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17.3k · Mar 2019
Broken Minded
Sam Mar 2019
The tragedy is
there's a prison in my mind
all the thoughts that lurk there
are ones I wish were never mine
they etch into my heart
the scars I wear so bright

They whisper wicked stories
of things that never happened
or maybe things that did
things that shouldn't create ripples
in the current in my life
but here I lay in bed
stuck awake at night
eyes cutting blankly
through the nothingness of my cold and dark bedroom
4.8k · Mar 2018
Remorseful Silhouette
Sam Mar 2018
Her skin was pale
Like the moon kissed by a midnight sky
Snake-bite piercings
Blessed her catastrophic smile
Beauty beyond conception
Beauty in it's purest form

Our lips met in the glow of stagnant stars
A moment of serenity
Met by utter shock
Something was amiss
I tasted poison in her kiss
Her eyes locked on mine
Sinister yet so divine
There was no escape
As she bit my lip

Dropping to my knees
She ignored all of my pleas
An angel of the night
Set on sending me below
Tears I need not weep
She consoled my every dream

She took the life from me
Singing lullabies ever sweet
I climbed into my coffin
The minute her gaze met mine
4.8k · Jun 2017
Midnight Memories
Sam Jun 2017
Do you remember the nights? Back when we would chase the shooting stars under a canvas sky stained black. Nights we held so dear, prancing in the twilight.
                              Those nights led to coffee-shop mornings. Mornings when the "House Blend" was the only thing keeping our eyes open. Mornings that we spent holding each other tight, watching the sun climb in the meridian.
                               I thought those days would last forever, but here I am, kissing this cigarette. Wishing on those same stars that we used to chase.
3.7k · Aug 2018
A Grave Situation
Sam Aug 2018
Why can't dying be delightful?
My feverish smile
Pathogens far too strong
I've failed this trial

I'm facing the end
My blood boils within
This cancerous fate
Carries my soul away
Crafting up pain
As the medics embrace

A dance with the darkness
I won't last too long
Carry me under
Where the sun fades away

Lost to the coffin
Finality's somber
Led by the reaper
To eternal slumber
No breath in my chest
I'm finally at rest
1.6k · Jun 2017
If Dreams Came True
Sam Jun 2017
If dreams came true, I'd be there by your side.
We'd watch our favorite movies while drinking coffee on the couch.
If dreams came true, you would tell me that you're sad.
I would tell you I feel the same.
That everything would be okay, and not to be afraid.
If dreams came true, we'd be the only two adults dancing in the rain.
People would stare, but we wouldn't have time to care.
If dreams came true, I'd be there when you had nightmares.
I'd hold you in my arms and chase the dark away.
If dreams came true, you and I would be a melody, and it'd be my favorite song.
1.4k · Dec 2018
Candido's Way
Sam Dec 2018
He crawled from his van
Hair slicked back like the wind had grabbed it and never let go
"What's up man?"
His voice was shrill, and scratchy
Like a villainous rat from an animated movie
The sound of it honestly sent me into a daze
Trying to comprehend his existence
He'd carved himself a niche
Cleaning the carpets at this lackluster apartment community
I listened anxiously as he spoke to the other maintenance guy beside me
Although my time at this property was short,
I learned of Candido's way.
1.3k · Oct 2017
Legendary Angler
Sam Oct 2017
I didn't need a lure
Not even a hook
Bait didn't pay a role
No net, no knots, no pole
You simply walked into my life
You threw your arms around me
A squeeze ever so tight
Tight enough to free the unlit cigarette
from my jaw
It sailed softly to the ground
As if to say
"You won't need me anymore, that girl is here to stay"
And sure enough you did proclaim
I've never been much of a fisherman
but somehow I still caught you
1.2k · Dec 2017
You Are My Compass
Sam Dec 2017
I recall your eyes
As I navigate the frostbitten trails
I recall your smile
As the wind combs the trees
I recall your voice
As waterfalls crash around me
I can feel your essence
As surreal as the sky
On any given mountain
I know I'm not alone
You are always with me
No matter where I go
1.1k · Jul 2018
Where'd It go?
Sam Jul 2018
The love we used to share
Both of us caught within it's snare
Nights we'd spend together
Counting the endless flow of stars in the sky
Writing out our dreams
Only to share them with one another
But I guess those times were fleeting
My heart still hopelessly beats for you
As I flutter like a crane fly
Aimlessly through this life
1.1k · Jul 2017
Waiting on an Angel
Sam Jul 2017
Is it written on my face?
The pain I feel inside
Tonight, my heart is joyless
I can feel the broken pieces
As they throb inside my chest
This loveless life I lead

