Tuck in your tired feet
inside the warm blanket we'll meet
i'll blow away your worried minds
with one little kiss i'll leave behind

no matter what happened today
no matter what will happen tomorrow
you should know that i will stay
and things will turned out okay

hey honey let me sing you
a lullabies for all night through
for every frown and smile you do
keep in mind that I love you

now now close those heavy eyes
ready to enter your dream, it's nice
na na na na na sleep tight
na na na na na turn off the light

I had a fight with time
it broke its promise
to erase the love I have
*for you

Do you know what magic is?
It is when my heart is falling
down to your hand palm
yet it’s still beating—fast
pumping butterflies all over
my veins when you kiss me

swing the magic wand, abracadabra
you appear like waterfall in Sahara

drop a penny into a wishing well
our hands touched and our hearts fell

boxes of questions, nothing seem true
yet when I choose one, I found you

I am God's masterpiece of art and
The Queen of my mind and heart

Can anyone tell me
where is the manual book
for fixing leaking eyes?
The ******* stole it from me
now my pillow and hand
are always damp at night
even in broad daylight
****

Will I be able to look into a pair of dark eyes
without imagining how nice it would feel
if those were yours?
Will I be able to laugh my heart out
without having the urge to tell you
the stupid joke I just heard?
Will I be able to be completely happy
*without you at all?

dream is the only place I have left
to meet you and laugh with you
so I'd rather sleep as long as I can
than staying awake and living life without you

swore yourself to another girl
that she will be your precious pearl
but if one day you look over your shoulder
it is my name you ever love in every letter

Sometimes a surface could
seems so cold and rough
with all the haunting past
and the demand to fake laugh
but if you'd take a long walk
on its wishful path
you'd find yourself lost
inside a pretty sunflower field
with all its warmth
you've always wanted to feel
along with the love
you thought wasn't real

do you see me in your room?
laying there with smiles that bloom
do you see me in your car?
sitting next to you, never too far

my eyes swim through our photographs today
wondering why our happiness did not stay
tonight I will sleep wearing your white shirt
dreaming of your memories until they don't hurt

Pardon my idle thumbs
I cannot stop them from typing your name
on my phone screen and pressing
the dial button

midnight flashes with memory,
teardrops fell like a necessity
I'm dying for help, can't you see?
nobody here could save me
but you and you and you only

To be in love with him is to have
that feeling when I'm so high
all of my senses are escalating
and it's like I suddenly have this
bad idea by inventing my emotions
just to be able to keep him beside me
maybe because he has this odd ability
to make me see the bold yellow
hanging in the air coming from
the sound of his laughter
that keeps telling me to hold on

he stood so close to me, asking
"what are you thinking? tell me"
my heart skipped a beat
cause he often questioned me,
stared with his beautiful eyes
as if he could hear my brain
screaming his name and love
in one simple line

And after we fell,
Still you point us
As another mistake

Be my guest and tell me
How am I suppose to
Forget the sweet taste
Of sugar by eating
Chocolate?

Hello Mr. Moon
Ah, you're out of my reach
Yet I'm glad to know
That you're burning up
Above me, watching me
Tho the clouds sometimes
Overshine your light
But will you kiss me
A secret about
How to stop
Counting teardrops
When you're high?

I've always been the Queen to his bed
the ache that swollen in his chest
where he engraved my first name like vow
and called out his whole as mine
so that I'd remember to return back
to the castle inside his cloud nine
that way I know I am never alone
for I have his last name to speak for my own

I promise to remember all the laughters you've given me.
From that faithful night where I found love from our first kiss in 2014
to the moment it puts a smile on my face and stabs my chest at the same time today.
Never had I really quit asking why I walked away and why you let me.
If you ever read this, know that you are still the warrior of my heart's battlefield.
The one beautiful art which I carved with my tears.
The muse behind every lines of my poetry.

*And the love I love beyond love ever allowed to love.

his heart is the present
that's wrapped beautifully
with tenderness and tragedy
and I am celebrating
my birthday everytime
he opens his mouth
saying he loves me

He used to repeat
His silly bed story
About a singing bunny
Before I fell asleep
He was as protective
As a fortress
But inside those walls
Flew hundreds of fireflies
And beautiful flowers
From sweat and broken bones
Made for his little princess
Needless to say
He is the only man
Who created permanent
Heartbreak
To my fragile heart

It was never my intention to unlove you
since I swore to do so my whole life
but it was my choice to leave you
so it is your right to love another
is it not, my dear?

I live, I breathe
I laugh everyday
but I cry each night
with the hope to return
to the almighty God
and I wake up each morning
with the realization that
I have no capability to see
my beloved mum, dad
and my kind brother
and I walk around
seeing the sun and the moon
switch places as always
with the fear at some point
the people whom I love
so very much stop inhaling
the air forever, again

She hummed heaven's song
When the sun rose
And hushed her love
When the sun set
She was the best episode
Of my 20 years movie
She was the comforting shadow
Below the trees
She was my safe place
To any danger that might be
I always reminisce about her
In too many ways there are
If time could heal
Then I wish not to feel
Anymore tears
And the wound in my heart
Remain still
For it is half of my soul
She steals

chin up, dressed up, show up
remember that single is enough
and double is somehow too much

always put my guard high;
love myself first, then give others
some of my love, just some of it

keep in mind that falling in love
only makes me weak
and weakness ruined my smile
so I have decided to fall for me

yes, people are nice but hey
it doesn't mean I have to
give them the key to my castle
cause I am mature enough
to use my brain more than
my worn out heart

and I only need myself
inside my heart

you ******* my world up and turned
you chose not to do what I asked
you always took me for granted
you never let me win over her
but
you were all I cannot live without
you made me laugh the hardest
you held me like I belong there
you loved me hard, you did try
and
I love you, I love us
I still do
but what is love again?
it's just a myth, my darling

