Outside my window
The silent beauty of nature
naturally puts me at ease
And gently heals
something within me
It stifles the rule
Of chaos within my mind
And mends my heart
Which tends to grow weary over time
It tickles my senses
With fragrant comfort and bliss
When life's complexities
Seem to deplete my energies
It clears the fatigue
That muddles my insight
Which stretches my lips
in a peaceful smile
And makes me feel
Truly alive
Which no amount of luxury
Inside my room
Is capable of making me feel
I think

I will walk
Till I count
The shades of dusk tonight
Sit near the evergreens
And listen to the countless tales
Of adamantine stars
Scattered like dew drops
Across a vast velvety sky
Waltz with the wind
And let her take me
To a land
As beautiful as paradise
Discover the secrets
That makes the leaves sussurate
Like a group of kids
Planning for their next mischievous act
Let the raindrops
Kiss my skin
Slowly at first
Then with a renewed enthusiasm
And fill me up
With an intoxicating clarity
That'll make me pirouette
Like drunken fool
Oblivious to the slippery sidewalk
Follow the trail
Of a gorgeous moon
And find a place
Whose sublime silence
And soporific ambiance
accentuated by nocturnal melodies
Beckons a tide of rosy dreams
To swirl inside my mind
And make my eyelids droop
With a deluge of delirious joy
Only then I'll walk
Towards my home
And lay my head down
Imbued with sanguine hopes and desires
I'll call it a night
Knowing too well
That when I'll wake up
I'll greet the day
With a smile as warm
as an everlasting sunshine

You make promises of always and forever
With exquisite words
Adorned with priceless gems
Of 'love' and 'life'
And drape it around my neck
Fastening it with a rosy kiss
Filled with fervent longing and ardor
Then step back
And admire me
With round wide eyes
And for a fleeting moment
I believe that I see
A fiery truth within you
Its smouldering flames
Swiftly burning away
Those allegorical fable
That you keep buried beneath
My naive heart doesn't care about the fact
That those gems aren't priceless
And the necklace is second hand
Borrowed before being  scrubbed clean

A crisp cold day
Reluctantly makes way
For a pale spectral evening
Whose sky isn't willingly beaming
With even a single drop of star
That may rest like a victorious scar
Upon the dim dull curtains of a night
That seem to be enticed by nothing bright
Except dusting the landscape all around
With a deluge of derisive winds that hound
A mighty silence
And an aggravated sentience
Tonight

No one is chasing you
You're chasing that
Which is momentary
You're chasing those
Who aren't exceptional
Those that are mortals
Just like you
Does that which you chase
Follows you back
Or is it a one sided pursuit
That takes your energy time and again
A hunt which makes you believe
That maybe if you succeed
in catching that which you covet
Then something which you dream about
Will become a delightful reality
And you will be standing on the threshold
Of something new
A chase to find a new way
A race to discover a new place
A hunt to unearth a route
Which could erase the remains
Of that which is bound to stay
A pursuit for lasting bliss
Anything rather than nothing
Which will never chase you back
In this universe which is driven by
Utter changelessness

You withered my skin
Slowly and gently
By throwing countless stones
At me
Tenderly but frequently
To remind me
Endlessly
That I was always
an entirely
inadequate entity
But when I wilted
completely
And all of my energy
Perished utterly
And the stones that you
Never stopped hurling at me
Ceased to hurt
My immobile body
You did
What you intended to do
Since the beginning
You left
Leaving me curled
Into a ball of
Absolutely nothing

There is something
In this fathomless ocean
That doesn't dares to quit
Even with the shifting
Tempestuous currents of time
And the doleful glare
Of a tired enervated moon
It's effervescent waters
Continue to reflect
Sparkling jewels and
Brightly colored diamonds
Even amid a dusky
wintry gloam

October reminds me
To be cautious
And pack enough
Warm clothes
For wherever I go
Cause I might not know
That this weather
Is known for its
Uncertain winds
Vacillating between
Pleasantly warm and
Bitterly cold temperatures
So I need to prepare myself
Beforehand
And protect myself against
Highly prevalent
Capricious temperament
Of this season

