He ran
Stopped
Aimed
And shot
Right through the net

Or

Was that my heart?

We both promised ourselves
—drinking our blood,
tying up the knot
in the name of sisterhood
but you ***** them
like it was a bad food

they say the world smiles through flowers
I say, your flowers make me smile for the world

he kneels down before me
with ring on his hand
and vow in his heart
then my lips replies
"I will"

There he was
standing by the lake
all dressed in black
with a peek of white rose
on his cashmere suit

He reached out his hand to mine
and pulled me closer
close enough for me to read his thoughts
and so my heart softly melted
when he kissed my forehead
and bend on one knee, saying,
"how about we make a cute bedtime story
for our kids about how I proposed to you?"

Value your worth
with or without cloth
how you dress or undress
doesn't define who you are
you are beautiful
in both ways
you deserve to be respected
and treated like the golden rose
fancy, rare, and desirable on display
smack the *******
who ever tell you otherwise

Then he bends down on one knee

Look at those thingy
they shrunk in whenever he smiles
oh my
I feel like exhaling dandelions
each time he does that laugh
how come this one thin creature
could be so astonishingly cute?

there is something about the way
he spins his own earth
how he makes the world
looks like a stage
and he is the main star
you see, when he smiles
people smile with him
like he radiates the sun
and everyone else are sunflowers
who grows towards his smile

It was when his finger prints left marks on my coffee cup
in that Starbucks he politely gave me my warm hazelnut
I remember how I got a little struck of his height
he made me look at him like I am gazing at the stars

It was his 'hi' that painted my crooked smile
followed by a simple question, "what's your name?"
God, he's so cute in that black t-shirt and snapback
I sounded like a ****** when I speak my name out

It was his vibe and a little of his laugh
that got me re-arranged a space in my mind for him
as he threw compliments with the same amount
of every single thing I like about his consuming eyes

It was a bye-bye that evening where it started to rain
and I counted his steps as he walked away from me
along with the ticking clock for his first phone call
cause he stole my every attention until I stumble and fall

he uses Monday to Saturday
to change the world
and uses a single Sunday
to change mine

I am a Lego
Build me up brick by brick
Build me strong, build me weak
I could be pretty
Or I could make you sick
But a 4 year old kid
Shouldn’t touch me
Cause he’s not ready
He might as well be chocked
By swallowing me
Or changed his mind
And decided that
He wants other cheap toys
*To play with

They said somethings
Are better off unspoken
Maybe that's why
He didn't tell me
That it will rain in April
And now my hair is soaked
In April's rain
While he smiles,
Holding an umbrella
For himself

Once upon a time
I met an ******* who is fluent
in speaking lies
and acting innocent
I was so caught up in his act
I thought he planted roses
when all he really did was
setting up volcano inside my body
so off he sailed
and blow I did
then the lava destroyed
his faked roses
along with the promises I made
he had burned into ashes

his big hug feels like a blanket
with ever-changing colors
which I demand in the morning
at noon, even at night

he spoke out his heart
right next to my ear
and it tickled inside
like a soft violin

It's impossible for me
to walk into the road I cannot see
and the road where I want to move ahead to
is the one that only leads me closer to you

And I'd continue to reminisce
how the sun bends down
towards your night sky eyes
as they stare deeply into mine
while you were arching your body
at 5.14 pm, to kiss me—repeatedly

I’m afraid of height
But you lifted me up
Until my fears disappear
I guess you’ve placed me
So high—too high
That my brain
Is unable to digest
How high it was
Nor ever process
How painful it will be
When you finally
Letting me go

On Friday night
the citylights shone at its brightest
he'd made me laugh the loudest
where being near turned into nearest
is how I know I am the happiest

She is that girl
Who hates her reflection
Cause she despise
Her damaged pieces

She is that girl
Who loves with devotion
And gladly dismantle
Herself for you

She is that girl
Who waits for you
To turn your heart and see
That girl is me

somehow I wish to plant tiny cameras
surrounding you and your every movement
just to capture your sweet little crooked smile,
your laughter that aches you belly bottom,
your peaceful sleeping face at midnight,
and store them inside my heart's memory card

Because you are
the one person
who can pump
my dead heartbeat
back to life
when all
I ever wish
for it
to just
stop

lihatlah betapa cepatnya matahari
dan bulan purnama silih berganti
di Jakarta ku termenung menanti
sebuah senyuman semu di Bali
yang hanya membutuhkan waktu tiga hari
untuk membawa seluruh hatiku pergi

I met him when he got lost
finding his way back home
then I remember I was lost too
but when our eyes met the first time
he looked at me like he got home
and I knew I've found mine

She was everything but stupid
Even now, she's not stupid
She's just falling in love
with the wrong guy