I am a poet working overtime
Like the misery inside of me
Like the lunacy that calls to me
To the angel who stalks my every dream
Please take the time to rescue me

For my shredded soul is fading
Darkness overtaking
The burden of my sorrow
No clear skies tomorrow

Angel can you hear me?
I'm sinking deeper in dismay
Eyes becoming jaded
I'm growing tired of fighting

Hold me in your arms
Show me that there's more to life
More than endless heartache
Embrace me with your ethereal flesh
And know I'll feel the same

For this soul is yours to take
What's left of me
This empty tank
This broken tragedy

And when I fall into your arms
Legs too tired to stand
Know my love is true
And help me to move forward
1.0k · Jun 2017
I'm Sorry
Sam Jun 2017
I'm sorry mom, but please understand.
The reasons I don't call you back are the same reasons I'm so many miles away.
The same reasons I can't sleep at night, and why my future is so bleak.
I'm sorry we can't be friends or even talk about the weather.
I wish I could  forgive you.
Just move on and be the son you want me to be, but the feelings are far too strong.
You forced me to swallow all these daggers after all.
Daggers with names like "Sorrow","Agony", and "Regret".
I'm sorry mom, but when I let my phone keep ringing, understand it's because you gave me a mountain to climb.
Here I am at the top though, and I'm trying to move on.
957 · Nov 2017
Void Composure
Sam Nov 2017
"I worry about you."
That's... what she said.
Black hair dangling dangerously close to her green eyes.

I wanted to be witty.
Play it off like I was full puzzle.
Not a pile of pieces.
My void heart got the best of me though.
It grabbed my tongue as if trying to escape
"I worry about me too."
Sam Feb 2018
And he set the world on fire...
A futile attempt to revive her long deceased smile
His eyes more manic, more frantic, as the flames grew higher
Embers danced through the sky to the song of the crackling orange and yellow hues
Yet, as more and more ash filled the sky,
Her pale, porcelain, face remained blank
Her eyes remained in the same melancholy, empty, gaze
For her smile perished long ago
His fruitless efforts could never bring it back to life
839 · Feb 2018
Love Me Not
Sam Feb 2018
He was there for her through all the pain
She always kept him close at heart
Yet never seemed to let him in
He loved her like no other
He loved her to no end
But she was so content
To only call him a friend
Chasing any loser who was good at playing pretend
All the while, he remained genuine
She grew to appreciate his compassion
The words of kindness and the way he caught her when she fell
The day finally did come
When she said she could feel the same
She was tired of the boys
And now desired the man
As she called his name, he only turned away
For he had found another
Who loved him to no end
His words were bittersweet
Words she had to hear
That he'd always be her friend
But his love for her had come to end
784 · Feb 2018
Broken Skyline
Sam Feb 2018
Somewhere in a distant twilight
You can find me on a rooftop
Perched like a bird without a home
Although I won't be singing
Instead, just reminiscing

Conversations in your bedroom
Those nights have come to pass
Now he fills that space beside you
Hope at last defines you

Nicotine whispers to my brain
As I resist the thought of your name
In cold moonlight I remain
Mind led back to distant days

My masonry perch becomes so lonesome
Twinkling stars my only console
In this dark, I do not sing
For my heart only beats when reminiscing
776 · Jun 2017
Call Me What You Like
Sam Jun 2017
Call me a *******, cause I can't stay away.
I'm captured in the pain, the agony of love.
It's gnawing at my heart, and has been since the start.

Call me a sinner, cause I'll never be a saint.
The church has nothing left for me.
You are my religion and you're crawling in my veins.
You surely aren't an angel, at least not the kind with wings.
Still I'll always follow, the broken path you lead.

Call me a hypochondriac, I simply can't resist.
You suffocate me softly when you whisper in my ear.
Now I'm terrified that our first kiss will be my end.
You toy with my emotions, now my heart is caving in.

Our love is like poison.
Tragically, it's sweet.
I can't get enough, and it brings me to my knees.
746 · Jun 2017
Carried Away
Sam Jun 2017
I was the crow who flew too high.

