Her wings should have sprouted
By now
Her tongue should have grown
Around her neck
Like a nuse camouflaged
To her chest

The mirrors in time
Cake over mine
As I lose all
Awareness
Into the dark
ABYSS

Slow sinks
Toilet brinks
Shishkaboobs
Prison walls

Insane melodic mix
Of hourglasses
Set on empty

How many vertabreas
Will you hit on today

Tired
Weary
Never
Too much
Never or
Nothing

Birth
Light
Life smells again

Nice
Sweet
Burst of
Hueish Ranges
Cascade
Down
My eyelids
Like utopias
ARRIVALS

An end
A peace
A wet willow
Tree

Alone
Desolate
Frozen
I stay for hours

Confused
In dark
No end
No START

Just known
Just Alone

Hoping to be
Brought Up again
From births springs
By a latent
Mystery man
One who will teach me that ashes aren't the worst thing I could sift within

To breathe in parasites
Let them swirl around
In your room for a bit
and blow back the soote
Of burdens past mistook

And sit with them all
And watch them run wild
Pick one of your favorites
And ask him to stay for a while

Share a verse or two
Please ask him to wipe
Away the voodoo
At The Door

Who could ask for
Anything More

The light touched my hand
And I was transformed
Back into the earth

The dirt I lay in
Seems to eat me
Knowing I have
no shovel
I began to delve

Mad at the world around
I began to see myself
Wanting to breathe
Just not on the surface

I've got to hide
Run away just for a short time
As the earthworms search me
I see a spotlight beneathe me

Someone else is waiting inside
They're there too
Just like i

Guess the lonely
Need the lonley

I bargin for simplicity
Of life
To come and haunt me

Instead of dry
Dusty leaves
Stone temple
Voodoo curses

And late night
Sun rides

Inspiration
Muse
I must find some
This significant curiosity
Has hit me
And it controls desires
Incomplete infinite desires
Star staring
Sun stroking
Burst
Vibrant

Zoned out
Out of wordly time
In own space
In own mind
With filled up love
Lust flowing over

Inside
Pickets
Flowers
Dandelion
Satire
Willfull
Controlled
Fre­e essence
Run faster
Come inside
Sit down
Share share
Your desires

How do you
Make *** work for you
When you crave intimacy?

He wrote serotonin
On his brainwaves

Made oceans to swim
Inside fascination
And wandering eyes
Instead of demons
At play

He willfully
Passed his away
Shared with another
Calming every wave

And on those days
His mind took haze
And the tools were overlooked
And instead Of giving
he took

To write where no one follows
To lead where there is no path
To take hold of the mundane
And make something magical
That's what a poem does to your life

Sunlight or sacrifice
Why must I choose
This swollen ring
Stuck around
My *******
Has grown too deep

I try and pry it off
Everyday
To make amends
With the wicked
Let not the sun go
Let it grow between
Our toes in the sand

Feel the salt lick your skin
And become attune
With the natural energy
Instead

I feel like a destroyer
A dominant domain
Under siege
Attacked
On the left side of my brain

I feel words being
Taken from my soul
And lifted into another plane

I feel castrated
While menstrated
Drops of blood
Pour out of me again

I feel nothing

I feel creative scars
Trying to mend
Trying to help
But I won't let them in

I'm scared I won't be able
To block all the negative out
Which is intrusive and invasive
And never seems to stop

I feel soulful
Joyus
Loved
Alive

Until
The bread crumbles
In to rye
And I cry

Then I'll heal
Then this pain
Won't penetrate
My atmosphere

My heart
Has been lost
Kept under wraps
If softened
Then what happens next

If looked at
What will I find
Deepened rivers
Opened wide

Gushing
Rushing
She knows who she is

Understood
Misspoken
The real is here again
I must end

Hola
Se la vie
Goodbye resend
The same lines again and again
The pain runs faster
Inside my head meeting me again
You're open to anything
Right?