Love is a collision of infinities
A profusion of profound
And mesmerizing feelings
Which defies all tangible
And transcendental extremities
And ignites a furore
Of compelling desires
And insatiable cravings
Which is able to make a mortal  
shiver unexpectedly
in sweltering heat
As well as dance bare chested
In a biting weather
Fueled by the warmth
Of its sheer ecstasy
I guess it's a part
of God's grand scheme
To make us believe
That magic
Still exists

He follows the same orbit
Everyday
In the same motion,
Devoid of any thrilling emotions,
With desperate dedication
Without changing the pace of his muscles
Or the direction of his notion
Day after day
He isn't allowed to run
Or shift, tilt, step
Even a tiniest bit,
away from this linear trajectory
Which he tries to bruise and beat
Using the enduring might
Of his legs
Yet every morning
He opens his eyes
To the searing light
Of a sun
Pushing and shoving him
Mercilessly,
Towards the place
of his daily grind
And exertion

outside my window
I see the setting sun wave me goodbye
It's salmon and scarlet hues
Sketch a beautiful sky
I see a silver balloon
Oh it's a shining moon
Like a young lissome lass
It rises up languidly from the horizon
To light up a sky
about to succumb to the dark
I blink once
And see a solitary star
I blink twice
And see countless stars
Flickering like fireflies
They adorn the world around me
Like a garland of glittering fairy lights
I smell the sweet delicate scent of lilacs and magnolias
The wind wears their perfume
And giggles and tickles across my skin
The moonlight plays with starlight
Upon a velvet stage
leaving me mesmerized
Outside my window at night
Nature becomes paradise
A beauty is being weaved
With such an artistry
It'll leave you spellbound

Outside my window
The colour of the sky at dawn
Resembled your blue eyes
And it's dusky hues at night
Resembled your ebony black mane
Under the warm winter sun
We talked until we ran out of words
You and I
Weren't we the best things
To happen to each other
The sound of our laughter
Echoed through miles
The bond that we shared
Strengthened further as time passed by
Those dimples on your cheeks
Mirrored full moon painted behind stars
And it's crescent shine
Looked like your smile
That crinkled the skin beside your eyes
Do you remember those summer nights
Spent sitting around bonfire
Counting endless fireflies  
Or the way we danced
Under the monsoon rains
Swollen drops gliding across our necks
Maybe you don't recall the soft sea breeze
Brushing our hair away
Softy Kissing upon our forehead
Before whispering in our ears
To always stay with each other
And never blow away
Because Someday we grew old and busy
And went our separate ways
Now I look outside my window
And remember those funfilled days

i had mercilessly turned myself
As frail as a skeleton
In obsessively trying to justify  
your repeated slips and faults
To myself
Rather than contemplating
To hold you accountable
For them
Shading your lies and fables
Like a greedy politician
Hungers for power
And striving hard to find
The smallest fragment
of truth within them
By using every bit of my
Increasingly deteriorating strength
Making incredibly sure
Like an absolute maniac
That you don't notice
Any visible sign or symptom
Of the eye-watering peace and clarity
That freely bled
From the recesses
Of my mind daily
And obliterating the faint voice
In my head
That sometimes tried
To make me aware
About the naked fact
That i didn't deserve
So much pain
That i was deliberately
yet unknowingly
Inflicting upon myself
For someone like you
Just because
I was terrified
Of another biting fact
Apart from you
No one had made me feel
Worthy of
a half hearted and spiritless love
Ever before

Make my
Paper heart
Rustle melodically
By caressing it gently
With your soft fingers
As if you're reading
Your favorite piece
Of prose or poetry
Written upon it
Please don't turn
The page suddenly
After you've read
My story
Bookmark it
And keep coming
Again and again
With a smile
On your face
As if you can
Never get enough
Of it

You sway in the past
Linger like a beam
Of a somnolent sunshine
In its moments that swelled you up.
Try to wheedle and root yourself
Like a feathery cypress
On its ochre coloured paths.
Spread yourself like a flowering vine
All over the places and events
Captured with a fervent heart.
Cause even a single toe
Dangling unknowingly into
The external spaces
Of present
Seems to situate you fully
Beneath a cast of whitening skies
With the shape of silence
As your only companion.
Where a thousand different times
You've always struggled
To solemnly exist
In fact.

