People say,

"Nothing is impossible"

I do nothing everyday.

I'm not the answer.
I can't even help myself

Bloomed in a garden of loneliness
A flower that resembles you,
I wanted to give it to you
Before I take off this foolish mask.

But I know I can never do that
I must hide
Because I'm UGLY.
I am afraid, I'm so afraid,
That you will leave me again in the end.

I'll wear a mask again and go to see you
What can I do?
I bloom a flower in this garden
That looks like you.

I'll water it daily
With morning dew
I am UGLY, but I still like you.

Sadly, I don't mind.

Slowly


Slowly

I am drowning,
You are heating me up
Like I am singing
My self to get chopped...

Slowly.

I'd rather fall

in Love,

     with your

Scars.

Than fall

    in love

           with your Smile.

I'll tell you lots of stories
foretold and untold.
I'll sing you every song you wanted
like symphonies in lullabies.

And you will know,
I love you more
with each
beautiful day
that goes by.

I used to hold you tight
hug and kiss you too.
I love you very much
you know the same way you love me too.

I used to wish that
you could stay
My only girl all my life.
But God intended for
Our little girl
to grow up to be our daughter
in our fated life.

And that's why I keep
my promises
to fill the gaps of yesterdays
and to cherish every day
For tomorrow is another day
that i'm always afraid of....


For it would be such a lonely world for Me

without You.

I'm sorry.

For loving you too much.
For missing you.
I'm sorry, For wanting you everyday.
For always thinking about you before going to sleep.
For feeling upset if I don't see you.
For wanting to be your side.
I'm sorry for wanting to make you happy.
For wanting you to be part of my life.
For trying to make you smile.
I'm sorry for bothering you.
For dreaming about you everyday.
I'm sorry for replying quick as soon as possible.
I'm sorry for getting mad, jealous and sad.
I'm sorry for being just a simple game.
I'm sorry for thinking that you loved me.
For annoying you with my messages and calls.
I'm sorry for caring about you.


I'm just....


Sorry for every single mistake I made.


Goodbye.

I'm jealous of the moon that shines
above.
Cause it smiles so bright to the woman
I love.

People say
"hi"
Then..
"Goodbye"

I tried to be
I tried to be my self
I tried to fit in
I tried to make,
you satisfied
with my words
Just to express
how you feel
A feeling you could never show
Only through me
I tried to be
The last thing you could use against her
And now I am lost
Lost beyond anyone.
Why can't I make you all happy.



Said: The poetry

"I love you"

If it hasn't ripped apart your soul
you haven't experienced it.

I Hope You Find Someone Who Appreciates You‬
‪
‬
‪ ‬
‪I hope he comforts you during your wretchedness. When you are frail and you feel like your world is about to collapse‬

‪I hope he sees the light in your eyes when you gaze at him; the way my eyes lit up when I looked at you.‬

‪I hope he holds your hand when you feel cold. Or when you are anxious. Or just simply hold your hand because he doesn’t want to let you go.‬

‪I hope he closes his eyes when he kisses you. Feel the magic in your lips and gallop in spark with every breath you make.‬

‪I hope he tells you goodnight. Ask how your day was and not let you sleep knowing you feel unwanted.‬

‪I hope he checks on you when you are alone. When you feel lonely and when you feel no one is around to give you warmth.‬

‪I hope he wipes your tears away. Choose you without dividing your good parts and your ugly ones. Choose you every single day.‬

‪I hope he appreciates you. The kind of person that you are. Because you are more than enough.‬
‪I hope he knows how to listen. When you are in a bad mood and would just like to rant. Lend an ear and assure you everything will be all right.‬

‪I hope he makes time for you. Put an effort to include you in his list of priorities. That he would actually go out of his way just to spend a moment with you and make sure you’re fine.‬

‪I hope he stays when times get rough. When it’s not only convenient. Because he really wants you in his life.‬

‪I hope he understands that you are flawed. You may be imperfect and needy at times, but you are so worthy of love because you give so much of it, too.‬

‪I hope he helps you understand yourself. Help you find answers to your “why’s” and actually enjoy every minute of it without having to make you feel like it’s a chore.‬

‪I hope he feels your excitement when you talk about him. Like the sun rises and sets in his eyes. Like he is the only thing that matters to you.‬

‪I hope he loves you exactly just the way you are. Not just because you are breathtakingly beautiful, but because you are you… Because I would have loved you.

I am dead away from you
A lost soul torn in two.

To tell you I'm sorry.



I am sorry


                                              *I'm sorry

Love is a one sided fantasy

I'm afraid to fall in love, sad to say she was gravity.

I am just a memory.

I am lying next to you,
awake now while you sleep.
For death has just released me,
yet in your dream you weep.
If only you could see me,
so peaceful and serene,
But you must live a little more and carry on the dream,
A dream from which one day you'll wake and see me by your side, And know for sure that I'm still here and that I never "died."
So now go on, be strong and look for me in wondrous things,
In the quietness of starlight and the warmth that sunshine brings,
And hear my voice to calm you, to say that it's all right,
For I'm only here beside you, whispering in the night.
Of course you'll cry, you'll miss me, your very soul will ache,
But I am here, a breath away, waiting for you to wake,
So know that life is just a dream of love and fleeting pain,
And know I'm waiting by your side to love you once again.

