I want you..
Not to change your mind a hundred times.
I want you.
To show me you care more then you can.
I want you.
Now more then ever.
I want you.
To understand even when noone else can.
I want you.
Not to put yourself down.
I want you.
To love me even when I don't love me.
This is just a few wants that I want even if my wants are wanting wants

Your body.
My body.
Totally different body's.
That over time have became one.
You have made mistakes.
I stayed by your side.
I have done some bad things.
Your still by mine.
I hope we can stay one for the rest of our lives.
I promise I will not tell half truths or lies.
I believe you will promise the same.
I know we have lost some trust.
I'm willing to work hard to get it back.
Your my one and only.
My forever and always.
My knight and shining armer.
Who one day will ask me to be his queen.
So I can say.
My king.
Jonathan.
You are my everything.
You always will be.
I can't wait till the day I can stand in front of everyone.
Look at my ocean eyes.
And say to my fifty shades.
I Do.

Full moon to no moon. ..
it's a black night....
obama throw our country out the window....
it's not just his fault though.  
It's these greedy *** wholes...
our resources are going down...
but noone cares.....
we as a nation..
need to pay attention..  
the real worlds not just a tv show... everyone is brained washed in our nation...
It's hard to say proud to be an American..
When the world is laughing...
Our own president negotiated with terrorist...
One law we stood by..
Any why...
For a deserter..
Who should of had his head cut off...
Between politics...
And big corporations...
Kids my age are in a daze...
They can repeat every word to every song...
But not one of our founding fathers...
Who by the way..
Didn't just concentrate on one thing...
Somehow along the way..
We turned politics in to a career..
A game...
We as the people of our nation..
Need to stand up..
Start paying attention...
And make this country...
The best it can be....
So we can stand up..
With our heads held high..
And scream.
I'm proud to be an American

I'm so confused
In this game of two
And now you want to now
If I have really loved you
YES.
I did.
I gave you my heart.
I tired as hard as I knew how
Im at fault too
For the end of this deep bond
Between us two
Drugs pulled as down
To an ugly point of view.

It's not just about you.
I had my faults too.

It's Friday the 13th.
To night we will see a full moon...
Lifes a mess but "what's new!!"
Just waiting on someone real to come through..
Someone who knows how to ride true..
I know I'm a queen to be...
Just looking for my king..

I hate this feeling of being split in two.
I just want to go buy some glue.
**** a needle and thread would do.
anything to be one piece.
I hate this feeling of being split in two.
What am I suppose to do.
I am an honest person so everything I say is true.
I hate this feeling of being split in two.

What way to play?
After all life is a never ending game.
one day someone will take your place.
One step forward
Two step back
I'm sure everyone knows about that.
The earth is our huge game bored.
With billions of different apps.
Which ones you choose to play.
Determends where you'll spend your last days.

It's up to me to teach you right from wrong
It's up to me to make sure you  say please
It's up to me to make sure you go to sleep
It's up to me to make sure you learn to read
It's up to be to make sure you are clean
Its up to me to make sure you see
The beauty in this crazy world
It's up to me to teach you how to make change
Its up to me to make you have a shoulder to lean on
It's up to me to be your mommy

I love you both with all my heart
I hope I raised you right
I dream your dreams all come true
I pray that god will always be with you.
I cry thinking about how fast life goes by

Is it crazy to be in love?
To give your heart to someone you trust..
An old love.
Someone you gave a piece of you.
Someone you thought you would never loss.
But you do.
Till one day they come along.
And tell you
They have kept a piece of you.
Safe from harm.
Can you never loss love?
Can they be true.
And really want you.
Or are they wanting to just take another piece of your heart?

You say I never cared.
This coming from a man
Who never shared his tears
When I cried in front of you
acted like you didn't care.
I'm not trying to get on you.
I love you
And I always will.
I'm still going to need you
So don't go no where.
Your still my knight and shining armor.
You taught me So much
For one
how to handle my family.
You saved me.

It's not either one of our fault.
Neither one of as wanted
to break the others heart.
As long as we can be friends.
We will make it to the end.
Knowing we gave our kids all we can.
Your my forever and always
Till the end.

There will always be that love in my heart.
So please don't make this hard.
You didn't show me any love
Till I gave up.
Now you want to make love.
Don't get me wrong
I wish I could be ****** through
Time and space.
To that old place.
But it's to late.
It just isn't our fate.
Just no I was never fake.

I need to do me.
And stop worrying
About being alone.
I willnt be
Jesus will be here with me

Where is my mind?
It's out  in the sea.
Between
Break up
Old love's
And my first Real uncle heading downstream.
My mind is one of a gemini.
It's hard not to loss my mind
Always torn in two.

The coral Is dieing.
Just like the love inside of me.
He took care of me.
And I cant ever pay him back u see.
Because what he gave me was a family.
We agreed to be friends.
And I hope that will never end.
He is part of my trinity.
He truly was
And always will be
My knight and shining armor
Because he rescued me
I wIll love him forever
That'll never be lost out in sea
But my coral is dieing.
But he will be my forever and always.