You have a poetic soul
And I can't help
But fall in love with it
The way you string words
with your deft hands
so exquisitely in a breathtaking sequence
Just to say 'you're beautiful'
The way you sit by my side
And I rest my head upon your lap
Feeling your fingers twirling my hair
Listening to the stories that you've inked
With awe and wonder in my eyes
The way you look at me
with those dark brown  eyes
Like I'm your most guarded treasure
Your finest poem
The words with which you breathe
The sun of your life
Your most wonderful epiphany
The reason you choose to live
Forever for you
Is only me and you
And I can't help
But fall for for you
Every day
Every moment
Time and again

My whole youth was spent
in exorcising myself from the bitter poison
that was force fed to me by devouring serpents
So much venom infiltrated inside my veins
that I became glacial to the core
dragged into anesthesia
rendered incapacitated to melt
even when the balmy breeze and beatific sun attempted to seep inside my cells
and combust the atropine wrecking havoc inside my blood

Let me slam the doors
And yell do not disturb me tonight
As I stumble back to my bed
And see my demons slither out of my mind
I promise I will smile tomorrow
But tonight these tears are stinging my eyes
Let them flow like a roaring rain
Let the constant drizzle
become a heavy downpour
Let my bruises bleed
I don't need bandages to bind my wounds so tight
I will revive by tomorrow
But tonight just let me struggle to survive
Let me toss and turn
And fall to splinters amid the dark night
You won't have to see this mess
I will be fixed and polished by the morning light
Let me pulverize
As I become powerless tonight

You made me believe
That i could never be happy without you
When in reality
I could have been reeling in euphoric joy without you
I talked a lot but you only heard what you wanted to hear
And skillfully evaded questions that would have lead to a confrontation
Cause you'd got no answers no response
Nothing you could say
To justify this unfair game you played
You reaped some obvious benefits from me
Like i was your last resort
A functional substitute that you used
When all your options stagnated any particular day
I was never someone you would have chosen willingly
And i was aching to become your primary priority
Sweating over your trivial issues
Thinking twice before replying you
So it never occured to you
That i was sad hurt and frustrated with you
Before leaving you
I thought about a thousand reasons
And fervently hoped
That atleast one of them would make me turn and i would come running back to you
But you'd exhausted all possibilities
Which finally made me realize
That i could never hope to be happy with you
And i was getting frail day by day
In pretending that i was on cloud nine with you
When actually i was nowhere near it
I had sunk into the depths
Of an inky black abyss
That grew cavernous
And threatened to engulf me anyday
If i didnt ran away from you

Another day is laid to rest
But the night
Seems to be blissfully crawling
Like a tired infant
Aching to be held
Minutes and seconds
Feels so distended
like the colossal hours
That would submerge us
Before either of us catches the amber light
Glistening from over the crest
Maybe you can say some solitary words
try to make this vapid scenery a little less unforgiving
No rambling like we used to
just enough to keep the conversation from sinking
A few old jokes which cracked us before
May stretch our lips in a half smile
While bits and pieces of rusted secrets
Can be tossed above into the hazy sky
We've still got strength I believe
To find flaws in this impeccable silence
between you and me
The silvery moonlight and the glistening starlight
Possess the celestial ability
To heal our woes and hidden resentments
Lets seize this fleeting opportunity
Perhaps when the morning strikes
We'll view each other in a different light
And the memories that we'll forge
Will be as sweet as the pearly dew drops
Glittering upon the lush greens

I keep finding flaws
In my natural reflection
And keep searching for beauty
In my unnatural reflection
then sit and wonder
Why am I bereft
of any sort of happiness

Remember that old uphill trail
We used to meander along
With matching footsteps
Under the sunlit canopy of leaves
Carving words for each other
On the bark of aged trees
Who may have known
what would become of us
But nevertheless smiled
acted as a blank canvas instead
And watched the moments
Filled with playful laughter
Peachy smiles
Lingering gaze
Warm caress
Unfold lazily between us
The winds of time
May have blown us miles apart
Our footprints may have long eroded
That sunlit canopy may have withered
And we may walk that trail
Only in our dreams
But those words are yet to fade
they were the voice of our soul
Etched into the lap of nature
And as I run my fingers along its rugged edges
I reminisce about you
And hope that wherever you are
You are thinking about me too

