He had nothing but pain in his heart
Misdirected dreams left him burdened by agony
Grief wove him a sweater
Stitched with sorrows and remorse
For the dark inside of him
Each day grew worse and worse

Tears laced with silver
Fed each pillow case
The labyrinth of his mind
An unforgiving place

In solitude he wept
Unable to escape
In solitude he wept
Unable to be saved

Catch me in the starlight
Whisked away by boundless night
Behold my dreamy eyes
Captive to the moon
Wind combing my hair
Kiss me if you dare
Freedom in this dreamscape
Under midnight blue
Catch me in the starlight
Forever loyal to the night

I remember that day like it was yesterday.
The color of your eyes flawlessly matching that of the sky.
You made me promise that we'd never change.
I remember that day like it was yesterday.

A flake of February snow meets my upper cheek
As it melts away, it resembles a teardrop making it's escape
The lone, delicate, drop trickling it's way
However, teardrops cannot be where feelings have long ceased
The impostor fades away as my world returns to gray

I was facing death
Straight in the face
A sigh broke free
Out of apathy
I lacked the words to say
So I simple shut my eyes
Waiting for my demise
But the reaper
He walked right by me
I spit to the floor
and called to the shade
"You *******, that's right, walk away"
His laugh was stark
But hardly chilling
And with his grim, dead, voice he spoke
"Just you wait, your day will come"

Eyes lost in a dreamy haze
Thinking of you puts my mind in a maze
Your blank stare catches my heart
Ensnaring my soul and binding it to yours
I'll follow you through the darkest of nights
Holding your hand when you lose your way
I could be the one who never walked away
To fill the emptiness you feel within
Like a broken alarm clock, you're singing in my head
And the tear drops in my eyes begin rolling to my bed
Hold me in your arms and claim my soul today

It's hard to get your hopes up
When you have none to begin with
They've vanished like the feelings you used to feel for me
These nights spent with the shadows,
I reflect on the wrongs I've done
Holding on to tomorrow
In the wake of things so far gone

I've become disheveled
My conscience burned away
My eager mind reminds me of the time I spent with you
This hell that burns within me
Can no longer be tamed

The crows called to me this morning
So early it was dark
They told me that they missed me
Their song met my insanity
And, together, we sung a lullaby
Under a blood red moon
The perfect ******

She was...
Catastrophic
Malady spread
By the words she spoke
A smile built
From nightmares and dread

She walked the earth
Deriving sustenance
From the suffering
Carrying roses
But only if they were black
Her presence enough
To cause heart attack

She was catastrophic
Her kiss was corrupt
Now I'm drowning in part
Of her cancerous wake
Suffocating slowly
As her innocent smile grows

Here I am once more
Stuck in agony
All remedies are distant
If even real at all
As nothing seems to change

Darkness has much prowess
To conquer deep inside
As the fight continues
I realize I'll never win

Another late night
I struggle to sleep
My cold, pale, heart
And a million broken dreams

Another late night
I'm stuck here alone
Agony chews the skin
Straight to the bone
The stitches in my chest
Have begun to divide
Blood gushes from my soul
Drowning me deep inside

Another late night
Eyes too tired to stay closed
My hopes dance away
With the shadows on the wall
I'll shut my eyes again
Try to sleep before dawn
Snag a few hours
Before they're all gone

You and I were a photo finish
Crossing the line together
Neck and neck like always
And in the end
Neither of us could claim victory
But both of us managed to hoist the trophy of misery

Could  you embrace the darkness in me?
It's clear you underestimated my sorrow
This pain that eats away
Living comfortably within
Now I'm drowning in dismay
Will I ever swim again?
Now it's harder to pretend
That I'll ever be okay
So before you walk away, let me thank you
For being the only one to try

You were as bold as the night sky. Ideas in your mind, your heart was kind. I needed you like a blanket in December. Those nights with you I will always remember. That spot on my chest, where your head used to rest. Now a vacant space from night to night. I long for the stories you would whisper in my ear. Reaching for the ceiling, I realize my fears. Reality. A crushing blow. To know you're gone for good.

Depleted of hope, we sit like Jack'o'lanterns
Crowding the patios of local bars
Empty inside as we sip different craft
Avoiding alcoholism by indulging only in the premium
But in this niche we've  learned to shine
To smile amongst one another
Are own limelight is born
A community are own, as we travel this bittersweet path together

She was my kind of hopeless
Eyes tired...
No, eyes exhausted
Far past the help of coffee
Exhausted from a world bitter and cold
Exhausted from the place she's forced to call home
I don't think her hair had seen a brush in a while
It was professionally done by a pillow
A pillow with years of experience
Still, when she looked my way, I couldn't help but look away
Wish I didn't
Cause she was my kind of hopeless.

Sifting through the ash of every cigarette

Sifting through the ash
Frantically searching

For the broken
For the lost
For the forsaken fragments of my soul

But the ash grows thicker
And my pulse grows thin

Hope, like a steel tower we cannot climb. In sorrow we confide.
Dead, like the way I feel inside. A rift torn through my soul.