Now I'm lost among the sky.
702 · Jul 2017
Deep Roots
Sam Jul 2017
You're the winter flower
Blooming with the snow
A fragile beauty built to cherish
Eternity in your eyes

I am just a vine
Stronger than the rest
They try to stomp me out
Oh how I contest

If they come to pick you
My thorns shall shred their skin
The only thing I ask
Is that you nuture me within
699 · Jan 2018
Wingless Serenity
Sam Jan 2018
You're the broken angel I pursue
Wings not folded, rather torn in two
At night, you are a shadow
Tears bestow themselves in your eyes
Solitude surrounds you
Now my heart is torn in two
692 · Feb 2018
Wishing on the Wrong Star
Sam Feb 2018
The tolls of my unrequited affections
Wear heavy on the armor of my heart
Eroding the enamel I've so carefully crafted
Breaking my ability to be detached
To be utterly numb and empty as I please
A hole's been chiseled in my soul
Illustrious sorrows I must now behold
They capsize me in their wake
Again, my heart has come to resemble me
Again, I am... Broken
653 · Dec 2018
Timeline
Sam Dec 2018
This emptiness inside
So many feelings that I hide
Even with all these pills I take
A smile I could never fake
Like a computer that's bugged
I hit restart, but froze

Do you think of me when you're alone?
Your sad, gray, eyes so less alive
The hollowness inside your chest
You once told me you were "hopeless at best"

These lives we live like broken dreams
The sidewalk anthems that we sing
Sorrow spreads it's grateful wing
Enveloping all who fall beneath

Last December, do you remember?
You dragged me from the hell I made
You saved me from my bitter self
It'd be impossible to count
Every tear I left behind on your sweater

So if you ever think of me
Think of who I used to be
The boy with the monstrous smile
Instead of the monsters in his head
650 · Jun 2017
Stop Sign
Sam Jun 2017
I didn't know your name
At least... not until that day
That day you passed away
We weren't close in age
You were a freshman at a different high school
I was a rebel, getting my license at 18
I guess that's not important
This is your story, not mine
And it ended too soon
That pick-up just couldn't stop though
I wish there was a miracle
Maybe just a nudge
You'd fall off your bike and scrape your knees at the worst
I didn't know your name, but I tied a rose to that stop sign
Written as a memorial to a girl I never knew. She was hit by a pick-up while biking to school. I was pretty messed up about it when it happened, and still think of her on occasion.
630 · Apr 2019
To Whom I May Cherish
Sam Apr 2019
Her hair was fiery
Like the rebel soul that burned within him
Her eyes filled with wonder
He truly did revere them

Each day, they picked their battles
In the skirmish known as life
Though challenges besieged them,
Their young souls were rich with fight

And each night,
They submerged themselves in starlight
Drawing up their battle plans for an incoming tomorrow
Warming each others hearts
With the stories and smiles that they shared

For alone they used to wander
Until solace found a way
It lived in every moment
From which their romance grew
618 · Jul 2017
One Step Ahead
Sam Jul 2017
The chase continues forever
I know running is a burden
That you've seen your share of grief
I can empathize with the feeling
Of not knowing where home is
Or even... what "home" is
When the tears catch your pace
And everything feels lost
When misery creeps up on you
And you can't escape the haze
When the marathon has run it's course
And your down to your final breath
Find the strength to call to me
Find the will to follow me
And together, we will overcome
Our fingers interlaced
Nevermore to be displaced
We will walk away
No reason left to run
604 · Feb 2019
Wishful Skies
Sam Feb 2019
Roses by your grave
I guess I'm just a bit depressed
Hiding shadows in my eyes
My heart's put to the test

I only saw the side of you that always tried her best
Captured in the pictures still living on my phone
Your smile has this liveliness
It puts breath inside my chest

You were better than this world
So you left it all behind
On that Monday morning, you climbed up to the sky
Leaving me to live
In the memory of you and I
596 · Jul 2017
Dig
Sam Jul 2017
Dig
I was in a trench with all my sorrows

