Mrs Ashley Somebody: Poems

I love the way you're positive
And always lift me up
I cannot seem to comprehend
The way you're full of love.

I thought we all had our bad days
But you push though all of yours
You smile in so many ways
I love how your hope endures.

You're the best inspiration
That I've met in a long while
So many in your position
Saw joy as out of style.

I'm glad when I'm around you
You mean so much to me—
Everyone would say the same, too
That you're amazing, Bree.

Love you! ^_^

#friend #friendship #awesome #bree #smileyface #unbirthday #awesomee

Bridges and Cliffs

Mrs Ashley Somebody Aug 2017

Bridges and Cliffs

I never knew why standing on a balcony was so unnerving—
Why driving across a bridge,
Or around a mountain with only a short railing,
Made me question reality and life itself.

Tucking me in that night before you went home,
When we talked for an hour about Agency and Free Will,
Before you finally kissed me and left me to think in the dark:
My eyes were open wide as I learned that feeling's name.

"It's like how I could scream, right now?" I asked
And you nodded, "But something keeps you from doing it."
"I don't want to wake up Mom," I laughed.
He smiled and said, "And it would hurt my ears if you did."

Then a conversation later, after you blew a kiss
You turned out the light, and I lay in the dark.
I could jump out my window right now, I thought.
There's nothing physically stopping me.~

#agency #freewill #suicide #depression #anxiety #goodnight #kiss

Brilliant

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Brilliant

It wasn't fair! No!
You were wonderful, and yet
She couldn't have you.

#haiku #unfair #youwerebrilliant #brilliant

brownies

Mrs Ashley Somebody Jun 2015

brownies

brownies taste better
and fill me up with their love
more than you. that's it.

#love #haiku #food #hungry #brownies #foodlove #brownie

Built

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Built

You built me up to be someone else,
Then you took it all away.
I don't know how you think I'll survive;
People weren't built that way.

#leave #gone #whoami #built #someoneelse

Burning Feeling

Mrs Ashley Somebody Sep 2014

Burning Feeling

Anticipation heights within me
I cannot hold this pensive feeling
I'm climbing walls and hugging ceiling
My thoughts won't let me be

This hesitation strives inside me
I can't release this burning feeling
I'm scratching marks and hitting ceiling
My mind hates OCD.

#feeling #burning #inside #seriously #walls #ceiling #ocd #yikes

But It Frightens Me

Mrs Ashley Somebody Dec 2015

But It Frightens Me

I am no longer
This version of me has changed
Who I was has gone;
I didn't like who I was,
But it frightens me, changing.

I lie to you, but it frightens me that you know.

#change #changing #tanka #57577 #version #jab #frightens

But No »not a poem«

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

But No »not a poem«

This may not rhyme
But look closer, maybe
You will see that the shape
Intertwines around
And adds shape you never saw
Perhaps it is centered on the right
And perhaps it's really on the left
You don't really care, just like
You shouldn't care what I say
Early in the morning before I think
Very well about anything
  I think it's a better idea
To wait until after lunch
When I can think well
Or, at least, better than
Very, very early in the morn.
Be confused.  Be very confused.
I wish I could play piano better.
               But the four or five pieces that I used to know
Are difficult to remember sometimes
             Especially when I don't have the sheet music
                         And I just wish I was better than I am.
                           Lines wrap around the crafted words
                                             And I wonder if I'm crazy
                                                 But I obviously am not
                      Because crazy people don't feel like this
                                 If I was crazy, would you know?
                                                           Would you care?
                                                                          The degradation of a soul
                                          Slowly
                                                                     My Ctrl key gets stuck
                            Maybe that's my problem in life, do you think?
              I thought it would be easier, but it's not
                         I really thought I'd know better once I arrived
                  But it feels like I've never been here before
               Maybe the times before were not as bad
        And the 'experience' I thought I had
Isn't doing me any good at all.
It's getting better though, you know
And maybe it would have started being easier
A long time ago, if I had been polite
And sensible in the way I treated you
As it is, all I've done today is rant
And I'm not sure if it has anything to do
With you.


But no.

#you #rant #ugh #iwishthisrhymed #lookatme

Butterfly Poem

Mrs Ashley Somebody Jul 2017

Butterfly Poem

I'm here.
I am small and my      fears crowd      all of my thoughts.
The monsters        lean in        on my hopes,
  crushing         them and      my energy
as I fall          to my           knees
hopeless.*
But at your call,
every           cell in my          body
stands itself      up and marches      forward
knowing I can     do anything,     if you need it.
I will be there for you,           as you           have always been here
for me.