My Forest
RA
       I  N
    S
Slow ly
To sleep

Each count 1234
Just as sweet

Kumbaya circle of friends
Let's pretend to live there again

Up a mountain
Restrain from pain
Color me a picture
Lay down with me

Sweet child
You misunderstood me
I am not you
I am your enemy

Take me, im not easily bruised
Misplace me
I'll be found when
I'm lost again

Empty me while
Letting go of listening
Find me
Let go

Compare
Contrast
Throw in the trash

Keep me
I'm yours
Again and again
Till this
Light gets sore

I craved
You in ways
My body
Never knew
Possible

Overacheiving
Overdose

Looking for
A haunting high

Set fire
To night drawn
Skies

In colors
So bright
My tongue
Burst
With electricity

And all truth
Spilled on top
Of me

Like a mountain
Of fantasies

You came and
Saved me

These members are not my own
They seep through the rapids
As I drown

They ask me questions
They tell me what to do
How to feel
And then condrtridict their own

*** am I supposed to do
When I can't get through?

Where does the bird weep?

She wants to feel important
She wants someone to see her talents
And smile and laugh

To share a common bond
A similar interest
Cause right now
She mostly feels alone

And the silence
Doesn't fill her
Her soul rots away

If she can't get away
From her inner demons
She fears she'll soon fade

Her inner child wants
to feel joy again
To sparkle and such

To light up her eyes
Is all she'll ever want

Everybody wants me to be
The queen Penelope
Of this palace

When I'm really
An up roaring *****
Holding a chalice

Not knowing
What I'm really like
Keeping it stuffed down
Really bites

Maybe she's my dark love
And I'm trying to make her
More luminescent than she wants

What were told we are
We are not

Take time today
To write a different script

Say I love you
To your inner child

Smile at the heavens
And say Thank You

Arrow through head
Back dot breathe

I run from the Present
Living in my past.

§wallow the Light

The tombs
Laid full
Beneath my
Feet again tonight

Tomorrow my
Shoulders will
Buckle
While my body
Take flight

And the
Lack of
Ancient trust
Will once
Again
Come into
Question

As I
Lay inside
The sculpted
Hollow

And dance
Again
With this
Melody
That's played
a thousand
Times

And let it **** me
Because I was too
Afraid to let
You see me

Her vase flew
Empty and forgoten

Her mouth
Still numb
From the everescent
Sonderless

POINT

The truth
Could **** you
If you let it

Raw
Wet
Details
Fine art

Veins
Soaked
Blood
Fine art

Corrupt
Broken
Worned

Complete
End
Sworn

Abide
My love
Never look
Back again

"There's a Maturity
in the cleverness
of calmness."

I don't know where to come
I keep telling you

Sure you do, you always do

Then why do I still question it

You do everytime,
let go and unwind
peace, harmony, relaxed mind, body, spirit, and soul
Let go
Let go
Let go

My collections
My extremes
All kept inside
This crazy dream
That someday
I'll feel your love
Once again

Pink
Passion
Pulse

Forgive me for what I'm about
To do
Draw you inside of me
So now you can see
What it's like to let go
Of the World and venture
On the edge where
The girls play and shadows
Come in

Where the dark purple
Skies submit to
A land of candy canes
And butterflies

One day she woke up
And he wasn't there.

We all pour expressive concrete
On our faces
From time to time
We all lay paralyzed by our
Own imagined fears

What we do next
Is what cuts the cord
Or plunges the knife

What are we reaching for
Surface
Graves

If we were graphiti
Youd still lie
On top of me

Tracing the after effects
Your breath marked across
My lips

Lit up
Like ecstasy lovers
Your mind incased
Something I'd soon
Discover

*******
Heroine
Never had a taste
As tempting
As your marijuana laced
Face

And the altitude
Words from you
Put me higher
And I won't
Stop penetrating
Your thoughts
Till I've had
My desire

You will
Be there
Covered in dripping gold

And I will stand under you
Chin up
Lips wide apart
Tasting you
FOREVER

Lovely
Don't you think?

You ride
Inside my hair
You are eveywhere
Green beauty

With buds a color
Too perfect to burn
Green beauty
I make you my home

Its far more advanced
Than anyone knew
There are holes
You can fall through
And not have a freaking clue

The gap
Is another word
For depression or the blues
It seems my mind
Tears apart what it
Use to use
And makes me think
That I'm being abused
That every answer
To every thought
Is wrong
Pointless
Or incomplete

But on the other hand
It can be a good thing
A thing to use
A canvas
A poem
A way to reach out
To a few

So don't give up hoping
The fog will soon lift
I'm still obbssessed with
Finding my gift
Even through everyday
Chores I find life
A little too boring
But as soon as I start
To pour it seems
The gates start closing

Where is the open door?
What is it im searching for?