Im a devastated and dilapidated wreck
With loads of ******* scattered all around
You'll discover no valuable asset in me
Even if you dig through me for hours
Or drill holes inside me with the sharpest and searing tools you've got
You'll only pierce yourself
And end up with a fairly bruised flesh
With throbbing pain
Dust will cloud your vision
Tears will cascade down your eyes
Grime will clog your lungs
You'll gasp and grasp for breath
Filth will settle on the creases of your palms and will make you feel nauseated
But no treasure will you ever be able to unearth
You'll only find yourself slowly submerged under my derelict mess
Before long
You'll become a part of my shattered dominion

You may have
the most breathtaking
Almond brown eyes
Glistening with the warmth
Of a sparkling summer dawn
But I can only see them
Brimming with infidelity and deciet
Most of the time
You may have
The most charming
Genuinely sweet smile
Exuding a comfort
That would make me forget
All the unpleasant thoughts
But I can only see
An ingratiating leer
Stuck upon your face
With a titanium bond
You may possess
The voice that makes my heart throb
The words you speak
May stir and rouse
My slaughtered hopes
But all that I hear
Everytime that I try
To envisage
an imminent possibility
Of us
Are the painful shrieks
Of grievous wounds
That I acquired
in the name of love
And their thick scars
That time refuses to erode
From the seams of my heart
Perpetually rendering
Your tireless endeavors
To embrace my soul
With an abiding affection
Indelibly futile

I know you are with me always
Like the stars and the moon above
I can see you everyday
Smile at you
Wave at you
But I cannot touch you
I cannot breathe you
I cannot hope to hear your laughter
Or laugh with you at all
The distance is too much for me
I can travel to the ends of this earth to seek you
But you're lightyears away
And I've tried a thousand different ways to get to you
But none of them left me at my destination
And I came back without my hand clasped with yours
Without your jacket propped upon my shoulders
Without your smile that kept me warm
Just cold air making me shiver all over
And making me wonder
Will I only be able to watch you from afar
Will I only be able to touch you in my dreams every night
Will I ever hear your voice again
Or do I have to wait for the time
I close my eyes
And fall into the arms of sleep for life

September winds
Have turned lukewarm
Yet a pale sun
Still manages to evince
A crimson warmth
Somehow
September nights
Although kissed by
The cracked lips
Of a cloudy mist
Still manages to
wipe itself
With the distant glow
Of a few scattered
sidereal bodies above
The colors of
spring and summer
Have doubtlessly faded
Into a dark oblivion
And the residual beauty
Of autumn
Is marked by long sunsets
Bleeding into the horizon
Yet the pearly dews
Speckled upon
Radiant sunlit petals
Hasn't turned
Into lumps of frost
Even though the
Frigid breaths of winter
Touches their bare skin
As I open my sleepy eyes
Which makes me
Smile and simply believe
That if not all
Mostly everything
will be
Allright
Somehow

Those distant leaden cirrus clouds
Do not resemble your wild curls anymore
That midnight smell of vanilla and lavender in my backyard
Does not make me want to drive up to your house and nestle between the freshly showered perfumed folds of your skin like before
The ocean no longer reminds me of your eyes
And I've become careful enough to resist myself
From diving into a sparkling pool of lies
Your voice does not reside
in the cradle of my heart
like it used to
Wine and mushy cookies
no longer make me hungry
for you like before
What actually resembles us now
Are these ashes from my half finished cigarette
Slowly falling on the floor
It's smoke that I inhale
And this burn in my chest
Along with these memories
that I regret I made
With someone like you

Early morning walk amid the
Lush greens
Beautifully gilded with dew drops glittering
A canopy of sunlit mottled green leaves sheltering me
The mighty waves of turquoise green sea sings a mellifluous melody
The sight of a metallic green plumage in the distance is breathtaking
I see wonder in your emerald green eyes
Sparkling with curiosity
Lets watch the world revive with beautiful shades of green

