You and I were miles apart,
but connected through the stars.
I guess their lights must've burnt out
because now you're nothing but a memory
I sing to a empathetic tune on my guitars.

This universe is huge!
I mean MASSIVE!
The wonders of this world
are simply fantastic.

But you're the woman I find most attractive.
Since the moment I've met you,
You've held my heart captive.
So please don't stretch it,
it's not made of elastic.

Maybe It's an off day,
or maybe It's something more?
Maybe I'll go another year
without writing a word more.

I thought I was getting better,
maybe It's just the weather?
Maybe I'll never get it right,
but maybe I'll never pull it together.

Maybe we're on a break,
or maybe we're done forever.
So many questions
and my only response is "whatever".

I just want to be happy.
I just want to think clear.
I'm tired of living by a life or death choice.
I'm tired of living in fear.

A sunflower blooms during the first week of spring. Then a blast of cold air blows through, ruining everything.

I've never been so in love,
and I'm scared as all hell.
The last time this feeling came along
no one was there to catch me when I fell.

I'm down and out
spiraling in twists of fate.
It has me contemplating a date,
one I can no longer await.

So a sweet goodbye to a few,
and to some the finger is raised.
No more suicide these days,
but my time has come to go away.

Minimal bags packed,
and a ticket to somewhere unknown.
Somewhere no one knows the real me,
and where I can be alone.

At least for a bit.

           Until I have my mind figured out.

Running west is the only way to escape this black cloud.

                                                                                                  Mom, you
                                                                                                         should be
      
                                                                                                                  proud.

Baby, I adore you in a special kind of way;
where I only need to think of you
to know everything will be okay.

   You're my warm winter blanket,
even in the sweltering summer.
I was a blank coloring book before
and now you have filled me with color.

   I don't look at the world
the way I did before I met my girl.
  I've never admired the flowers
or soaked in the love of this world.

    You've made everything brighter,
and I don't know what to say.
       All I know is I just want you,
even on your rainy days.

When we met it was like a fourth of July event. You cared about my thoughts like someone paying four quarters for two cents.

And when we began to talk it was like two friends that haven't seen each other since their high school graduation, but we only knew each other for less than one of Earths rotations.

It took me 152 days to build up the courage and ask if I could make you mine. That smile you had when you said yes is still tracing around in my mind.

But how quickly love comes around just to be dismissed. The smallest things I did would get you overtly ******.

Though, I was supposed to forgive you cause you're excuse was you're a "classic *****"? Thinking back, I don't know why I didn't just quit.  

Because it was revealed that empty feelings and meaningless words were thrown around by you like a stone at two birds.

What really gets me is I was told I could once again trust literal moments before you turned those promises into dust.

You destroyed me and buried me alive. Then went and told me you're sorry while looking me in the eyes.

It's fine, I'm over it because my heart really belongs to someone better. Someone who still sees the beauty even in the bad weather.

So when you see me post "I miss her", don't be mistaken by thinking it's you because I never got over her, you were just a rebound that didn't come through.

Our words started to stutter,
and our lips began to quiver;
tears formed in our eyes,
enough to fill a river.

We couldn't say the right words,
but in that moment
no words could give us closure.
The silence spoke for us,
we both knew it was over.

Ignoring me is the worst thing you can do.
What's alarming is you know this too.
Yet, you still continue to read my texts and not reply;
Then make up an excuse, like I don't know it's a lie.

I supply your heart with the love you need,
but you keep me waiting on one knee.
Is it because you know i'll always come back?
Maybe I shouldn't have let you in on that fact.

So I'll wait a few weeks for you to reply,
and act like it's okay, even though that's a lie.
When will I ever speak up, and let you know the deal?
Probably never, and that's the problem; I don't think you care how I feel.

A shallow heart
gives her fresh cuts
with puffy red eyes,
and shattered trust.
The protective walls she once built
has just turned to dust.
Love comes wrapped in thorns,
especially when based on lust.

You turn my heart into a kick and snare drum beat.
You send a eurphoric sensation through my body from my head to my feet.
These butterflies are roaring like a lion in its den.
I believe every promise you make, I count on being with you until the end. So don't let me down, I can't take anymore broken promises.
All I ask from you is I give you love, and you give me honesty.

Mom

I love you so much, please have no doubt.
I know I've been a pain, but I don't blame you for a thing.
You did what was best, and I made you suffer.
In reality you're amazing, you're a mom like no other.
If I can be as half as strong as you, I'd be in disbelief.
And even when I was complaining, you still loved me.

