Makenzie Marie: Poems

May 2019 · 69

The day I see you can’t come soon enough.

Makenzie Marie May 2019

The day I see you can’t come soon enough.

Today I wore your cologne
And it smelled like home.

May 2019 · 416

You are not the same

Makenzie Marie May 2019

You are not the same

I’ve never known a love like this
No lying
Or cheating
And no emotional beatings
Manipulation
Or pain
Or anything for his gain.
I could
Make a list
Of how with you exists
None of this.
With you
It’s so much of the opposite.
Truth
And trust
You’re given to me as stardust
I’m Adored
valued
You are teaching me how to
Let go
And hope
And you’re willing to take it slow
Show me
Patience
Showing me your dedication
Until I fell
For sure
You caught me with your allure
I love you
My dear
All I want is to keep you near
Forever
With you
Just seems like the right thing to do

I’ve never known a love like this
And I intend to keep it.

#love #hope #trust #falling #patience #change #dedication #stardust #allure

Apr 2019 · 2.0k

Amygdala

Makenzie Marie Apr 2019

Amygdala

Your cologne is on my shelf
So at least I don’t have to miss your smell

#sensory #memory #smell #love #him #cologne #longing #missing

Apr 2019 · 81

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Makenzie Marie Apr 2019

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And I can still smell a hint of you
Laying in my sheets,
And imagine you’re next to me

And so I bury my face
Reminiscing
And hope you’re also missing me.

And I can still dig into my closet
thankfully
And pull out your (my) favorite hoodies.

And Your toothbrush is still on my sink
And I can still feel your arms around me
And I can still smell you next to me

Apr 2019 · 159

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Makenzie Marie Apr 2019

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Are you thinking of me, too?
I’m laying awake
Slivers of moonlight
Whispering
As they intrude
And all I can think about is you.

Mar 2019 · 1.2k

I like this timeline.

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

I like this timeline.

Last night
Holding me tight
He whispered
“You want to keep me?”
Yes, always.
“I guess I’d better get you a ring.”
I smile
Trying to hide what I’m thinking.
That this is terrifyingly exciting.

#timeline #love #excitement #engagement #imminent #future #relationships #marriage

Mar 2019 · 570

That same song was playing

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

That same song was playing

I was caught in your eyes
Staring at the 3am sky
Watching the snow.
Listening to your voice
So full
Of love and passion
Watching you smile in the most you-ish fashion.
My drink got cold
And I hadn’t a care in the world.

#love #experience #breathe #snow #nightowls #alive

Mar 2019 · 222

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Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

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It’s hard to admit
I’m this in love with you.
Under the surface, fearing
It’s too good to be true.
And you are so good
How could I not be?
And when I consider it
It’s easy to admit...
How I love you.

#love #conflicted #selfdeception #honesty #acceptance #happiness

Mar 2019 · 179

It takes more.

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

It takes more.

Love
Sometimes
Is not enough.

#love #work #growth #choice

Mar 2019 · 308

Praying

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

Praying

Some nights
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
And in His mercy,
let me die as I sleep.

But instead
He fills me with His view of reality
And in His mercy
He brings me His peace.

#praying #hoping #fearing #mercy #depression #god #peace

Mar 2019 · 289

Sometimes you’re better off alone.

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

Sometimes you’re better off alone.

You can love someone with your whole being.
But if they don’t bring you peace
Or offer the most important things
You’ll be left longing.

But Hold to your hope
Don’t let go
You deserve someone who makes you more
Than who you are alone
More
Of who you are at your core.

You deserve a home
Without a hole.
So if you’re missing something,
That isn’t coming,
Maybe It’s time to let go.

#let #go #change #relationships #imperfect #missing #love #home

Mar 2019 · 262

I believe in who you are.

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

I believe in who you are.

No matter what’s in store
Never stop becoming
Who you are at your core.

#hope #growth #positivity #happiness #self #actualization

Mar 2019 · 271

Keep growing, always

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

Keep growing, always

Are you sure
You want to keep me?

I nod my head,
Happily.

I want to keep
Who you’re becoming.

You are the one
I’ll never stop loving.

#love #safety #growing #progress #growth #loving #hoping #forever #eternity

Mar 2019 · 166

dam(n)

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

dam(n)

Floodgates
(Safety)
Holding back the feeling
A shift
in the wind
Turns to overflowing
The Pain,
Leaving me reeling...

#floodgates #pain #love #fear #hurt #hope #confusion

Mar 2019 · 241

On a smooth sea

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

On a smooth sea

We were sailing to eternity
When you turn to tell me
There’s a hole in the hull...
(“I didn’t mean to, honestly,”
You plead).
our ship is flooding quickly
And the reel is struggling
To maintain stability.

S.O.S.
Save me
From this feeling,
I’m drowning.

#drowning #fear #ocean #sailing #eternity #forever #love #failing

Mar 2019 · 209

A change in the wind, maybe.