To cherish every dark sides
To uphold your pride
To be kind in weakness
To smile in sadness
And to love very deeply
With every drop of blood
That runs within my veins

And I meant all of them in an equal measure

point out my shame, I'm to blame
for I give away my heart easily
now I got nothing inside my chest
but negativity

it's true that my lungs tightened up
filled with butterflies and flowers
when you put a perfect curve on your lips
and you know, you know I'm in love
but what you don't know is;
I've been in love just like this before
and before, he crushed me
cause he knocked and I let him in
now
now it won't happen again
I will never let you in

I have written hundreds of poetry
with sea of hope to the crying stars
but my pen is still bleeding words
that never seem good enough to tell you;
to make you believe—
to help you understand
how much you mean to me
nor to hold you close,
to keep you
from walking out the door

There was a time when words
Inside my head poured for you
They’re creating your form
Like beautiful constellations
But you said that you have dyslexia
And refuse to read them through and through
The next thing I know
I stopped writing for you
Now I am ripping those pages
Just like you tore your promises
I am now writing a new book
With his heart as the cover look

No, I won't forgive you
Nor forget about how good we were
No, you are not sorry
Nor even get to think you should apologize
No, I don't hate you
Nor have the desire to even look at you
No, you cannot speak my name
Nor get to miss a single thought about me


The last thing you can do to me
is to be vanished from my life
and let me get the happiness
you chose not to give me

I thought sleeping
Is the only passage
To the world
Without your existence
But here you are
Inside my dream
Hugging me tight
Giving another shot
To change me and you
Into us
And I pray
Not to see the daylight
Until reality forces me
To live my nightmare
All over again

thinking back now
you are gone, now
no more birthdays to celebrate
no more parties to cheer on
no more jokes to laugh at
together with you
no more you
no more me too

No sound is needed
To hear you declaring your love
When your fingers are writing
Poetry on my naked back

No phrase is needed
To understand that you're missing me
When I can feel your presence
In the heat of the sun and rain

No sight is needed
To see how much you care
When it's my neck and cheek
You snuggle like reading braille

Iloveyou, baby
And I'm happy that we're happy

deep inside my soul
I can hear the voice breaking vaguely
along with something I finally
realize within me

there are billion stars on the ground
with stars I meant people who work hard
from daylight until midnight
also faces I pass through everyday and night

but there won't be another hands
that feels as gentle as his holding to me
there won't be another heart
which can carry mine so dearly

and there won't be another man
whom I love this much again
there definitely no other
he is the only one

sometimes when he's in the middle of talking
an "i love you" slips out of each breathing

it's also impossible to repressed the feeling
to kiss his forehead when he's smiling

when he hugs me, my heart is shaking
and the bottom of my throat is squeezing

if this is what they called falling
why does it feels a lot more like flying?

sometimes when he's in the middle of talking
an "i love you" slips out of each breathing

it's also impossible to repressed the feeling
to kiss his forehead when he's smiling

when he hugs me, my heart is shaking
and the bottom of my throat is squeezing

if this is what they called falling
why does it feels a lot more like flying?

we fight over the smallest thing;
like how I love Ovomaltine
and he thinks Nutella is better
I treat him like a disappointment
while he acts like I don't matter
I am always so close to tears
and he's so close to the edge
what's odd is this;
every morning, I still wake up
with his arms wrapping me
and whenever he knows I move,
he tightening up his hug
as if he won't let me walk away
so I stay

lead the way, my darling
down to hell and suffering
I won't feel anything
cause you're that something

but no lies can make everything's fine
and it is my trust you spilled like wine
now it's the right time for you to fear
cause you ****** me up big time, my dear

I feel cheated, you're so unfair
you speak so little with words like you don't care
but the way you softly give kisses to my face
says a lot of how much you want to crush me in your embrace

My first love, May
Gave me the first kiss
My bittersweet love, June
Gave me the time
My quicksand love, August
Gave me the knowledge
And my only love, April
Oh, my dearest number four
For him, I'd give away my soul
Without him giving me
Anything at all

when I rest within his hug,
I knew there were too many girls
who were held inside these arms
one, two, three, four, five, six, seven
too many of them
and while he's losing count,
I am losing confidence
because I might end up forgotten
just as easy as those numbers

One of the angel came
in the October
the one with fair skin
and hair of amber
glows like stars
with wings of a dreamer
golden Autumn eyes
bright like Summer
captivating kiss
nothing else sweeter
the thief of my heart
my only lover

Now I just come to realize
that he is the entire movie
and the rest are advertisements
but wait
I think he's feeling
the exact same thing
*about her

holding on to each other like braids
tiring day for both you and I fades
my hair was a set of obstacle
but you oddly looked like a miracle
boy you're so special
let me be your favorite gal
like that old cute spouse
like Minnie to Mickey mouse
I'm pathetically in love with you
now tell me a lie that sounds so true

One look into my eyes
And flowers grow inside my head
One friction from your skin
And nothing else feels so true
One kiss to my cheek
And all my demons vanished into sand