You have always
Closed your eyes
Amid the heavy gloam
Of starless nights
Only to see
stygian shadows
Ravaging your insides
Making you
bitterly cry
If you'd try to
Do the same
Under the glow
Of radiant sunlit dawns
Then perhaps you'll
Notice a difference
Perhaps you'll find
Those shadows
Receding under
The beaming sky
In their place
Perhaps you'll find
Some colours
Of the brightest shade
Swirling all around
And I don't really think
That this time
It'll make you
Bitterly cry

She is the swiftly rising Aurora
Shining luminously
Her splendid beauty is magnetic
a sight to behold
Her brilliance illuminates the depths of stygian dark
Her eyes burn like blazing summer
Like the leaping flames of bonfire
Their radiance makes you tremble
As you involuntarily shiver
She is all pervading
The mighty sun finds shelter between her  brows
Shaped like sharp polished spears
The crescent moon is tangled in her sable flowing hair
She sleeps in a silken blanket stitched with the Stars
She is everywhere
Over the cerulean seas
Between the Opal skies
Upon the fertile valleys
Above the folded mountains
She has always been there
Always will be
She is the epitome of eternity
She is
The Goddess

In secrecy her thoughts dwell
So discreet are her actions
That try to slip past the
Nods of harrowing disapproval everywhere.

Feelings that stumble from the mouth
Become a burning garland of despair
Is what she hears
Like a chant everywhere.

Despised is the knowledge
Futile are the facts
That she strives to glean
From the world that's determined
To reduce her size
Into a box of standardize
measurement everywhere.

The hunger that makes her assertive
With a vision of a lioness
And a vigour of an athlete
Is seen as anomaly
A jarring discrepancy everywhere.

In thus a queer, uncanny world
She's forced to exist
Suspected as a devil
Rather than a marvelous human everywhere.

She walks with starlight in her hair
And sparkles with a radiance
That lights up the abounding darkness
Wherever she steps
Her father says
That she is his greatest asset
That no one can compare
Her brilliance shines brighter
Than a scintillating July afternoon
On verdant sun drenched avenues
Her friends say
That she is their savior
When all hell breaks loose
And chaos ensues
She never loses her poise
She is a Rockstar
In their lives
As for him
He still marvels at his luck
Cause he never thought
That what he wished
on countless shooting stars
would one day be fulfilled
She is someone whom he cannot get enough of
His heart beats for her now
She is everything that his soul has ever desired

orange skulls open their
Large scary eyes
Amid a frightfully
Dark night
Only to make us
Laugh and smile
And celebrate
A life that exists
Very close
Yet beyond the realms
Of our sight

We get intoxicated
With happiness
When we reach
The pinnacle
Of happiness
That we fail
To watch our steps
And within seconds
We slip and slide
Down the edge
Of that mountain
On whose glorious peak
we climbed
By burning our muscles
And tearing our flesh

I am small
But I'm eons away
From being insignificant
And trivial
I am tiny
But my mind possesses
Fathomless proportions
Indisputably
I am willowy
But my bones are ripe
With a strength
of the oldest living tree
My voice is faint
But I roar like a lion
With my actions
So think
Not only twice
But a million times
Before you decide
To sweep me off
Like an atom of dust perhaps
Beware
Of my imperceptible
Yet piercing brilliance

Will you catch me
when I fall
Like a dried autumn leaf
Will you soothe me like a mellow breeze
when I burn
Like searing hot bricks
Will you color my pallid skies
When my vision is blurred
with leaden gray clouds
Will you shine like the crepescular light
When my thoughts drown
In the dark horizon
Filled with melancholic void
Will you try to be the reason
That would curl my lips in a smile
Whenever I struggle
To see through misty eyes

The leaves sway
To the rhythm of our heart beats
The balmy breeze
Envelopes our silhouettes
With a tender melody
The flowering shrubs
Exude an ambrosial scent
Which fills the pores of our skin
And makes it glow
with a warm radiance
Even the stars tonight
Have woven a dazzling scenery
Upon the velvety canvas
Of cerulean skies
But none of these things
Can make this night
As beautiful
As your breathtakingly innocent
Genuinely happy smile

