Tick tock
you're running out of time
the bomb is ticking
no more lies can rhyme
now go ahead and choose
which wire you're gonna cut loose
blue or red, no need to sweat
just cut one cause life is a bet
she is the red and I am the blue
try to keep both then I'll leave you

I kissed your lips and I knew
what the moon is feeling
as the world forbids it
to ever be close to the sea
no matter how many times
it attracts the water from up above

there's a time I wonder why I feel comfort
in giving so much space between me and him
while I always want to keep you under glass
the answer is simple; I don't love him, I love you
but if it only means that the love I have is suffocating
then I wish not to fall in love ever again

last night I met him again
in our relationship of uncertain
when the rain was pouring
to act in place of my crying

from time to time he rewinds
the sweetest pain I left behind
with toxic love behind his line
he kissed me like his heart is mine

Time with you is the time I'd stop
And repeat, over and over again

Like the time when I open my eyes to you
When you rest your head to my tummy
When we hold each other like Palomar knot
When you introduce me to your closest friends
When you kiss my lips like you're breathing me
When you take my hand in the crowd
When we slow dancing in your room
When you drive while gripping my hand
When you turn around after a back massage
When you stare at me followed by a smile

Those are the times I treasure
And always hope to be frozen

I'm done with love and its game
But for you my heart is tame
And if you ever feel the same,
Then let the vow be our aim

wasn't it time who leads your footsteps to me?
but the time was so wrong and so do we
our love sinks very fast like the sun into the sea
how I always thought we were meant to be

and if by any chance the time made its apology
I wish your footsteps find their way back to me

-

"I'm not promising you anything,
but if I ever come back to you with a ring
you have to promise me you'll say yes"

*"I promise"

somehow I wish to plant tiny cameras
surrounding you and your every movement
just to capture your sweet little crooked smile,
your laughter that aches you belly bottom,
your peaceful sleeping face at midnight,
and store them inside my heart's memory card

I switch off the light
Trying to sleep off my tired heart
I listen to the same song
Over and over again
As if I'd play it on my death bed

And you
You're merely an illusion
Cause I have authentic proves.
A moving pictures.
That contains your laughs and
That you were happy
With me

Were

Then what happened?
You lost yourself
Why lost me too?

You said I deserve something
No, I deserve you

And I never, not even once
Ever asked you to love me
The way I love you
Cause I'm aware that it's impossible
For you to do so

My love for you has no limit

Why pushed me away?
Let me in
Ask me to stay

Can you hear me weeping?
Both my eyes are swollen by now

Darling,
Be cautious cause
If you continue
To keep me in the distance
I might as well
Be overly comfortable there

Please,
Grab me by the hand
Cause my feet is on the doorstep
Ready to take off

for almost a week you walk inside my dreams
I wonder if it means your heart still belongs to me
but my hope is too big, I must put it in a smaller box
cause they keep me thinking about you too often
"I hope you call, I hope I can tell you about it"
"I hope you miss me, I hope you return"
our story is recorded within my vein
rushing in and out of my blood on each heartbeat
it is one hell of a journey, it changes who I was
for the better, for good, for you, for us, and for me

After the rain, under the sun beam

tomorrow I am leaving you
and it's fine, it's okay
but
tomorrow my eyes will open
not looking at your face anymore
and they will force my hands
to keep drying my wet cheeks
while my lips will stop speaking
any other word but your name
and my heart, my poor heart
will question everything
it ever felt about love
for all it ever known
love is everything you are

tonight
I surrender
a certain feeling
of my deepest heart
made from crystal
and starlight
so the moon
can whisper it
to you,
my love
tonight

somewhere between your lips
and the melting chocolate dips
I heard my heart fell
while yours—
doesn't even ring a bell

On a long walk like this, my thoughts often surf above the clouds about the kind of future we might have. The one with you waiting for me walking down the aisle. The bunch loads of pictures we'll be taking as our little family grows stronger. Just me and you and the miniature of us. Somehow all the heavy problems in the world are easier to imagine with you holding on to my hand. I wonder if you ever feel the same too cause even with the fact that you're in love with me now is too good to be true.

I wonder if there will come a time
when you finally aware of what you make me feel
how I always consider myself as a fool for you
and the way you twist your words hurts my bones

do you even hear my tears dropping down my cheeks?
do you even see the frown I make beneath my smile?
do you even want to know?
do you even care to ask?

but when that moment arrived,
I swear it will be too late
I will be walking away too far
and you won't be able to even grasp my shadow

You know those kind of nights
when he did something to you
and for some unexplainable reasons
you thought your heart was going to bursts
right before his eyes
because it was full of happiness
then your body heat will horribly rose up
and there's only one thing you could do
to decrease the sparks within you;
you kissed him—deeply—repeatedly
*simply because he loves you too much

the first time he saw me cried
was the night I told him about you
cause it's so tragic how much he loves me
and I love you

To see their lips in unison
is to scream my lungs out
with silence as the witness
because whenever I close
both my eyelids
it becomes the only scene
my heart plays on repeat

no one ever did what he does
since he is particularly odd;
like how he kisses my lips
as if they're made of vanilla
and he loves the taste of it
lingers on his tongue
or the way he laughs with me
like I'm his bestfriend
while playing with my hair
as I rest my head on his chest
he'd hum lullabies through his wrapping arms
making all my doubts fall asleep

and unconsciously,
I'm in too deep

Be a Queen
Marry a King
Build your empire
Together

I could
Gather the whole stars
And reassemble them
Yet
It wouldn't be enough
To describe
How impeccable you are
In my eyes

Cause you
Are the kind of man
Who keeps me fall in love
With just breathing
Who has the brightest eyes
That make me couldn't turn away
Who own the ability
To make me cry of laughter
With just one word

And you are the love
Of my deepest heart
That I fall for
So deeply

his face were flushed in red
while holding my hand saying,
"before you go inside,
can I kiss you?"
as his lips touches my fingertips
I calmly answered to him;
"yes, but I have another request,
kiss me when we meet again too"

Your chat room

I was told not to give away
My heart and devotion
For I've watched people
Got their heart crippled

But, love,
My dear love
Tell me what shall I do
When there's nothing else
I understand
Than being in love
With you?

