I wish I had been kinder to him
I wish he realizes how devastating I am feeling
I wish I was more careful
I wish he left me earlier than he should be
I wish I can actually stop thinking about him
I wish he didn't take me for granted
I wish I am worth his fight and effort
I wish he would stop treating me like trash
I wish I can stop treating myself like trash
I wish he respects the love I gave him
I wish I can laugh wholeheartedly
I wish he can laugh wholeheartedly
I wish I can understand what's on his mind
I wish he gave me more chances and time
I wish I can find a reason to hate him
I wish he's in love with me

I wish wishes do come true

Maybe we both are cursed
By the mistaken time
Who cast a spell
And made us fell

In between the high grass
And the tall trees,
The love we share
Is a myth of unfair

Recall the sunrise
You brought for a gift
It's filling my eyes
With sunset adrift

I want you and
You want me
But that reason is never
Good enough to make us be

that light hair color
the crusade necklace
and the way he behaves like a brat
whenever I make a sad face
I like them all, all of him
especially how he cling on to me
leaning his head to mine like a cat
he got me thinking,
I might have fallen for him
I fall in love with an idiot

with him, I can see the end when we begin
with him, I have no attachment, just comfort
with him, I am able to go on my own and grow
with him, I learn how to love me more
with him, I know it's okay to be honest
with him, I feel possible to take chances
with him, maybe, just maybe
I can find the road to love again

I was denying my own heart
just like how the sun was hiding
behind the moon creating total eclipse
while I know he could taste every white
in the lie through my saliva when we kissed
and it's only a matter of time
until the wolf inside me cries
saying I'm in love with him

truth to be told, my heart been wondering
are you happier now that I'm no longer there?
for me, everything in me feels strange
how's the girl you're clinging to now?
I bet her heart is kind, unlike mine
should you know I remember you
in too many ways I can count
like when I eat that spicy food you love
or whenever I pass on a very tall guy
I wonder how you remember me now
how you remember me at all
but mostly I wonder
if you ever think of coming home to me

His love gives me static electricity
mixed with waves of fragility
feels like my wool sweater
—so good, nothing else is better

Sweetheart, remain calm, read this
Word by word

Walk in accordance with my footsteps
Glance at your shoulder where I am equal
Keep in mind that I am here
Neither to be followed nor to follow you

Grab my hand—reassure my consuming doubt
Cause I broke the mirror
When I saw worries and tiredness
Along my face lines to my Achilles heels

I am standing inside a tunnel
Where I can't see or hear
The compel you chant
To coaxed me into devotion

Sing louder so I’ll stop my tears
*Scream to me so I’ll understand

I have spoken
all the words
in the world
that has ever
been made
to tell you
that every fiber
of my body
is begging
for yours

her sanity lingers
cause she pours her insanity
by tainting her fingers
with ink and poetry

my eyes are the first to open
when his lips touches mine
because somehow I thought
I am in the middle of
kissing you

With each stroke
he hit me hard enough
to make me forget
about the wrongs
and with each ******
he went in softly
so gentle, he's able to
erased all the rights
and then I came
and came again
out of his undying lust
until our bottom rain

"You don't know me", you told me once

You're probably right—I don't
I only know this;
You love to play your mind game
Cause I will keep on losing
You have a nicotine kiss
Cause I quit smoking for yours
You left then you come back
Cause you cannot deny me
You speak softly
Cause you always pull me close
You look beautiful asleep
Cause I'm attached to your sighs
You listen
Cause you keep things to yourself
You barely let me in
Cause you might change me

And you fond of me
Like I do you

and you know
the moment I step my feet
outside that big door
I will regret;
every laughter we can't share
all the tears we cannot bear
the home we both swear
and you know
you know very well
I will always care

Forever I will wonder
the happiness I brought you
will be soon replaced by hers

For morning awakens me
to the realty I wish I never see;
is you belong with her, not me

“You’re not mine,” I tell myself—everyday
Then you put a deep kiss on my lips
“You’re not mine,” I repeat myself
Then you spoon me like a blanket
“You’re not mine,” my voice shakes
Then you brush my hair gently and smile
“You’re not mine,” my eyes are wet
Then you speak my name like it was made from your voice
And my mind went blank—my heart forgot to beat
But it whispered softly, “I’m yours”

I don't care
how many
full moon
but I left
the door
unlocked

there will come a day
when you finally arrived to me
for I am the only one
—your only one
who can make you stop hiding
from your own darkness and fear
cause I have saved up enough light
inside my heart for both of us

May you always be reminded
how big of a sin you've made
when you lured angels to fall from heaven
into your despicable loving arms
as you innocently walked away
without any intention to catch them

You told me
"I miss your lips,
Touching mine"
Then you confirmed
When I randomly said
That I've got into your heart
You told me
If I stay, you stay
Now, by all means
Explain to me
Which part
Of your words
That you can deny
Even your hands
Cannot be kept
Too far from mine

now here I am again
back to another big zero
questioning everything
I've ever believed about love
praying that one faithful day
I will wake up from life