When all I needed was a rope
When all I needed was a ladder

You threw me a shovel
595 · Jul 2017
Crossroads
Sam Jul 2017
He stands in the alley. Just watching the flow of urban sprawl. The dark, gray, hood cloaking him. Black jacket tight to his chest. His denim blue. Dark. The zippers clean-cut. It's not like girls to be in the alley, but there she is. Dark, purple, skirt attuned to her figure. Black leggings, and a top to match. She's enchanting. She's mesmerizing. As if from another planet. Dropped between the high-rises by some enigma.
                His past was forgettable. His home not a home. Nothing more than a trauma drenched memory. His mom not a mom. His dad long deceased. The streets filled the void the in his soul. While his horizons were bleak, he watched his mom use. Never getting better. Worse day by day. Cancerous fate tightened it's hold on his neck. He looks to see her eyes on him.
                  It wasn't odd, they were old friends after all. Friends with opposite backrounds. One bound by sadness, drowning in agony. The other pushed to success. Living a false dream while still managing to hold a smile. "I hate my mom, there is nothing left of her." He lipped to his quiet witness
                  He expected scorn, a sour look on her face. No one understood. Instead, she pressed a finger to the bottom of her lip, gaze turning to the sky. Her celestial, green, eyes illuminated by the moon. He pondered the barrage of words that she might say. From forgiveness, to half-hearted sympathies.
                                    No.
                    When her gaze dropped, their eyes met in a moment that felt like an eternity."Let's runaway?" Her question brief and completely unexpected.
                     His eyes began to tear. Swiftly, he locked her in his arms. Her eyes followed suit. What they lacked alone, they found amongst each other.
Written 2016. A bit of a short story, but still thought I'd share :)
582 · Feb 2018
A Somber Kiss
Sam Feb 2018
I could taste... loneliness in her kiss
A million stars caressing the night sky
We lost track of time, but there was no place we had to be
And in her kiss, I could taste everything
All the guys who said they'd never walkaway, but did anyway
The evenings from her childhood when her parents wouldn't stop fighting
That night back in December when she got a little too drunk and cried herself to sleep
All these memories painted on a canvas
And in that moment, I knew I'd be the one to stay
582 · Jun 2017
Undaunted
Sam Jun 2017
I was the flower
The one that you stomped out
But my roots were strong
So now I will regrow
570 · May 2018
The Journey Ahead
Sam May 2018
A mind unbound
The soul is free
A heart alive
Though it's fought through grief
Mountains to climb
Things to see
Live with intent
Dare to dream
569 · Jul 2017
Cicadas and Nostaglia
Sam Jul 2017
They sing from trees

Cicadas come with Summer
Bringing that endless "buzz"

I find myself nostalgic when caught beneath their spell
Still it hits my heart and makes me feel okay

A bittersweet melody
One I need to hear

Yet it makes me sad
A melancholy euphoria
558 · Jul 2017
The Heart's Song
Sam Jul 2017
I can feel it every now and again
The depth of my heart
Or where it used to be

It used to sing so frequently
Now it's lost it's melody
Now it's hard to remember the beat
Because there isn't one

When you chuck a stone into a cave
You wait to hear the echo
But if you throw one into my heart
It'd never hit a solid
For the space is empty
Where it used to sing
554 · Jun 2017
Always Will
Sam Jun 2017
You once asked me how I felt about you, and I answered
"I love you, and I always will."
Now as I lay in my misery, plagued by nightmares and haunted by the smell of your perfume. I pour another shot to take the pain away, and repeat those same words to the spiders in my dark, lonely, room.
"I love you, and I always will."
544 · Jul 2017
Everyday Hero
Sam Jul 2017
Hope depleting
Heart beat fleeting
Cast astray
Void taking over
Numb to the touch
Cold at the skin
Crushed by the pain
A life lived in vain
There is no escape
Chalk and yellow tape
A hero, not pretend
Now has met his end
543 · Sep 2017
Arctic Romance
Sam Sep 2017
Hand in hand, walking fields of snow. Pail and pure, as if flake fallen from the full moon above. The way her hand fits in mine, sends my heart glissading into the idea of forever. As she turns to look at me, fresh snow clinging to her hair, the term "snow angel" takes on a whole new meaning. For the first time in a long time, my heart begins to feel... whole.
541 · Jun 2017
Beautiful Planet
Sam Jun 2017
He watches the world turn from his window.
He sees the beauty as the trees bloom, and dance with the wind.
Birds sing and fly freely. It's a gentle place he thinks. A warm smile on his face. Despite all it's hardships, all the ugliness and turmoil it holds, it's still beautiful.
It seems like the world is miles away from him.
Every now and then, he lets out a few tears, but does his best to stay humble. He wants to run through the meadows, swim in the oceans, climb the highest mountains, but the I.V. in his arm simply won't let him.
He watches the world from his window.
Just wishing he could be a part of it.
537 · Jun 2017
Asking Myself
Sam Jun 2017
Why?

That's what I'm asking myself.

I should have been more careful
I just thought I knew you better
I was terribly mistaken
I should have never put my trust in you
I get that I'm a fool
I didn't know you were so cruel
I need space

You surely aren't my friend
You like to play pretend
You really aren't to blame, cause I knew this all along
You call me when you need me
You tell me that you're hurting
You know that I'm too nice
You kick me when I'm down

Why really isn't the question.

