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Nov 2017 · 468
Hurts so good.
Carolina Nov 2017
Slow dance with me
at 3 a.m
to the sound of rock and roll,
keep up with me if you can.

The notes of your guitar,
the way you play your song,
your hand between my thighs
makes my flower grow.

Messy black hair,
cigarette smell,
sweet ***** lips,
enchanting me under a spell.

****** friends,
he sits and stares.
Burning smoke through my throat,
he doesn’t even care.

Motionless wrapped in your arms
Is this another way of suicide?
He’s making me drool all over the place,
fast calloused fingers through the strings with grace.

Sitting on his lap,
I can hear his heart.
He could soften mine,
fill that missing part.

Black and blue,
I don’t want to know
who you’re playing songs for
late at night tomorrow.

Cause I’m only for fridays,
I’m only for fun
but it hurts so good,
I adore when he’s bad.
Nov 2017 · 447
Meaningless.
Carolina Nov 2017
Nicotine corrupts her lungs.
He lustfully smiles to the thought of her cherry.
Sad lonely girl looking for love
“In order to feel something the night I should marry”.

Fun fun fun
This will not erase the pain,
Love love love
you will **** yourself in vain.

Liquid substance burns her throat.
She feels safe when she’s flying.
Soft caresses on her cheek,
soon turn to violent touch, devouring.

It’s done it’s done it’s done
Asleep consumed love affair,
Impure impure impure
paralyzed by his side with her cold empty stare.

Desperately looking for life
since she died a long time ago,
trying her best to revive
but she’s rotten to the core.
Aug 2017 · 763
Make me better.
Carolina Aug 2017
The enteired town knew me
as weird, lonely and sad
And as the night slipped away
I couldn't sleep, just thought of that.
If you're real,
If it's meant to be
Come take me out,
Come rescue me.
Being part of the wasted youth,
wrapping my arms around myself,
wondering how I ended up this way,
staring at the empty bottle that now sits on the shelf.
If I could just get away,
If I could just disappear,
If I could make you stay,
If I could make my mind clear.
I wanted to feel special,
Closed minds, they always judge.
I have lost all light in me,
Anything left inside? Not much.
Overthinking during the night,
keep on doing it through the day,
I wish I could make things right,
If I'd still believed in a god, I'd pray.
Will it always be this way?
I ache like a thousand piercing needles.
I still wish upon falling starts,
all I want is to find my people.
Carolina Jul 2017
My dreams turned to black,
I cannot get them back.
My life is an error
but now I'll spread terror.
They all made me cry,
killed all light inside.
They laughed at my hopes,
but I'll be the one tying their ropes.
I'm broken apart,
now I'll smash their hearts.
No mercy nor remorse,
you better be calling your hearse.
The pain becomes rage,
I won't be sorry for the rampage.
Because the tears that I've cried
no one heard through the night,
the tears that I've bled
show the words that they said.
My empty brown eyes
for sure you'll despise.
And your warmth they will steal,
you'll tell me how painful it feels.
I'll crush your head open,
I fantasize about it popping.
I'll torn apart your chest,
with a demonic wrath you'll be blessed.
One day they'll beg on their knees
but I'll have become a deadly disease.
If you're wondering when will it end,
it's simple, with the caress from a friend.
A friend who's hurting like me,
someone who comes as a soft breeze.
A caressing hand to free me from disease,
a gentle touch to make my cold dead heart unfreeze.
Sometimes the things we need are the things we'll never have.
Carolina Apr 2017
What a miserable life you're living;
Bonded to loneliness and pain,
barely coping, trying to survive.
Wishing you would die
every second that goes by.
Apr 2017 · 1.0k
Lonely night thoughts.
Carolina Apr 2017
And she spent all night in loneliness,
wondering why.
Wrapping her arms around herself
because she knew no one else would.
Even her dreams have turned into nightmares,
life has no meaning, not even asleep.
So as she lays down, silently crying,
she waits.
Not sure of that she's waiting for yet,
but
she just waits.
Come rescue me.
Mar 2017 · 540
That girl.
Carolina Mar 2017
Skinny body, pale skin
You couldn't believe it
Little freckles painting her face
You thought you were dreaming
Black wavy hair, up in a messy bun
Is she an angel?
White snow smile, crooked teeth
Or does she involve danger?
Soft voice and sweetness
It hit you the first time she looked at you
Red shirt and black jeans
Even if it meant nothing, just what she had to do
She made that uniform look like a fancy dress
It hit you the first time you looked at her
Tiny fragile looking hands
It hurt you when you had to leave
"Good evening, what can I help you with?"*
I can't even remember her name,
but I'll for sure remember her smile.
And as I lay in my bed
dreams about her haunt me at night.
I wonder if I'll ever see her again,
cause I don't want to forget.
I don't want to forget.
Feb 2017 · 1.1k
Your love is unreachable.
Carolina Feb 2017
Maybe the stars feel lonely too,
perhaps they’re hurting inside,
crying through the night
because they can’t have you.