#butterfly #hope #foryou #always #anxiety

But Why

Mrs Ashley Somebody Aug 2016

But Why

You had every right to ask
And no, no reason why not to
     But you couldn't have known,
     I just felt so alone
And I wanted someone to talk to.

I'm trying to get all my thoughts out
They're clogging the drain of my mind
     I don't blame you for speaking
     Yeah I'm just freaking
Out because I was blind.

'Cause I thought I could just be friendly,
And laugh and make you laugh too
     But things always happen
     When people are chatting
And that lesson is so not new.

So now that you've come out and said so
You said that you'd like to just do this;
     Now you aren't wrong,
     But I knew all along
I just wanted to pretend I was clueless.

'Cause avoiding is the name of my game here
I avoid the past, present, and future;
     I don't want to admit it
     But the way that you said it
Got my heart all caught up in my throat here.

I analyze everything two times
And then analyze it again
     And often I'm wrong,
     But it takes me so long
To realize my mistakes when

I lie to myself, so reality
Stays at what I can accept—
     There's nothing that's worse
     Than that second verse
Of a song that trips me up the steps.

I'm still getting over some feelings
That I had for someone I knew
     He dated my friend
     So there, the end
Nothing else will happen, that's truth.

So please, if you want, give me a chance
You might find that I'm less mature
     'Cause there's struggles I face
     That I would erase
If I could find a big enough eraser.

But if you took me at my word
And let me show you my faults,
     If you still wanted to,
     I'd stick here with you
And maybe try a new waltz.

July 26, 2016

#feelings #confused #help #ugh #alx10

Caffeine

Mrs Ashley Somebody Mar 2014

Caffeine

Caffeine is a flame
That ignites my strangest thoughts
And makes me look weird.

#haiku #chaitea #caffeine

Call

Mrs Ashley Somebody Sep 2014

Call

How badly do you want Me?
Will you give Me your all?
If I asked you to serve Me,
Would you answer My call?

Lord, I do want to serve You,
I do hear Your call;
But I let the world pull me
In ways You don't want at all.

I wish you would listen
And give Me your time
Instead of wasting it daily,
Ignoring all My signs.

Lord...yes...I hear You...
I've opened up my eyes
I see where I'm going,
And now I realize

I'm nothing without You
Let Me be your all
I do want to serve You
Just answer My call.

#prayer #need #cry #help #mess #call #ineedyou

Camping

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Camping

So I'm going camping—
Hooray!
I just hope I don't
Stay bored all day.

So I'm sleeping on hard ground—
Whoopee!
I just hope it doesn't
Get to me.

So I'm getting family time—
That'll be great!
The best thing that'll happen
Will be the memories we make.

#great #irony #camping #yay #sarcasm #hooray #whoopee #goodending #positiveending

Can I Fight?

Mrs Ashley Somebody Feb 2017

Can I Fight?

Can I fight?
Can I fight anymore?
Will I ever see the stars again,
Or will the clouds remain?

Will the sun,
Will the sun shine again?
Or will I dance beneath the shadows
Of a dark and dreary land?

#depression #fight #sunshine #try #shadows

Can I Stay

Mrs Ashley Somebody Nov 2015

Can I Stay

Can I stay here with You?
Will You be my one Hope?
I have wandered, it's true:
You more than any know.
Can You more make me new?
And help me never t' go?

6x6

#alone #hope #leave #stay #wander #safe #6x6 #remain

Can't Think

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2014

Can't Think

I can't even think
Of what I should write, or say
I'm just so tired.

Literally, I feel like I can't think at all I'm so tired.

#think #tired #ugh #cantthink #explainingday

Care

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Care

You won't leave me be
Stealing my contentedness
Stop making me care.

#haiku #isthisapathy #oristhispeace

Cari

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Cari

Dari mana datangmu?
Apakah kau cari ku?

#indonesian #indo #nazam

Carmine 1

Mrs Ashley Somebody Jan 2014

Carmine 1

Here is my love,
for you to take
Here are my hands,
which comfort make
Here is my heart,
for you to hold
Here is my trust,
it's made of gold
Here are my eyes
for you alone
Here is myself,
don't be alone
Here will I stand,
all for you
Here will I wait,
until "I do"
Here is my promise,
it ensures
Here is my life,
I'm forever yours.