Cold, like the way you chose to say goodbye.
Cold, like the day you walked into your grave.

Empty, like the way I am without you.
Warm, like all the memories we shared.
Courage found in the will to carry on.

You are my procaine
An escape from daily pain
The most captivating page
Written was your name
Pursuant through this maze,
I search endlessly for words to say
My precious guide, if only you could see
Forever by your side
Is the only place for me

Her finger met the trigger
Squeezing it with ease
Sorrow was the bullet
Shot straight through her heart
Shattering it to pieces
The exit wound clear to see
That same bullet punctured me
Bleeding out regrets
Giving what I have to give
So she can live once more
So she can dream again
I give her every piece of me
To show her it's worth living
But in the end, I can't pretend
My breathing ever fleeting

I gave her all my heart
All my affections she happily accepted
When push came to shove,
I was happily rejected
Since then I've been sinking
Drowning in my anguish
Stuck in disarray
My bed becomes a coffin
The ceiling stays the same
I suffer through this pain
Each and everyday
Burdened by a future
I can never change

I don't know why we never shared a goodbye. We just kind of ended like the stars do when the sun creeps up in the horizon. For a faint moment, I watched you drift away. Realizing the extent of my inner despair. Wishing for your hand resting softly in my hair. Dreaming of the days you were locked tight in my arms. Holding on to hope that someday you might return.
          Some time has passed since we shared a moonlit kiss. My heart would always race as your illuminated lips grew closer. The empty sidewalks came alive just to giggle at our romantic ploys. You'd always be there when I awoke. Ensnaring me with the limitless look in your eyes.
          When I think of you, I fall back in time. Clear as day, I'm taking your hand as we depart from your porch into the wide-open world. The world hasn't changed so much I suppose. It just seems a tad more lonesome now, and my boots feel a lot heavier.

Take my heart away
Place it in an envelope
Mail it today
No return address
It's no longer worth the pain
Suffering each day
So take my heart away
Send it to whoever
Just let me feel numb
From now until forever

His figure daunting
A man you need not meet
Tragically, most of us do

He goes by many names
Sorrow and depression are just a couple
And when you see him
You'll wish you hadn't

He isn't shy about introductions
But once he starts talking
Pray he doesn't stay long

A face shrouded by gray
Eyes black
His stories are twisted
They all lack a hero
They all lack hope

And now I'm wishing
Wishing I closed the **** door
But he's sitting at my table
That sick, crooked, grin
Make him stop

He loves chaos and is quick to torment
I'm stuck here
Manically anticipating
The day he'll walk away

Back down his broken road
Back to his circle of hell
The man of the broken road

I'm tired of traffic
I'm tired of sleepless nights ... literally
I'm tired of alarm clocks
I'm tired of people littering
I'm tired of homeless people asking me for money
I'm tired of feeling like I owe them compassion
I'm tired of greedy, scumbag, politicians spewing their rhetoric
I'm tired of mouthpiece figureheads inhabiting every news outlet
I'm tired of news in general. It always seems to be ****** anyway
I'm tired of people who believe the earth is flat
I'm tired of the earth not being flat, so I can't push said people from the edge of it
I'm tired of people spreading their religions like cancer
I'm tired of every coffee shop conversation ending in a failed pyramid-scheme recruitment
I'm tired of murderers, rapists, and other delusional ***** sharing my precious oxygen
I'm tired of the fact we can't just feed them to endangered sharks
I'm tired of being expected to care
I'm tired of my failure to begin smoking cigarettes. God how I idolize them
I'm tired...
So I guess I'll get some rest

Life. A metaphor for pain. Solemnly I watch as the skyline fades away. The horizon calls my name. Tempting my departure from this forsaken place. Whispering the words I so dearly need to hear. Alas, no shelter from the rain. Suffering forever. This twisted, endless, game.

You were the catalyst that started my heart.
You were the oxygen that brought me to life.
Limbs once dormant, now guide my path.
Blood once frozen, now navigates my veins.
You took my hand and led me through a world that brought me to my knees.
When I see the future, I can rest with ease.
I know you'll always be there.
Standing next to me.

Staples on a heart
Long ago fallen apart
Staples on a heart
The tears begin to start

Memories are truly dark
Everything is stark
In sorrow I embark
Memories are truly dark

Sadness is a gift
Although it carves a rift
A mind cursed to drift
Sadness is a gift

If tiredness was next to godliness, I'm sure I'd be omnipotent.

His brittle heart kept him from sobriety
Withered bar stools
A place he wept so quietly
Indulging in the sorrow
Stuck within his soul
Living in the heartache
His time so often spent alone

She illuminated the darkness
Skulking in his skull
He felt hope with her hand held close
Tightly now he gripped the glass
Colors faded and returned to black
He wished upon his amber ale
As the bubbles rushed to top
He wished his love could have been enough