I must only dream
For I shall never see the gleam
Of a lovers face
Especially not one in my place
I am lonely
For I am the only
One without a pair
And no one cares
I cry at night
For my life is without a light
All night in bed
I dwell in my head
Watching the one
But in reality there is none
So wake me up when time ends
For I have no friends
And no love to share this life with
At the moment I think that’s all a myth
All love seems gone
Can someone prove me wrong?

We stared at the stars
For that was your home
You came from heaven
To dwell with me, a heathen

Why? I’ll never know.
But at the time I never wanted to go.
Then came a devil,
And I chaste her for she was on my level.

I know not why
I was so foolish to say goodbye!
I left you alone,
And now I’m skin and bone.

For in leaving you, my love.
I lost my life, now your above!
Do not accept me back,
For sense I do lack.

I now I know I was wrong
And now do sing this sorrowful song.
I seek your forgiveness,
Accept me not for I deserve the stillness.

So this is my recognition
Of my wretched condition.
Thank you for coming to the low,
And for the part of heaven you did show.

There are many times I wonder
Is there a reason for me to ponder,
The purpose of their action
Against me for some small fraction?
Were they down for something that took place
Or were they in pain over missing someone's face?
Could it be that I was wrong?
In that, I offended
The one who has now ended
the relationship that we once commended?

Is there a reason for them to hate me
Because of one of my tendencies?
For sad to say but I am rather quirky
And can be as stupid as a turkey
But does that give a reason for them to hate me?

Should I be in their place
And I could see my face
Would it be filled with pride
Like the rising of the tide?

Or if roles were switched
Would it be, that I was pitched
Against my friend
Would I think I had reason to seek to bend
And break a friend
Or would I seek to mend the rift
That now does make us drift apart
Like iceberg now ripped apart.

Oh wait there is someone knocking
At the door of my apartment
****, the curtain is now blocking
My view of them that is now standing
One moment I will return to writing
After I see this visiter, who comes knocking.

…………………………………………………………..

If you guessed it to be
My friend that I did see
Then you'd be right
And what a sight
They came and cried
And did apologize
For the words that did scrutinize
Me so harshly spoken
Just the other mornin.

So I guess one must wait and see
If I would do the same as she
who did so come
and apologize for what was done.

I am not
I am not
I am not
I am not
I am not
I am not
I am not
                         OR SO THEY THOUGHT
They nearly had me convinced
But then I tried
And found a different side
So from now on I'll always try
Even if I don't know why.

Help me I cry
Don’t leave me here to die
But they left me to lie
So goodbye
Tell my country I said hi
It was worth their freedom to die
Thy freedom is why
I did come here and sound the battle cry
Forget me not when you pass by
For my tomb is unmarked under the open sky
And thereby I'll never truly die
For I'll always be a passing memory to testify
Of all the names that were forgotten by and by

If I had a heart I could love you
But the one before you cut it out
Sew me up but you’ll find no pulse
That poor girl didn’t know
When she said, “its time for me to go”
She tore out the one heart that loved her
Now all the memories are just a blur
And when these new lovers come
I can’t help but be numb
For the life that was once there
Is now cold and bare
I’m sorry new lover
I just can’t discover
A way to replace the old heart
For it was ripped apart
By a girl who never new
That she killed me when away she away flew.