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

A change in the wind, maybe.

You treat me better
Than I’ve ever known
But just yesterday
A new seed was sewn
Your personal fears,
They became my own.

#fear #anxiety #insecurity #relationships #love

Mar 2019 · 417

Open up, please.

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

Open up, please.

I love you
To Hell and back
But when you do this to me
Unintentionally
You strike a personal attack
Caused by a simple lack
Of communicating feeling.

#fight #argument #distrust #insecurity #fear #love #forgiveness #growth

Mar 2019 · 198

What does it take to forgive, God?

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

What does it take to forgive, God?

Father,
I know you’re listening:
Please, lift me.

Hosanna
Blessed are Ye.
Please, save me.

#faith #pleading #prayer #forgiveness #hope #love

Mar 2019 · 170

Good intentions

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

Good intentions

You didn’t intend to do this
But you know what they say
About the road to hell.
And it’s full of near misses.

#love #fear #mistrust #intentions #plans

Mar 2019 · 190

it didn’t mean anything.

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

it didn’t mean anything.

Will I ever be able to trust you again
If admitting what you did
Was not in your plan?

#honesty #lying #mistrust #secrets

Mar 2019 · 121

This isn’t what they meant by sharing is caring.

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

This isn’t what they meant by sharing is caring.

You use that tone with me
Or do these things to me
Because you’re hurting
Over something
That isn’t me.
You’re “just saying”
But as a result I’m paying
For your insecurities
That you’re passing on to me.

#insecurity #fear #love

Mar 2019 · 184

Triggerwarning

Makenzie Marie Mar 2019

Triggerwarning

I could fight to be strong
Be patient
Until one of my Diagnosis
Decides to take me.
Or I could just take control
and do it myself

Can’t decide which will win out.

Feb 2019 · 443

I love the feeling of your words, whispered in my ears.

Makenzie Marie Feb 2019

I love the feeling of your words, whispered in my ears.

When you whisper to me
The word “forever,”
My heart melts
And still races, somehow—
Doublethink.
And I agree,
Forever sounds perfect to me.

#forever #love #patience #doublethink #doublespeak #keep #me #staying #growing #perfect

Feb 2019 · 168

Stay, okay?

Makenzie Marie Feb 2019

Stay, okay?

He whispers
I am so in love with you
I didn’t know it was possible to be so in love,
But I am so in love with you
And I don’t think I could live
without you.
I don’t ever want to live without him.

#stay #happiness #love #future #forever

Feb 2019 · 274

Your presence is captivating

Makenzie Marie Feb 2019

Your presence is captivating

In your arms I find home
And in your skin I wish I could burrow.
In your chest hair I weave my fingers
In your legs I tangle mine.
And when you leave, the feeling lingers
And the warmth left by you
Is like the moment my skin feels the sunshine.

#sunshine #love #life #morning #time #growth #simplicity

Feb 2019 · 272

You’re so different from anything I’ve ever known.

Makenzie Marie Feb 2019

You’re so different from anything I’ve ever known.

In your arms I find my home
And a warmth I’ve never known
No cruelty
No harsh words
No excuses from my mouth
No worrying what others heard.
No guilting me for doing nothing wrong
Only support
Only lifting me
Only love
Only hope
Only trust
Only never giving up.
Only this moment
Only, these moments, forever.

#love #change #growth #hope #happiness #blessings #trust #support

Jan 2019 · 179

I’m broken and if it’s too much I wouldn’t blame you for leaving.

Makenzie Marie Jan 2019

I’m broken and if it’s too much I wouldn’t blame you for leaving.

I’m sorry for being too much
And I don’t deserve to feel like too much
But I do
And it has very little to do with you
Your only choice is if you want to help me believe differently.

#broken #hurt #sorry

Jan 2019 · 1.4k

Forever, I believe.

Makenzie Marie Jan 2019

Forever, I believe.

Sometimes I think
This must be too good to be
True, but I hope that’s just anxiety speaking

Because you’re someone I want to keep

#love #i #you #keep #me #forever #marry #hopeful #altruism #fear

Jan 2019 · 638

I’ve said it enough times but I Love You.

Makenzie Marie Jan 2019

I’ve said it enough times but I Love You.

I think
I am going to marry you.
And that in itself is poetic enough for me.

#marry #me #i #love #you #happiness #bliss #future #hope #alruistic

Jan 2019 · 259

I’m sorry for something.

Makenzie Marie Jan 2019

I’m sorry for something.

I try to find the words
But not even you could
As we sat in silence
Sighing. Realizing
We don’t have it down to a science.
Somethings wrong
That we should be able to fix
But we can’t find it
Because you don’t know what it is.

#love #trials #questions #confusion #discomfort #mistakes #lost #stay

Jan 2019 · 254

In Your Arms.

Makenzie Marie Jan 2019

In Your Arms.

Keep me
Please
And never release.