No apology can *EVER  make up for what I've said.
But at least you can rest tonight with this in your head.
I have beyond the average amount of respect for you,
I'll never stop loving you. You're my mom, and you're my hero.

*I don't deserve you.

Today I cried for the first time in years.
Bawled my eyes out until I ran out of tears.
Every thing wrong in my life has finally caught up to me.
I let it all out, but somehow I still don't feel free.

My mind with my heart lay scattered in pieces,
and I'm reluctant to pick them up.
It's not because I wouldn't love to,
but whats the point? Since I've ran out of glue.

Don't hide behind the lies
when I know the truth.
If you keep hanging on
I'm gonna have to cut you loose.

I need to be healthy,
I need to fix me
and I cannot do that
when you're lying through your teeth.

I'm never giving up on you,
and why would I want to?
I'm not the one to profess my love and leave,
I'm more scared you would do that to me.

I fell many times
before you helped me back up.
So why in the hell
would I want to give you up?

So I don't plan on leaving,
I've never even thought about that day.
You got me for as long as you'd like,
I've always planned to stay.

Difficult,
heart breaking
full of sadness
endless glasses of scotch
and other hard liquors.

College makes me too tired
to write a poem.
Why am I going to college, again?

Her laugh paints a work of art more beautiful than Vango.
Her eyes twinkle like the stars over Rhone.
In her eyes, I get lost.
My breath is taken by her beauty.
Her cheeks are more red than a glistening ruby..

when I kiss her.

Gently she smiles,
kissing me back.
"I love you"
she says.

Three words I'll never forget.

I showcase you in my poetry,
I rant about you in my story.
You're the epicenter of my tragedy
because what happened to us is a travesty.

The past should be the past,
and you should be that.
Though, I want you to be my future.
I'm the hero, but without my villain, I'm not super.

You're inspirational
like the beauty of planet earth.
I believe we we're destined to meet
since the day of our birth.

I rant about you,
I write about us.
Our life story will be based on love,
unlike the others based on lust.

You sent a spark to my heart
and set a fire in my soul.
With you I'm not afraid of shattering
like the relationships of old.

Around you, the inspiration fills me up
like a candy dish before Halloween.
For once in my entire life
I feel like someone is the person for me.

I refuse to surrender,
To give you everything wouldn't be enough,
And I vow to fight for you until the day I die
Because your love is what makes me tough.

Your love keeps me going,
You're everything I wished for
from your flawless lips, to your caring core,
You're my dream girl, and I couldn't ask for more.
I don't want her, I want you, and only you,
and I'll prove it when I say the words "I do".

I love you.

Sonder beings pass me by.
A universe lived within each eye.
Chrysalism gives me life,
shut away in my own mind,
a loner is how I self describe.

You broke me down,
but I will rise above.
These days
you need strength to love.

Though...

how much strength
do I have left?
I continue to try,
and do my best.
But I'm not fit
to be apart of the rest.

That's the in crowd
with the long relations,
and the couples based off nothing,
but have a strong foundation.

That's not for me,
based on my past.
Relationships for me
aren't meant to last...

Her eyes tell a story that
her tongue simply cannot.*
Her beauty is untouched,
*but her insides have begun to rot.

Goosebumps cover my body,
there's a cold whisper in my ear.
"Run, boy" he tells me,
"Death is here."

The more you know,
The less you’ll like.
That’s why I stay mysterious,
And sometimes impolite.

It takes a lot of trust
For me to open the door.
For you to shop through my feeling,
Like you shop through clothes at a store.

It may take days,
It may take weeks,
It may take months
To a year.

Don’t get impatient,
Just love me,
Please.
My dear.

Here on the beach is where I stand,
holding your hand with our feet in the sand.
Wave upon wave crashing into our bodies,
but they'll never break us apart
because I'll never let go...

Not even for the life of me.

Your eyes tell lies.
Especially when you cry.
You're innocence is a disguise,
And your heart is made of ice.

You're not very nice.
You're dirtier than mice.
And filthier than lice.
And deadlier than knives.

But,

You gotta be my wife,
You've become my whole **** life.

When I'm with you I feel more than alive.
Though, I feel all your love is a lie.

But,

Deep down inside.
I know you really try.
Because you despise
What you've become in other peoples eyes.

And

When you come to your senses
I'll be right where I've always been.
Holding your hand.
Because no matter what,
I love you

And

I'm with you til the end.