"Where have you been?"
She asked.
"A little bit here,
a little bit there,
a little bit everywhere."
I said.

Poets born and die
with every stroke of the pen-
so live fast, write young

12:13 AM
18/6/19

Another day goes
by where I am reminded of
a life spent with you

6:24 PM
17/6/19

It's true,
the moon - she has kissed me
more times than I can remember.
Me - a little, lost soul in search of light.
She brightened up this soul
with her kisses and care
but wouldn't leave
the sky for me.

broken bones tell stories,
broken souls tell secrets,
and broken hearts tell lies.

I’m shipwrecked,
left in the dark - stranded
in a never-ending sea of despair.
I was sailing for nowhere,
doomed from the start.
No need for an anchor
when I have no destination
or no home to call my own.

loving you did hurt,
but I didn't know it would
cost me my own heart

11:06 PM
12/6/19

Ruffled by feathers
of a brave bird who never
learnt how to take flight

6:10 PM
12/6/19

Don’t live for the weekends,
learn to live for yourself.
Don’t write off those feelings off,
learn to be their friends.
Don’t mistake comfort for love,
learn to weld them into one.

You’re going to feel
that feeling again because
you’re going to fall in love again-
the only difference is that next time
the feeling is going to
last forever.

There are only so many battles
one can fight at any point in time.
to be struggling on so many battlefronts
can leave you weary and even broken
whether they are mental
or physical.
For a mere human mind or body
to be occupied on so many fronts-
well, they were never designed
for that sort of pain.

There are only so
many battles you can fight
so pick them wisely

11:05 PM
10/6/19

I can't miss what was
never mine or never ours-
so why does it hurt?

9/6/19
12:38 PM

I need you to be
more in or more out since I
can't do the 'middle'

8:13 PM
8/6/19

she was a storm that
tore through my heart and my soul
and left me awestruck

12:01 PM
8/6/19

I can be your man
and you can be my woman-
we can be as one.

6/6/19
9:42 PM

Do not forget that
you are a force of nature-
fire, ice and wind

6:03 PM
6/6/19

You only miss me
when you want to miss me and
it's taking its toll

9:15 PM
5/6/19

I gave everything
to hold on to something I
never even had

9:31 PM
3/6/19

I want to listen to the rain,
and wash ***** dishes with you.
I want to admire the passing dogs
and maybe even get one of our own.
I want to push your grocery cart down the aisle
as we search for the contents of tonight's dinner-
laugh at you when you’re too short to reach the shelves
and be your hands to everything out of reach.
I want to exist with you and within you,
be the goosebumps that consume you
and the butterflies within your chest.
I want to look back on our photographs-
the ones that will become everything to us.
I don’t know where we’ll end up
but I do know we can make it.
You and me.
Always.

love is our only
reality so treat it
like the only one

6:15 PM
3/6/19

what actually were we
other than two broken hearts,
and two lost souls?
A sense of passion, yet only for an instant,
leading to an everlasting
feeling of torment.
Our distant dreams of romance
never quite turned into a reality
without even a daydream of hope.

Those were not my tears,
they were memories streaming
that I can't get back

1:09 AM
2/6/19

I prefer to write
when the world sleeps - it's such a
lovely waste of time

2:38 AM
1/6/19

A dream about you
over this reality
is preferable

9:21 PM
31/5/19

I just want to say
from the bottom of my heart:
thank you for your love

8:35 PM
31/5/2019

Ah, nevermind,
anyway, wherever you are right now,
whatever you are doing,
I wish you all the best
this world can offer-
always and forever.
You deserve it.
And though our lives
don't always go as planned,
when it pulls you down and
drags you through Hell,
remember you have come so far.
You can get through it-
I’m sure you’re still the
strong person I remember.
And when you feel lost, sad,
hollow, lonely or exhausted,
understand that it’s okay
to feel them all.
You’re okay.
Everything is going to be okay.
Let it flow, let it go.
Good things are waiting for you
and let me remind that if you ever need
someone to talk to,
you'll know where to find me.
Don’t hesitate to call,
I’ll be here with open arms.
Just because we don't keep in touch,
does not mean I don't still adore you to the core.
But more importantly,
please don’t forget that you matter.
You are adored.

We teach ourselves
to not feel a thing,
yet end up feeling
it right to the core.
Perhaps everything
can not work out the way
we tell ourselves it should.
Perhaps we are merely
powerless creatures.

Hey, how are you?
How’s your family?
Where have you been lately?
There are so many things  
I have been meaning to ask you.
Can’t believe it’s been so long
since I last heard your voice.
It's true, I still miss you sometimes
but I now see you're probably
better off without me.
Just looking back on us
never fails to put a smile
upon my face,
but it also brings a tear
to know I can't make you
smile
anymore.

I still remember
the first time I heard that warm
voice of yours that night

11:00 PM
26/5/19

When I read your words
I hear your voice and I wish
they were still for me

1:47 AM
26/5/19

wake up each morning
and find a new reason to
love yourself again

3:52 PM
22/5/19

I wrote a story
somewhat less than swell but you
read it to the end.

21/5/19
7:09 PM

I am who I am-
whether that is good or bad
I still can't decide

Twenty-seven years
of unbridled poetry
running through my veins.

These last few months,
I have been learning how to
separate myself from my past,
my mistakes,
and all the heartbreak
and mind ache
that I have endured.
It's easier said than done,
but I do believe we have
the ability to reinvent ourselves
and love others unlike the way
they used to 'love' me

a deep long lust
followed by a deep long kiss
followed by a deep long sigh

I ate my own heart out
and I’ve never felt better.
Empty chest but my soul is full-
regrettable actions to fill the hole.
You can see it upon my face-
from these far-too-gone eyes
to that ****** crooked smile.
Don’t love this creature for it
has found peace in destroying itself.

a fragment of you
still lodged somewhere in my heart
bleeding with each beat

before the storm comes,
let us drown ourselves in gin
to survive the night.

It’s terrifying
when you get hit
with a revelation at 2am
that you can’t picture yourself
five or ten years into the future
sharing a cosy suburban apartment
with the love of your life,
with a family to call your own.

it has been a while
since I've written anything worthy
and it has been quite a while
since we last talked.
Perhaps these factors are related-
all I know is that I wrote
some of my favorite pieces
when we kept each other up-
when you were still in my life.

Too early, too late-
doesn't matter in the end
so let's get ruined

This poem
is for you
because I simply
don't know any other way
to keep you close at bay-
to stop you from fading away.

It's two thirty-three-
sleep is not my enemy
or so I had thought

SOS I call-
one last plea to anyone
to come rescue me

I'm standing outside
under your star in the sky
please don't fade away

Someday I will find
a way to cut every part
of you out of me

Even when I'm happy,
there is a certain sadness.
Even in my words, my smile,
there is a hint of melancholy
that I cannot escape.

She treasures her cats
more than any old treasure-
more than life itself.