Hallways of stone My knees scrape against the cold lifeless floor As condensation soaks into the fabric of my existence I came looking for you and I found myself Lost Fallen before a door, densely metallic No one in, no one out There used to be light here once. We could move through pathways freely Tracing the space between our selves Settling in one another with fluidity.
I am here alone now.
I write you letters often Little invitations to return Back to a place we used to be Back when I could find you here There was resistance then too But you opened the door if I knocked enough Fists pleading with steel gates My hands are broken now They were broken before but Now I stopped to bandage them
Do your walls have windows? Can you still see me here? Desperately craving connection Hoping for a moment to see you To feel your soul's energy again For this hallway to hold life once more Or am I invisible without the sound? Without the pushing and fighting, Do I cease to exist?
I know this isn't about me Things are not that simplistic But I thought I taught you How to love me
I tell you I feel disconnected And you say You'll be fine Right. Ok. I'm still here if you need anything Still waiting in these damp halls Alone with the hope of something more Because I believe in you and in us But I won't beg you to love me
When the loss of a loved one causes you much grief and so you can’t for a while seem to find any relief, it’s very likely that you have been too long attached and possessiveness must now be in ways dispatched. _______
From 'The Quatrains' ongoing writings since the early 90's
how do I tell you that with you I feel safe the child in me clings to you like you belong to me how do I tell you that I'm not in love that I'm simply still a child looking for a home, for safety how do I tell you that I started building a home for you in my heart and I lit a fire to keep you warm how do I tell myself you don't belong here I have to learn to save myself instead of waiting for someone to give me everything to hold that child in me how do I tell you, how do I cry how will I ever learn to say goodbye
And today i got to feel u back again. Read my old Poem, I wrote for you, When i was in pain.
Never knew, you would be the one Who actually read my black diary that day lines you wrote on pages to next pages u got me, i got you tooo My dopamine got Lit up for you in that way.
One movie date and two night-outs with no talks in our whole friendship at all 3 years knowing you as a hip hop producer i really felt your production was different Those beats are just Wow.
"Insane" - His name all that matters. Both hustling for music as career i saw hardworking stupid kid i wana never let you ever ever suffer.
Trance lover me, Getting Rapped up Altitudes Of love relaxing my mind when we grind With music we both breathe-in No lovestuff to waste our time... And soo... I hold back my pampering child Oh heaven! Its all Right "BUT" These second thoughts still remain the same i realized my love is true for you Its ******* Insane!!! Will i be marrying you or not I still get those Second Thoughts.
Allowing the dust to settle And the hovering mist to part You can't live inside of my mind, There's more space for you in my heart
I keep myself busy to stay aflame While the world slowly turns I'm sprinting through days that blur And suffering through the burns
Toggling between elation and insecurity Emotions aren't permanent, only temporary Experience has taught me everyone goes eventually
Resilient to adversity shrouding me In its tethering web of prickly hairs Mourning the nascence of elation And all of the splendor it bewares A cocktail of hormones straight to the dome Nostalgia hitting in waves
Dragging me back in time to those hopeless romantic days
Come to me because I need you I need your touch, your care, your support. Speak to me in soft tones. Tell me it will all be okay in the end. Reassure me that I am okay, that I will last, prevail, be whole and safe. That my life is not a mess, that I am doing well - just that this is my path right now. Tell me that it will not always be this hard, that I will be happy again when it is all over or sooner even. Touch me Let me feel your love Your heart Your care and nurture Your love.