All I want is for your poison
to black out my light
just like the sun fades the stars
with every sunrise.

And as the stars stare at you
the sadness haunts me,
their spirits wander lonely
the same way as I do.
Oct 2016 · 982
Unfulfillable wish.
Carolina Oct 2016
It was an insignificant date to her.
At least that's what she always said,
even though she'd never tell,
deep inside her heart
it was a little special.
It made her believe there's still hope,
even in the darkest and loneliest place.
She never wished for much,
just for a few gold friends
and a little of the happiness she was pretending to feel.
But tonight,
as she lays awake trying to fall deeply asleep,
and failing like every other night,
she felt a sudden need, and a new wish.
A blurry vision of an untouchable body
and a loving caress.
It was the strongest longing for the warmth
that would unfreeze her ice cold soul.
A longing for a ghost hug
that would light her existence.
Tonight, she closes her eyes,
I close my eyes,
and wish for you to break into my dreams.
You, the blue eyes and the tall figure,
the boy who was hidden,
the boy who remain ageless.
Like a God in the sky,
a sparkling star placed in the distant void,
a pair of wings that make the sun shine.
Please come inside my broken mind
and make the fear go away,
help me feel safe,
in this insignificant special date
which means nothing to me,
or at least that's what I always say.
Aug 2016 · 610
Daydreaming.
Carolina Aug 2016
Fantasy* and reality mixed in one.
You can't seem to find a way out.
Birds sing, deep blue up high in the sky.
Something's missing there but you try not to cry.

Denying the chance the world's not what you see,
you want to hide but also to break free.
Can't you see the one thing that's wrong?
It'll show you this is not where you belong.

The past holds your present,
it's in your mind but physically it's absent.
There are certain things that do not live
but you won't leave them, you want them to be here.

Just add a handful of salt to the cut
I promise you'll feel real, when actually you're not.
And you begin to distrust you own mind.
Filthy tricks it gives you make you soon blind.

So obsessed over things that don't exist anymore,
your warm tears crashing in the cold floor.
This is not your world, can't you see?
The extra piece in the puzzle is you staying here.

Memories of something you have never known,
but if you want to meet them your pulse must turn dead undertone.
Dreaming about something you'll never see.
May your lonely soul rest in agony.
Jun 2016 · 4.4k
Seductive aroma.
Carolina Jun 2016
I heard him closing the door.
He lives in the flat next to mine.
Some seconds later I was right behind my door,
trying to catch a glimpse of him in the night.
Trying to go unnoticed,
though I wished to get his attention somehow.
If I just was a little pretty
I would run to have a small talk with him now.
He was already gone,
but there was something driving me crazy;
His perfume was sneaking into my house
through the door lock, making me dizzy.
I got on my knees just to inhale deeply,
closing my eyes and feeling a growing desire.
Hand on my chest,
and my heart exploded into fire.
I get jealous of that tiny perfume drops,
because they end up touching your skin.
Oh, if only my lips could do it,
but there's an universe in between.
Imagine being next to you,
to that perfume and your own skin smell.
You got me kind of in love,
you got me under a spell.

How can I feel this way when I don't even know the guy?
I just don't know, but I want him to be mine
.
The struggle is real though, ha.
May 2016 · 687
Untitled
Carolina May 2016
Cigarette by cigarette
her life slips away.
Day by day, night by night
she's one step closer to goodbye.