A silly dreamer like me.
I should know just what you are.
535 · Jul 2017
Forest Children
Sam Jul 2017
Lost among the trees
Forever
You and me
533 · Dec 2017
New Heights
Sam Dec 2017
The mountains pierce the sky
This world built for you and I
We'll conquer them all together
Hand in hand, we climb forever
521 · Mar 2019
Softly Did You Fade
Sam Mar 2019
You appear  faceless
in my every dream
following in the footsteps
I've left somberly in the snow

I envision the warmth of your smile
yet, as I turn my head to see
as I turn the page in my heart to love again
the words are left unwritten
wind sweeping away your fleeting smile
the spectral figure of you
following in the footsteps
I've left somberly in the snow

The spectral figure of you
softly fades to gray
leaving me to this labyrinth
in which I wander alone
seeking for eternity
the answers to "what went wrong?".
511 · Sep 2017
Delving Reminiscence
Sam Sep 2017
The aroma of lavender
Fills this dark, vacant, room
Your phantom here lingers
Living amongst shadows
Suddenly the air grows dull
And the scent of stale coffee regains prominence
Any remnants of you again taper away
Back to yesterday
502 · Jun 2017
Where the Road Ends
Sam Jun 2017
Anticipation builds as wind combs the water. Stars twinkle and dash as if running from a life they want to shed. 'We aren't too different, in a way', he thinks as clouds float and cover their escape. An engine rumbles to life as if resurrected from a thousand year slumber. Roaring like a dragon as his foot depresses the pedal.
                                 He had no plan really. Just go where the road ends and hope for greener pastures. Reality sobered him from lunacy's clutch. The screeching of his brakes, tires kicking pebbles to a hopeless tumble from the ledge. They sailed desperately, dancing from the cliff into the river below.
488 · Oct 2017
The Finest Poison
Sam Oct 2017
She said "Pick your poison"
and I must admit
Her selection was quite impressive
Bottle after bottle
Each unique in it's figure
No single one containing a liquid of the same shade.
Some older than me
Others predating my father

When my eyes finished scanning
as if they even had to
My words came out softly
Possibly to lull her troubled mind
"The only thing in this room I pick, is to have you in my life. Forever til the end."
487 · Oct 2017
Among the Giants
Sam Oct 2017
I wander to the forest
To stand among the giants
To listen to their stories

They know nothing of violence
They know nothing of greed
Each and every one
Began a simple seed

I stand among these titans
Staring at the leaves
My heart is quickly lost
Stolen by the trees
478 · Jun 2017
Black Rose
Sam Jun 2017
They say the black rose has the fewest thorns.
The truth is, she wears them on the inside.
476 · Sep 2017
Hopeless Romanticism
Sam Sep 2017
Being a hopeless romantic...

It's laying in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling.
Listening to any love song with piano.

It's thinking about that one person.
From dawn until dusk, and dusk until dawn.
Their name, their smile, repeating in your mind.

It's realizing you may never be the one locked in their arms.
The only place you truly desire to be.
No matter how hard you try.

It's accepting sadness as  a part of you.
At least it's better than feeling nothing at all.

It's a beautifully, broken, equation.
One that has no universal solution.

Being a hopeless romantic...

It's a blessing and a curse.
473 · Oct 2017
Living? or Just Dying.
Sam Oct 2017
It's easy to say that you're living
check your pulse
Proudly announce that it's there
but are you living?
or are you dying?
We're all dying slowly
it's a fact of nature
it's a fact that finality awaits

When I say living
I don't just mean
having a pulse
having breath inside your lungs
No
Living is much more
Living is experiencing as much as you can
Not fearing death
but embracing it as a reality
being able to overcome

Life to me is precious
Every given moment
Living to me
is doing the things
that bring peace and harmony to my soul
these things are different for everyone
but for me
Living is hugging trees on nameless trails
It's climbing rocks
Being captured by mountain views
Views so spectacular, that tears of joy fill my eyes

See living, living is spending your time
with the people you love
Spending your time
doing the things that make your heart want to smile
Eventually, everyone dies
The best thing you can do is to live life
Don't spend it dying
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGtC6ejfpV4
466 · Jan 2018
Passing Days
Sam Jan 2018
My heart held captive
A hostage to her smile
Tragically it waits
For a day that may never come
Tragically it waits
For her to feel the same
Sam Aug 2019
For someone loves you
More than you know
More than the text
To be written in stone
More than the anguish
Deep in your heart
Life can get better
Even if you are ill

The dark will come to pass
Even if the candle's dim
There's a time you must be brave
And know you're not alone
Keep your pen in hand
The world is waiting for the next chapter of your story
458 · Jul 2017
Back-Up Plan
Sam Jul 2017
I was your back-up plan.

The ***** pair of socks, still clean enough to wear.

The spare tire left to solitude in the trunk.

The only restaurant open on holidays.

I was your back-up plan.

So when your ship is sinking, remember that I was your life-raft.
And remember the way you stuck a knife in my back and threw me overboard.
I'm being sincere when I say, good luck fighting off the sharks.
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