And I'd continue to reminisce
how the sun bends down
towards your night sky eyes
as they stare deeply into mine
while you were arching your body
at 5.14 pm, to kiss me—repeatedly

since this will be the last time,
do me a favor;
tell me you love me
put your whole heart in it
and scream the sentence gently
until I can hear the lie
echoes louder than any truth
I wish not to believe in

I am covering my tears
behind the night sky
just to smile beside you
before saying goodbye

billion blinks with each breathing,
thousand crossroads to nothing
are the dots of questions in my life
and with just one millisecond
of your voice saying "hi"
in that cafe on Tuesday night
I am able to create one beautiful line

Listen to me when I say this
Come close and let me whisper a wish
Let my breathe make you shiver
Cause I'll say something sweet and bitter

Listen to me, hear every word
For my line will be sharp like a sword
Let me speak about it once a day
Cause I know it's something you won't say

"I know you want to stay, don't sway
Try harder and color the gray
Darling this could be our final bay
And if you trust me—we will be okay"

Yes, I am walking on the sidewalk
It is safer that way
I no longer grasping for your hand
It is out of my reach
I think I'm suffering from amnesia
Your face seems unknown
And I'm incapable to recognize love
Love itself is too elusive

No, it's okay
Just let me walk away
Don't feel bad
You only make me sad
And it's not like you've ever
*Demand me to stay

Oh boy, that schmuck
looked unbelievably gorgeous
in that blue ocean cardigan
I gave him
and I absentmindedly gave him
a deep long kiss
when he visited me last night
.
.
.
.
in my dream

In the most connotative way
he kisses my red nose
and surprises me with the fact
that I actually have options
to stare out at the cold hope
*or to make him my full stop

It was the color of your bedside lamp that paints the room just the same
when I am seeing you lay there on the bed watching Manchester United game
and when I move my leg inside the blanket we share to keep you tight
you'd give me that "I am here" smile and kiss my forehead goodnight
then when the morning knocks, I will find you still counting sheep
and I will find myself exhumed by the whisper of your sleep

If you cannot stop the earth from traveling around the sun,
don't expect me to stop revolving myself time and again
—in many instances—from you

Bad dreams stole the love you have for me piece by piece until you frown
Good dreams kidnapped your stranded body to the arms of a face unknown

There there my darling open your heavy eyelids to me
No more running around inside the compelling dreams where you cannot see
I will design your reality to be worth living than whatever dreams may be
With laughter as the original soundtrack and both of us as the main casts
where myself as a whole is meant to return to your rib cage
and when the time is properly given to stitch up the wounds I made

When you're with me, I can hear my heart
whispering comfort by its tender beat
synchronizing the rhyme of your words
when you're repeating "I love you" to me
When I'm with you, I found out that
the point of my whole existence is to
spend the rest of them answering
"I love you too"—out loud—to you

You can call me blind
but the only light I can see
shining from within thee
You can call me deaf
but the only melody I can hear
pulsing from your body right here

I can run, I can hide, I can sew lies
telling myself we are over, over, over
but I cannot forsake the gravity
that keeps pulling me to fall for you
over and over and over again

it's amazing to know that
he is in the same space as i am

because whenever he's near
all of my doubts disappear
and the air around me glows
as if all the stars gather their lights
pointing at him creating rainbow

and when he pulls me closer
I can feel his love spoiled out from his fingers
he is the only man who makes me tremble
trembling out of happiness and laughter

You're the kind of addiction
I continue to inject to my vein
without having a single ****
about how I'll be in total pain
when you're done taking what i give
and leaving me nothing to gain

Time moves so slow
If only you know
I'm going below
And my pride is ready to blow

I will tell you tomorrow
When my tears stop flow
Cause my heart is yours to borrow
Under this fair sky we glow

Darling, I will love you,
Until you don't know any sorrow
Until the light casts no shadow
And the sun is no longer yellow

The one thing you probably don't realize
is that when you decided to chose yourself
above us—what we had and what we were
I forced myself to choose me, too
and when I did, I was crawling above the damages
of what remains from our love
step by step until I break
cause baby we both know for sure
that if we stay 'friends' or whatever you call it
I'll be the only person who's irrationally staying in love
and you won't give a **** about that
Funny, we are a pair of selfish people
who's saving ourselves by hurting others
yet we're unable to stay together

The kind of yielding warmth from your kiss
is the kind of paradise I never want to miss

As much as I know
That he loves me
Yet his silence is colder
Than an iceberg can be
And sometimes
Silence is
A horrible ferocity

I was holding on his rough hand
as if I'm reading the map of his journey
I was looking inside his eyes
that vividly lead me to the world unknown

I was quietly asking for his warmth
and he was gently granting my wish
whilst covering me like blanket
his perfume lingers until I fell asleep

To him
I am just
A discolor forest
A vulnerable mountain
A singing bird
In the golden cage
To me
He is
The sweet venom
The tragic mystery
The universe
I can never get
Enough of
To discover

I don't want anyone
to see through my picture gallery
cause they might see the things
and the people
*I'm afraid losing

I remember you
The perpetual dream of my every wish
The sweet scent of the rain
The fallen angel who eases my nightmare

With every heat of the sun
Every cold side of the moon
It is my name you inhale
And yours I chant