Cure her disease,
she only needs affection.
Help her deal with sadness
cause it's causing her an infection.

You could bring her eyes life,
just make her feel loved.
Take her to a joyful ride,
little details count, she does not ask for more.

She'll give everything to you,
and your soft lips will calm her sorrow.
But remember her smile, what a view!
because she may no longer be here tomorrow.
May 2016 · 412
Thoughts.
Carolina May 2016
Close your eyes
and find paradise.
It becomes everything you want in life
but then you wake up and don't like what you see,
and you're not the person you want to be.
Sometimes staying in a fantasy world seems like the best option, but I'm losing myself in that dreams and I can't find a way back to normal...maybe I just don't want to. I don't even know myself anymore.
May 2016 · 1.5k
Liberala.
Carolina May 2016
Se encuentra a la deriva.
Sin un manto, sin calor.
Sólo el frío en su alma,
y en sus ojos vacío eterno.
Si pudiera verse a sí misma,
a través de la mirada de otra persona,
se sorprendería al observar
bellísima tristeza que a su rostro decora.
Sin embargo sólo ve aquello visible al ojo,
lo que está más allá es invisible
a su pobre visión en su pequeño mundo gris.
Gris, gris como su cabello;
El que tanto desea acariciar con sus frágiles dedos.
Gris, gris como la neblina;
Similar a la de la naturaleza,
aunque ésta se encuentra en su corazón,
tapando sus conductos; causándole una silenciosa agonía.
Gris, tan gris como como el azul;
nunca sabes cuando se vuelve triste.
Y si hay algo que ella pueda hacer,
no lo sabe.
Porque si lo supiera sería capaz de sentir,
es un hecho.
Lo que no es certero
es el sentimiento que ronda su interior.
El cual atrae pensamientos oscuros
que su cansada mente no parece soportar.
Quebrándose cada noche,
oculta todo bajo una sonrisa.
Su cabeza sigue gritando,
monstruos aún susurrando
y ella casi a duras penas escapando.
¿Podrá algún día vivir?
¿Podrá algún día despertar de la pesadilla?
¿Será notada por alguien?
¿Será esta noche su última?
Ella quiere saber,
yo me quiero esconder.
Ella quiere vivir,
yo sólo quiero morir.
Ella está atrapada en un gran espacio vacío, sin encontrar salida.
Es espacio se encuentra dentro de mi.
Apr 2016 · 936
Meaner.
Carolina Apr 2016
Remember when they came?
Remember your desperation?
Remember your blood they drained?
Your mental state changed; you had a revelation.*

Stay awake when the night begins.
Lock the door and the windows,
don't let any light come in.
Wait for them to come out crawling.
Pretend to be under fear spell,
and when they're about to take your soul
make them regret the day they escaped from hell.

Once you're done, clean up the mess.
Put on suit or that non-pure dress.
Try to look perfectly nice
and they won't notice the rage inside.
Your eyes show insanity,
your head turns out twisted.
You lost all humanity,
so dark and sadistic.
Mar 2016 · 895
It will never change.
Carolina Mar 2016
I want to be happy,
but the world is dark enough.
I want to be healthy,
but I'm still too fat.
I want to fill myself with life,
but I just keep smoking my lungs black.
I want to hold your hand,
but this bottle is the only thing I've got.
I want to be free,
but I'm in love with these chains.
I want to be forgiven,
but I keep making mistakes.
I want to be talented,
but I only create mess.
I don't want to feel all this pain,
but I'm chemically messed up.
I don't want to forget
but I keep drinking the night away.
I don't want all this blue,
but what else can I do?
I don't want to hurt myself,
but I feel this is all I deserve.
I don't want to hide anymore,
but I'm locked in the darkness.
I don't want to get burned,
but I like playing with fire.
I don't want to stay,
I'd like to learn how to fly away.
I want to set myself on fire to burn bright,
but it won't stop pouring.
I want it to stop,
but the clock still does that 'tick tock'.
Mar 2016 · 571
I wonder if you noticed...
Carolina Mar 2016
I wonder what it feels
to be wrapped by your arms.
I don't even know you,
but for sure they are dangerous guns.