I'm stuck in the deep
I don't know what to say
about this old flame.
It's been 10 years
And he act like nothing has changed.
Yes he makes me feel ablazzed.
But I have came along way.
I want it to be.
But first I have to see.
What my life is going to be.
So for now
I'll wait and see.
If he can catch me
Out in the sea.

The current has came.
He is on his way to a better place.
Where he will say hey.
To the ones who lost there lives
Before his time.
he is my grandpa's brother.
But never met him or my uncles.
After my mom's death we all left.
Came down to Florida.
Where we stayed with this man.
Who I called uncle soon after.
So I raise a beer.
In cheer.
For my first real uncle.
Who was there.
We all love you.
And will be here to hold your hand.
When you go.
Please say hello
To my mother
Hope the current takes you to a better place.
So you can let go.
Of all you pat pain.

This is the stuff on my gemini mind.
Breakups are hard.
Old love's are too.
And death thrown in to the mix.
Hope I find a way out before
It's to late.
I'm just a little scared.
Don't want to loss a friend.
Or a family member.
One has to go I know.
But it's hard to let go.
And to that old fling.
Don't leave me on the swing.
If it's not meant to be.
I still want u to be.
A friend who I can.
Run to.

I love you boo
And you love me too.
But we can't make it through.
Let's stop playing eachother for fools
We need to make it through.
One way or the other we will have eachother.
Just not as lovers.
We have kids so we will see one another.
But in some crazy way
Your my Roy Thornton
In my modern day bonnie and clyde love storie.
Don't ever fear because your love will be here.
You will always be our number 1.
From now Till forever.
Your kids will always love yea.

I wish you where growing up in peaceful world.
But everyone has to much hate
I wish you didn't have to live in fear.
But everyone seems to scared
I wish you didn't have to go through being poor.
But there are to many people in This world.
I wish I could say it willnt always be this way
But there will never be better days.
I wish people would change there ways
But its to late.

I might not answer your call
I'm still a little lost
I want this to be true.
But I'm falling through.
I can't just wait.
If this is fake
I really thought it would be true.
And I would end up with you!!
But i could of made  a mistake.
That I will have to repay.
At the end of the day.
But I will pray.
That god keeps you away.
Away from all the things that can change your ways.
Please don't say.
I love you babe.
Till we have a whole day.
To say
Our true ways.

My first withdraw.
Love.
I felt I would die.
He was my life.
Didn't think I would make it.
Then I found.
My second withdraw.
Alcohol.
Drank everyday.
Didn't no my way.
Everything seemed the same.
Then I thought I found away.
My third withdraw.
Oxy's.
It was a easy drug.
All you had to do was crush.
It made the pain.
Fly away.
Know that I'm clean.
I hope things can change.
I'm done with the withdraw and the pain

I feel stupit .
For writing all this.
But it is what it is.
And I can't change it.
I thought maybe
You cared
Enough to read this.
But who was I kinding.
I can't change it.
Silly me
I thought my first would be my last.
But who am I playing.
Now that I have two kids.
Who would want me.
It's all goods I have what I need.
My family.
I just thought..
A little to much.
About something that wasn't for me.
Maybe one day you will feel me.
I know that it's not just me.
Who thinks there being played.
But baby.
It's all in for me.
If you want to play
But this game
Only plays
Before all cards are in.
And I'm hoping we both win!

You call.
And tell me you will call back.
If this isn't a game.
Then I dont know what your playing
If I can write this.
Before my phone rings.
Then this is..
Just make believe.
If your for real.
Then tell me I'm crazy.
Because I'm falling in love.
And I don't do that much.
There have only been three.
That I was crazy.
And you where my first.
And only.
No one else knows the real me.
So please call back before.
I go crazy.

If you love me.
call me!
I'm not trying to play games.
I know your far away.
But I can't be played!
I'm going all in.
It's the last attempt.
So if you love me call
Don't play no games!

Why do they care?
Why does it matter?
Why can't we be friends?
Why does it matter?
Because we where lovers?
Why is it so hard to believe?
Why can't we just be?
Why can't you under stand ?
Why should it not be that easy?
Because we have kids?
Why should we let it come between our family?

so confused.
Stuck between two.
What to do?
Breath.
It's not about you.
Take some time.
Meanwhile get on your grind.
Keep an open mind.
Can do anything you want to do.
Take care of you.
In time you willnt be as confused.
Just take some time.
Keep an open mind

I'm getting lost in this game you play.
Acting like nothing has changed.
I have came along way.
From the old days.
But this game you play
Has my flame ablaze
One I thought I hide away.
I'm getting lost in this game you play.

Heartaches.....
Souls break....
There's nothing left to say..
Last hope is to pray..
To who????
A higher power is the only thing anyone knows for sure..
Bc with out one..
We wouldnt of made it to where we r today.

Everyother day I was running away.
Met the man of my dreams.
But he was older then me.
Didnt think my mom would agree.
So we did what we did without thinking.
Living life on the streets till we had enough money.
To get our ***'s to Georgia.
Where we thought we would be free.
Well the joke is on me.
See I had todo time.
While he got to walk free.
Life is so funny.
I was only 15.
I knew how life worked on the streets.
Always on the run so the police can't catch me.
Stealing cars and breaking into hotel suites.
Now tell me have you ever walked in my shoes.
Where you would rather starve then give up the stars?