You almost made me believe
That love could be
As beautiful as the changing hues of sunset
As delightful as a pleasant midsummer dream
As heartening as a cool and salubrious spring
Imbued with an affectionate warmth
More comforting
Than the benign rays of sun
Lacerating a biting mist
To soothe a frostbitten skin
And replenish it's ebullient lustre
Like a stunning byzantine scenery
Painted tenderly
To envelope the void of a canvas
But with a reverent intensity
A passionate fervor
Unleashed with a breathless ferocity
As well as an incredible desire
To never snap a profound bond of intimacy
Gleaming like the flames
of mighty solar flares
Before you left me

There's this unforseen announcement
An unanticipated dissemination
Of an abstract, unsolicited thought
That ricochets within every single cell
Of my facade
And furtively causes
A mass hysteria
A bedlam which I am
Unable to dominate.
Then there's this smoke
A bevy of pungent fumes
That rises insidiously from
The blight of all my sense and sanity
And the ensuing frustration
That yields nothing
But a night full of relentless tossing and turning
And a dawn full of panicked breaths
That renders my anatomy
As scarred and stricken
Yet leaves it to trail
Amid the gusty shores of life
Anyway

Let's try something different today
Let's laugh with our demons
Instead of sulking and crying
when they slither out of our minds tonight
Perhaps it would scare them away
And make us fall asleep in time
Let's greet the sunlit morning
With a smile instead of a frown
And hope that the day would bring
Heaps of joys
Rather than reasons for us
To worry about
Let's paint the dreary world around us
With vibrant colors
Of kindness and compassion
Save our karmic demise
And rejoice when we see their eyes
Widen with a pleasant surprise
Let us try to trust ourselves tonight
Let go of our fears and doubts
Drain every ounce of hate
Out of our veins
Forget about our flaws and faults
Under a star speckled sky
Let's try
To fall in love with ourselves
Without any rhyme or reason
Without hesitating for a moment
For the rest of our lives

If you could
I know you would smile
It's time for your misery and anguish to perish
Your numbered days have reached their end
The wax has melted
The flame has lost its warmth and radiance
Just like the color of your skin
And your cold and shriveled
Empty body
That has finally admitted defeat
After fighting
since a horrendously long time
It has finally gained an everlasting sleep
Just a few more moments
promise it won't take long
I know It must be ruthlessly dark out there
But you'll soon find light
Cause these rites and rituals are on there last leg
the piles of cherry wood
Caging your essence
are about to be kindled in a minute
And I'm not going anywhere
Till I collect your remains with my hands
And place them on the sparkling surface
Of the placid waters of the Holy river
Under a hazy sky
beautifully illuminated by Twilight
I'll look above
And smile back to the brightest star
Shining luminously
As it enters the realms of heavenly delight

Seems like I'm a mute spectator
Watching the world rush outside my window
Everyday holds a new promise
The excitement of fresh beginnings
The surprises of unusual experiences
I see them building something out of nothing
Getting tanned in the heat
Chasing their goals on broken feet
That calm in their eyes after a rough day
As they sip their favorite brand of tea
In the company of their beloved
Is worth staring at
And here I am
Yawning through a day
That began yesterday and hasn't finished yet
Sipping the same brand of tea and coffee since years
Unable to step out of my house
Because the sun burns me so bad
Sinking back into the stale comfort of my bed instead
Stuck in a labyrinth of what ifs and maybes
Trying to reach a threshold
But the finish line is nowhere in sight
Wading through the water at the slowest speed possible
Feeling my pulse drop lower and lower
Perhaps I shouldn't look out of the window at all

March gallops swiftly ahead
Ensnaring February's vital essence
As frigid gale and Grey skies
Make way for efflorescence
Languished lands begin to revive
Verdant abundance greets abound
Adorning world in assorted hues
Like a bejeweled bride
With sparkling eyes
United with her lover
After years of strife
Like a bereaved mother
Shedding tears of love
Jubilant when her barren womb
Begins to nurture a life anew

Your artistic soul is boundless
Speckled with a multitude of words sparkling like pearly dew drops
On  Verdant sunlit greens
Under a soft blue sky
Resonating with the jubilant chorus of a thousand cheerful birds
The air ripe with a citrus lemony scent
Your beautifully crafted words like vibrant sun-kissed flowers adorning the canvas of a rustic landscape in hues of scarlet salmon and lilac
The balmy breeze gently whispers your riveting love songs in my ears
Titillating me playfully
As the season beckons our love to unfurl
And my longing heart ardently beats your name
My spring love
Take me home