Please thing's in life not love.

I got a kiss from the shadow of her memories.

How can I ever tell?
how can I ever know?
how can I ever say?
how could you ever grow?
how can I let them hear?
how can I show them tear?
how can I see?
how can I feel?
how can I be free?
how can I be real?
how foolish heart how?

"She left me."
Because I "never asked her to stay."

If you only you knew,
how much I missed you.
If only you knew,
That I dreamed of you.
If these words in my heart,
Only, can let you know
If these people, with me and apart,
Can only tell you how....

My words are lost,
They doesn't seem good anymore,
I know I am not at most,
To be with you is my endeavor.


Let this words touch you.
Let my words conceal you.
They may let you hate me (in any case I couldn't tell.)
They may let you realize (how I feel.)


Loving can hurt, and this is how I feel.
To try to speak and wanting to be real,
I could never do.
but I do,
I do.
I love you.

I was supposed to pretend the last time.
I wanted you to hear me now.
I feel broken inside. cuts like a knife.
I always wanted you to stay close and don't go.
I wasn't able to always reach you because of this distance.
I always thought there is something more.
I always feel like "to stay away"
I was in a world turn.
I am in a twist in story.
I was a stranger.
I am Goodbye.
I. Maybe

From heart broken to heartless please, yep that'd be better.

It was a very long time before I was with her awhile ago.
I missed her a lot like, I don't want to let her go.
But we separated and it's a thing.
Yet, I feel differently happy like undefined something.

She was just my best-friend for you to know.
But, I feel different for her and I don't know.
This feeling strange that I can't show.
I feel like she's something I don't wanna let go.

I couldn't make a move even make a sound about it.
I was too shy, too nervous to admit it.
This feeling never lost ever since so long.
Every-time I get in touched with her my heart beats so strong.

She's the one I've been waiting for.
She's the one I adore.
She's means a lot me.
She's the one I want to be forever with me.

Am I in love with my best-friend?

I wish,
I knew you earlier.

She broke me.
But,
Why is that
She couldn't fix me.

If the
Sun
ever feel alone
in that crowded space?

I'm scared to get close.
I used to think that the worst thing in life
was to end up alone.
It's not.
The worst thing in life
is to end up with
the person
who makes you feel alone.
and
I hate being alone.
I long to that feeling,
to not feel at all.
The higher I get,
the lower I'll sink.

I ******* drown my demons,
they know how to swim.

We broke up.
My whole identity shattered.
It's like death.

Oh!.
I forgot.
I only exists.
When you need me.

I wish I could

             ignore
         * you*


like *you ignore me

What if your blessings comes through tears.
What if your healing comes through fears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know you're near
Towards nirvana you wanted to feel.

What if trials of this life
are your mercies in disguise
What if greatest dissapointments or achings
is the reavealing of this greater thirst world can't satisfy
What if this trials of life,
The storms
The rains
and
The sleepless nights
Are your **Mercies in Disguise

Yes, I like stars.
But the only star
I love
is the one
I am
wishing for...
No other,
only YOU.
Still,
I am not granted yet.

A wounded heart


        never talk.

Why is it
that we control others with our tears?
        Why do we control our tears for others?

is it growing up?
        I wanna know why

please tell me *WHY?

Yes,
I am
One of them
I have
A beautiful heart
And
A soul
Been devoured
By a daemon
Who
At least told me
These three words



**I Love You

I know she can never be mine
But when I try to flirt
with someone else

*I feel like I am cheating on her

I am to be
Pluck by those who like me
And if you love me
You'll water me daily.

You know


*I'm that person
everyone replaces after a while.

I am about to solve mystery of love in life.

I cried on my pillow last night
Can't bear pain of my broken heart
I will always think how we might
And always remember of how we start

I didn't sleep, I couldn't sleep
Reminiscing the moments, pleaded and weep
Our laughter is now pain
Love is now in vain

The shards of my broken heart's
Pierce through over my body parts
I Don't know what to do now
Just want me back to you somehow

Before I do believe love is magic
But now regret, it was all tragic
Throat cutting pain never let me eat
Forgetting "I'm Important" wanna end my heartbeat.

My very most honest mistake

Is that

    **I loved you

I wonder, what else you remember?
Is it worth remembering?

I just realize.

*Love isn't what we think it is.

I feel loved when she pluck me
The little did I know
I am suddenly thrown

Words of my heart were left unspoken
Fears abide collision of what and why's
Though I had much pain still unforgiven
Keeping my cosmos fight to your abyss

Life is rather an illusion of war
An persisting pain of cut-******* scar
Blandishing words loose were not enough to hear
As how life after love left with fear

Agony of reminiscing past times
Such no remedy
Even a poets structure of rhymes
Not all likely


I'm just stuck in reverse.