I wonder what it feels
to be caressed by your soft hands.
I don't think that will ever happen,
but I could make some plans.

I wonder how you look while you sleep,
the movement of you breathing chest.
Too fast. I've got to meet you first.

I wonder how soft your lips are,
what it would feel to stroke your hair.
I can't help this feeling,
I wish there'd be something for us to share.

I wonder how it is
to stop imagining and take the step.
I'd like to know about you,
but I'm a coward and that's what I get.
Always in my mind, never in my actions.
Jan 2016 · 625
El universo en su ser.
Carolina Jan 2016
“Era tan diferente,
como si viniera de una dimensión externa,
de un mundo sin descubrir ”
Nov 2015 · 596
Desire.
Carolina Nov 2015
I want to call you mine,
at least just for one night.
Oct 2015 · 1.1k
Hell inside me.
Carolina Oct 2015
Look at the depths of my soul through my eyes,
you'll find the most painful hell and there you'll die.
May 2015 · 996
Never said but felt.
Carolina May 2015
Take me somewhere I belong,
I need a place to call home.
Give me happiness, set me free.
Drain the pain inside of me.
Let's run together, run away.
Show me what it's like to want to stay.
Mar 2015 · 643
I'll wait your return.
Carolina Mar 2015
I could wait forever
just to feel your warm embrace.
Fate chose you to be a server,
squads are ready in the base.

They send you to death ruthlessly
and we all cry in disgrace.
If you survive then it's the darkness
but no one can go as a replace.

It feels like it's never ending
You say to yourself "hold on"
Million bodies tainted red...
You are never coming home.

Years have gone by
but pain and memories last.
You're another star in the night sky
and will never turn to dust.

We're all full of pride
due to something you left behind.
He will be a wonderful man
This little loving child.
Feb 2015 · 3.0k
Demons hide.
Carolina Feb 2015
People try to find out what's wrong with you
but they can't see through your eyes.
Your demons know how to go unnoticed,
they know so well how to hide.
Jan 2015 · 384
Untitled
Carolina Jan 2015
Sadness and cigarettes,
you erase your pain with razor blades.
People ask you why
but you never reply.

Drugs and different adictions
which are of self infliction.
Every dream turn to dust
and the blame is on the past.

You are running out of time.
You said: " I have nothing to call mine".
Empty bottles on the floor,
cops are knocking at the door.

Painful way you chose to walk.
The neighbours standing in the whole block.
They are talking ****
but they will never speak.

The life of despair will be forgotten,
just the same way they forgot you were broken.
Adictions took you away
but you've never been so happy till today...
Jan 2015 · 669
Dreams about the knight.
Carolina Jan 2015
I have strange dreams about a mysterious and dark knight that comes to rescue me.
Sometimes he is speechless,
sometimes he is funny,
sometimes he's lovely,
sometimes he's mean...
but he's always powerfully dangerous, not another thing.
He rises from the darkness and guides me through a foggy forest.
I feel I'm in love but I've never seen him before.
I think about past lifes and a forbidden romance
that always ends up in a tragic separation.
Sometimes the dreams turn into nightmares
and during the day it's the only thing I can think of.
It consumes me.
Creepy creatures always hunt him and she stays all alone
till she sleeps again.

Running through the forest,
she hides in the shadow of the trees. They laugh.
When he catches her she giggles,
they gaze into each other eyes.
Suddenly a black shade covers it all.
Deadly pain inside her heart.
She can't see him, he's gone.
She wakes up and realizes
dreams forever will be lasting
.
Jan 2015 · 395
This night.
Carolina Jan 2015
Rays of light, last in the sky,
with descending sun, soon to die...

Diving behind horizon, light just disappears,
from the darkness reaching out, shadows appear...

Dark shadows, lurking out to hunt and eat,
children of the dark, soon biting mortal meat...

Loud screams of desperation and pain,
echoing for dead ears, just dying in vain...