Carmine 2

Mrs Ashley Somebody Jan 2014

Carmine 2

There was a whisper on the wind
And a tune was in the air
The lights and shadows danced
With moonlight everywhere

So he took me by the hand
And he whispered in my ear
The world was listening in
But it was nothing they could hear

While the moon lit up the night
And the stars shone from the skies
The song began inside him
When he looked into my eyes

My heart sang in harmony
And danced along the tune
The song had taken shape
And we danced beneath the moon

The stars fell from the bright sky
And the moon told us farewell
The sun was late in coming
But we really couldn't tell

His heart was beating with mine
And my soul shouted out
The smile upon his face then
That is what love's about

I can't say how the rest went
And if I missed one part
The reason lies in blurry lines
That flow out from my heart

So if the night had ended
I cannot rightly say
If he and I dissolved there
Or remained there to this day

So when we see the moonlight
And his heart starts to sing
The night will soon forget us
As we dance, king and queen.

Cat

Mrs Ashley Somebody Mar 2014

Cat

One he was the tiger
The other, the tigger
And the other, he was
The housecat with awkward fuzz.

Somehow he had more
Than nine lives, or
This kitty was a fright
That gave Life such delight.

#cat #nine #doctor #allthirteen

Cause

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Cause

Do you take joy in
My confusion and my daze
When they're caused by you?

#haiku #you #senryu

Center

Mrs Ashley Somebody Jul 2014

Center

Center your life 'round
Something that is unmoving
One who is steadfast.

#life #haiku #jesus #senryu #center

Ceremony

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2014

Ceremony

Who am I after the ceremony
After the pomp and the glory?
Who am I after I really admit
That I hate spotlight but do enjoy it?

#help #me #whoami #agh

Chained

Mrs Ashley Somebody Mar 2014

Chained

Scratch the ground and growl at me,
I really can't complain
For you are only looking tough
When you're afraid to be unchained.

Chairs

Mrs Ashley Somebody Mar 2014

Chairs

I pull my leg up under myself
Far too often for my knee
It hurts today from yesterday
And it's really bothering me.

#postureproblems

Change

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2014

Change

I feel something coming
Something important and strange
Maybe if I proof my soul
I'll be prepared to change.

#strange #change #soul

Chapter

Mrs Ashley Somebody Mar 2014

Chapter

A new chapter is scary
Like a whole entire new book
My mind's still stuck in the last one
And I don't know how I look.

Chapter 285

Mrs Ashley Somebody Oct 2020

Chapter 285

I sit in contemplation
trying to close my eyes
so I turn off the playstation
and drop my phone with a sigh.

Earlier, I tried to eat a pear
'cause fruit is healthy and stuff
but it was too hard for me not to care
it just wasn't ripe enough.

This show I've been obsessed with
and the manga after that
have busted that subconscious myth
that fiction has a lesser impact.

How long will I spend in the depths
of the fandom and content I find
accessible at my fingertips
and flooding through my mind?

When will I sense the ending
of this era of nights spent reading
headcanons, and content expanding
on the world on which I'm feeding?

Last night the latest chapter
was out on my mobile app
and I stumbled across it after
going to reread whatever was last.

It hit me like a ton of bricks
like the weight of hardback copies
of every scene the author depicts—
sent shock throughout my body.

A character who, before this day,
was invincible and proud
not unrivaled in his sway
but always drawing a crowd.

And then the last page caught me
and I could not look away
as tendrils from the enemy
cut through its raging prey

Too quick to be avoided
the hit was meant for another
but he knew he'd been appointed
as savior to his brother.

Taking a bullet for the one he abused
the one he had hated and cursed
before their fates were irrevocably fused
without either harsh role reversed—

All perceived slights against him
any contempt he thought he had shown
was forgotten as he jumped out to save him
His body just moved on its own.

I just can't get that image out of my head...
I refuse to believe Bakugo could be dead.

#crying #manga #story #distracted #bakugokatsuki #bnha #hero #anime #tribute

Character

Mrs Ashley Somebody Jul 2014

Character

The beginning was suspenceful
The middle was too
But in the end, I saw
The story was all about you.

I couldn't escape reality
And reality kind of hurt
You were every character, every symbol
The high mountain and desert.

I wanted to run, to hide
But you met me there
I tried drowning in the depths
But it just wasn't fair.

I think the reason for this accost
Lies within my mind
That's where it all began, and someday
It'll be what is behind.

****** at the hand of an imaginarie.

#end #story #escape #run #beginning #character #scape

Charge Cord

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Charge Cord

There seems to be a shortage
Of iPod charge cords at my house.

I'm pretty sure we have four,
But one's in the car,
       one's in my room,
        one's in the kitchen,
         one's in my brother's room.
Couldn't there be just one more?