We shouldn't expect
A star to shine
Resplendently
All the time
It also has a right
Just like us
To rest
When it gets exhausted
Once in a very long while
But that doesn't means
That we should
So easily forget
The way it shined
On so many nights
For so long
Just because it isn't
Bright enough
As per our wants
At the moment
Doesn't means
That it has eclipsed
Or extinguished
For forever

Winter penetrated inside me
Turning my vision misty
My eyes became fixated
Upon the endless snow
That shrouded the lush greens
The frigid gales lacerated me
Carved wounds upon my pale skin
Crippled every inch of my body
And I cried for warmth
To melt this blood
that had condensed and congealed upon me
At last the tides of salubrity came
with the radiant waters of spring
And I watched them baffled
As they washed over me
The thorns of ice protruding from my skin
Trickled away without resisting a bit
Never could I fathom
How a ferocious ball of fire
Possessed an incredible ability to heal
With such a dexterity
I affiliated its searing flames with destruction
But it turned an arctic heart
About to succumb under talons of grief
Back Into a supple muscle
Rippling under a rhythmic beat
chiseled it further
So it remained insulated from future calamity
I just needed to wait and believe
Something better was meant for me

I've been sleep deprived for so long
But when I close my eyes
Not even an ounce of sleep touches me
I've been tired for so long
But when I lay down
My body compels me to get up
And keep searching for a nameless entity
I haven't eaten in days
But when I begin to eat
My hunger disappears
The sight of food repels me
I don't know if I'm breathing
But the movement of my chest
With every inhale and exhale
Evidently shows that I'm surviving

The colour of
My throbbing
And swollen heart
no longer resembles
The colour of
Your dusty red lips
Now
It matches the
Colour of my
large dilated pupils
And the colour of
your capriciously moving
flickering obsidian
eyelashes

Take me
Trace constellations upon my skin
But do not pull your hand away
When your fingers brush against the dark uneven skin of my scars
Try to ask the story behind them
Do not tell me about different ways to make them fade
They are a testimony of my strength rather than my frailty
And I don't mind their presence
Even if they aren't pleasing to look at
Kiss my fingers slowly
But don't squint at the sight of my chipped nail polish
And don't drop my hand
When you notice that my nails are bitten to the core
And the skin around it is colored with dried blood
I know it doesn't look pretty at all
And im trying hard to stop it
But my mind seems to have a mind of its own that overpowers me most of the times
Do not tell me that Im in dire need of a manicure
Ask me about the things that trouble me so
And assure me
It'll get better
No need to worry at all
Dive deep into my eyes
Note how my pupils expand and contract
I know there is too much puffiness and darkness around it
But try to ignore it and try to read the message written for you upon it
Do not tell me that I need to sleep more or stop drinking so much caffeine at a time
Trust me
I sleep more than usual
Just not at the usual time
Just hold me and let me burrow my head in your chest
Ensure me again and again
That you're with me always
You won't stop loving me at all

Sometimes the most beautifully illuminated
Sapphire studded night
Turns dour grim and shrouded
In an impeccable darkness
Which becomes difficult to dispel
Sometimes the most breathtaking
Balmy and soft summer afternoon
Which tickles my senses to delight
Turns into a harsh frigid
Biting weather
As the sunlight flooding my veins
Turns into a thick rime
And all I can do
Is sit and stare
With a distant look in my eyes
In moments like these
I ruefully wonder
Had I been more dexterous and less naive
I wouldn't have fallen for the artistically crafted mask of goodness that you wore
To hide the monster inside
Had I been more thoughtful and perceptive
I would have ripped apart your disguise
And never would have concluded to keep you by my side
Had I known your evil intentions
I would have never forged
Such a deep and intimate bond
I would have never experienced
The immortal sorrow
Of a bruised and battered heart
And such bouts of crippling remorse
That would hold their sway
And render my mighty efforts
To stay strong
And always search for bright and light
Feeble and futile
On some days