This night, demons will have feast,
this night, world is for the beast...
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Jan 2015 · 653
Loving a monster.
Carolina Jan 2015
Unknown forest, haunted place.
She's dancing through the fog amazed.
Every night she meets him in her dreams
without knowing he's the most dangerous thing.
She shyly gives him a glance
and he holds her by her waist.
Heart beats out of control,
her body's losing its warmth.
Cold blooded man
and the most naive woman.
Trembling inside.
Life's taken away from her eyes.
Lost in a painful paradise
she finds the dumbest way of demise.
Loving a deadly monster
who loves nothing but slaughter.
Stealing souls, ending freedom
The most powerful demon.
Love might **** you.
Jan 2015 · 753
Mentes.
Carolina Jan 2015
La oscuridad de tu mente es un laberinto sin salida,
el más minimo rayo de luz se extingue. Enloqueces,
te deprimes
y las ganas de vivir
se anulan.
Jan 2015 · 454
I love it.
Carolina Jan 2015
I love it
when you look deep into my eyes
and when you put your hands
in my cheeks, holding my face.

I love it
when we're holding hands
and you start doing that stroky thumb thing
down the side of my hand.

I love
the way you grab me
from behind in a sudden hug.

I love it
when you talk about us
in an emotional way.

I love it
when we're sleeping
and you snore softly.
I love watching you chest
going down and up
with every breath that you take.

I love
the little things you do
making me feel as if I had
an hurricane inside of me.

I love
every single thing you do.

I love
the beautiful person you are,
even your flaws are beautiful.

I love it.
I love you.
Love is beautiful when you find the right person, even when that person only exists in your head.
Dec 2014 · 1.1k
Hearing.
Carolina Dec 2014
I hear the rain outside
while I'm lying in my bed.
I hear the wind outside
while my soul torns apart.
I hear the thunders outside
and I'm feeling numb again.
I hear the sound when drops crash the ground.
I want to cry but I can't.
I hear the world outside
but I can't be part of it.
So I just listen in silence.
I just listen.
Dec 2014 · 540
Love, destroy, leave.
Carolina Dec 2014
If you only had seen
how much you were destroying her, maybe,
you would have stopped
being such an *******...
but maybe, maybe you were aware about it and you never cared
at all.
Dec 2014 · 558
Join us.
Carolina Dec 2014
This is my little world of broken dreams.
Once you come in there's no way out.
Dreams turn to dust,
they're forgotten.
This is my little dark world,
where people are on their own,
they're all alone, sad, broken...lost.
Come with me.
Hear my lullaby,
it'll guide you
to our little world.
We're waiting,
we're singing to you.
Fall asleep and join us,
we're across the haunted forest.
Just walk through the mist.
This is our little world.
You'll break.
You'll be forgotten.
In our own little world.
Dec 2014 · 626
Not alone. Never alone.
Carolina Dec 2014
I like staring at the moon
during the cold and lonely nights
because I know that someone, somewhere
is staring at it too.
And I know, deep inside, that I'm not alone.
At least I like to think that way.

*She was a shadow in the night,
her skin seemed blue under the pale moonlight.
She had her eyes full of hope and sadness.
Dec 2014 · 1.3k
Broken Beauty.
Carolina Dec 2014
She's so beautiful,

she's got a lovely sad smile,

she's so nice,

but she's dead inside.
Dec 2014 · 1.4k
Dying.
Carolina Dec 2014
I fell in love with your shiny green eyes,
I remember how bright was your smile.
You used to hold my hand softly,
as if I was a porcelain doll about to break.

Just one year has passed
and your eyes look dead.
I've never seen such a fake smile,
I need to take a breath.

It hurts like hell seeing your scars,
and how your lips have turned blue.
I wish I could just go back in time,
but there's nothing I can do.

Your skin is so pale,
just like the sheets of this hospital bed.
I'm still shocked by the news,
I'm afraid of what I can lose.

Your arms are covered by bandage
and I wish it was me,
but I'm just here crying
because they told me you're dying.
Dec 2014 · 628
The story...
Carolina Dec 2014
The story of a gay and a ******* that got married.  
He did it to hide himself and she did it to show off something she never had.
Encouraging, don't you think?
They wore so good masks that one day they felt real,
what a shame they were made of porcelain.

— The End —