you text at 3am about your dreams and fears. Intimacy is giving someone your attention, when ten other people are asking for it. Intimacy is the person always in the back of your mind, no matter how distracted you are.” —Unknown

“You could tie my tongue
My lips, my teeth
Split them into surrender
Into a foreign language
And I would still manage
To cough up your name.”

– Danielle Shorr

“For reasons unexplained, every person in the world is born with a large gaping hole in the center of their chest…while not uncomfortable, it is widely considered unsightly, and pretty much everyone tries to fill it with something…some people fill it with religion, others just buy a bunch of stuff, and some even fill it with other folks…I left mine alone, though, because I found out if you run against the wind at just the right angle, it makes a whistling noise.”

My boots
Heavy and soaked in mud
Drag drag drag
Threw and threw
Every time

Walk walk walk
Climb climb climb

“The truth is, one day we’ll drift apart, you’ll forget the colour of my eyes, you’ll forget my brightest smiles. The traces I left on your heart will fade away and my world will turn grey because the truth is, my eyes will always crave your existence and my heart will always need your warmth, my mind will crave the sweet words you left me thinking about and the truth is, a soul like mine will never forget a heart like yours and so my world will indeed turn grey.”
drowning-at-3am

We love with a special kind of hate
So powerful

It's toxic,
Not the kind of infection you can
Cure

The embassy
A sanctuary to all

A lie of peace,
Come one
Come all!
To this place of Mayhem

Where we lie to each other and grovel at the feet
the world is in shambles
No one wants to admit it

When did we become such enemies?

We live each day
As a walking mess
Beautiful disaster in distress

Walk side by side with all we hate
But man we get good enough
We delegate

You're you
And wow, I'm impressed
A child, 12
Immature and disobedient
Playful as a puppy,
With sharp teeth
A scream
Loud and obnoxious
Addicted
To what I don't know

But
You're 24, a man
I see
Strong and hard
Elegant Wolf
Protector, leader
A sigh
Relief and longing
Sober
Clearing the fog

King to my Queen
I do not serve heaven

Today I awoke

One day
You wake up
Winter has frozen over
Cold and white
Beautiful and untouched

The next it's all
Mud and rain
No sun
Keeps you down

Two three days go by
The sound of birds
Green grass
Budding trees

The weather here
It's killer

“Can I tell you a secret? You don’t have to be in a relationship.
I mean it. I know they force it down your throat until you choke on it. Girls aren’t pretty unless they’re wanted. Boys aren’t men unless they’re having *** with someone. People aren’t lovable until they’re dating someone.
But a relationship won’t always make you happy, and as wonderful as romance is, it isn’t the only love that exists. I have seen friendships that are deeper and more pure than couples who swear it’s forever - and yet the friendship is the one people ignore.
I have heard so often “nobody loves me” out of the mouths of people who are single. And it kills me because if you ask them: where are your parents, your teachers, your classmates, your pets - they say, yes, okay, but it doesn’t count. Of course it counts, love doesn’t diminish just because someone doesn’t want to have *** with you. In fact, doesn’t it sort of make that love more real that they want nothing - not even a date - out of you?
It is pretty to be in love. It’s magical, I’m sure. But it’s also wonderful to stop for ice cream in your prom dress with six other girls. It’s also wonderful to go visit the world with nothing but a bunch of buddies who are really excited about learning.
The problem is: we’ve made everything about “the one”. But maybe “the one” is just you, loving yourself, having fun, and being happy. Maybe instead of looking for our other halves, we should be piecing ourselves together.
Maybe I wasn’t born unfinished. Maybe I am the one who makes myself better.”
Single serving size // r.i.d (via inkskinned)

I miss

Who I was
Before you

Before us

Before I grew
Into this
Emotionless emotional
Being
Human they say

I wan none of this
A black heart
A soul
That screams!

From within
I writhe and thrash
But I cannot

I need a light
A door or window
To crash threw

Someone open up
Let me in
I want to burn again

Not die
This black husk
Of what is left

Set me on fire
Let me burn

I want to go back
To us
To myself

But you,
Gone now
Seen me with others and
Well moved on

I'll wonder threw people
Trying to replace
You
Me
Us

I was never yours to keep darling,
And yet you're surprised
That I've left

You showed me the door,
Oh and it's unlocked
I'll take this one then.

I hope you remember the warmth of the sun, but also the bitter cold winter.

I don't wanna see you
But I'm wondering where you are
   -Gloriana "can't shake you"

now I send letters into space
Hoping that some mailman somewhere will track you down
And recognise you from the descriptions in my poems
That he will place the stack of them in your hands and tell you,
There is a girl who still writes you, she doesn't know how not to
     -Sarah Kay