#love #happy #hopeful

Dec 2018 · 100

Hopefully you believe me

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

Hopefully you believe me

I love you so much
And I promise
I’ll do everything in my power
not to ***** this up.

Dec 2018 · 245

Guilty

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

Guilty

I have never regretted something so much as the moment I realized I betrayed your trust.

#guilt #sorry #realization #hypocrite

Dec 2018 · 244

My heart feels full

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

My heart feels full

I whispered
“I love you”
And he smiled,
(The kind of smile
That drives me
To drive miles and miles
Just to see.
The kind of smile
That could drive me wild)
“I love you too”

#love #new #falling #happiness #peace #safety #wild

Dec 2018 · 368

This is healing.

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

This is healing.

Loving
And being truly loved in return,
A warm kindling of a fire,
Is such a different feeling
Compared to the inorganic
slow burn
Of a lighter
Held to your heart
(Don’t panic)

#healing #fire #happiness #love #burning #kindling #growing #understanding

Dec 2018 · 121

A score played in the background.

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

A score played in the background.

“You’re like a movie”
He tells me.
And butterflies rise in my belly
Whoever wrote this screenplay,
Created it perfectly,
Babe.

Dec 2018 · 821

I hate the pictures that you love— they aren’t perfect.

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

I hate the pictures that you love— they aren’t perfect.

You love me
In my natural state
Undone
A mess
And in that you see beauty.
It’s such a dream,
To me at least.

#love #happiness #perfect

Dec 2018 · 203

Muse

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

Muse

I never wrote
happy poems

(And even if I could,
They weren’t any good.)

But with you,
I do.

#muse #happy #love #happiness #peace #clarity

Dec 2018 · 209

Your patience still speaks to me

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

Your patience still speaks to me

My heart was ice
But I met you
Before I was ready
And patiently, you
Waited for my availability
I kept hold
Of all the cold
Until I chose
To let go
And let you in
To melt what had frozen,
And you were there for all of it.

#patience #hope #waiting #frozen #winter #cold #love

Dec 2018 · 179

Winter with you

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

Winter with you

Foreheads close
And noses cold.
Your love reached in
And warmed my soul.

#love #warmth #winter #peace #comfort

Dec 2018 · 188

I couldn’t lie to you.

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

I couldn’t lie to you.

And I leaned into your ear
And I whispered
‘Just in case you didn’t hear
When I said it before
I want to make it clear

I love you.’

#love #i #you #new

Dec 2018 · 120

First I told you on accident.

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

First I told you on accident.

I stopped myself a hundred times.
Covered up my love with a lid
But on accident,
Out it tipped, and slipped
Like warm honey.

We were taking about damage that had been done to us and you asked me not to tell you that I loved you(while I was thinking it). I won’t ask if you believe me.

#love

Dec 2018 · 334

In the Spaces.

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

In the Spaces.

Can you feel it
Hanging in the spaces
Between our exchanges?

I hope you do,
I’m trying
To show you,
I love you

#love #patience #trying #learning

Dec 2018 · 614

If you’re always testing me, I fear I’ll always fail.

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

If you’re always testing me, I fear I’ll always fail.

You ask me not to tell you
So I will show you.

Continually proving myself
It’s a test
I hope I pass it.

And every time I fail you
I hope that you don’t doubt the truth

I love you.

I am afraid that I am not enough.

#fear #trust #hope #trying #love #failure #proof

Dec 2018 · 366

Am I doing enough?

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

Am I doing enough?

I love you
I love you
I love you.

Please believe me.
I won’t say it but I hope you see it.

#love #trying #proving #hoping

Dec 2018 · 194

I must’ve popped a stitch...

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

I must’ve popped a stitch...

I’m sorry
for bleeding
on you, my sweet,
When you didn’t even cut me.

#hurt #pain #apology #heartache #trust #insecurity #fear #learning #hope #love

Dec 2018 · 541

I only want you happy.

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

I only want you happy.

Why is you feeling bad or guilty
Paramount to me feeling
like you don’t care about me?

Even for a moment
Even when it’s insignificant

(Pleasesupportme)

But I will swallow my pain
As always, again.

I will choke on my anxiety
So you can never say “you hurt me”

Those words break me
More than anxious thoughts screaming.

I will learn to conquer my anxiety
so that I can bring you peace.

#anxiety #compromise #insecurity #hurt #trust #sacrifice #learning #love

Dec 2018 · 337

Fog, and Clarity

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

Fog, and Clarity

Driving though snow
Makes me think
Of you and me
It brings me peace
Makes me happy
But I can only see so far in front of me.
So we’ll both have to be trusting
And drive carefully.

#trust #faith #love #falling #winter #snow #fog #fear

Dec 2018 · 295

Thanks for leaving

Makenzie Marie Dec 2018

Thanks for leaving

I am more whole than you ever made me.

#healing #whole #strong #happy #heartbreak #growth #change

Nov 2018 · 333

For The Onlookers

Makenzie Marie Nov 2018