I need one for the office. xP

#apple #ipod #chargecord

Chase

Mrs Ashley Somebody Mar 2014

Chase

Chasing tails, erasing fails
The world is out to get you
What if this was just a risk
That you could really live through?

Cherry Red

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2014

Cherry Red

Cherry lollipops,
Roses, typos, mistakes, signs
And blood are all red.

#haiku #red #color #cherry #senryu

Chewbacca

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Chewbacca

Grrrrr aaaaann aagh aaaaahh naah,
Aaaang n' aghhh ahh grrrr aaaagh naaah,
Grrrrrr aaagh aan naaaaang aaggh!

#haiku #chewie #starwars

Child

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Child

Go to sleep, my child
Pay no mind to the dark night
Close your eyes, my child
I am holding you so tight;
I'll hold on with all my might.

#eyes #sleep #tired #child #tanka #rest #57577 #gotosleep

Chooses

Mrs Ashley Somebody Aug 2014

Chooses

To be one who chooses
Right, not wrong,
To be one who follows no crowd;
For he knows the truth
And prospers long
He sings God's praises aloud.

But oh, to be one
Who evil commits
Just for the sake of fun;
His fate will come
When he does not admit
That he is a wicked one.

Inspired by Psalm 1

#good #one #1 #wicked #psalm

Churn

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Churn

Churning deep inside
Fear and anxiety strike
Overcoming me.

#fear #haiku #anxiety

Circles

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Circles

Tired
I can't explain it any other way
Not sure what's going on around me
I'm in a cloud today

Frustrated
That's what I am
I can't seem to do anything right
And I don't like where I stand

Deceptively calm
That's how I seem
But if you pushed me too far
I might start to act mean

Angry at myself
That's all I'll ever be
Nothing that I feel inside
Can affect anyone but me.

Exhausted
My raging emotions do this
I just can't see why I run
When it's for peace I truly wish

Tired
I'm back where I began
I'm sick of trying to do it all right
So from my knees I will stand.

#emotions #circles #cycle #circle #heylookitrhymes

~clap~clap~

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2021

~clap~clap~

If your clients all rescheduled, clap your hands ~clap~clap~
If your clients all rescheduled, clap your hands ~clap~clap~
If your clients all rescheduled, and you never feel quite settled, if your clients all rescheduled, clap your hands. ~clap~clap~

these appointments are for me to help you, and you're the one not showing up and wasting my time? Well ok, I guess I'll just be over here feeling unappreciated and useless, I suppose. See you later.

Clarity

Mrs Ashley Somebody Apr 2014

Clarity

Dark, but suddenly
The moment your eyes open
New clarity sparks.

#eyes #haiku #clarity #open

Clench

Mrs Ashley Somebody Mar 2014

Clench

I take a breath
But still it stays
The sense that I
Have numbered days

I close my eyes
But it won't go
The feeling that
I'll never know

I clench my teeth
But there it goes
The fear that I
Wrongly chose

I look ahead
But, shoulders squared,
My eyes still can't see
Vision impaired.

Climate

Mrs Ashley Somebody Aug 2014

Climate

Today I think the world has latched
Onto the climate of my soul:
For now, not only have I a shivering heart,
But all those around me are cold.

#heart #summer #soul #cold #freezing #climate #wth

Cling

Mrs Ashley Somebody Mar 2014

Cling

No one is pretty
And no one is beautiful
No one is perfect.

Marred beauty remains
If you search for that wilt rose
Some still cling to hope.

#haiku #twohaikus #lookatthat

Cloud

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2014

Cloud

I just can't focus,
I'm in a cloud of nothing;
And I don't know why.

#haiku #school #senryu #ugh #focus #distracted

Clouds

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2014

Clouds

Reach for the blue sky;
Even when you think it's clear,
You'll run into couds.

#haiku #clouds #sky #senryu #bluesky

Clue

Mrs Ashley Somebody Aug 2014

Clue

Do you have any idea
What you have done to me?
Will you ever understand
That I'm no longer weak?

I'm the one you tossed aside
The one you didn't have time for
I needed help, but you were busy
How many times had this happened before?

You weren't the one I thought you were
And that makes a person change
I'm not the naive girl you knew
So stop treating me that way.

You don't make me cry or frown anymore
Frankly, I don't care
So stop getting all upset when we talk!
I'm fine, I solemnly swear!

But I am one to break promises
That's something I learned from you
No one is honest, no not one
But you don't have a clue.

#whatever #you #me #understand #ugh #sigh #honestly #youdontunderstand