The hanging lights
he decorated
in my room
blurred
my sight

this morning I woke up to déjà vu
—I was here before and I knew you
you’re that guy who twists the truth
who secretly falls for me like I do
oh I just love how you’re always too close
yet too far away to make me had enough of
wait, did I just say that I’m in love with you?
this is bad and will hurt as **** but I know I do
but you will deny me, that’s so typical of you
since you’re the sly fox
and I’m just a girl who’s addicted to untruth

swing the magic wand, abracadabra
you appear like waterfall in Sahara

drop a penny into a wishing well
our hands touched and our hearts fell

boxes of questions, nothing seem true
yet when I choose one, I found you

feels very nice lately
cause I get to receive
his mustache sleepy kiss
that is kindda ticklish

You spread both my legs
Like preparing sandwich
Then you touch what's
Between my thighs
Until it's dripping
Oh, so wet
As you kiss my lips
Like sipping your
Morning tea
Until I forgot all the rest
Cause you eat me up
From my bottom
To my chest

Sometimes a girl
Just cannot help
But to enter
A difficult maze
And got lost inside
Sometimes a maze
Is ******* brilliant
And caused certain
Addiction to death
Sometimes a girl
Is me
And sometimes
A difficult maze
*Is you

he was as scared as I was
I can tell cause he was steady
—he was a mountain and I,
I shook him with my earthquake

none of us can handle each other
none of this are wrong
and nothing else feels more right
oh, Lord, we are so in love

sekarang ini, aku itu sedang bermimpi
ada sebuah wajah yang namanya aku amini
ditiap bisikan doa kepada bulan dan matahari
hingga seluruh semesta berhenti bernyanyi

aku bahagia lagi—kan sekarang ini ada kamu
yang mencintai aku tiap hari Minggu
jika benar ini mimpi, jangan bangunkan aku
karena aku butuh lebih banyak waktu

untuk memeluk tubuhmu lebih lama
untuk buatmu jatuh cinta dihari lainnya
dan
untuk membawa kamu ikut jadi nyata

place your hands
around my neck
until my heart beats
a hundred times
of nothing
and I'd still
adore you
the same way
you kiss me

His love gives me static electricity
mixed with waves of fragility
feels like my wool sweater
—so good, nothing else is better

The sunset this evening
is identical to your glance
when you said
*"I'm leaving"

"Why are you frowning?" he asked
as always, I answered, "I'm okay"

Truth is
I feel like my stomach is aching
due to the bumpy ride we're taking
like every car on the road
keep crashing on ours
while he has no intention
whatsoever to make a u-turn
nor to push the break pedal

holding on to each other like braids
tiring day for both you and I fades
my hair was a set of obstacle
but you oddly looked like a miracle
boy you're so special
let me be your favorite gal
like that old cute spouse
like Minnie to Mickey mouse
I'm pathetically in love with you
now tell me a lie that sounds so true

It is not just a simple continuous present
that I want to have with him
It is more until the future continuous
Like I am now loving him
until he will always be the one I am loving
for the rest of my roller coaster life
You got me?

It was the color of your bedside lamp that paints the room just the same
when I am seeing you lay there on the bed watching Manchester United game
and when I move my leg inside the blanket we share to keep you tight
you'd give me that "I am here" smile and kiss my forehead goodnight
then when the morning knocks, I will find you still counting sheep
and I will find myself exhumed by the whisper of your sleep

a little girl like myself
would think a hurricane like you
a beautiful carousel to ride into

Hold me, tenderly
Let me hear you whisper
Those three words
And turn it into my life soundtrack

Hold me, tenderly
Let me sleep on the lullabies
Of your rushing heartbeats
And the warmth within your veins

Hold me, tenderly
For I am drowning myself
Into your deep blue ocean
And the ocean is home to me

tell me you worship
the watercolor painting
of a blended sun and moon
within my deepest heart

and I promise to make a life;
a dancing trees and owls
a raining stars
a soothing waterfalls

out of the ghost
you've been carrying
inside your flesh
and tired bones

Oh yeah the Demon told me
that you're with him now
let me know how my *****
taste when you kiss him
and good luck licking it off

“You’re not mine,” I tell myself—everyday
Then you put a deep kiss on my lips
“You’re not mine,” I repeat myself
Then you spoon me like a blanket
“You’re not mine,” my voice shakes
Then you brush my hair gently and smile
“You’re not mine,” my eyes are wet
Then you speak my name like it was made from your voice
And my mind went blank—my heart forgot to beat
But it whispered softly, “I’m yours”

all I ever do is
following a blurry face
who wears your smile
and a little of
everything you are

Justru inilah yang tak pernah bisa ku pahami;
kamu mengenal aku seperti belakang tanganmu sendiri
kamu itu selalu memiliki pilihan
untuk jadi bahagiaku di siang dan malam
atau buatku tenggelam dan tersesak dalam dinginnya diam
namun pilihan kedua selalu menjadi pilihan favorit mu
pun kamu tau bahwa dulu itu menjadi alasanku tinggalkanmu

By the time those brown eyes gazed onto me
the tip of my lips drawing a curve awkwardly
there and then I knew
my heart caught the arrow that the cupid's threw

Tink was right
there's a million people tell me
not to trust in you
Ashanti keeps singing how foolish I am
Even Taylor Swift knew that you were
trouble when you walked in my life
but Selena Gomez tells me that
my heart wants what it wants

*and it wants you