Value your worth
with or without cloth
how you dress or undress
doesn't define who you are
you are beautiful
in both ways
you deserve to be respected
and treated like the golden rose
fancy, rare, and desirable on display
smack the *******
who ever tell you otherwise

Unlike Bonnie and Clyde,
Our devils could dance together in sight
Unlike Jack and Sally,
We'll create nightmare on Christmas party
Unlike Orpheus and Eurydice,
Our yearning soul will never dies
Unlike Napoleon and Josephine,
We'll embrace each flaw on our skins

They might have loved so keen
But they all have their parting scene
Now, Darling, trust me this;
Our love is greater than they've ever been

What are you scared of?
Me, I'm scared of roaches
and height
but above all
I'm scared of you
unloving me

I know that she is the sun for you
the shining light of your smile
who brings warmth inside your heart
that is why I decided to be your moon
the only spark you see in the night
who will watch over you inside the dark

They said somethings
Are better off unspoken
Maybe that's why
He didn't tell me
That it will rain in April
And now my hair is soaked
In April's rain
While he smiles,
Holding an umbrella
For himself

To your family,
You are the maestro
To your friends,
You are the safety net
To your co-workers,
You are the boss
But they can only see
What you pretend to be
While to you,
You are the lost one
~
There is a tenderness
Inside your soul
That's wide enough
To cover the hole
And I know because
I've seen it howl

You are the rose
That blooms
So wonderful
It compels me
To keep touching
And holding
Even when I have
To watch blood
Tainting my
Almond skin

To those midnights
and days
and mornings
you acted like
a little child
who is impatient
opening his
birthday gift
when I was wrapped
inside my dress
as I lay
on your bed

taking off to the air
is my second favorite feeling
it makes my heart
felt as if I left them behind
somewhere beautiful
until I'm out of breath
and the first is
kissing you

And so
She finds
Beauty
In the sins
She keeps
Beneath
Her sleeves

You always have a way
Of trashing the band of color
With greyscale
Like acting to be
A ******* monosyllabic
When I spill the L word
Or changing the weather
From purple rain
To extreme cold winter
Like making candies
Tastes like stomach acid

he spoke out his heart
right next to my ear
and it tickled inside
like a soft violin

you're the virus
on which I have
no immunity to

Once upon a time
I met an ******* who is fluent
in speaking lies
and acting innocent
I was so caught up in his act
I thought he planted roses
when all he really did was
setting up volcano inside my body
so off he sailed
and blow I did
then the lava destroyed
his faked roses
along with the promises I made
he had burned into ashes

in my own world
I fear him the most
afraid that he'd leave
after he finally realized
how utterly weak I am
because in this big world
I want him more
than anyone else
I want him even more
than breathing air
I want him when I'm a whole
until I am broken all over again

Maybe he has reasons why
He's so in love with the forest,
Or rain and mountains

They bring solitude, like crystals
—A solid peace for his clouded mind

They don't nag nor make him
Feel like he needs to put on
His mask and play pretend
They’re just surrounding him,
Listening to his aching bones,
Prevailing chances of love,
Creating a longing sentiment
To return and stay

*Just like everything I hope I’d be

I met him when he got lost
finding his way back home
then I remember I was lost too
but when our eyes met the first time
he looked at me like he got home
and I knew I've found mine

She might looks so weak and sad
But they forgot that a black mamba
Can **** with one bite and doesn't smile

A year ago I innocently adore you
that cute guy at work is who you were
now I am falling deeply in love with you
the one I'd exchange vow with is who you are

Oh boy, you have no clue
how I'd **** to be on top of you
and if my mind had gone,
my jeans would be undone

Love is the consequence of you

All the wrong decisions
that lead to our separation
are repeating themselves
and keeping me
awake and aware
we should've been
what we are not;
together

close your eyes, breathe slowly
imagine me whenever you're lonely
I'm always here in your daylight
cuddling your soul every midnight

close your eyes, wipe your tears
don't you hear me crying too, dear?
please move on, so I can move on too
though forever my heart belongs to you

Look at us
Both lost in war
Bruised and wounded
Covered in scars
Shattered butterflies
Hear no lies
Burned bridges
Ask me why
Rest in pieces
Love had died

it was everything related to our egos
how we thought we've played our roles
but refuse to synchronize our goals
neither mine nor his ever become ours
but we were fighting for what we had
with all the fusion of emotions and hopes
that this time we both will win the battle
we probably forgot that love is a losing game
rather than playing as team 'us'
we were playing as player one and two instead
but you know, there should be medals
for the kind of war that we had

I planted roses around the walls
And locked the door with too many keys
After he shut my world off
Then you softly knock on my door
Though the thorns cut your palm
But instead of forcing your way in
You built windows on the walls for me to see

That the world still has not lost its beauty
*Just because he left me