The bright ray of the sun
enters through our window
landed directly at your face
unveiling a beauty that captured my eyes
as you slowly wake up from your slumber
I get to catch a glimpse
of what I'll wake up to for the next days of my life
and what my arms will embrace
when darkness falls upon us.

You, my love
a chunk of the endless afterlives I'll take
where my soul wanders the plain
and search even for a hint
of your existence.
My body, like a built in memory foam
that remembers every corners
you placed your flesh onto
and hoping for you to arrive
ready for a home that only craves for you.

Grant me a wish,
Oh God divine and true
for the lover I swear to love,
To have and to hold,
I wish for a road
that in every after life we'll face,
no matter how long it'll take,
how rough it'll be,
she'll find me on that road
waiting
for me to hold her once more

What if we met early
Two souls
Destined to be in a train station
At 9 am
me,
knowing how I fell for your eyes
Fell once more
In a less heart broken time

What if we met
In a bar alley
when your interests
matches mine
we danced the night away
not as lovers
but strangers
that are  four swipes
late from tinder
To be something more
Than just a one night stand

What if this time
is the right time
How our scars
turn to lines
That form each others names
The words "I do"
begin to spill in our mouths
just waiting
for the right time

Take me back
not to undo my scars
but to learn more about myself
How to carry my own burden
to drown my sickness
before it drowns me

I wish I could go back
and redirect my life
back to when living was basic
and math was the only problem
with a solution

On a blank space
    you were like the color yellow
as bright as the sun
that we share in this lifetime
       In open arms
  You have held me
while I was feeling blue
    together my love
Our green minds
   Made love
and
created another masterpiece
in this canvas of life

Oh how people judge me so fast
when they knew
that I went to hell and back.
    Scent of burning rubber,
a shirt that's full of ash                       and the flames that light up my cigarette
   spoke the tales of me
going to hell and came back.

People fear what they can not fathom
and belittled a journey that I used to seek,
since they only lived a life
of *** and ***
a life so empty,
a life that's only to satisfy their lust and greed.

As I almost taste the hope that I've been craving,
I smiled with broken teeth and
a broken spine from carrying
all of  the burden on my bag.
" God, bless my new beginnings,
I thank you for guiding me through the gates of hell
and
never wanting me
to go back."

I don't want to be just a happy pill

or something that gives you euphoria

love is more than smiles and ***

the older you get the painful it is to know

So let me be the painkiller to every battle scar you have

The nicotine to your cigarette as it embraces your lungs more than I can

In a way where love can always be found
we need pain in order to know we are alive

The foe that strikes the hardest
is the one
that lives underneath your skin
and there
you are vulnerable
and there you will feel
the paranoia
of facing the hidden enemy

I love the rain,
   when it blows a chilly air
   that makes you hold me even tighter,
as you fall asleep
from the coldness
that goes with the rain,
I get the chance to look at you,
beautiful and imperfectly perfect
just the way God intended
for a man like me.
For the weather was on my side,
it poured even heavier
and as you wake up from the sound
I prayed for you to stay even longer.

I hate the rain
when I'm all alone,
the empty side of the bed
gets cold faster,
I tried to embrace the softest pillows
or even cover myself
with the warmest of blankets
but not of them
can make me feel the comfort
that you provided
whenever you're around  
and
I guess love has it's way of telling you
that you've found home
between her arms.

Let me take you there
to the place you felt peace
Where you can rest your heart
and to share your vows

With every step we take
My heart finally realized
what my eyes cannot see
That you were once mine
But will forever be his

For my love was the ruler
Her hands were the walls
that covers my agony.
She was my queen of hearts
And she fell in love
With the joker
An extra in the card
But will always be
In the deck of life

How can I outrun it?
If it gets faster with every encounter
as it catches up it'll slow your pace
you'll see the world slower
and leeches on to your stamina that keeps you going further.
Slowly reaching your shoulder
trying to get a grasp of what carries the weight of your burden
tipping away it's balance
it hopes that you'll tumble
It's whispers will make you tremble
and once it outruns you
weakening both mind and muscle
everytime it moves forward
the deeper you'll sank
at the rubble

They told me there's a light brighter
than the stars

I didn't know it was you and your good heart

If she's happy
I'll smile to that
for all the misery I weighed on her shoulder
it's time for her to let loose .

Love may or might be
a closest thing to reach heaven
yet here I am
wondering the widest road
to get her close once more .

I know she won't make you wipe her tears away
She's a woman that you dont need to worry
She'll make you think twice
before you even say sorry .

She's a keeper
yet I left her lonely
a broken heart for not choosing her
got me feeling blue
an ache I long subdue

I want your nails up in my back
as the mood intensifies
you'll scream more
in every muscle moving
as my lips pressed on your neck
in a bed we called paradise
The only heaven we won't share
and a perfect place where lovers
can hide