Remember me
The feeling of your first kiss
The tenderness of warm blanket
The demon who plays well with yours

Peaceful sunrise entered the window
As morning poke his heavy eyes
I lay my right hand on his left cheek
But he moved it to his ear without a peek
Then he says under one's breath,
"It feels like I could close my eyes. Stop hearing the world's noises. And all the problems will disappear. Because I am here—With you"

He lights up my head
with curse and demon
he makes me say things
we both know I don't mean
I'll shout "I hate you"
I'll scream "I'm leaving you"
The he does that silly smile
hugs me and put both hands
on my cheeks
blows away my anger
with one whisper to my mouth
saying "I love you" on them
and he'll continue
until we taste pink
out of the red lipstick
he ruins

Have some patience
I know they hurt you
but I am trying to stitch them
with my shades of true

and please remember
I have my scars too
for the wound you made
still give me pain

Now will you plaster mine?
or are we going to keep
opening them and watch
each other bleed?

Please promise me
That you will embrace
The life you're having now;
The journey that creates
You

Please let me kiss you
Like raindrops when I am near
And listen to them speaking
"You're perfect for me"

Please feel how I wipe
Your weariness with giggles
And how I ******
Your flaws with my thumb

Please choose to remember
That I am in love with you
And that is the absolute truth
You could ever know

He is colder than the winter snow
But has the warm autumn smile
To glance at him is to be lost
In his mysterious dark eyes
He loves rain and finds solitude
Being alone in the forrest
Probably that's why he hates
How I make too much noise
His words makes so much scars
But his touch heals my darkest sides
Despite all that he does, all that he is,
If I have to describe him as a whole
—He is heartbreakingly beautiful

I wish
the morning kisses we share on Saturdays and Sundays
will be able to be spend on the rest of our everyday
the goodnight calls before we fall asleep
will turn to warm hugs while we're counting sheep

I hope
our love story along with its tide of time
will become the unison in our prime
our trust for each other that we have sown
will change into my wedding gown

That one person
who is able to make
your past stays
*in the past

though we can never be
you have claimed
the most lovely place
inside of me

"you're pretty" he said
"I am aware of that" I answered

with my pretty face, I made him turn his
like he's under a spell, his eyes will follow mine
but I hope he'd see what hides deep inside;
look at my heavy luggage and help me unpack them
by then, I wonder if he'd still staring at me
and if he does, in return, I promise to treat him likewise

there's a room I left empty
but full of your memory
in that room I see a door
it's unlock but what for?
I'm imprisoned for life
a prisoner of your love

From all the actions
I always put away
moving on from you is
my favorite delay

Force me to be yours
no matter how angry I'll become
Scream to me how perfect I am for you
even if that's a total lie
Bite my lower lip until it turned purple
and let me curse you for that
Open up both my legs, pin me to the wall,
and **** me hard
Grab me by my waist and hug me
until my chest feels like cracking
Then
Sleep with me until the dawn is breaking
breathe on my neck and tell me how much you love me

have you ever know somebody too well
you even recognize their footsteps sound?
how those thumps match your heartbeat
as the person walks towards your feet
and the moment his skin touches yours,
you remember why you are made for

he brushes
my hair
and I knead
like a cat

I'll tell you what's funny
it is when you look at me
and have no idea whatsoever
that you put my heart on a race
where it keeps pulsing restlessly
but never reach the first place

habisnya seluruh suara
lenyap ditelan Samudra
bersembunyi di ujung lidahku
satu lautan cinta untuk kamu

ngga akan aku ucapkan
kamu ngga perlu tau

cuddling inside the blanket
while the rain sings over the rooftop
is a lovely thing we should do
but don't you think listening to me
shouting back to the thunder;
yelling your name with pleasure
while my feet on your shoulder
is better?

he pulls my hair
and strangles my neck
forcefully shoving his
inside mine
in every chance he has
simply cause I shout;
"**** me"

Because I am madly in love
with the angel I found
within his **demon

I will allow them to cut my veins
and bleed me dry
while I feel the pain rushing
down my cheeks
but I will use my blood and tears
to paint my victory red
on their skin

just like that
you jumped off the edge
crossing every red lines I drew
when I said I gave up on you

I saw you broke your own borders
cause you wanted to try harder;
you need to dive into my heart properly
so that I can see how much you love me

though he stares into my eyes
never he finds everything
he's looking for
in me

I wish he does
I wish he does

Never before I feel so desperately weak
when you raised your tone with a voice so bleak
that was the moment I am certain of one thing
I need to be closer to you
badly, so badly, very badly
and I wanted to be forgiven wholeheartedly

I died
right there and then
in the most vicious manner
with every touch she crafted on his skin
and every smile she formed to his lips
she mutilated me—sliced my body
and took away the happiness in me
I was buried inside the coffin
of their screaming memory
and I yelled back in agony

then he ran to me
pulled my soul with powerful force
of his convincing gravity
he resuscitated what she stole
and returned my heart to a whole

even if I knew how this ends,
I'd still jump, I'd still fall
I'd still love you until I bawl
cause I swear
everything you are
is worth the repetition

cause you granted her EVERYTHING I have always wishing you for

the void in my heart
glows as if fireflies are dancing
along with how you sing me
all the things I want to hear