I tried to tell myself I wasn't sad today.

I've never really been good at lying though.

I told you I'd follow you until the end, but it looks like we're already there.
So watch me disappear, deep in my despair.

The days pass with haste
And I've grown to realize
Every fleeting moment is as valuable as the last
Time can't be reversed
So the answers aren't in memory
Rather, in the road ahead
They're down the broken pavement
Places waiting to be seen
And the future that I see
Belongs to you and me
I was reaching for your hand
Now I'm taking it in full
Chasing all the dreams
That we gave up on long ago

She asked me to hold her.
I was confused at first, and wanted to ask why.
But then I saw the sadness, the sadness in her eye.
We were dealt different cards, but we both got losing hands.
I took her in my arms, and you know I held her tight.
Until the crack of dawn,
through her darkest night.

When I awoke today
The gray skies had gone away
The orange horizon was kissed by candy-pink clouds
I could feel the change in my veins
My heart letting go of all the pain that's choked it for far too long
I never believed in hope until I saw it in your eyes
Now I don't think that I could ever turn away
Sadness may last forever, but for you it's worth the endeavor
And if the world finds a way
to cast your smile astray
I'll be here forever
To catch you as you fall and keep the dark at bay

I've reached the center of the bridge
Only to find no answers to the questions
Words held hostage
Behind my hopeless lips
I look to you for guidance
But you always fade away
Like the moon before the sun
I tremble slightly
Punching concrete below
Words held hostage
Behind my hopeless lips
Unable to ask
Why you leapt from that overpass
Every time I see you
Tear drops fill my eyes
Every time you see me
Tear drops fill your eyes
The shadow you now are
My knuckles start to bleed
You waltz away again
Words held hostage
Behind my hopeless lips
I drop another rose, and walk away once more

In the darkness
In the silence
Lurks the solace, Lurks the violence
For all begins, so all must end
Today must die for tomorrow to begin
Creation is the dreams we weave
Caught beneath the somber sea
Exist for now, choose to be free
Exist for now, follow your dreams

I still see you
Though your casket's long been closed
You haunt me in my dreams
Your everlasting smile
Those melancholy eyes
Each and every night
Tears stream down my cheeks

You're always here with me
I keep you in my heart
Wishing I could hold you
My words met by the dark

Scanning through the room
I know it to be true
You have left this world
So badly does it hurt

I close my eyes in moonlight
Hoping I do not wake
For in my dreams you're next to me
You're holding me so tight
When I finally pass away
I know we'll reunite

Eviscerated is the heart
Still fighting every beat
Holding death in check
The blizzard of pain contends
Sometimes it seems to claim victory
But the remaining pieces keep the blood flowing
Steadily
The fragments give their all
For a chance...
For a hope...
They may be full again

The darkest of shadows are creeping in again
My cold heart begins to give in
Sorrow strikes tonight
I'm ridiculed by falling rain
I seek solace in the words you never say
This absolution of loneliness
Completion of a broken heart
I've been kissed by sadness, and it's spreading through my veins
I've been kissed by pain, and it's tearing me apart
Somewhere in the darkness, you will find my soul
The remnants of me, fall with broken dreams
Eternally cursed to tumble where the light will never shine

Scar tissue abundant inside, she saw straight past my disguise.
"All your vitals are fine, but internally you've fallen behind"
As if she'd peered straight through my eyes.
My melancholy demise.
She kissed my cheek, a surprise.
Hopeful that I'd survive.

I laughed and told her I was fine.
Confirmed that it was all true.
My heart once whole, now torn straight in two.
In that moment, worry had painted itself on her face.
With my smile worn humbly, I continued,
"But I'll piece it back together, if only just for you."

You're the treasure that I seek
The twinkle in the dark
The flicker in my heart
Each day more and more
I find you in my soul
Between me and you
Love forever true

It's the same from day to day, and every hour spent awake,
just another hour away from anything that makes me happy.

You tried to catch my every tear, only to realize the depth of my sorrow.

That the crystal beads falling  from my eyes probably never would end.

Never could end.

Sure we tried to play pretend.

To put band aids on the scars, but the blood gushed straight through.

Wounds raw.

Infected by a broken world.

Where dreams die long before the people who conceive them, and greed runs rampant because wealth is considered an achievement.

Words like "Hope"
Words like "Happiness"

They were taught to me years ago.

Now they're just the false, ****** up, lies I tell myself to get to sleep at night.

When we first met, you asked me what I saw the future holding.

I really didn't have an answer, so I just told you "longer sighs"

I guess I didn't lie, cause the clouds confine my mind making reasons to smile hard to find.

Ask that same question today, and I'd tell you my new answer, "The same thing as yesterday"

For some words form a poem in their lonesome.

Finality.

Those maple branches never were the strongest.
I remember the sound as your foot finally snapped one, and you came crashing down ten feet.
Leaving you with your first scar of many to come.

It's engraved inside my mind.
Your parents rushing to your side, as the blood trickled
down your arm.
All I could do was stare in disbelief.

It seems like things went downhill from there.
Your father just couldn't quit the bottle.
All the arguments and fights must have taken their toll.
Cop cars constantly visiting your house.
Yet, you still somehow managed to smile every time
we'd hang out.

Back in high school, we'd always chill together.
You'd always complain about the loser you were dating.
Losers like "Chad" or "Aaron".
It ****** me off how poorly they treated you.
If I wasn't so sheltered, I probably would have asked you out
back then.

I'll never forget the day you pulled up in your car.
That barely-running Plymouth with the busted bumper.
I remember you yelling at your parents.
Tears streaming from your eyes, as you ran across the street.
You threw your arms around me, announcing your grand
escape to the open road.
Your voice was cracking with sorrow as you spoke.
I did my best to comfort you, but I guess I doubted you back then.
****, that day was six years ago though...

I haven't felt much of anything since then.
I really hope you're doing well.
You'd love all the tattoos I've collected, So come back
and see them someday.
In the meantime, I think I'll stick around this dead-end town.

There's a lonesomeness about it
This existence
Things come and go, begin and end
We march through the cosmos
Onward towards finality
Towards an eternal slumber beneath the soil

Each story comes to end
Years of memories and experiences to be nevermore
To be buried in the bones
An individual
A species
Slowly strolling the path to the void
A speck in the concept of time
Destin to return to the stardust that came before us

I've carried hope for far too long
These wounded dreams I can't release
Flowers rot beneath my feet
Gloom's once more encircled me
I loath the things I see each day
This infernal world's made my heart weak
Like a novel that lacks an end,
The narrative has now lost it's luster
In this dark, I seek no more
Suffering is all I've found
Stuck beneath an apathetic sky
Leave me here
No angel wings
The tears in my eyes
Just won't cease
From now until eternity
I breathe the pain that lives within

Even now, I can feel it in my heart.

This sadness will be with me until the end.