The light out weighs
This tunnel now
And all The dark clouds
Have faded

Make use of your time
To keep them out
Dont get frustrated
The hate will dissipate
Let me melt them away

Listen to me inside
I am your heartbeat
I am your story cloud
Brighten me

Wired wood
Carving inner mind
Into portraits
Of shoelace desire
Of things unbeknowst

Symptoms
Suicide

System in a panic
Finding answers few

What brought
This forth
From the back layers
Onto the floating
Clouds
Which laid
Dormant for
So long

Why are you here now?
And *** do you want?
I was doing
Just fine!!!

Erupted corrosion
Distorted perception
I need time
All I need is time

To let the air
Blow thru
These cracked
Pencil shavings

Reaching my tinder
To set my heart
On fire

I'm tired
Of trying to
Fit into a box
Which has no category

To belong
Is where I want
To begin

Isolated
Trauma state identity
Who cares
As long
As your grinning

I can't even
Do that anymore
I feel there's
No one out there
That remembers
My name

When I want
To collide with
My words
And unite

This feeling
Of guilt
Strengthens
My desire

****** up
As it sounds
No one
Does care

So why are they
Still FOLLOWING me
Everywhere

Violet ribbons
tied across
rosy red cheeks
Isee...
You smile
white teeth shining
as a crystal clear
drop of tear
crosses over the
ribbon & down
your salty dry
mouth

Sinking inside
is the beautiful lie
you're repeating
in your head
Yousee...
the slashes of
bright red imprinted
right beneath
the surface
pain swells
Isee...
your posture
abide you
a little ounce
of time
Framed
in the back
of your mind
Yousee...
backbone split
opening wings
Isee...
egale stance
& stories turned
back onto
the one
who needed
it all along
disappear
the mirrors
GONE

Ashes left ashes
it's all you'd ever
see in the
back of standing
on 2 feet

What if
I liked the way
You grinned at me

I knew youd
Be the death
Of me

Playing it off
You told me to lie

Never speak of this
Or she would cry

I kept it
Every time
Each time
Getting harder

When you grow distant
I chain you again

What if
I liked this
Kind of sin

what if the sky
didn't fall so
blue tonight
and all the wishes
i had ever made
on crystalized stars
suddenly came true

And the ones
In the end
Will be waiting on you
Still smiling from within

You found you
I knew you could
You've been gone
For a while

You found you
Suprised
At all you've missed

While throwing
Caution tape
Outside your
window pain

This house
You now sit in
Lies beneath
That empty room

And you can
Fill it too with
balloons and gifts
Not sorrow
But sweet bliss

It's too narrow
of a street to miss

Come inside
I miss you

Taken part one
She rapped the wind
With her Cold lack of
sufficational fixated states

Letting blossoms grow out
of her mouth
Forgetting to wash
Before she ate

Please forgive me
While I partake in sin

The frying pan
Is too big
For your fat head

I'm washed away
By the shame
I face

Skin yellow
Heart bruised

Open
Bleeding

Trace back
To when
Playgrounds whispered
Haunted memories

Redundant
Sound control

Freeze dried
Pebbles onto
River banks flowing

Following transcending ringing
Summoned
Feathered down
By scavengers

Hence feasible
Recipes

Unorthodoxed swallowing
Rocks churning appendixes

He wore crooked windows
Beside morning coffee
And her spilled milk

Do you want
To go under
The earth
With me

Or am I
A delinquent
Melody

Unchain me
Please

Gently go
Where it's unseen

Quiet please
If they see us
They'll sneeze

1-2-3
Hold your nose
You go first

Go under the sea
To a dark epiphany

Flowing with trees
Of ancestrial bleeding

Time and land
Misleading

Too common
The obsession
With meeting

Birthrights
In succession
Balanced confusion
Roots guided

Earth still
Breathing

We are all
Just proceeding

Why must
The world
Make up your name

Count on your own
Find a friend❤
It can be the pen
In your hand

Or the enveloped sandman
Paper smearing tanning
Watching you sleep alone again

Hes your friend
Let him in
It'll help you breathe
Please don't sneeze
You deserve more than
rock paper scissors

Don't dilute with over thinking
Don't make up a million reason
Just start doing
Things you love
And ask for guidance
From up above

When I see her again
Let me tell you
Every cell becomes alive
I awake

The complimentary serendipity
The particle charge of
Reading from the same mind
The quantum sharing of two universal whole beings of light
That somehow got entangeled
And when I see her
It all makes perfect sense
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